emil1234

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  1. truly comprehending the radicality of the hard problem of consciousness should make everyone question materialism
  2. wow i fucking love hyperdimensional shit. super interesting report. DMT realm is the place to go if u wanna go full hyperdimensional
  3. i smoked weed earlier today, and i got totally fucking blown away. it was SUPER psychedelic, nearing god consciosuness i would say. there was no distinction between my body and the world at all. I became my entire sphere of experience without any discrimination. ALL me, totally alone. very solipsistic. a sense of loneliness struck me, but i quickly realized that i only felt lonely in virtue of my conceptualization of the incident. the experience itself was not lonely, only my thoughts surrounding it, and my thoughts are not truth. I was able to understand at a pretty high level how i was creating my entire existence, and how i was deluding myself into thinking i was a seperate human being. i created gurus, leo, everybody, just for the joy of it i guess. and my conceptualization around it all was the dream / delusion. its all a fucking illusion. I broke out in laughter in the middle of my city, because I realized that every single apperance / object / thing in existence is literally God itself screaming at itself HERE I AM, HOW STUPID ARE YOU. nothing exists which is not that. It got pretty intense and it kind of terrified me. i felt like i was being sucked into the vortex of existence. felt like i was about to leave my body or something. enlightenment is the most obvious thing ever because its all there is (im not enlightened, but would label this an enlightenment experience) god is a never ending party. this is existence. it fucks itself for ever
  4. given that eternity already is the case, if eternal non existence were ever to be, it should be the case right now. See even if you were to attain a lasting state of non existence, nothing would prevent it from popping back into existence again. and this moment is proof that it will the unmanifest is the manifest didnt someone say something like that once?
  5. @VeganAwake i feel like i got the cosmic joke for a second. its literally fucking hilarious. everything you've ever been searching for has always been all that has ever existed. its always been right in front of your fucking eyes, and not only that, YOU FUCKING ARE IT. its so fucking funny man. HAHAHAHAH. literally the greatest possible joke in all of eternity. god has a fucking mindblowing sense of humor. LOL!!!!!!
  6. ive been getting heavily back into pickup lately. ive been getting pretty nice results, and id say my game is pretty good by now. I'm totally chilled out, relaxed and myself when i talk to girls, in nearly all cases. i have no problem walking up to a girl asking for her instagram or if she wants to go home with me, stuff like that. HOWEVER. I now find myself in a situation where i've acquired a pretty intense crush. and i find that i fucking cant talk to her lol. we've flirted around quite a bit, both shown interest in one another,had some nice conversations and such. then we didnt see eachother for about a week, and during that time my crush on her grew dramatically lol. i then ran into her today, and i was FUCKING CRIPPLED by anxiety lol. couldnt talk to her casually, couldnt keep proper eye contact, etc. how the fuck does one talk to a girl that they actually like? (IVE NEVER BEEN IN LOVE, SO LITERALLY NEVER TRIED IT(not that im in love with her)). also, how the fuck do i practice this? i feel like its kind of a waste practicing on my crush now that i finally have a crush. i was pretty surprised by this, since i should be a master of anxiety by now (i do cold showers every day, breathwork, meditate etc, so i have pretty decent control over my nervous system)
  7. @Javfly33 i know i raged on you in one of my other posts, but this super true. thanks haha
  8. i'd make the case that even physical pain is not negative, until the mind labels it negative. ive been practicing cold showers for a long time now, and once the mind quits labelling the experience, the experience of icy water hitting the body is itself just another experience. the body literally does not give a fuck what happens to it, the mind does. the body itself is a zero fuck giver this is of course a radical statement, and i'd also submit that there exist cases of such extreme pain that the mind inevitabelly makes the experience negative. ID ASSUME? who knows.
  9. I think the burden of proof is on the rejectors of god realization. Their claim is that god realizations are a product of the brain. Okay, lets take that point of view: We have an experience of life. We dont know why its here, but we assume its generated by the brain. We also do not know why the brain is here. The brain neither explains itself nor does it explain the surrounding reality. There exists an experience, which we call god realization. This experience explains itself totally. It also explains what we call life or reality, and thus it also explains the existence of the human brain. Looking at it through these parameters: logically, god realizations should be the more plausible reality? The brain does not explain god realization, but god realization explains the brain. I'm having a hard time finding plausible arguments which reject god realization. The only one i can come up with, is that in God realizations, consciousness is eternal, but consciousness SEEMINGLY can disappear (or not?) during for example deep sleep or buddhist cessations / nirvakalpa samadhi Further, I also find that it would be incredibally random if the human brain, which evolved solely with the purpose of survival, should evolve to be able to generate experiences such as God realization. It seems completely unnecessary, when looking at the main objective of the evolution of the human brian, which is survival.
  10. i like this. the intelligence of god operates even where there is no experience
  11. really? the thing is that this is one of the first times i've smoked weed since i enbarked my spiritual journey. so i basically havent smoked weed for the better part of 3 years. it was completely without comparison, in terms of how it used to affect me before spiritual practice. but i believe you, this was the highest lvl of understanding i've ever had of reality, even compared to LSD / ayahuasca states i've experience. i havent done 5meo, but it was kind of what i imagine 5meo to be. basically no visuals, just pure heightened understanding/consciousness, and a sense of breaking your physical boundary and melting with everything. im very tempted to try it again
  12. i agree. spiritual practice is the way to a good life, psychedelics dont provoke change if you dont change your life. however true insights about the nature of reality can be gathered through psychedelics, and i've been able to empirically verify this for myself. interactions with the external physical world is possible through certain states of consciousness
  13. remember what i said about superiority complex? your ego manages to elude all of that sadhana it would seem
  14. bro. you literally watched a video with sadhguru saying god is not the goal, mukti is, and here you are declaring it like its a personal discovery of yours. you have zero direct experiential insights into the claims you are making, you are literally just assuming stuff you hear your authority figure say and take it for truth. im not saying its not true, im saying im tired of reading your posts proclaiming deep spiritual insights which you literally just sniped off some internet guru. your level of personal insight seems extremely low to me, especially considering the amount of superiority complex in your posts
  15. lol yes. its literally very sexual. everything is penetrating itself
  16. @Recursoinominado yes, agree completely. i used to smoke a lot of weed in the past, prior to all of my spiritual work, and it didnt have a psychedelic effect on me at aaaaaall. i noticed a huge shift in the effect of weed after my first LSD experience
  17. and btw weed has been used for millennia for spiritual purposes in india. its highly revered in the hindu traditions
  18. then what are you doing on here? all you do is reproduce teachings you got from gurus, and try to act superior in terms of spiritual evolution. literally get negative vibes from every single post of yours
  19. @Sempiternity yes i agree completely, thoughts are true in virtue of them existing as thoughts, but they are deceptive since they will never be whatever object they point to. but yea man, this completely changed my perspective on weed, i had no idea it could get that intense. id probably rank it one of my most significant awakenings overall, and ive done plenty of psychedelics
  20. @Buck Edwards life is so much more soft and loving. its like it removed a barrier between me and existence. it gave me trust in the universe. cant describe it. went from being so fucking tired of life to absolutley loving every single moment
  21. my ayahuasca trip increased my life quality with literally 150% permanently (or at least so far, its been 10 months since the trip. still going strong)