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@EvilAngel Has it ever happened to you where youre overcoming codependency and all your friends who are still steeped in it are now all really weird to hang out with, and you just dont know what to do without looking like a little bit of a dick? Defeinitely happened to me a lot

Haha really thats funny. Its true it did give off a bit of a codependent vibe... Even Matt did admit that it took him until recently to really work out codependency so who knows... maybe this was one of those working out moments ._.

@EvilAngel I love Anita, if you wanna look into the same type of integrating the ego check out Matt Kahn he even did a facebook chat with her about life and stuff, theyre friends :-) And of course love the ego as the soul that resides within as an expression of consciousness, loving the ego is like loving the dormant, child-like potential that when integrated becomes an expression and embodiment of the soul. Its like loving the ego is loving the inner child. and Who is it that is loving the inner child??....Said the person who received an official award of the most neglectful and abusive parent ever. Congratulations

im so sorry that life sucks like this for you. It sucks for me right now too... I am in a lot of pain. Maybe we can be friends in our pain. :-)

I had a lucid dream-like experience of visiting the akashic records. There I was approached by souls from my life, namely many characters that abused me in my childhood asking for my forgiveness and apologizing for the pain they caused me. Next day as I woke up, I got a text from a former friend who has anti-social personality disorder - who preyed on me when I was a teenager - asking me for something, and I just swiftly replied with "No thank you." symbolising my ending of the codependent cycle. At the same time I was then guided to watch many videos on youtube about gaslighting and narcissism. Later the same day I was a witness to intense level of attempts of the two narcissistic roommates to gaslight me. It was fascinating. One of them, a covert narcissist acting like a totally sweet person, tried to diminish my attempt to comfort a friend. The other one - overt narcissist, said something about my sweet potato in the oven... AINT NOONE TALKING SHIT ABOUT MY POTATO! My sweet potato is a gift from heaven and you shall not spew your poison on such Aight?! Today was really intense! edit: Oh yeah there is an eclipse coming in tomorrow so this all makes sense :D. I wish everyone a happy blood moon 21.1/18 :-) edit2: I should mention during this visit I was balling so hard, I mean I was hurt really badly as a child and I have totally forgotten and dissociated from that. I am so grateful I get to heal all this pain. I have also become very needy and codependent and for some reaosn I absolutely LOVE discovering that part of me. It finally feels like I am able to invite intimacy in. Btw akashic records are pretty awesome, heaven rocks guys. The energy is pure bliss and perfection of consciousness.

@Mu_ MMm you radiate such a nice energy.

@Simon Håkansson That sounds like an awesome idea. Apologising can do several things. 1. You take fully and officially accountability for your actions, 2. If there is any residual pain that your friend might be struggling to release, your apology can help a lot and do a lot of healing work. :-)

@Arhattobe Thanks. Ive been practicing and embracing being a child its doing such a work on my healing journey. Its nice to hear a validating feedback like yours. Whate are you talking about bro empathy is Gooorgeous.... being an empath is such a privellege and can feel soo good when you get to the bottom of the conditioning weve taken on from others. Being an empath is a glorious privellege, honor and one of the highest paths of mastery one can undertake. For no empath that ever existed has it ever been helpful to play small, endulge in self-denial and have more self-doubt. What empaths need is confidence, knowing that their feelings and desires matter! Finding self worth and value. Releasing all that creative power thats been trapped within their sacral chakras.

@Arhattobe Well congratulations, youve just found out that you are quite special... isnt that ironic.

@Arhattobe no my issue is people who walk around who think they know about what empaths go through and then throw around statements such as "youre not special, dont identify as a lightworker" while pretending that its some sort of a helpful spiritual wisdom of detachment. The truth of the matter is that all empaths by enlarge have incredibly deeply rooted self-esteem issues, as we feel the repressed emotions of other people, from a very young age there is a tendency to interpret that and make that about oureslves. Then you walk around literally thinking on an emotional leve that you are the cause of the worlds pain.' Identifying as a lightworker is what heals this trauma. Telling people theyre not special deepens this trauma. Its an abusive thing to do. So if you wouldnt mind, stop. Thanks.

oh at least we can agree on something!

dont mistake self-denial for consciousness

@tentacion Hi! Ego is the part of consciousness that is dormant, yet not evolved so in the same way like children grow into adults, ego becomes integrated as an integral part of your consciousness and allows your personality to be a pure reflection of a conscious reality that you are :-)

@brugluiz I would absolutely adore if you managed to get off of them. And here is why I say that. Being an empath is a very difficult and strange journey at first. We are living in a world where majority of people are completely disconnected from their emotions, and that can leave us feeling like we are totally insane, while in fact we are just feeling what the rest of the world is avoiding. This doesnt make us mentally ill, schizophrenic or crazy, that just makes us more aware. Embracing our empathic gifts is a learning curve, and so I would highly encounrage you to get off your medication at any pace you find suitable for your journey. You are not a failure, good for nothing or one to be blamed for anything at all. Your empathic sensitivities are what the world is lacking, and I beg of you, do not hold yourself back in that regard. Empathy, compassion, and love are who you naturally are, may those qualities be embraced as your new identity of who you are. It is okay to be different than the world around you... have you looked at the world? Its pretty batshit crazy, I think its lowkey good news when we realize to be different than the world. I love you <3 And thank you for taking the time to post here.

@brugluiz Hello fellow empath. Can I ask about your plans with the anti psychotics?

@Hellspeed And you get off on that, thats obvious. Doesnt calrify much.

@Hellspeed Idk what youre saying man

You want a beef mate? jk =D, what im saying is that once a kundalini process starts its irreversible and unstoppable, and is not dependant on whether you are or are not sitting in a meditation. The sensations and flow of energy of course changes over time, depending on where youre at energetically and what youre doing. I for one have this really unpleasant and visceral experience of having my kundalini energy ground me into my body whenever I read difficult academic texts that are very dense and energy-heavy. I appreciate that, thats really funny thanks :-)

If you can snap out of it its not a kundalini awakening. damn bro im disappointed

@Dan Arnautu Yayyyyyyyyyyyy congratulations, and my condolences for your impending continual ego-death. Embrace self-love more every day, the sooner you align with loving yourself, the better for the entire process. There are two important things to know about kundalini awakening. First, you did not fuck up anything, it was just a time for it to happen. Its an enormously positive thing. Second, the only thing you can do is to get out of its way to do what it needs to do.

@luckieluuke yeah that doesnt help thanks!!!!!!

@Key Elements Hey Ive never been in more excruciating pain and discomfort than in the last few weeks. I must be doing something very right.

@aurum I think this is mainly a cultural issue. Youre American, you wouldnt believe how different and closed people can be in Europe, espeically UK. As an empath, when I arrive in the UK I literally have a mental breakdown just from taking in and feeling all the repressed unresolved pain in the people around me, for me personally its a trial by fire to be able to stand tall in the presence of such density and have my own sensitivities not completely paralyze me. But to make the point, when I was landing in Torronto for a summer job at camp, the energy was so welcoming and lovely, I literally felt instantly at home, safe and at ease. Of course guys are gonna be more extraverted, outgoing and approaching in places where opennes and safety are the names of the emotional atmosphere.

@Healingheart Hi Healingheart. Not to be worried about the pain and fear within you. I hold great compassion for your healing. May you embrace love for your own heart as the healing remedy and best friend that over time will settle the feelings unsafety and unwinds the nervous system, and may you take time each day to breathe slowly to let your body know, that contrary to the trauma in your past, you are safe now. You are safe to feel all that is within you, and the only thing required is to take the next breath. I hope you have a wonderful evening.

Loll actually hilarious