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Was this weed trip before you tried psychedelics or was this after 100 5-Meo trips? Because if so its no wonder.

I was obsessed with this kid when I was younger, I remember watching that interview and then trying to find out every scrap of info I could about him. I got the random idea literally just a few weeks ago to check in after like 10 years and see what he's been up to, came to find that there was this big scandal with parents in that his mother actually played up his genius a lot in order to make money selling a book "the spark" she wrote about him. Not to say he isn't a genius he clearly is, but she was making him out to be like 1 in a billion or something. Apparently the problems he was solving on TV shows weren't actually advanced as they were made out to be according to other physicists and mathematicians. That's why he was all over the news because his mother actually encouraged him to do it because she seen an opportunity. Think he's doing well though, he's a physicist at perimeter institute for theoretical physics.

@Leo Gura I still think you should try the lymphatic cleanse approach that I suggested in my first post on this forum. Dr Robert Morse has unbelievable success rates in regards to treating diseases. He's not a whack job.

Hi, sorry I can't go into detail about it currently, it actually makes my symptoms a lot worse trying to explain the process. I'll make a giant post once I'm through it explaining everything. People are probably bored of me yapping on about it all time anyway. In a nutshell though its essentially just a rapid expansion of consciousness, usually with negative backlash occurring once that expansion goes to the subconscious mind causing huge internal conflict for most people, me included. Don't get hung up on the name and its distinction, the function of the process is the same as regular consciousness however its at such a rapid pace that it causes a constant intensity of symptoms that are not experienced in the "normie" consciousness that you operated at your whole life prior to the expansion. Which is why the term "kundalini" came about, because it needed a separate classification (even within typical spirituality) so that it can be tended to with special attention, i:e a deeper understanding of consciousness and different methods to deal with the symptoms because the typical mainstream culture techniques do not work. And yes there is also a tonne of misdiagnosing, most of it due to selfish "spiritual" ego. People deluding themselves because it serves them and then leading others astray because of disinformation.

Thank you.

I see, I actually understand your position very well, my days happiness for the last few years has revolved solely around getting closer to figuring out my kundalini symptoms so that I can function as a normal human again and get back to living life. I cant progress or enjoy anything until this is resolved. Its killing me but I don't have a choice. The upshot is that I know happiness will not be difficult after this period of my life. I never knew how much I took for granted just being able to function normally in life. I hope you find some resolve as I hope to.

Have you been able to integrate all these repercussions? You said that your profoundly happy most days now, is the integration of this stuff what led you to becoming profoundly happy, or at least raised the bar of it. Being able to correlate tiny aspects of those conscious peaks into normal life, creating appreciation at the human level that wasn't possible beforehand?

is it terrifying?

how long were you in a state of insanity the first time it happened to you?

@Leo Gura do you consider Ralston a narcissist? Or maybe not a full on narcissist but some tendencies? I mean in the selfish manner by the way not the medical illness term of simply just believing everything about yourself as true, good or bad.

@Majed The benefit of suffering is that it teaches you what is emotionally possible, it shows you what degree of incredibly intense emotions can be contained and sustained. People can live on the verge of killing themselves every other week for years.. how creative they can be in fantasies about their death, how deeply stubborn they can be about their situation. The amount of energy they can muster up to indulge their suffering. Imagine what's possible for you on the flip side if only you'd use that power and transmute it into something incredible.. Suffering is essentially just a qualification that's paramount to mastering your emotions. That's why people that haven't experienced much suffering in their life always inevitably fall very deeply into it at some point. It's because they never learnt how sustain their lack of it.

@shree Which ever way you put it, pent up energy or "trauma" will still only be emotional energy, and the only place it is held onto is in your mind, regardless of whether you scream or sit quietly, the release happens when you mentally let go. And just to add, in my own personal experience, I've found that at the point of a complete release of any stuck energy, if it is not a peaceful rejoice then I know that I haven't actually let go of it. Recognise how the at exact point of release of any uncomfortable emotion, there is a complete dissolving of all tension, If you feel forced to behave in any particular way that tells you that you have to otherwise it wont come out, then that is not you releasing it, that is you holding onto and indulging it. You can scream if you want to but at the end of all the screaming the true release will happen in silence. The screaming is essentially just you throwing a temper tantrum because you cant feel how you want to in that moment. At some point you just have to stop self loathing and make peace with what's happened to you in life, that's when you release and heal.

I don't, you get bored of them quick. Suppose it depends on your personality, I'm creative so I couldn't just sit doing nothing all day, regardless of how good it feels.

of course, but they take it to the extreme and kill the zest of life

Yeah I've never understood that about eastern spirituality, your thoughts are the best bit about being a human when they're good but they just tell you "let them pass".. Makes 0 sense. Let the bad ones pass, enjoy the good ones.

Yeah I can do it too, I was just wondering because Leo always explains his states as only mentally serene and that there's nothing "tactile" in the bliss, which confuses me if that's the case, but he probably just doesn't talk about it as there's not much to say really, it just feels good. My best sober states have been very close to as good as some of my amazing psychedelic ones, but it was never through any typical "no mind" meditation practise. It was always through very prolonged and intensely vivid romantic visualisation, Not just sexual, but like very creatively intimate scenes. It takes some getting to but eventually my body just completely surrenders and its like I'm getting drip fed serotonin.

@Leo Gura what is the degree of blissful loving states are you able to work yourself up to sober? Not just mentally but in your body, such a heightened emotion that your body completely relaxes and becomes almost "delicious" like your on mdma. Can you get something like this sober? Or are you not interested in it?

Just watched this guys stuff on kundalini, seems to me that he has just identified with the idea and has made it his whole personality. One of his video names is "I give myself to you my Kundalini" as if its some kind of entity. This is utterly wrong, I would tell your friend to stay away, then again your friend may have fallen into the same trap, identifying with it without actually being in the kundalini process. Edit: looking at more of his videos, he's got stuff like "cathers and the kundalini" associating French castles with kundalini, as if there is some real relevance between the two.. wtf is that? Someone with a true understanding of kundalini would never conflate such irrelevant perspectives with it.

Thanks Leo! Looking forward to watching it.

you know what I meant..

do you include yourself in this?

@Vagos try cleansing/flushing your lymphatic system, if your lymph nodes are all clogged up the body has to choice but to misfunction, this can lead to chemical imbalance. Could be something to look into.

Hi, just wanted to create a post to see if there's any serious mountaineers in here and if they've got any experience/stories to share. My specific interest is in the Himalayas, I done Mount Everest Base Camp back in 2017 and since that trip have planned to summit some of the 8000m peaks, eventually leading up to Everest. Drop a comment of any knowledge/experience you have with climbing serious mountains. I'd love to hear about about it!

Test for yourself, I use to microdose LSD and found that anything over 8mcg's I became unproductive.

Yeah haha a curse is exactly what it feels like at this point. My hairs falling out and everything from the constant stress. Its not been all bad. The 1% of bliss I have experienced has been enough to keep me going, its not just a bodily feeling, its a creative soar that lights up your whole world. And thanks for the kind words, things have been looking up recently anyway, I think I've figured out the cause of my symptoms, they've mellowed when I explored this avenue which is a good sign.