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@Breakingthewall He claimed he was poisoned with thallium, very toxic heavy metal while spending his prison time. He created more than 100 meditation techniques and was truly amazing human during his lifetime. You are giving him too less credit.

Yes, his ability to speak was out of this world. But I was also fighting not to fall asleep many times while listening to him. Not because it gets boring but because of sedating effect on the mind his speaking had.

Let's be honest. Most of us here are heavily introverted nerds who dream about living alone on USS Voyager somewhere in a deep space. Yes, maybe occasionally having a sexual intercourse with Capitan Janeway, but not more than that!

I love Osho. I probably listened every single discourse that is available on English language. He managed to erase all that was left of my stage blue traits. He was truly amazing.

Why not today?

I will assume I understand your statement correctly. If your statement is true, that means that I did not realize God , but just some aspects of it. ( Or I experienced a few specific holons ) Meaning, my trips did not get deep enough in order to realize the whole picture. Is that correct?

I do not accept this as answer since you partially quoted my question. Also, I as a 10 year old do not understand those words.

Why?

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Yesterday I took a microdose of 0.7 mg 4-ACO-DMT . I went through some kind of existential crisis. I swear I could have a breakthrough when I was at the peak. @Pudgey I remember you mentioning that it's important to find your personal best fitting psychedelic for your specific genetics. The one where even a tiny dose is felt heavily. Could this be the thing?

What I learned from my (relatively) bad trip is: 1. Lock the doors and hide the keys from yourself. 2. Put some blankets on the floor and prepare for a breakthrough. 3. Drink as much as possible water to flush the shit out of your body. 4. Dance and do some positive self talk if possible. Things like: the peak is already over. Worst waves already passed... Having in mind that you was not sloppy when measuring your dose helps soothing your mind.

That still doesn't answer a question why God would limit itself into a heavily traumatized child who's parents are tortured and murdered in front of his eyes and never even give him a possibility of reaching state of awareness that he realizes it's all a dream and he is actually infinite and all is just fine.

@Keryo Koffa Thanks for investing so much effort in doing this. But this doesn't answer my question. ******* Why would something infinite and perfect limit itself to something finite, imperfect that suffers and experiences a lots of pain. Something that is not even remotely aware of it's true nature. Can someone provide a 10 words long answer on my question like he is talking to a 10 years old boy? Please, no parroting scriptures or Leo's words.

Not even God? Doesn't this statement make God finite?

That being said, I'll add the quote that my stage red personality traits love to relate to from the Spartacus series: Crixus: "Gods of the Arena rain shit upon us." Spartacus: "Fuck the gods!"

No. Its miserable knowing my true nature and still being stuck in a extremely limited form. You just reframed it to seem more positive. Imagine having infinite possibilities and you limit yourself to a child who is sold to slavery. Or Woman that is dependant on her husband and also regularly being beaten and raped by the same person. Isn't that insane?

So Leo is currently not suffering due to his illness? Not only that. He is seeing it as highly enjoyable? I can understand that while in a very deep trip but not with my human level of awareness.

I prefer mumbling nonsense and words like: oh fuuuck. You claim if a person is enlightened enough, everything starts being pink? Maybe I should start micro-dosing heroin to reach that state. Being that said: I don't think you understand the meaning of my post.

I never said that that I have insanity. I previously only stated that I had glimpses of Insanity. To define is to limit. Cheers to that statement. I never claimed that being insane make someone or something imperfect. I had enough of this spirituality crap. I am going to subscribe to Andrew Tate... Drink some whiskey... Smoke some cigars... Thank you.

I out-danced it due to a small dose. Things got really wild when this song started. That was the dance of my life. According to Leo it's because of 5-MeO-DMT. I don't have other explanation.

The problem is when trip gets too deep without any expectations or preparation, on a tiny dose. It's dangerous, and it happened to me more than once.

I trip alone, and almost never at home... I think I heard in Joe Rogan a guy talking that he sprints always when he realizes that he is having a bad trip Imagine doing sprints for a several hours while having a bad trip.

I would like to try stretching but have no idea what specific stretches I need.

My left foot is slightly rotated outward, and it seems to be getting worse after weight training. I suspect it might be related to hip or leg alignment. I’m waiting to see an orthopedic specialist, but I’m looking for any advice on how to deal with this in the meantime. Any tips on effective exercises, footwear, or orthotics would be greatly appreciated!

Thanks for your question. It's none of those. Outside observer would not even see anything is wrong. It's just weird feeling for me personally and I am worried because it seems much worse after weight training.