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So this happened

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@pfletcha ground yourself in the body. Best way fir describing DP is like consciousness hiding in the attic while there is a party in the rest of the house. Its a defense against too painful of an experience. Move yourself towards your emotions instead of trying to detach yourself. Instead of feeling sad - “I am sadness, sadness I am.” etc. Do not negatr your emotional body. Love yourself and your inner wounds with a passion!!

Dude there is a story of her licking injured person’s wounds and healing him.

U bettah write a report!!!!! Pretty please...

“I wish I was this or that” is a red flag inviting you to dig deeper. Why are you the way you are? Is it 100% natural, or are you reacting against something?

@0ne Your shadow is being reintegrated, congratulations. The fact that you are under the impression of being depressed/bipolar suggests that you might not wanna push yourself too hard. Integration of your shadow is a very paniful and difficult work. And powerful psychedelics will open you up to that. Just take it slow, may this be a lesson not to force yourself too hard into this spiritual nonsense. :-) Life will give you enough opportunities to integrate. No need to force it.

Winderful question. So basically after being lost most of my life, I put all my hopes for happiness into a girl, and got my heart broken. I got really depressed and after about 2-3 months, my kundalini awoke. I had no idea about the significance of it, but I just knew its my repressed material being cleared, whilst as well i got a loot into PD. I loved it, especially emotional releases, therapy, affirmations... And at the same time, I learned about enlightenment from Leo. He wen’tbin saying like “oooh ur not a person” and I was like “yeah that makes actually a lot of sense”, but I felt like pursuing enlightenment would such a nonsense. (Like self-enquiry) So I just meditated for PD reasons, learned about emotions, psychology, relationships, pickup... And then I finally got properly in touch with my repressed shadow, and fucking hell I thought I was possesed. After all the workd Ive done, all the affirmations I uttered, there was a voice in my head that was calling me “worthless” and no amount of fighting with it would make it change. And that is when it got serious. Later on I realized the significance of kundalini and it stopped being unbearable. Now its literally only me allowing life having its process with me. Did you ask about how did we get to enlightenment, and I gave you the whwole storyyy??!! Youre welcomeee!! O:)

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@Preetom Nop. And funnily enough the less I “run into the big I am” the more it tends to reveal itself to me

I have no idea. Yeah thats right. A wonderful thing about kundalini is that, because you become so grounded in your body, you get quite a good feedback of what works or what doesnt. Nothing has ever worked better than love. My practice is genuinely being so gentle and compassionate with myself that I become best friends with my neuroses. And then love whatever arises. And ofc bring that attitude into all my relationships. There’s even stuff like no-fap that are generally quite good for kundalini, but compared to love its almost insignificant in my exp. And eventhough I masturbate much less nowadays, it is a byproduct of the love and emotional freedom Ive cultivated. I do meditate sometimes and its helpful to remind myself to be more relaxed and im my body, but I dont have a daily practice. Self-enquiry does NOTHING. At all. Also I watch a bunch of anime and that sometimes triggers powerful emotions in me (im completely serious, I wept throughout binging all of naruto).

No. The case that you first self-realized and then awaken kundalini has been most common. I am one of those who awaken kundalini before self-realization, and that path will (hopefully) take me all the way. I am not so sure about this being too rare anymore. It is the return of the divine feminine/ shakti nowadays after all :). There seems to be a bunch of individuals with awakened kundalini w/o first self-r.

@electroBeam its because they think enlightenment is a withdrawal from illusory form. Which it is, like the first half of it. Then you complete the circle, and you come back to form - shakti. Advaita is the first stage, then you return to form/life/love. Another good metaphor is the divine feminine and masculine. The father that dwells in heavens - nothingness, the divine mother - shakti, kundalini and form. Full enlightenment is merger of masculine and feminine. Ah I just recalled Leo once saying that meditation is like having sex with reality. How accurate, the father nailing the divine mother.

