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I think by this point the only thing I understand about women is I don't understand them.

I've shifted my default state of consciousness with 5MeO-Dmt. I haven't done it for the last 6+ months, but I feel like I'm becoming more and more conscious. It's not a thought, but rather a feeling. Universe doesn't feel to me as separate as it used to neither do other people feel as real. Actually, I feel like I'm losing my mind and it brings about a lot of fear. Ultimately, I'm afraid that this bubble of consciousness disappears. I'm terrified of it. On the other hand, I'm fully aware and conscious that I'm trying to reduce my state of consciousness and it only makes me more conscious. Lately I've been having some sort of god-realization without taking any substances or meditation. It's just like a wave that comes in and overwhelms me. When it happens I feel a lot of fear so I'm trying to distract myself as soon as possible. Do you guys know what is happening to me ? I really hope that it's just fucking ego resisting the truth. In fact, when I was doing other psychedelics it always was like this. At first a lot of fear and after ego-death there is no fear. I need your advice, Thanks

Have you ever had any crazy ideas?

Do you now why I have never seen or experienced any beings on DMT? It always fascinates me when I hear people talking about DMT beings.

Do you still feel attracted to girls? How is it affecting your libido?

Oooh I see. I also feel tired after ejaculating but after 10 minutes I'm ready to go

Okay if it wouldn't do anything bad to me, what would it do good? What is the point? What's wrong with ejaculation?

well, I wouldn't call them superpowers. I don't think 2.5 years of semen retention will do good for your health

Thanks for trying to follow me, but I don't give a fuck how you live your life. I don't care if you are disciplined or not. I love you unconditionally so live your life as you want to live it.

I don't see any problems here. Just date 2 guys. As long as both of them are fine with it there is no problem. Also, would you mind them having 2 girlfriends each?

I don't see any objective reason of doing semen retention for that long. Why would you do that for a year, I'm curious?

Why would I want to do it for a year ? I think it’s idiotic

Telling them that you're god and created them

Happy for you my friend! I hope you're having amazing time with her and lots of sex! Congrats!

You're so bitter and jealous my friend! My direct experience with women proves that your ideas are complete nonsense.

You haven't awakened deeply enough. I used to think like you a few years ago. God doesn't have needs nor does it have problems which is exactly why it's incarnating. My source is not books or gurus. It's my personal experience on 5MeO-DMT.

Definitely. A year ago I would smoke 5MeO on the way to work. Crazy.

I verified my life purpose on psychedelics (on 5MeO and mushrooms) so it's not a form of escapism. Actually, because i'm the creator, I want to explore myself.

Bro it's just crazy. People here in Canada don't get that many days in a year. It's just insane. The weather sucks as well, but I can buy psychedelics easily haha I should probably move to Spain.

I've been thinking about travelling and making videos, seems to be a good idea but i need at least 40k to start I guess

How about finding people on Meetups? That's how I found a bunch of friends when I moved to Toronto

I used to think that people who have had sex with more than 5 people are very immature and can't be trusted in relationships.

I think you are right my friends. It's just I've been chasing God for 4 years and been neglecting other domains of my life. Now when I realized how actually serious and real God thing is I want to be able to make it a priority in the future. For now I want to work on basics of survival. I need financial independence and I haven't fucked for a long time. It's just funny to have profound god awakenings and next day do the job that I don't like or think about girls I can't attract due to my lack of dating skills. I'm just 26 and I still have plenty of time.

I was born in a relatively poor family in a small town (in Ukraine). As a kid I would spend a lot of time with my grandparents and their animals (cows, ducks, etc.) and I also didn't have money. Nevertheless, I was so much happier then now. Now I do have money and I can buy things for myself. I moved to a better country, but I don't feel as happy and free as I used to. I think the problem is all the identities that I've constructed. Why was I happier milking a cow in a small village rather than living in a developed city of Canada?

It's a good question actually. Even if I decide not to take psychedelics anymore it won't change shit. I'm God, I've always been and will be it. Whatever I decide to do is my will and I trust my Self.