TheGod

First explain to me what is color red provided I´m blind

Who said that it's separate from reality?

Yes, you are correct. I am awakening but I haven´t awoken yet.

As I told you language just makes everything worse. You have your ideas about specific words and concepts and their interpretations. What I meant by saying I am the center of the universe is I am it´s creator because it´s coming from me, I am the source. And when I am talking about myself I don´t mean that ego is the creator of the universe. Once more, the languge is useless-

I did 5MeO-DMT probably 50 times or even more. Most of the trips can't be shared because they are not from this paradigm. Languge is useless. Most of my trips I would wake up to my ultimate nature as god as center of the universe and its creator. Anyways, I won't try to explain it because it's not exactly what I am saying.

Health situation has nothing to do with the things I'm talking about. I'm not seeing demons, white lights or visions of Jesus christ. I'm talking about being aware of being aware, nothing more. I become more and more aware that I am aware.

Let's go to a good horror movie and I won't have to use any single though or a word.

I had to google this guy because I never heard about him I like it, must be so loving

Oh yeah, me too

I'll try it too

I am very positive that I will eventually reach a no-return point. Because my state of consciousness grows without me doing anything. Ever since I did 5MeO-DMT I crossed the line.

I'll try it today in the church

Yes, that's what I have been doing so far but it's all in vain. And to be honest by this time I just want to wake up

The feeling I am talking about isn't a thought

That's a great idea, I'll try it more. I've been doing it because life actually sucks and I'm tired of living like a worm, so i am trying to convince myself to wake up