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This could be an interasting one, but I feel it's not Leo's typical topic.

In my case, there was nothing good about it. I tried different protocols and did it with LSD and Mushrooms. It turned me from a fully functional person who meditated and readed daily to a depressed, anxious, and angry creature with suicidal thoughts and insufficient focus or discipline to do something positive in daily life. But I am one of a small percent of people who experienced negative effects from microdosing. It's also possible that It activated something that I buried deep inside, so it may be wrong to call it negative. Self-love is something that I lack and need to work on. I agree with that. Solitude is sometimes the most beautiful thing in the world. Comeup on MALT always makes me horny, and I feel a need to jerk off. It fits its magenta tint which makes the whole experience sexy. It's interesting that last time when I wanted to trip and plugged 50+ mg I was shaking like crazy. It was the first time that I had that with MALT.

Hi everyone, I already wrote about following the microdosing protocol which activated some negative emotions from the past. Suicidal thoughts, hopelessness, depression, anxiety. I was offered to start taking SSRIs but refused because psychedelics deserved a chance. Link to my previous Topic: Childhood trauma, depression and 5meo -I believe that having suicidal thoughts should be used as an opportunity to reach ego death because there is already a great magnitude pulling you towards it. I would feel wrong if I accepted medication to pull me back. I am grateful for negative experiences because they set me on this journey. This is my personal opinion based on my own experience, not advice for anybody else. Yesterday evening I had my first trip ever. This is how I started: I experimented with plugging 5meo MALT for 2 weeks. I did it in a fasted state and I took a piece of ginger 30 min before plugging. 1. Attempt I started small with 6mgs and decided to add 6mgs to see if anything would change. I felt nothing special. 2. Attempt 18mgs, I started to feel "something" And it was not a pleasant experience. I felt nausea and anxiety, and I was in an incredibly low state of awareness, a bit confused and disoriented but it was manageable. 3. Attempt I started with 24mgs and waited 15 min. Again, I felt just nausea and decided to plug +6mgs in the hope it would synergize with the previous dose. I finally started feeling that it was kicking in, so I waited 10-15 min. I was not fully satisfied with the result, and I felt confident to add 12mgs more. -It finally worked My threshold dose was 42mgs overall. 6mg micro scoop used for measuring. TRIP REPORT I lay on the floor in my hut which is located on an isolated piece of land. I was alone, closed all windows, locked the doors, and left just a tiny bit of light on in case it went wrong. (I was not very aware of the time, but when I try to remember the longevity of being in those states it feels like this:) First 15 min: I was hyper-aware. No thoughts were going through my head, and when one came, I could observe it like an entity that was separated from me. I had no past, no future. There was just now. after 30 min: I decided to sit and go deeper in meditation, it was so effortless. I felt weightless. Every move that I was making felt so magnificent. Just taking a breath or spreading my arms was pure joy. after 45 min: I am sitting in a meditative pose. Time slowed down drastically. The feeling of "I" was slowly getting lost and soon after that a short phase of laughing started. And the reason that there was laugh was: I will not call it awakening. It was more like "remembering". Of course. Of course, there is only me. after 1 hour, I carefully stood up to see how much control over my body I had. I was functioning fine. I went out of my hut and saw that the sky looked nicer than ever, it looked Godly. I never saw so many stars due to the lack of light pollution in that area. I decided to lie on the floor outside and admire the stars. I spent at least 1 hour lying on the concrete floor just admiring the stars, not judging, not much thinking, and not being bothered by the hard floor I was lying on, just enjoying the bliss of presence. It felt like the period of my life when I was practicing meditation for 1-2 hours daily for 2 months, but deeper and, with no effort at all. After 3 hours or something I wanted to go for 50+ mgs because I felt I could go so much deeper but I remembered that I had a dentist appointment the next day early in the morning so I decided to go home and get some sleep. On the next day, I woke up still very present even tho I had little sleep. Thank you for your patience and guidance @OBEler , @mpechura Questions: 1. I used a bunch of 5meo MALT to find my threshold dose. Is there a point for me in trying something else when my batch is empty, or should I stick with MALT and increase the dosage until I cannot handle it? 2. I still want to face my fears, traumas from childhood, experience non-duality for a longer period, psychological death, and of course some mind fuckery. Will it be possible with this chemical in higher doses? 3. Can I make myself more sensitive to this chemical? It will become a very costly hobby if I need 100mg every time I want to go deep. 4. Is it possible to increase my baseline of awareness/meditatives by using this substance?

Maybe she just wanted to ask indirectly if he is single.