@electroBeam you might wanna check out Jann Essman. One of the things he says is “practice love and devotion”. http://lovebliss.eu/

@Nahm Thank you that is very kind

It can be tricky what one calls an awakening, or a glimpse. For instance, I had an awakening after reading an article online in the Summer 2 years ago. And I had no idea it was one. So I forgot about it. It wasn't until I had another one, this summer (during the Eclipse day), that I remembered that this isn't the first time Im feeling this. So one can have an awakening and not remember it, and it can still trigger a process in us. And just as with kundalini, some can have it after self-realization, some can have it before anything at all, I would say that the "process of awakening" - the purification of your nervous system to be able to uphold the states of enlightenment, can be triggered without an actual glimpse. There are many ways consciousness can awaken in all of us. The reason why this is important is that many people track their progress by "how many glimpses they've had". That just isn't right. Glimpse doesn't mean anything. It doesn't necessarily have to mean a start, and it doesn't have to mean anything at all. It can be followed by a great shift in how we perceive life, but then again, if we say that the shift was "caused" by the glimpse, are we really sure about that? What if the shift is caused by nothing, just as the glimpse was caused/cause by/of nothing. And then comes the dark night! :-) And I can say this as someone who has been going through a very rough dark night for almost 2 years now. According to Jan Essman, there is the DNO the mind and DNO the soul. Mind is falling apart of your mental constructs, and Soul is your kundalini integrating into your system all the dormant energy of your ego. But what if, the entire life we live, is our dark-night? What if our entire life is our spiritual journey? What if spiritual journey isn't something that happens after an experience, or when we start wondering about reality. What if the spiritual journey is the evolution of a soul/spirit, as it goes through the experiences of being a human! What if every moment of your entire life, and all your lifetimes is a crucial part of your endless expansion, and what we call an enlightenment, is just the realization, or rememberance, that all is well, all is one, and there is inherently nothing to worry about. And that is the end of the dark night, and that's when shit gets good! And the way we progress on the thing we call a "spiritual-path" - which is basically everything we do, because it serves only our highest evolution, but you know... we like to call it the times, when we buy that special meditation pillooow, and write on actualized.org, we stop calling her a nagging wife, we call her a demon, we don't go to work, but we are tortured by satan in hell, we don't get a house, but we receive a manifestation, we then sit on our butt and do this really weird activity where we just... sit, and judge ourselves, SO deeply.... and we call it a meditation, and then we go: "oh my god, I did so well, I judged the shit ouf of myself, I think I abandoned my inner child and became one with god!" And then we go to our friends, and instead of bragging to them about our new car, or the hot 20yo we just banged, we tell them about our "enlightenment experiences" and we write trip-reports, just to get validation and say "oooh this is just for you guys so you can benefit"..... weell... is it really? Reaallyy? Did you Really have to write in capslock I AM GOD and then say to yourself "it is for the greatest good of all". Or we just write about the dark night of the soul, and make fun of the things other people do, and how they write trip-reports, and think to ourselves "pfuuhhh, Im so much better than all those people who write trip-reports online" (yeah I think I wrote that i am god one). Everything is spiritual evolution. What sense would it make, if we divided behaviour into spiritual and non-spiritual. Intense periods, can be a dark night. btw at this point I have no idea whom im answering, what Im talking about, or what Im answering, I think I started having too much fun.

@haai14 it sounds like youre ready for nothing but love to lead the way. I recommend checking out Matt kahn, whatever arises love that. Now there’s no going back, and only love will make sense of this. Goood luck!

@haai14 Yeah. Could you talk a bit more about your experience?

Haha well that’s nice

@Sine Im aware that as soon as I say this, I will probably get banned off this forum, ostricized, excluded, humiliated and honestly if I shared my address I bet id be getting a big bunch of death-threats. but Im just gonna say it woah exhales dramatically heeere goes... you don’t have to meditate. If meditation frustrates and leads to nothing YOURE NOT DOING IT WRONG its just showing you when its not a great time for you to meditate. So I present to you an alternative. Love yourself instead.

Ive been doing a uni assignment, the topic is “use of psychedelics in Mental health”. Ive been having a little bit of trouble coming up with relevant contemporary academic research, since paychedelics are still difficult to test due to stigma and legal issues. So I figured I would ask psychonauts of this forum. If you have any useable resources, please share! Thank you so much!

Maps is a resource I wasn't able to use too well. Most of their studies are ongoing. It takes ages to get funding for psychedelics cuz of the goddamn stigma. There are people who publish articles about psychedelics being effective and they lose their jobs over it.