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Lay down, try to let go and listen to some calm music. I once was stuck in a very bad trip, but this music really helped me to surrender and let go. This is the best music if your trip is really bad.

Don't try to put God in a context of a "box" or "matrix". God is paradoxical and mysterious as fuck.

This is the best advice I've ever heard

I'm not attracted to ass I need tits

I want to disclose my body count I slept just with 4 women I consider myself to be a high-value man

I can relate to that. Usually, my first sex with a new girl isn't that good. It takes a while before I begin enjoying it. I'm too shy to fuck her in the way I really enjoy fucking. After maybe 3 times the real show begins.

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Oh Lord... I like milk though

A "real fucking man" is a concept. There's no universal definition of what a "real man" is. If you go around asking people what a real man is they will fill your head with nonsense they've been indoctrinated by society and so-called authority figures. Do not listen to anyone. Real man is an authentic man. Nothing more and nothing less. If you are a sensitive guy try to embrace and develop these qualities. Don't try to make yourself into someone you're not. Follow your intuition and think independently. Don't ask other people what is a real man, you're the one who has to define it. And of course self-love and self-acceptance are crucial here. A lot of so-called real men just have a façade of a real man.

It took me a while to realize what I as God want. I think the reason why I wasn't hearing myself is because I thought that there are others who knew what God wants. It turned out that my deepest desire isn't what spiritual figures or books are talking about. I've had a plenty of break-troughs on psychedelics and my direct experience keeps telling me this - I want to sleep and live in a world of others where everything is foreign to me. That's why I like this game. A lot of you guys have fantasies about being in a God mode and just living life as an awakened human. This idea is laughable . If you have this assumption - you're fooling yourself, probably because you've never had a deep god realization. Every time when I wake up I want to get back to my imaginary life. Ego has nothing to do with it, it's God. Moreover, ego is the one who's using psychedelics in order to escape God's illusion. From God's point of view living in complete ignorance is more fun than being awake. You know why? Well, because God has nothing to do. For now I decided to stop doing psychedelics until I'm 40. Now I'm just 26.

How do you know what can be trusted then? You don't know. You rely on some sort of authority without applying direct experience. if you think that you can reach God's consciousness without psychedelics you're kidding yourself. I deliberately created psychedelics as a tool to re-awaken myself. I also created a bunch of mambo-jumbo techniques and so-called "awakened" gurus in order to trick myself.

Ego is a concept that doesn't exist.

Sorry my imaginary friend, I've got no clue what you're trying to convey

That's the game I'm playing with myself because there's nothing else to do. I'm completely alone so I've created humans and my body to enjoy life as a a human. The more I understand myself as God the more I don't understand. The idea that I can grasp myself until the end is impossible because I'm infinite. For now I just want to be this young dude that I am because being a human is a lot of fun. It's always some sort of a drama that I really enjoy. Once I am 40 I'm gonna be doing different psychedelics for most of my free time. It's very clear for me that I will cross the line but it's so fucking interesting During my last break-trough I realized that nothing is happening, I grasped it so deeply it shook me to my core.

Human wants to be God, but God wants to be a human. Anyways the distinction itself is imaginary, there is only God

Sadhguru doesn't understand what he's talking about

Wrong God is a human who wants things. That's what God is imagining right now

I've been vaping 5-MeO-DMT for the last 3 days. Here's what I realized: 1. Understanding. Any attempts to understand what I as God Am in a default state of consciousness is self-deception. Human mind is incapable of understanding God. All ideas that you have even if you were in the God mode are just ideas. True understanding is being self-aware Understanding. 2. What is a break-trough on 5-MeO-DMT. As I was vaping it I could control the depth of my experience to some degree or level. After you do one more step there's no more control. I'm God but I can't control infinity, it's a paradox. When you enter infinity, it feels unbelievable and terrifying. Your true form which is nothingness becomes infinitely more nothing. You can see every part of your experience with such a precision. Every small detail is infinitely perfect and designed by your Will, the Will of God. This infinity is actually Love, it's pure Magic. 3. God can't be understood by 5MeO-DMT only. Since I'm Infinity I can't be understood completely by just one psychedelic. In order to understand myself I need to do different psychedelics and combine them. Not all of the psychedelics are actually designed for understanding though. Most of them are designed for self-deception. From my experience lSD, mushrooms and even DMT are very deceptive. I was standing there looking at the stars on 5-MeO-DMT, believe me, you've never seen the stars if you haven't looked at them on 5MeO : )

This is false, I can and I did choose that. This is false, I am imagining you right now Complete nonsense You exist only as a profile on this forum

What could happen in the worst case scenario? Is the danger even real? Fore me it would be to stuck in infinity forever. But at the same time this inner interest is so strong. I don't now what's sourcing it.

By this time, I had around 10 solid break-through trips on 5MeO where I discovered that I want to be in a human state of consciousness. This is God's true desire at the present time. God equally loves to wake up and to dream up human life. God's design is impermanence; therefore, he can't be constantly in one state of consciousness. Unless it reaches the rock-bottom which is infinity. Infinity is infinite and paradoxically God don't have control over it (at least I discovered zero control). Infinity is bottomless. You can't even imagine how fucking radical that is. It's literally terrifying. This terror has nothing to do with basic human fear. It's Universal terror. The only way God can control infinity is by playing as a human. But the Game itself is the illusion. Nothing ever happens. It’s all just an infinite dream that I am dreaming. And I’m fucking love it. When (if) I become bored with the game I will wake up.

A Powerful Breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT I had stayed away from 5MeO for 6 months and last week I order a new pen. I was feeling very ambivalent about it because my Ego was creating a lot of negative thoughts regarding experiences on 5MeO-DMT that I’d had. Nevertheless, today it arrived and I’ve had a very powerful breakthrough that literally terrified the shit out of me. I was walking around the city when I crossed the line. I became infinite, absolutely conscious and whole. I realized that I’m the only conscious being in existence and I discovered a few paradoxes: 1. I’m God and You’re God, but at the same time there is a difference between You and Me. If we were to trip tomorrow together, I would imagine tripping with you. It wouldn’t be like you would imagine tripping with me, because I’m the source of your existence, I’m the creator and you’re my creation. 2. The Self is actually no Self. I’m magical being that has no self but at the same time I appear as something all the time. I exist as two simultaneously. 3. There is no meaning to anything, but this no meaning is actually good. This one was a hard pill to swallow for my ego, which is why it was constructing negative interpretation around the fact that there is no meaning to anything whatsoever. Interestingly enough no meaning is infinitely good thing. You might be wondering why? Well, because that’s the absolute fact. You can’t get it by using logic or whatever. This is just the way it is. I crossed the line when I had my first 5MeO-DMT trip. There is no way out of it. The only thing that is to do is to become more and more conscious. Forever. There is no ultimate awakening, it’s a never-ending process. I’m infinity, I have no limits.

Life is self-deception.

These realizations can't be applied in real life. Once you're not in the God state you are back in your default ego state. This idea that you can apply something from God states in your daily life is nonsense. God has nothing to do with survival and life is pure survival. I'm gonna share with you how I tried to implement my realizations yesterday. I was vaping 5-MeO-DMT on a bench and some guy came over and sit next to me. He's asking me: "Hey, what is your name and where are you from?". I'm replying: "I'm God, I came from nowhere and I've always been here. I've just created you". You should've seen his face.

Thanks man! No I haven't tried it yet, but I'm going to try some day (when I find where to get it).