Francis777

@Sidra Is there any way to screen for schizophrenia before one experiences symptoms?

@Leo Gura Will you consider moving country if trump wins?

@mmKay are you confusing changes in your sober perception of the world and hallucinations? Sometimes people expect to see flying dragons and ignore all the other changes in their perception of the world from LSD. I find LSD "alters" visuals most of the time, not create them. Unless at super high doses.

Yeah its a lot of compounding factors, plus ethanol itself is toxic so your directly poising yourself on top of all these other side effects.

lol a hangover is not just sleep deprivation, I'd take zero sleep over some of my worst hangover's any day.

Material items are 100x more enjoyable when you see them for what they are meant to be in your life, peripherals, extensions. No matter how lavish they are.

fresh journal

lol, think it’s you that needs to chill man🤣

Can we all just agree that enlightenment is about the cessation of suffering and is not parallel to awakening?

Best thing you can do is demonstrate the strength your son needs in his dad at this difficult time. Head up man.

Interesting, it's just because you read about that effect all the time, weed becoming too intense after psychedelics. Clearly there's massive degrees in that effect.

I meant that a weed trip like that would be very surprising if you had never taken psychedelics before, But if it came after doing all the more potent psychedelics, I wouldn't say that's too abnormal as you already blasted the gates open. I think if anyone had tripped as much you had on 5 MEO and everything else then I don't think it would be unusual for them to have a similar experience with weed after the fact. As many people report weed potentiation after trying psychedelics.

Was this weed trip before you tried psychedelics or was this after 100 5-Meo trips? Because if so its no wonder.

I was obsessed with this kid when I was younger, I remember watching that interview and then trying to find out every scrap of info I could about him. I got the random idea literally just a few weeks ago to check in after like 10 years and see what he's been up to, came to find that there was this big scandal with parents in that his mother actually played up his genius a lot in order to make money selling a book "the spark" she wrote about him. Not to say he isn't a genius he clearly is, but she was making him out to be like 1 in a billion or something. Apparently the problems he was solving on TV shows weren't actually advanced as they were made out to be according to other physicists and mathematicians. That's why he was all over the news because his mother actually encouraged him to do it because she seen an opportunity. Think he's doing well though, he's a physicist at perimeter institute for theoretical physics.

@Leo Gura I still think you should try the lymphatic cleanse approach that I suggested in my first post on this forum. Dr Robert Morse has unbelievable success rates in regards to treating diseases. He's not a whack job.

Hi, sorry I can't go into detail about it currently, it actually makes my symptoms a lot worse trying to explain the process. I'll make a giant post once I'm through it explaining everything. People are probably bored of me yapping on about it all time anyway. In a nutshell though its essentially just a rapid expansion of consciousness, usually with negative backlash occurring once that expansion goes to the subconscious mind causing huge internal conflict for most people, me included. Don't get hung up on the name and its distinction, the function of the process is the same as regular consciousness however its at such a rapid pace that it causes a constant intensity of symptoms that are not experienced in the "normie" consciousness that you operated at your whole life prior to the expansion. Which is why the term "kundalini" came about, because it needed a separate classification (even within typical spirituality) so that it can be tended to with special attention, i:e a deeper understanding of consciousness and different methods to deal with the symptoms because the typical mainstream culture techniques do not work. And yes there is also a tonne of misdiagnosing, most of it due to selfish "spiritual" ego. People deluding themselves because it serves them and then leading others astray because of disinformation.

Thank you.

I see, I actually understand your position very well, my days happiness for the last few years has revolved solely around getting closer to figuring out my kundalini symptoms so that I can function as a normal human again and get back to living life. I cant progress or enjoy anything until this is resolved. Its killing me but I don't have a choice. The upshot is that I know happiness will not be difficult after this period of my life. I never knew how much I took for granted just being able to function normally in life. I hope you find some resolve as I hope to.

Have you been able to integrate all these repercussions? You said that your profoundly happy most days now, is the integration of this stuff what led you to becoming profoundly happy, or at least raised the bar of it. Being able to correlate tiny aspects of those conscious peaks into normal life, creating appreciation at the human level that wasn't possible beforehand?

is it terrifying?

how long were you in a state of insanity the first time it happened to you?

@Leo Gura do you consider Ralston a narcissist? Or maybe not a full on narcissist but some tendencies? I mean in the selfish manner by the way not the medical illness term of simply just believing everything about yourself as true, good or bad.

@Majed The benefit of suffering is that it teaches you what is emotionally possible, it shows you what degree of incredibly intense emotions can be contained and sustained. People can live on the verge of killing themselves every other week for years.. how creative they can be in fantasies about their death, how deeply stubborn they can be about their situation. The amount of energy they can muster up to indulge their suffering. Imagine what's possible for you on the flip side if only you'd use that power and transmute it into something incredible.. Suffering is essentially just a qualification that's paramount to mastering your emotions. That's why people that haven't experienced much suffering in their life always inevitably fall very deeply into it at some point. It's because they never learnt how sustain their lack of it.

@shree Which ever way you put it, pent up energy or "trauma" will still only be emotional energy, and the only place it is held onto is in your mind, regardless of whether you scream or sit quietly, the release happens when you mentally let go. And just to add, in my own personal experience, I've found that at the point of a complete release of any stuck energy, if it is not a peaceful rejoice then I know that I haven't actually let go of it. Recognise how the at exact point of release of any uncomfortable emotion, there is a complete dissolving of all tension, If you feel forced to behave in any particular way that tells you that you have to otherwise it wont come out, then that is not you releasing it, that is you holding onto and indulging it. You can scream if you want to but at the end of all the screaming the true release will happen in silence. The screaming is essentially just you throwing a temper tantrum because you cant feel how you want to in that moment. At some point you just have to stop self loathing and make peace with what's happened to you in life, that's when you release and heal.

I don't, you get bored of them quick. Suppose it depends on your personality, I'm creative so I couldn't just sit doing nothing all day, regardless of how good it feels.