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Can you elaborate?

@Azrael I always say to myself: Dont put teachers on pedsastals. Except for Allan Watts. He'a a god. He's not just a dude. He is my everything <3 ahh... his charisma. Such a gangster

@Leo Gura This is the example of how you invited psychadelics into your path isn't it? :-)

@Wormon Blatburm The only legitimate rule of thumb in terms of past lives and rebirths (if I suppose they exist) is that you wouldn't wanna experience something you've already experienced in the past. So when you're born in this time on earth, it's more like a challenging experience, that could be a transition to a different cycle of being? Idk that's just a random totally random thought LOL

@Emerald Wilkins Of course it wouldn't work haha, I was being sarcastic :D.

Yeah taht's the whole baybay garden of Eden, the creation of ego. Just to get this straight though, I am pretty sure that if humans go on for long enough, children will start being born without the need for an ego.

@Emerald Wilkins I can't stop thinking about someone like Eckhart-Tolle having a child and talking to the toddler like "you're enlightened, I ain't gonna reinforce no ego in you" with a wide smile =D.

@Emerald Wilkins In a way I am very much emphasizing the trauma that blocks the first 3-4 chakras, that is the biggie for me. And that is where majority of problems stem from.

@Emerald Wilkins Yes great point. Therefore I am talking about the trauma that is repressed after ego is formed. I wouldn't fuck around a child's process of creating an ego. That could lead to a serious psychosis =D.

@Neo Acknowledging that war exists and accepting it with love understanding kindness and compassion is one thing. Getting your legs blown off by a grenade is another one. Can you accept war without losing your feet? Let me tell you my story, just for comparison. In summer 2016 I left for a university in a foreign country, before that spending majority of my time home, consciously cutting off my social life and stopped caring about my extended family, and my parents as well to an extent. Now in the university I really don't have much space for socializing and going out since most of my time is spent healing and integrating. The rest I spend studying and going for lectures, I do spend a small amount of my time just hanging out with some people just so I have a few contacts. The amount of growth I have experienced in the past 6-8 months is just crazy. The base-line I was coming from was extremely low self-esteem (pretty sure I was getting close to a borderline-personality disorder). The situation that I am now is just vastly advanced compared to 8 months ago. My heart, solar-plexus and Sacral chakra are de-traumatized, now working on the root chakra (yeah, survival, feels like im dying but whatever). The amount of clarity I gained when I cleared my sacral chakra was incredible, and as my root chakra is getting close to being healed, I can only imagine how much the clarity is going to rise up. So yes, if you really feel like cutting your mother off then do it =D. Also realize though that she can ruin your self-image only if you allow it. I get along with my parents much better after spending much time just healing myself in isolation. From what you're saying I think I can guess the stage you're in, I think I've gone past that stage and if you want some techniques that helped me out quite a bit P.M me, but maybe I am plain wrong right so no pressure dear =D. But I understand that from where you're probably right now, imagining a perfect society sounds nuts.

This makes 0 sense to me can you elaborate?

@Wormon Blatburm I think you can expand through joy as much as you expand through pain Let there be this phenomena in the other infinite realities than this one

@Wormon Blatburm I dislke this mindset because you are limiting the human potential, if you don't you can literally create perfect society

@Neo With your logic we should all go to war to gain the experience.

@Neo dont misinterpret "trauma-free" for "out of touch with reality". If emotional distress is experienced, when the child can express the emotion its fine. When you forbid it from experiencing trauma is being stored in the body.

@Spacious yess, your why evolves. It isn't changeless and can be transcended

So in quantum mechanics, (don't ask me details I just use it to prove a point I'm no expert on physics =D) there is this theory that solely conducting an experiment determines or affects its result. As if you have an intention for a certain outcome, and that's what you get. I believe you do this with personal development and meditation on a macro level. What is meditation for. Like really, what is it for? - clear your unconscious trauma? - enlightenment? - stress reduction? - concentration benefits? - peace of mind? - blabla blu ble blo? It is all these things and more, as well as none of the above. The intention behind meditation is a bigass thing in my experience. The moment I realized the enormously huge emotional baggage I carry from my past my meditation habbit became about that. All I do is about clearing it out. If I had an awakening my meditation would prolly become about enlightenment. If I was too stressed it would be about stress reduction. Now this doesn't work a 100% right, I still get glimpses of One consciousness throughout meditation etc. it is not all about my baggage. But it is the thing I focus on. The information I receive I filter through a lense - how does this correlate to emotional suppression and release? The intention Why do you what you do?

@Nahm Thanks, I know I am not a newbie to it. Have been in this for a year almost now. I am approaching a breaking point.

@jse Let me rephrase. I doubt one can exist in a 3D reality without an intention

@Whywolf Oh intention and outcome are very different. You can still have an intention and be fully detached from an outcome. There is an intention behind your life, just as there is an intention behind every action you take, so there surely must be an intention behind your habit of sitting down quietly. Intention is something non-needy, something that allows willingness to experience. That is what I Mean by intention. One more thing about the intention. You are not the origin of the intention. Yet it is there.

@Whywolf I doubt you can exist without intention.

@Ramu that's got nothing to do with enlightenment.

@Oneness Yeah that is actually my take on it as well. Just keep your priorities straight. I am currently working on my emotional stability, shadowork, integrating, and that means very little social life, and since I have/had intimacy issues, also 0 relationships or sex. I am not planning on living in celibacy though, not at all, it just doesn't fit in now.

@Sukhpaal Loneliness = emotion. Not a physical phenomenon. I can feel lonely in a crowd of friends. WHat I have come to understand in my own journey is that the source of my loneliness is abandonment trauma from when I was very young. This doesn't mean your mother died or anything, it can be very subtle. To the child abandonment = death. That creates a whole life-long reaction to it, your whole life you will be living accordingly just so to avoid this emotion until it is dealt with. My remedy for loneliness = spend time alone as much as I can, as much its driving me nuts at times. Now healing can take place.