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"You need nothing to be happy, but you need something to be sad." -Mooji

@Nahm The problem is that I don't have time to do everything. I am trying to figure out which one to pick. There is no way I can meditate for 2 hours a day, work on life purpose, work a 25 hour per week job, do pickup, and go to college.

I have had quite a few weird meditation experiences. Such as: Laughing uncontrollably, speaking in tongues, spitting, screaming, spontaneous mudras and asanas. The weirdest by far is sometimes my body, involuntarily, will jump off the couch and start pacing around the house, while screaming and speaking in tongues. It honestly feels like I am possessed sometimes.

So I have been meditating for a year now using the do nothing technique and some crazy shit has been happening. At first it was minor, my neck started doing circular movements by itself and then it would calm down. After months of meditating though, very bizarre things are happening. Sometimes when I meditate, I start screaming at the top of my lungs, I speak in tongues, I will start singing or my body will stand up seemingly on it's own accord and pace around the house. What's bad is it happened at school. I came in to class very blissful and was laughing hysterically at nothing. I then felt this overwhelming amount of energy take control over my body. My body was moving into yoga postures and I started screaming in class and was yelling things in some unknown language. It honestly felt like I was possessed. I felt extremely blissful afterwards, like I had released a ton of negative energy from my body, but I scared the shit out of the whole school and my girlfriend. Because of that, my girlfriend completely cut off all contact with me and I am banned from campus because of it. My question is, if this is kundalini, I don't know whether I should stop meditating or what I should do, as it is severely disrupting my college and social life. I already have an appointment with a psychiatrist, but I really don't want to take medication if it's not an illness, as I have heard of the negative effects these medications can cause long-term.

@Marc Schinkel Thanks! I didn't realize Shinzen had a video explaining this.

You're right. I'm glad I have you guys

Yeah, it is subtle, but I definitely notice a difference in awareness. I feel like I reached a new level of awareness, as my meditations have been much deeper since that incident.

@Loreena Yeah, you should have seen some of the faces of my classmates! This one girl seemed really traumatized afterwards and my girlfriend had to get counseling. My professor thought I was going to kill her. I felt really bad once reality kicked in. I severely underestimated this stuff.

@Deep I'll have to do some major searching, as I can hardly find anyone interested in spirituality where I live. I didn't feel any burning sensation in my spine. It felt like there was a ton of energy circulating throughout my body, starting from my chest and spreading throughout my arms and legs.

@AlwaysBeNice Yeah, I couldn't stop it. I felt it coming on and I was like "Oh shit". I lost all conscious control of my body. It felt like an overwhelming force of energy and it pushed "me" in the background while it did its dirty work.

At what age did you lose your virginity?

Anyone know the best place to find a meditation teacher or mentor? I searched for one in my area and no one seems to teach meditation here unfortunately. Do I even need a teacher? I have been meditating for a year now and a lot of crazy shit has been happening. I feel like I could use some guidance, so I don't get lost on this journey... Some feedback would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Hey Leo! I was just curious what meditation technique(s) you currently do?

Hey everyone, so I've recently had a phenomenon come up during meditation and was wondering what could be going on. I've been meditating consistently for 5 months now and recently have started the "do nothing" technique, with my eyes open. During the first minute or two, my vision will start to flicker and will fade in and out. My vision does this constantly throughout the meditation and about 10 minutes after I'm finished. One day this week I meditated throughout the day and it lasted the whole day, regardless of what I was doing. Anyway I was just curious to find out if anyone has any idea what this could be? Is it just another experience that will past with time? Or could it be some neurological problem?