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I refuse to dismiss anything Leo says. At the same time, I refuse to blindly believe everything he says.

Reframing the statement "they didn't know better" to "they refused to look at themselves" feels like a healthier approach that holds them accountable for their actions. When I reach organic forgiveness, I will consider reframing it as you suggested. Yeah, you eventually get to a point where you think, "Okay, I’m probably going to hell for this... but I’m already in hell, so what’s the point?" And then the work begins. As I stated previously, this is a largely overlooked form of child abuse. Nonetheless, there are much worse stories I’ve read about, like burning kids' skin with fire to show them how "hell" feels. But yes, I remember having subtle panic attacks during simple bad weather, thinking the end of the world was coming...

@Exystem beautifully written. I didn’t know you were also raised as a Christian fundamentalist. We basically went through the same struggles when it comes to this.

Damn, I somehow missed that. Well, that calls for a celebration!

The problem with heavy trips is that they tend to leave me depressed for several weeks, sometimes without an apparent reason.

I get it. Try sitting down with her for a serious conversation, like I mentioned before, when the time is right.

Crazy you mention this. I’m just browsing for seeds now that it’s legal in Germany. Not sure if I’ll like it; it’s been years. Thanks.

I am currently reading Ken Wilber's "Integral Life Practice." His books are so damn expensive, and I'm still unsure what to think about the content.

Plugging sadly has zero effect in my case.

Hi @manuel bon, I'm sorry to hear about your situation, and I truly hope things improve for you. Having a disabled person in your household can be extremely exhausting for everyone involved, especially for the primary caregiver. It’s even harder when the primary caregiver doesn't recieve some kind of support. I'm also sorry that you kids have to experience this. it’s not an easy situation to live through. Try to push through this challenging time. When things stabilize, it might be necessary to talk with your mom about her condition, if she needs to get some help, and if she needs someone to talk to. Living in such an environment is unhealthy, and if she continues to handle everything alone 24/7, I’m worried that things might worsen over time.

No, I am Deadpool.

You’re so dark, are you sure you’re not from the DC Universe?

Practicing radical honesty. Writing a public journal helps me re-ground myself in the world. At times, I just want to be seen as smart, even if I don’t fully understand what I’m writing about. I’m aware of the game I’m playing, but for now, I need this. It’s my anchor.

Realizing absolute love can dangerously separate you from material reality. Maybe there is a misunderstanding or an incomplete understanding of this concept. You cannot make decisions in the material world based only on conclusions from an absolute perspective. Society often reacts harshly to those who do Just like what happened to Jesus This is my response. I will leave it there.

Being mindful and reacting according to the situation seems more intelligent.

I am certain I will not need much for a breakthrough either.

Second, exposing things you shared with your girlfriend (now your ex) is just as wrong as everything else in your post. That is not something a mature person does no matter how hurt you are.

Booth statements: Turn the other cheek And Eye for eye..... Are equally wrong, and shouldn't be used as guidance in today's world. This kind of thinking will make you very resentful.

Overwhelming despair. Oftentimes due to lack of self love, sense of purpose and direction in life.

Geometric Love Patterns I found this picture a long time ago, and it stayed with me. Recently, I got close to a girl I met online and found myself drawn to her mind. This image reminds me of her, bringing up a mix of emotions.

