TheGod

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  1. I was first introduced to psychedelics in Spring of 2020 (I was 22). My friend stumbled upon a book about magic mushrooms and how to grow them. I had been wanting to try mushrooms for some time since I watched a few of Leo’s video on psychedelics and I was considering myself being “spiritual”. I laugh now when I recall that time because my mind was filled with ideas and concepts that I thought I was able to grasp, but nothing was further from the truth. After watching Leo’s video “How Psychedelics Work” I was very curious to try them out. At the same time my friend finished reading the book and decided to grow some mushrooms. It took us a few months to grow our first mushrooms. I remember how my hands were shacking, holding 15 grams of raw magic mushrooms that I was about to take. I was very curious and fearful at the same time, but I still consumed them. The trip was very mild with some sense of light euphoria, feelings of joy (the same you feel as a child) and just a few insights. My next few trips reveled the truth of the fact that my values and principles in life were not mine but were programmed by society: friends, teachers and people I looked up to: my parents and grandparents. For the first time in my life, I became aware of that. It was a very painful process, because I also realized that the career that I was pursuing was built upon my need for love, approval that was coming from my childhood traumas. I realized that I had to quit and the next day after tripping (it was my 5th trip) I quit the police forces. Even though it was painful, now, when I look at it – it was one of the best decisions in my entire life. The following few trips were bringing me more and more insights about society and I was shocked by the fact that most of the people are like zombies doing wrong things believing in foolish ideas and chasing something that isn’t authentic to them. The first scratches appeared on the mirror that was called “Maya”. I also realized how blind I was in my life not seeing love from my parents, but hating them for the mistakes and wrong doings they did to me. 6 months of psychotherapy fell in comparison with one mushroom trip. I think it was trip 9th or something when I realized that Ego isn’t a part of my self, it is actually me. It was a very shocking realization, but that was the only insight that I got from the trip. During the trip I was also trying to grasp what was God and what was Ego, but I couldn’t, I had no idea. My first God realization happened on 10-15 trip. I remember I was looking at myself in the mirror and I couldn’t believe that I was actually God. I was crying because I had been thinking that someone like me could not possible be God, because deep down I was sure that I can’t be God because I am bad and I am a looser. But the evidence was there. During that trip I was also tripping with my friend who said that he was seeing God looking at me to which I pointed out that he was God as well. When the trip was over, I was 100% sure that I misunderstood a lot of things and the idea that I was God was outrageous and stupid, I couldn’t accept it. Next 30 trips (during 2 years) were mostly about my personal issues because I tried to concentrate my mind on them and didn’t want to think about God or whatnot. I moved in Canada in Summer 2022 and stumbled upon some website (don’t ask me I won’t tell you which one) where I saw a DMT pen. I was very excited and bought the pen. All of the trips on DMT that I had (around 20 of them) were God realizations, but no more profound than those I had on mushrooms. I never saw any entities or different worlds or some mother ayuasca nonsense. It was always me, God. In November 2022 the website started selling 5MeO-DMT pens and I was very happy because I had watched so many videos of Leo talking about this psychedelic. When the pen arrived, I made just 1-2 seconds pull and I almost had a panic attack. People who have never tried 5Me0 you have no idea how powerful it is. It is beyond your imagination, so you’d better stop fooling yourself. Anyways, I got scared and put the pen back in the box and then in my closet. A few weeks after I had a horrible day at work, I felt very angry and irritated. As soon as I came home, I took a shower and took out the pen from the closet. I decided to go slowly and also put some relaxing music. This was going to be the most profound day in my existence. As I was vaping the pen, I was going deeper and deeper. At the same time, I was soothing myself, talking to myself and even kissing parts of my body that were shacking. That night I vaped a half of my 1-gram 5MeO pen. As I was going through different dimensions, I was looking at things around me and I was literally zooming in infinitely into objects, especially my 5MeO cartridge. I was floored by the nature of my being. It’s pure beauty and pure love. Things that I realized and experienced are beyond words and beyond communication. The only thing I remember that at some point I vaped so much of 5MeO that I awakened completely. Complete awakening terrified me by its profundity, I realized that all this time up to this point I was dreaming. My life and everything in it were just a dream. I also realized that I was fooling myself all this time and I realized why I was doing it. I awakened to the fact that I created myself, my parents, everyone and everything in my life and that I had been denying it and using all my Gods power on self-deception. With this realization I experienced pure and infinite terror. I thought that I would never be able to fool myself anymore. Every trick that I was trying to play on myself and every rationalization were very easy to see, therefore, I couldn’t fool myself. At that point my panic was beyond any possible description. I was begging myself to go back, crying asking to come back. And while I was doing it, I was aware that I was asking myself. I spent one moment that paradoxically was infinity in my God’s agony. But of course, I was wrong and I constructed myself again. Next morning when I woke up, I told myself that whatever I experienced was impossible and I must’ve misunderstood something because people pursue enlightenment and awakening but God seemed to be very attached to the dream. I tried to disprove my awakening but over and over I would find myself at the same result. I even started shooting myself videos on 5MeO saying that I don’t want to wake up. Now I have like 10 of them on my iCloud (lol). I’m almost 28 now, and the last time I did 5MeO was half a year ago. The result was the same – I told myself not to pursue enlightenment until I’m at least 30. I want to enjoy the movie, the dream. And here I am, enjoying my dream typing these words, fooling myself that there is somebody who could read this 😊.
