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The best video you have ever shot. I keep re-watching it every 6 months.

I'm sick of mySELF not wanting to wake up and myself trying to wake up. I'll be mainly focusing on meditation and achieving a no-thought state for more prolonged periods of time. Trying to push myself on psychedelics has become counterproductive and I feel intuitively that if I keep pushing I won't find myself in a pleasent state of mind. Maybe I am just not ready to fully wake up yet or maybe full awakening is a delusion because it's impermanent. Recently, I would have a breakthrough on 5MeO-DMT but only to find myself coming back into my default state almost immediately. It hadn't been that way before, I guess it's a sign for me to take a pause and fully integrate all of the things I have learned into daily life.

This sounds good but I wouldn't do any psychedelics given by a shaman, it's too risky and I don't know what I am consuming. But living there would be an interesting experience

It's been like 5 years since I started tripping, ever since I've been doing it consistently, the longest I would go without tripping was 6 months or so. Now, I reached the point where I noticed that I actually avoid life with spirituality and psychedelics. Ultimately, survival won't ever fulfill you. Life purpose is an ego construction and will never satisfy you, neither will you get satisfaction from chasing money, having family or becoming famous, because these things have hidden negative sides of duality and they are impermanent. It only looks that these things are designed to fulfill you, but the only thing that can do it is God. That's why I have developed some sort of an addiction to 5MeO-DMT. Nothing in life that I had experienced would ever make me as joyful and satisfied as breaking into infinity of Love, pure ones and awe, magical bliss. On the other hand, every time I would breakthrough, I would always choose to come back. And believe me, ego doesn't make that decision it's God. So basically when you're identified as Ego you want to get God but when you become God you want to come back as ego. I verified it in my direct experience multiple times. Ultimately, since God is so god damn good and one, it want to experience how to crave things and need something or someone. See the only reason you pursue awakening is because you want God, but God has always wanted to be you (small ego). Anyways, I am 28 and I reached the point where I don't know what is going on. All I know is that I can't be playing this games with 5MeO-DMT trying to chase God but ultimately coming back. My plan for now is to forget about psychedelics for 10 years and then we shall see.

Oh my man, you should be grateful that you live in Brazil. I used to work in San-Paulo and I never had problems with women there. Cold and direct approach is the best thing you can do. By the way, where are you from manito?

Exactly, there is not much you can do when it's -40°C outside.

Perfect combo, I guess I'll pass on it lol

I think Canada is a great place for self-realization and developing personal skills, perfect place for stage Orange. Also, most of the psychedelics are easily accessible, so potentially good place for spiritual seekers if you can avoid thousands of distractions of course. If you value genuine human connection, intimacy & authenticity Canada is one of the worst countries possible, probably the entire western culture. When I was a child my grandparents used to say "the rotten West" and I think there is definitely some truth to that, especially now. I don't know why but I think that even 20-30 years ago things were way better here, maybe I'm wrong.

I think most of the people here are stage Orange. On the other hand, I don't want to be dependent on my partner to have all my social and emotional needs met. Also the climate is killing me. I like lively vibes with dances, beaches. I don't care that much about career success or getting a lot of money. I think climate plays a huge role in the way people communicate. How do you like your life in Sweden?

Toronto will always have a special place in my heart. The parks are nice there and in general it's worth living there for a while. The midnight summer vibe in downtown is definitely something, same as crack heads smoking crack on 505 street cars

Spain is my next stop. I speak the language and the culture vibes with my personality + the climate is better.

It's poisoning my psyche because I'm used to blunt and direct, authentic communication and I feel hungry for it. Where are you from?

Hi, born & raised Ukrainian here. I've been living in Canada for almost 4 years and I would like to share my perspective on life here. I lived mostly in 2 provinces: Ontario (Toronto) and Alberta (Banff & Calgary). I work in a luxury hotel so my work involves a lot of communication with people. Let’s start with the things that I love about Canada: 1. You can meet people from everywhere (especially India & China). 2. You can be who you are (nobody cares about what you wear, what you believe, what is your sexual orientation, what are your family plans, etc.) 3. Minimal corruption (compared to my country). 4. Living conditions are good (even if you don’t earn that much). 5. It’s easy to fulfill your basics needs (food & shelter). 6. It’s safe (mostly). Now let’s get to the things that I can’t handle and why I’ll be moving. 1. Fakeness and inability to be intimate or direct presented as politeness (empty conversations). 2. Artificiality as the core of personality in people (identities build around entertainment, social media, celebrities). 3. Obsession with things, career growth and success. 4. Addictions. 5. Housing cost. 6. Cold weather.

Before we start, I want to leave no room for implicit interpretations or assumptions of what I mean by femininity. I’m definitely not talking about artificial, westernized notion of superior femininity which is spread these days, especially on social media. 80% of the modern women in the west (based on my personal observations and experience) represent this artificial femininity, but I’m not going to dive into this now, neither do I demonize it because we reap what we sow. My definition of femininity goes beyond human understanding and it’s based of my personal mystical experiences in consciousness work. Consciousness is Love and femininity is one side of the duality (and the other is masculinity). Both are Love and although they are expressed differently, they are one. Anyways, femininity is ability to recognize the beauty of consciousness represented in forms and receptivity to be affected by them by feeling deeply into them (empathy and connection). Let me give you a practical example. A few months ago, I saw a girl walking down the street with a small curly black puppy. When she was passing by me, I stopped her, asking for its name. She was a tiny black retriever pup. When I tried to reach out to her with my hand to pet her, she started wiggling with her cute little tail and she got very excited about it. The look in her eyes was pure infinite love behind the form and I was able to recognize it and feel it. I couldn’t help myself and I started crying (just a few drops of tears) because of how pure and adorable she was. This is an example of pure femininity and compare it to an Instagram influencer that gets excited by seeing a new fancy Gucci bag in her reel. Anyways, I’m 29 and most of my life (until the age of 26-27) I had been repressing strong feminine side in me and what I’ve noticed is that a lot of self-help for men lack holistic understanding of authenticity. Men are taught how to become more masculine but the truth of the matter is that not all of men are equally masculine and a lot of them are very feminine and what they actually need is embracing the feminine, because in most cases they are pushing the masculine part, denying the feminine which in return leads to overexaggerated and unbalanced personality rather than authenticity. Also, the more masculine you become the more needy you get for the feminine and the consequences of it are very well foreseen. You become a chaser, you become dependent on external femininity. What you need to do instead is to internalize and develop your inner femininity. When you do it you will become a whole and healthy, independent man. What it takes to integrate a very strong feminine side if you were born in a close-minded and stupid society that shames femininity in men and equals it to weakness? Well, it takes a lot. The more powerful this side is in a man the more difficult it gets, but of course it depends on the society, culture, family. If you are lucky to be born in a first world country, you’ll have it much easier. On the other hand, if you are born in a post soviet country (or something worse) you will face a lot of obstacles.

Dying alone is just part of the dream, we are one forever and have always been one. Enjoy loneliness before merging back into the oneness.