Part 1: Journey to 100% Psychological Health On my journey to achieving 100% psychological health, I am utilizing and learning various methods, including: Shadow Work Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) Internal Family Systems (IFS) Inner Child Dialogue Guided Visualizations Practicing Radical Honesty Extended Contemplation Since finding a therapist skilled in all these techniques is nearly impossible, I’ve taken it upon myself to learn and master each of them. I am educating myself extensively to apply these methods effectively. Utilizing these techniques in a psychedelic state serves as a powerful catalyst, accelerating my progress toward complete psychological health. Part 2: Parenting A child is like a blank sheet of paper, and parents are the ones who write on it. Parenting is one of the most important jobs in the world, yet why is there so little education about it before people become parents? Why is it that anyone can have children, regardless of their lack of self-awareness, self-reflection, knowledge, or compassion? We must stop producing dysfunctional humans. If there’s one thing I’ve learned about parenting, it’s that your child will reveal your flaws. How? Pay attention to the actions of your child that make you angry, the behaviors you cannot tolerate, or the qualities you admire. These are the traits you rejected, disowned, or projected onto others during your own development. These reactions were your coping mechanisms, necessary for survival at the time. A significant step toward enlightenment is to become like a child again, in the sense of becoming an empty piece of paper once more, free from dysfunctional survival mechanisms. This concept is well illustrated in Spiral Dynamics. While Spiral Dynamics isn’t specifically about children or growing up, it can serve as a rough roadmap for personal development. Educate yourself about the higher stages of development and consciously adopt these traits. Transcend the lower stages by becoming aware of your shadows, integrating them, and embracing the qualities of higher consciousness. Part 3: Accumulating Knowledge vs. True Intelligence Accumulating specific knowledge is not the same as being intelligent. I often observe highly educated people who flaunt their extensive vocabulary as a status symbol, equating it with intelligence. Yet, some of these individuals lack wisdom, self-reflection, and awareness. They are what I would call knowledge obese, filled with information but brainwashed, entirely absorbed in their own tiny bubble of consciousness. As a pre-school child, I often wondered: Do walls really exist, or are they there simply because I believe so strongly that they are? Would removing this belief also remove the boundaries? This early curiosity hinted at a deeper understanding of reality, one that most people overlook as they grow older. I also pondered: If you were to absorb the highest teaching there is, would you end up killing yourself? Would you die, or would something else happen? Although I couldn’t vocalize these thoughts back then, they have stayed with me throughout my life, guiding me toward Leo’s teachings and rekindling my curiosity, ultimately leading me to uncover some truths for myself. This childlike way of thinking is a form of high intelligence. Sadly, this intelligence often dies away when children are sent to school, where they are taught to sit still, listen, absorb often useless knowledge, and learn to become obedient little factory workers. Part 4: The Purpose of Our Work The point of the work we do here is not to blindly believe Leo. I notice people constantly parroting his words and attacking others who express opinions that contradict his. Holding onto beliefs can handicap you on the path to enlightenment; they will distort your perception of reality. Beliefs are like dirt, they cloud your vision. Trust will take you much further. Don’t take Leo’s words as facts, but rather as inspiration and a demonstration of what is possible. Part 5: The Power of Cold Water I don’t remember the last time I took a warm shower. I love cold water, especially in winter when the pipes are frigid. There’s something extra special about swimming in a lake in the middle of winter, surrounded by freezing temperatures. I’m not sure if this practice has any specific health benefits, although I’m rarely sick. What I do know is that cold water has an intriguing ability to train your inner Bitch, the voice in your head that says, No, I can’t, it’s too much. Cold water silences that voice, teaching you resilience and the power of pushing through discomfort. Final Note This collection of reflections and practices represents my ongoing journey toward personal growth and enlightenment. English is not my native language, so I use Grammarly to help fix my grammar and improve the flow here and there. However, the writings you see are authentically mine, reflecting my thoughts and experiences.

Here’s my finalized list of goals: Short-Term Goals 1. Complete shadow work, integrate all parts of myself, and achieve 100% psychological health. 2. Fully define my life purpose. 3. Attain outstanding overall health, with unstoppable energy and vitality. 4. Establish a consistent daily yoga practice. 5. Read or listen to at least 50 books a year. Long-Term Goals 1. Achieve financial independence by living my life purpose. 2. Own a €1 million house with a private cold water algae pool near a Swiss lake. 3. Live 100% authentically. 4. Reach such a level of enlightenment that I let go of everything and become the ecstatic, crazy old man with a super-long beard who runs around naked. Seriously. 5. Buy a piece of land deep in a forest, build a wooden hut, and spend the rest of my life away from society. Yes, I’m still serious.

Thanks, Nat. I appreciate it!

hi @James123 I can see you are still going through a tough time, and I'm truly sorry to hear about your son's suffering. I've been there too, and I understand how overwhelming it can feel. But it's important to remember that your son is deeply connected to you, he mirrors your emotions and behavior. Every vibe you put out, he picks up on. So, keep your head up, my friend. You've made it this far, and I believe you have the strength to keep pushing forward. I'm sending you and your family virtual blessings and positive energy. You’ve got this!

Considering he doesn't bite off his own penis and bleed out while facing his shadows on LSD.