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@OBEler the thing is u dont lose consciousness by not clinging to it. funny how spongebob doesnt get less fun with age

do not even use consciousness as an anchor. ive been attached to consciousness during my meditations as well, fearing that i would lose it. when i finally let go of that fear, my sense of self dropped away, and only existence itself remained. letting go of consciousness does not mean you lose it, it means you set it free everything you cling to holds you back

that would be epic

So just a couple of days ago, i discovered the power of integrating my subconscious aka shadow work. Literally the last couple of days has been so transformative for me, because i've become aware of how i actively and ongoingly surpress emotions and feelings. The thing is this; I've been abiding in awareness the last year or so, which shadow work revealed to me, to be somewhat of a disassociation from thoughts, feelings and emotions. whenever an emotion / feeling arises(it seems not only to be thoughts and feelings, but literally all sensations, including audiotory and visual), it seems i have two options; retreat to awareness and be somewhat at peace, let the emotion play itself out. OR abide IN the emotion, completely become the emotion and dissolve it into your being. becoming the emotion definetely feels the most right, but its also a form of clinging I feel that integrating my subconscious, as an ongoing, live process, where i continuesly recognize and embrace how i truly feel every moment about whatever arises, is kind of a contrast to abiding as awareness. its more of a clinging than completely letting go and abiding as awareness. So what I'm getting at, is that I'm not sure how to adminstrate the two, being shadow integration vs abiding as pure unpersonal awareness. shadow integration feels personal, awareness does not. So in short; how to best and most effectively utilize the two perspectives or states? I feel myself kind of swapping between awareness and integration, not really sure when to apply the one over the other

@Breakingthewall i literally only became aware of this like 4 days ago, and i can say that the last 4 days has been the most transformative since i started spiritual practice

@gettoefl i guess this stuff is different for everybody. tahts the thing, half the time you're not even sure you're doing it correctly just gotta do what seems the most effective to you i guess

@Breakingthewall knew there was some epic backstory

@Breakingthewall whats the story behind your profil picture ive been wondering

while i agree that its inherent for the mind to fill in gaps, some stories tend to enforce more imagination than others. if i tell you to imagine infinite goodness, eternal love beauty and bliss, you will have all sorts of ideas of what that would be like. if i tell you to imagine absolute Nothingness on the other hand, well.. i agree

this is why many spiritual traditions, especially buddhism, almost exclusively use negative terms (anatman, anicca,nirvana etc), in order to not have people imagining stuff about spirituality, thus hindering their awakening. i believe it is also why many teachers refuse to talk about metaphysical stuff in general whilst i absolutley love leo and his teachings, I must admit that gaining intellectual understanding of all of this metaphysical stuff has been a huge hinderance on my own journey, because it made me conjure up images and expectations about awakening.

imo the "visuals" of absolute pure perception of reality on 5meo beats any classic psychedelic visuals

so theres no experience happening right now? that seems to me the only absolute undebatable truth. that there is an experience happening

wtf do u mean. people overdramatize the implications of no-self so much. experiences still happen even through theres no seperate entity experiencing them existence is obviously still here even through "you" are not.

i did a cacao ceremony like a month ago and yea, its basically like a natural mdma trip i absolutley loved it

imo the 5 meo energy has always been there, its the most natural thing ever. 5meo is like a rememberance

I'm getting mixed signals. I used melatonin daily (6mg), and im unsure as to how long prior to 5meo i need to discontinue the melatonin. the facilitator told me that i didnt need to worry about it, however searching the internet, it appears there are potential interactions between the two drugs, since melatonin affects serotonin transmitters. The first time i did 5meo, i discontinued melatonin 2 days prior, and it went perfectly. Its however worth noting that discontineuing melatonin is fucking annoying for me, becuase i basically cant sleep when i dont use it do any of u 5meo users also use melatonin? and if so, how do u manage the possible interaction?

@shree only thing i would be missing would be NN dmt breakthrough

https://www.reddit.com/r/nonduality/comments/1ia19sy/a_yogi_is_found_by_the_indian_army_in_the/ for some reason couldnt post in the video section. feel free to relocate if necessary

agreed. resisting insanity is a huge blockage. i only recently overcame this obstacle myself. if you've experienced true insanity, like on a psychedelic trip for example, you know its probably one of the most dreadful thing in existence. ever since my badtrip i feared insanity way more than death.

funny, the rolling around is what i find the must credible about the video. its just child like play

yes it makes me cry thinking about it

really, yet another curse placed upon you? damn bro. you collecting them curses

@Someone here so u're saying that you will exist as your specific human persona forever?

main insight?

wtf is this bro. literally handwritten anxiety