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that sounds like dugins making a return to tradition argument out of fear that the balance of technology use won’t be kept. Like everything else, there is the ‘thing’ and then there is its creative and destructive use. Like what was mentioned in the post below ‘belief’ is said to be something to be dissolved because of its inherent nature in self deception. but fails to recognise its creative use in providing meaning to life and higher mind purpose for creating and holding onto reality by the very mechanism of belief. the suggestion of the subject being dissolved into an objective world… isn’t that what it’s trying to do anyway? Manifest itself into existence to experience ‘something’. 🤔 I think that’s the point. It’s claiming to be one thing while behaving like another. thanks for responding 🙏

Wow, I think chat gpt misinterpreted the end of that paragraph. I notice that it tends to make mistakes when it interprets the context in which the words are used. I did indeed mention that the issue extends to educated people, people in governance and other classes so it wasn’t oversimplified there. I didn’t elaborate on various aspects throughout the piece to try and keep it to a 20 minute read but that most of those issues are mentioned. The sociological perspective is implied throughout the piece in various sections: “Disillusioned with institutions”, “reactionary response to global instability”, “economic stability, traditional values and freedom” it would probably be beneficial to add technology alright! as in social media and its impact but it wasn’t necessary to make the point. again all the factors mentioned by gpt were mentioned. I do agree that there are real issues that are misinterpreted but that’s why the later part is concerned with introspection and discernment. I would also argue that a beings psychological and cognitive abilities are their filters for experiencing their reality beyond just awareness. The filters are where meaning is derived and if that is not working then everyone would only be dealing with interpretations and not the underlying reality. The point is trying to pull people back to ‘awareness’ I’ve had concerns about this and I’ve seen allot of hate and frustration towards maga people appearing on social media. I’ve tried convincing some ‘rant’ writers not to stoop their level but to try compassion and understanding as to why they are that way instead. People don’t respond well to a barrage of hate or judgment. They do need a bit of a gentler approach cause they are thin skinned. I was stuck in the movement early on around 2019 so I can see the real issues they are concerned about. It’s just that they started targeting things I was directly involved in so I knew the truth of it. I very quickly saw through the delusions from that point on and the whole idea of the movement fell appart for me. I won’t argue with that as everyone has a bias in order to hold a perspective to make a point. In order to see it though it requires holding multiple perspectives which ive been doing these past few years otherwise flicking from one side to another, experiencing the contrast, the issue wouldn’t have come to my attention. The point of the piece is not that there is a right or wrong ‘way’ or ‘path’ but rather spirituality and awakening states are about cultivating awareness not beleif. I’m not entirely sure gpt has the insight to spot that although my own interactions with it have been quite positive. the essay is addressing spiritual seekers not random populations. of course gpt would make this mistake. Transcending beleif also includes the use of beleif as a tool rather than an identity attachment. Transcendence is a recognition and integration of all prior factors in the processes of the mind ( just like the trans/rational fallacy mention where the trans rational also includes the understanding and implementation of prior stages) . I also mentioned not teaching advanced spirituality as in the workings of the mind of god ( beleif being a tool to hold the reality in coherence). As stated already a lot of people are falling into spirituality as a result of overwhelming struggle so the psychology needs to be addressed and stabilised first before throwing gods psychology at them on top of it. If a creator being is at the whims of its beleifs instead of creatively intending to use its beleifs to manifest reality, you end up with a chaotic hellscape. Just like the astral ( just what I refers to a vivid dream or altered state) if you are quite fear prone, your thoughts instantly form that way and you end up essentially running away and screaming at yourself. When you practice being more balanced, the experience of those states of consciousness become more pleasant and meaningful. Why dreams are great teachers to check on one’s own mind state. I personally wouldn’t trust gpt conclusion as it’s been mistaken on a few points but yes, some of the factors in its conclusion could be unpacked and added to the essay but it was already mentioned that there were other factors at play and that it wasn’t comprehensively going into everything. thanks for you time and giving me a something to expand upon if I need to go a bit deeper. each section could be turned into a book if it was comprehensively unpacked but I think we’d be loosing readers/listeners at that point. the individuals I’m hoping to reach with this essay don’t tend to understand nuance so it needs to remain a bit generalised and simplistic.

Thanks for dropping those names. I’ll check them out. Especially bannon. Do you think this happens when people enter spirituality as a way of ‘finding’ truth ( almost like a confirmation bias ) as opposed to a person who sits one day, has no interest in spirituality and just starts contemplating ‘what is true and how can I discern what is true?’ it’s the difference of a starting point whether seeking starts pointing at the external or seeking understanding of the internal workings of the mind itself before looking at anything external. I find the deception happens when there is no introspection and it gets easier to spot those individuals. They never reference the flaws in their own mind or having ever found any. In fact they don’t mention psychology at all. I’ll post up my piece on it somewhere else on the forum and hopefully get some constructive criticism ( it’s not going to be comprehensive, just pointing at another distraction that has thrown people off a path they claim to be on).

