shree

Huh? I was just kidding with you. Didn’t mean any harm. No need for name-calling though.

I believe you are the strongest man on the planet earth and further. ( After Goku. ) I feel your immense strength by just reading your words. I promise I will never again dare to challenge your level of fitness again. I am deeply sorry for doing such an awful mistake. No one can force you to go there for a whole year. You can give it a try for one month and than stop, if you see you don't like it. Aren't you just overthinking it? Oh I almost forgot: if they ask you if you trained something in the past, don't mention kettlebells, sandbags and calisthenics. I did the same and got disappointed looks from these trainers.. like-wtf are you doing here if you don't have martial arts background? I am not kidding 😂 So, again, I would suggest you Judo, as it's more beginner friendly than many other choices.

How can you know without tryng? Go there once, ask if you can sit and watch the training/sparring and if it looks ok for you, than say you will show up at training next time. Maybe you have to go because it's exactly the aspect that you are missing in order to achieve something bigger in your life, and after it, you let it go and continue with that different thing.

Most of the guys I met when I was in MMA were basically nerds. Including me. Rarely would someone come with professional background or even someone that is at least really good in it. But if you never did any kind of martial arts I would suggest you to try judo. It will give you confidence, strength, endurance, and is more beginner friendly than these modern combos of Thai Box classic box and BJJ called MMA...

Yeah, it reminds me of the question I oftentimes ask myself: If the process of enlightenment is so scary, wtf is so funny when you attain it? (Just a rhetorical question.)

I still feel like a crack whore when I convert my chemicals by heating them up on the spoon before savoring.

I am planning to do the same, but for a bit shorter period. What kind of retreat would you recommend? Any advice?

I find Teal Swans premium guided meditations utterly amazing. The core of them is basicaly - emotional literacy and shadow work. I had a breathtaking awekening on LSD while doing some of the methods learned in these meditations.

"Let the gods rain shit upon us. I no longer give a fuck." "The gods can go fuck themselves." My favorite lines from: Spartacus, blood and sand.

Sounds interesting, will definitely look into it... Is this a good introduction into this practice?

Understanding people's suppressed pain and shame behind "being an asshole" helps a lot. Understanding yourself and why do certain people feel like asholes to you, can also give you super important clues about things you repressed. Aren't we all just an old man yelling at the cloud? 😂

@Lost Soul prepare some kind of bowl where you can lay your pipe once it gets hot and you get launched into the stratosphere. It's one thing less to think about when things get... dicey.

Because families are mostly source of trauma. For example, medicating kids and returning them to their dysfunctional families doesn't solve anything if the family doesn't change it's dynamics. It makes the problem worse by simply treating the symptoms of a bigger dysfunction. Now answer on your original post: From my perspective, you either emotionally detach and become non-reactive, or you distance/cut them off. I don’t think it’s possible to build an authentic relationship with people who don’t actively question themselves or engage in deep self-reflection, which naturally comes with higher levels of development on Spiral Dynamics.

@Thought Art I agree. I use only e-mesh and find it awesome, but OP asked for advice related to pipes.

This torch should do the job. Try not to burn the chem, but to slowly heat it up so it vaporizes. I never used pipes but if I would need to chose one of these, it would be the number 4.