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What I learned from my (relatively) bad trip is: 1. Lock the doors and hide the keys from yourself. 2. Put some blankets on the floor and prepare for a breakthrough. 3. Drink as much as possible water to flush the shit out of your body. 4. Dance and do some positive self talk if possible. Things like: the peak is already over. Worst waves already passed... Having in mind that you was not sloppy when measuring your dose helps soothing your mind.

That still doesn't answer a question why God would limit itself into a heavily traumatized child who's parents are tortured and murdered in front of his eyes and never even give him a possibility of reaching state of awareness that he realizes it's all a dream and he is actually infinite and all is just fine.

@Keryo Koffa Thanks for investing so much effort in doing this. But this doesn't answer my question. ******* Why would something infinite and perfect limit itself to something finite, imperfect that suffers and experiences a lots of pain. Something that is not even remotely aware of it's true nature. Can someone provide a 10 words long answer on my question like he is talking to a 10 years old boy? Please, no parroting scriptures or Leo's words.

Not even God? Doesn't this statement make God finite?

That being said, I'll add the quote that my stage red personality traits love to relate to from the Spartacus series: Crixus: "Gods of the Arena rain shit upon us." Spartacus: "Fuck the gods!"

No. Its miserable knowing my true nature and still being stuck in a extremely limited form. You just reframed it to seem more positive. Imagine having infinite possibilities and you limit yourself to a child who is sold to slavery. Or Woman that is dependant on her husband and also regularly being beaten and raped by the same person. Isn't that insane?

So Leo is currently not suffering due to his illness? Not only that. He is seeing it as highly enjoyable? I can understand that while in a very deep trip but not with my human level of awareness.

I prefer mumbling nonsense and words like: oh fuuuck. You claim if a person is enlightened enough, everything starts being pink? Maybe I should start micro-dosing heroin to reach that state. Being that said: I don't think you understand the meaning of my post.

I never said that that I have insanity. I previously only stated that I had glimpses of Insanity. To define is to limit. Cheers to that statement. I never claimed that being insane make someone or something imperfect. I had enough of this spirituality crap. I am going to subscribe to Andrew Tate... Drink some whiskey... Smoke some cigars... Thank you.

I out-danced it due to a small dose. Things got really wild when this song started. That was the dance of my life. According to Leo it's because of 5-MeO-DMT. I don't have other explanation.

The problem is when trip gets too deep without any expectations or preparation, on a tiny dose. It's dangerous, and it happened to me more than once.

I trip alone, and almost never at home... I think I heard in Joe Rogan a guy talking that he sprints always when he realizes that he is having a bad trip Imagine doing sprints for a several hours while having a bad trip.

I would like to try stretching but have no idea what specific stretches I need.

My left foot is slightly rotated outward, and it seems to be getting worse after weight training. I suspect it might be related to hip or leg alignment. I’m waiting to see an orthopedic specialist, but I’m looking for any advice on how to deal with this in the meantime. Any tips on effective exercises, footwear, or orthotics would be greatly appreciated!

Thanks for your question. It's none of those. Outside observer would not even see anything is wrong. It's just weird feeling for me personally and I am worried because it seems much worse after weight training.

I know. My answer stays the same.

My problem is not to reach ego-death/breakthrough. My problem is when it happenes unexpectedly, when I am not prepared for it at all. But yes. Ego death is okay and a good choice in some cases. Being stuck in that place between ego-death and dream is scary.

What are you referring to? Yes, that crossed my mind. I guess those meds also do some damage to the brain when taken during the trip?

I didn't want a breakthrough, so distraction or surrender was needed, depending on how much control I had. Since I wasn't prepared for a breakthrough and had my trip in the middle of the day with people around, distraction was my first choice. But when I realized I was losing control, I laid blankets on the floor, locked the doors, and hid the keys from myself.

Anxiety, insanity. Not much to say. I did not plan anything close to a big trip. That was my biggest problem. I did not prepare for it at all.

Some important notes: 1. I know I said this before, but I've developed zero tolerance to this chem. 2. 4-ACO-DMT + Niacin will potentially mind-rape you. It felt like an existential gang-bang. 3. A bad or very deep trip can happen for no apparent reason, even on a casual small dose. WTF?! 4. My already-high sensitivity to psychedelics has grown even higher. 5. There's a razor-thin line between God realization and a very bad trip/severe panic attack. ***** If someone told me I could contemplate deeply for two hours while dancing, I'd call him crazy. @Leo Gura I got a glimpse of absolute madness at the peak. Boy, that was intense... a. For fuck's sake... How many times have you exposed yourself to this to claim you understand the insanity? b. I took your advice seriously about not expressing emotional baggage by screaming/acting on it (Martin Ball style) but by observing it. (If I understood correctly) I attempted to observe and let go of the need to express, but observing my emotions led me to insanity that nearly took over. Luckily, my dose was small enough to keep somewhat under control. This isn't the first time this has happened. Sorry , I know it's not a practical question., but some kind of guidance would be tremendously helpful.

It's all fun and games until you have a totally unexpected breakthrough on this chem. Peek-a-boo It's you again. ....

Thank you for showing your concern. It warmed my heart.

a. I spent 25 years living in the Balkans, surrounded by various forms of Catholicism. b. Their ultimate goal is to build a monopoly over people's beliefs.They are all businessmen. Their currency, in this case, is not money but the kingdom of God.

I am in my most relaxed state when I talk negative about church. This is like a form of meditation for me.