  2. Are you also vibrating Leo 😘
  3. Enlighten gurus like you can handle any vibration possible. Speaking of vibrations it just triggered flash back from one of my ex when her legs were shaking. I think that’s why I’m so emotional 🥹
  4. I want to apologize to you because you’re clearly very enlightened and went too deep. You have developed a lot of expertise and knowledge I’m just too stupid to understand it. I think you and Blessed Lion are on the same page of the highest awakening possible. You guys got the real and the truest truth possible! Thank you guys for investing so much time and wisdom into ignorant egos like myself. This forum would be dread without you
  5. You like a virgin who has never had sex but watched a lot of videos about it and heard a lot of stories. Now you’re coming to a an experienced pick up artist and trying to preach about it. You’re saying that sex is actually all the same and doesn’t matter how you have it and with whom and in what positions. But you’re still a virgin. You are a great example of a stage blue person, but in your case religion is replaced by psychedelics.
  6. Well, I can't get into a proper discussion with someone who thinks that DMT and 5MeO are the same things and with someone who has never done it. Continue filling your head with ideas that you get from other people. At the end of the day you're still ignorant.
  7. Exactly, you assume things. You didn't read carefully my post. I wasn't walking. "Whitnissing every technology, every alien race, every dimension with different beings" this part again proves the point that you have never done 5MeO-DMT and never had a break-throuhg on it. You have ideas and assumptions.
  8. We are talking about the same thing my friend. The problem is the language and the way we interpret the words that are part of the sentences we use.
  9. It is not the website I was ordering from
  10. They helped me to let go of those paths that were not authentic to me.
  11. The reason why I liked vaping 5MeO is that you can go as deep as you want too as fast as you want too. The only downside is the trips are shorter. It's like the deeper you go the more dimensions you transcend, but what it means I can't explain because it is beyond communication. It's pure mystery and magic. I also never experienced any kind of light but infinite emptiness where the experience is happening. It feels like the deeper you go the more empty the experience become, but the emptiness is love as well. I remember at some point I was in the dimension where the experience felt like boiling infinite love. It was insane. It was infinitely overwhelming. The only thought that was in my mind that the experience I was having was impossible, but it was getting more and more impossible. I also had this feeling of too much, I literally couldn't stand my own self and the ego was long gone. God can't stand its love. It's a paradox. It feels like you're drowning in yourself, but the problem is since you are immortal you drown endlessly. It's the most beautiful and the most terrifying experience you could possibly have. I remember having this feeling of please enough, but enough isn't in God's dictionary.
  12. Yes! During some trips I realized that everything that is happening is my Will. Every single second of the experience. I also realized that it's completely perfect and couldn't be better.
  13. 5MeO-DMT is not a joke. It shifted by default state of consciousness, but I can't call myself enlightened or awakened otherwise I wouldn't be here in the first place. But I became so much more aware of the fact that I'm constructing a lot of things.
  14. I realized that I have always been passionate about travelling and exploration and this passion was in me since childhood. I want to visit 100 countries before I die, although I'm still figuring out on how to do it.
  15. I don't get breakthrough from 12 mg, I need more and I think I actually vaped like 300 - 400 mg. It was a night trip from 1 am until 4 o'clock.
  16. Exactly, that's my plan. I did a lot of psychedelics but I haven't been meditating enough.
  17. Thank you Leo! All this time you've been like my virtual father guiding me on my journey that has just started.
  18. Thank you! I wish you like on your journey! Take it easy!
  19. There is definatelly something wrong with me. I read it as "5-MeO without trip sister"
  20. You need to seek professional help (therapy).
  21. Didn't you cover most of survival in your previous videos? I feel like with focusing on survival again you're trying to avoid something. How about your most profound awakenings yet? It's been a while since your last video about God.
  22. I once combined LSD 1 tab + 1.5 grams of some Golden Teacher. I had the most colorful trip I ever had. Although from 12 hours of tripping the only thing I remember is beautiful colours and nothing else. My next combo will be 5MeO+Mushrooms. You need to know that combining psychedelics is something very personal. I know a lot of people who like doing LSD and smoke weed at the same time. I tried it 2 times and i had the worst panic attacks possible.
  23. For the last year and a half I’ve been consistently going to night clubs almost every week. I’ve been trying to hit on women, but most of the time I had zero luck. The reason behind it is because I actually feel repulsed by tipsy / drunk / wasted women. Also, I have zero interested in talking to their friends on the dance floor. All of it has nothing to do with my authenticity. Which is why I decided to give up on the night game. Instead, I started going to night clubs that I personally enjoy and dance because I enjoy dancing. From a lonely and sexually hungry guy with a glass of water on a dance floor who stands there needfully looking for attractive women I turned into a my true authentic self. Now I’m the first one to dance on the floor. I enjoy the shit out of dancing on my own. For some reasons it looks very attractive to women and almost every night when I go out some beautiful girl is trying to dance to me or women get around me to be close to me. Meanwhile I don’t have time for them because i genuinely enjoying myself. Before I’d go home sad because I wouldn’t approach anyone or I wouldn’t get any results. Now I fucking love night clubs. When I was hitting on girls I got almost zero results, but since I stopped carrying about them (genuinely) I get approached by them.
  24. Bro when I lived in Ukraine I hanged out in the worst night clubs possible, but it was fun. Usually fights involved at the end Also, we hanged out yesterday, but I incarnated you into a different body. My biggest dream is to create Leo Gura, I always wanted to give him a body, kinda tired of creating him on my screen only
  25. Thank you no SelfSelf! I also bought myself a toy pussy and I go to escort girls once every month! I also found a bunch of female friends whom I don't consider sexually attractive but they help me to get my emotional needs met. Women turned out to be very good friends! But for real intimacy I do 5MeO-DMT, thanks God I am God any I can love myself infinitely Are there any latin clubs in Croatia? I'm thinking of visiting you my European friend