Hi everyone. I tried plugging 5meo MALT for at least 15-20 times in the last two weeks. Only once I got some results and I used doses between 5mgs to 60mgs. I had a successful trip only once and it was mild. Today I also did Enema 2 times and was hoping to have some epic trip after it. I plugged 20+20mgs. Nothing. Later, I snorted 10mgs and had finally a mild feeling of high. I believe that 20mgs snorted would give me at least a mild trip, but I don't see it as a long-term solution because of problems that snorting can cause. I had a small surgery down there a few months ago and it is possible that scar tissue is not making the absorption of 5meo malt possible. My questions are: 1. What is the second best method to take this chem? 2. https://youtu.be/gHW6FeuhSjA?si=Wm3Za6e3JSAefOTq How about this method? Is it bad for health? 3. Any other sugestion? Thanks in advance.

Thank you. 1. Yes, I am sticking to it. 2. Cool, good to know that. It will be super interesting to discover the benefits of it. 3. Curing trauma is never expensive. Making this a lifelong journey is what I was meant. But overall, what I can say is that just scratching the surface with 5meo MALT was the most meaningful experience I had in my life. I was skeptical about Leo´s words when he said that meditation can never bring you to those states of Consciousness. Now I know it 4. I wish those scales would be more accurate. It's possible that I used less than I thought. I hope for the sake of the batch lasting longer. 35mg as a single dose could be enough for the next time but I believe I can handle more. Nonetheless, I will try not to get too cocky too soon.

I didn't really like how my nose and throat felt after snorting 5mg, so I think I'll stick with plugging.

Osho and Rumi.

5meo MALT - 42Mg - my first trip ever

Great tutorial @mpechura Thanks for sharing. I found refillable spray bottles on Amazon. They are of a decent quality. I am sure similar ones are available in other places. EDIT: Here is a link: 3 x Spray Bottles 15 ml Amber Glass with Funnel

@Raze Very helpful, I will watch them all, thank you. @Breakingthewall Yes, I am born in the Balkans during the war and grew up in a very stage-blue family with a father who had big alcohol problems. I agree that my roots are rotten. I am a very functional human today, not seeing myself as depressive or anything similar but Paul Stamets Microdosing Protocol triggered some dark things from the past in me, therefore there is a possibility that stronger psychedelics do it in a much harsher way. My plan was to continue microdosing and working with a psychotherapist for some time. @Yimpa Good to hear an opinion from somebody who has a personal experience with SSRIs and its cool to read about your Ketamin experience. Unfortunately in Germany where I live now, ketamine and similar things are still not used in treating psychological issues... I am glad that you are better today and that you can explore consciences using psychedelics.

Just a guy asking a normal question. I see nothing bad in it, especially when it comes from somebody who is part of this forum for so long.

Hi everyone, I don´t know if somebody already mentioned this but many users of this forum are non-native English speakers (like myself) Sometimes it can be a struggle to understand what someone is trying to say when using broken English. My solution for that is to use a browser extension called: Grammarly. There is a premium option which costs but I find the free version also very useful. Check it out, it works great. (I have nothing from sharing this, just want to help )

Well, I guess we don't know until I do it. As soon I come across 5meo MALT ( which is super hard to find ) I will plug a minimal dose and test it and hopefully increase the dosage over time. I will report as soon as it happens.

It makes things easier if your life´s purpose is already aligned with the use of psychedelics and exploring consciousness. I am also super interested in philosophy, spirituality, and all of the subjects that actualized.org is about and it could also launch me in that direction which has nothing to do with my current big passion. Yep, I am not at all interested in taking SSRIs because they are not aligned with my values. She also told me that she crosses many people who finish in hospital after usage of psychedelics... But of course, it's questionable, what they exactly used, how much, and what was their mental state, set and setting..... I will keep your words in mind.

Is there any ETA for this new course?

Thank you for this Info. I will inform myself more about these substances. Could 5meo MALT be a better choice for a first-timer with unresolved underlying issues? Do you recommend I have an experienced trip sitter who I trust on my first trip? I am asking because you were not recommending trip sitters before. Now, this is a second problem. After many hours working on it, I almost finished your Life Purpose Course and I have a strong feeling that after my first trip, the outcome will be messed up.

@Yimpa I meant every YT video. Sorry if I triggered you. Please do not spam further on my topic. Thanks for considering my request.

Than you. It's really helpfull to read this.

I am in the same situation here. My wife is against it, and I am quite sure my therapist thinks the same about it. I am thinking about how can I escape for 2 days from my wife and kids to plug some 5meo finally.