Francis777

cool man. high five

Do you ever wish you'd never awakened so deeply due to the struggle it causes. is there a there a true reason to pursue it versus not and just living you life less consciously till you die? (FYI please don't reply with word games because of language limitation about death and you never being alive in the first place, you know what i mean and am looking for genuine answers with that in mind) thanks Edit: the "FYI" wasn't assumed at Leo, but for anyone intending on offering their thoughts, appreciate all replies, looking for genuine perspectives as I feel I've gone too deep to young and am at a cross roads between satiating my lower desires, and realising how difficult it is to do so selflessly. But that is my more shallow problems, the more total encompassing question is as above^

yes very true, I've been over this with myself and don't hold much guilt over myself as I never take it to that extreme. I understand that selfishness when finite is inevitable, I've never had the intention to surrender all selfishness its a silly notion. It's more so that I'm refining my actions so that I can go about getting my needs met with less/unnecessary collateral damage to the people around me. And in my case with the kundalini energy clashing inside my body, there's a very specific thing that I'm doing while trying to attract people that needs to stop.

@MAHAVATAR_-_BABAJI Just turned 23 last week, the symptoms started after I turned 20, this is one of the biggest factors as to why its been so hard and taken me so long to let go of some of my selfish behaviour, because I've not even had a chance to satiate the tiniest fraction of my lower desires, like for fame and such.

thanks, yeah I'm going to go through everything, probably going to take me about a month or two to structure and write it all out properly to hit every point I want to.

yes, that was more speaking towards my struggles with my kundalini symptoms and how my last 3 years of life wouldn't have been complete hell if I was just less aware of myself and all my selfish behaviour which caused them, it never felt like a curse before them. It's made me bitter, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I know exactly what the conflict is now, so I can go about resolving it. I'm going to make a colossal post sharing all the lessons I've learned during this time, I have a goldmine of insights and mental tenacity built up that I genuinely feel have set me up for the rest of my life. I can't imagine anything that could ever beat me down like this again.

yeah i guess, my deepest satisfaction comes from understanding and its been more of a curse than a gift so far, does it always go away with proper integration in your experience?

yes but you still have still exist as a finite consciousness after, my point was asking if it is worth the costs that come with knowing yourself?

@How to be wise yeah thanks, the swearing was rash which I apologised for anyway but not the point and not out of context as the comments contained value for which I was trying to relay a point.

also speaking to you again Leo, I've just been given a warning by "carl-richard" for profanity, I'm not looking for redemption in the fact that I apologised. This warning is ridiculous, the amount of times I've seen you call people "fucking idiots" on this forum yet I say it once and get a warning, not as blind hate but with context. The moderator shouldn't have issued it in my opinion. Oh great, just scrolled up to check myself before posting and realised that my post has been deleted so none of this makes sense, revoke your moderator he's taking too much upon himself, has no right to censor my posts. @Carl-Richard

@Yimpa sorry yimpa, meant what I said in context but don't mean to be a dick.

A women called Tara Springett also is a "kundalini practitioner", check out her website you will find her on google, she claims to be a Buddhist but don't be swayed by that, she has excellent understanding of the kundalini process. she has free books, group sessions and 1 to 1s. she was one of the only ones on my kundalini journey that made sense to me. she also says to be careful reading random crap on the internet as it is 99% inaccurate and can worsen symptoms with false information. Which going through and realising my own symptoms have come to realise is true. Hope this helps, just another source to consider.

I don't a have little note book of certified studies, just every time I've done mdma I've always ended up reading about recovery and constantly came across sources which say 3 months. Could be more could be less, neither of us can deny though, it must use up a fair amount as it feels fucking amazing. Also read somewhere that all neurotransmitters are recycled anyway so not sure mate, I'm not a pharmacologist don't take my word on it

this biggest thing to prevent mdma comedown is hydration, the hangover from mdma is oxidation of your receptors, denaturing because they are dehydrated. similar to alcohol. of course moderate dose is implied with this and frequency of use. I've also read that it takes 3 months minimum to be on the safe side where your serotonin levels should be back to baseline

kundalini energy doesn't just pass majority of the time. Its the result of inner conflict that needs to be pinpointed and resolved. I've been dealing with intense 24/7 energy symptoms for nearly 3 years now. Its completely debilitating, like a chronic illness.

it can have a lot of therapeutic value when used in the proper setting with proper intention. however i wouldn't use it more than twice a year, 3 times at most.

Have ever tried alcohol at all? It’s huge culture where I grew up so I have drank a lot from quite young

this is hilarious, you say a group free of cults and religion and then finish it off with that^ if this isnt a cultist mindset forming i dont know what is. Honestly, some of you guys on here crack me up

he's calling you a girl working the corner, charming

i understand, i misinterpreted ivans message at first.

retracted message, dont know how to delete post

Leo when are you going to release another video? Are you taking a break till you figure out what direction you want to take the channel going forward?

how awake do you consider alan watts to have been?

leo? did you look into this at all or not?

Hi leo, i see you mentioning your poor physical health a lot, can you elaborate on what exactly is the problem with you health. I've done enough research on health down all paths, woo woo and scientific to truly believe that everything can be healed. If you share maybe i can give you some advice?