It’s interesting that this topic of Christian delusion came up on the blog last week because I’ve been working on a piece about the occult roots of the "Cult of Kek”(the internet-driven movement) that essentially "magicked" Trump into office by weaponizing conspiracy narratives.not comprehensive as there was a lot of 4-8chan involvement too. This whole MAGA / Great Awakening movementis an ego backlash from lower stages of development, ironically branding actual spiritual truths as demonic. It’s the perfect example of the trans-rational fallacy (where people mistake symbolic, mythological worldviews for literal spiritual enlightenment.) The New Age crowd has completely misread this movement, thinking it’s part of a grand collective awakening, when in reality, it’s just a reactionary response to modernity, cloaked in spiritual language. There’s also a disturbing crossover between the language used to describe actual transcendent experiences and the rhetoric used by alt-right conspiracy movements. The same words(awakening, light, truth, revelation) are being co-opted to fuel anger, paranoia, and fear. I’ve been pushing back against this in some plant medicine integration spaces where “Great Awakening” rhetoric keeps creeping in (and it’s always coming from angry people with a vendetta against corporations, governments, or institutions.) One particularly hilarious moment happened after a mushroom ceremony, where a guy was convinced that his life’s mission was to "awaken people" to the evil pedophiles, Satan worshippers, adrenochrome drinkers, blah blah blah… The mushrooms literally told him to stop projecting his beliefs onto others and focus on healing himself. and yet the irony was lost on him…

Was just watching the senate vote for shutting down federal government. That was an opportunity for dems to stop the destruction but they just handed trump a blank cheque to do what he wants without limits. It’ll be interesting to see what happens from here but I don’t think it would have been a chaos free outcome either way. All I can say is I’m sorry for the people those senators were meant to represent. They just stabbed them in the back and proved they serve the interest of corporation over people. it’s probably a pivotal moment that will be recognised in retrospect but no one really noticed it was even happening. in other news our Taoiseach got publicly humiliated at the dinner in the White House for the Patrick’s days annual pilgrimage to America. This year they decided to send a large number of representatives from the Dail ( Irish parliament) and they told the people a few weeks ago they were just doing it to keep the orange man happy and save face but not to worry, they don’t support his policies. A bit chicken shit only to get pie in their faces for the effort. Something about Rosie someone or other moving to Ireland and so sorry to do that to Ireland… and the Taoiseach had no idea what they’re talking about. besides that, an extreme right wing anti trans catholic family who have a family member ( teacher) currently in jail for bullying a student, threatening the headmaster of the school and then harassing the students when he was suspended and told to stay away, were found hiding behind some curtains at the dinner and started shouting at trump for help and then dragged away by security. How they got in is a mystery, but footage of the incident is providing a lot of entertainment at the moment. Don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

People who live in mainstream, who haven’t ventured outside their own minds yet tend to be bombarded with songs about love… low level or whiny songs about love and hurt not unconditional or universal. I think that’s what he was referring to. from certain perspectives, yes there are very few songs about truth but in more expanded perspectives and cultures you start to see more meaningful and deep expression

I don’t know if it’s about truth but I write music inspired by my journey and sing them at festivals and ceremonies. 😁

Have you done any practice to quiet the mind? You mention intrusive thoughts and a lot of your practice being based on contemplation.

It could be one of two things maybe. My mind is silent so I’m not thinking or imagining anything so no visual is manifesting… or it’s straight source. I’ve experimented with the first scenario on mushrooms and indeed no thought = no trip. It was almost like I got kicked out of it. the later scenario is bizarre like trying to describe an intricate understanding of a mental process without any form to describe. The way people go on about ‘downloads’ is kind of like a flood of realisations. i only really get meaningful journeys when my logical faculties are still functioning. The best and most hyper realistic have been out of body experiences during my night practice. I had a golden white light with that beautiful echo breath when I became aware one night while in Amsterdam. I was the only one on the holiday who stayed away from the cookies 🤣😅 but it had 5MeO vibes from the start❤️🙏

I had god realisation without drugs. It wasn’t even in relation to spiritual practice. It just happened one day during a deep dive enquiry into what I was cause I was trying to omit bias from my observation. My entire reality dissapeared including my body and sense of self. I still had the ability to question the singularity I found myself in which was beyond consciousness ( god) it was a singularity of awareness ( source) before god ( consciousness or knowing created itself by awareness turning back on itself making a self reference) it explored this formless and boundless singularity before recognising itself and remembering it was god. The shock shot me back into reality, body, self identity and left me speechless as a debunked atheist sitting in a chair wondering wtf just happened. I’d never heard of a psychedelic. I subsiquently did psychedelics to contrast the experience and with the exception of the buzzing energy, it was the same ( 5MeO) formless infinity before anything at all. I found myself using psychedelics to chase states of ecstacy because I knew how to move the mind to get there. I had already remembered being that which is, so never had a bad trip nor did I ever really have visuals or any of the journeys people describe. It’s mostly all formless in a realm of ideas before they are fractured and built up. But I was not doing it off my own efforts as a fractal of consciousness. It was the substance. I cut it way back and started disciplining my mind instead, right back to the very thought of dissolving the self being an inhibiting factor to dissolution. I did one marijuana ceremony where I dissolved all belief so much I couldn’t get back to reality until I recreated it all from scratch. I gained a more comprehensive understanding as a human of how I as consciousness was imagining everything into existence and was holding it there by believing it was real… self deception. Very tricky. I went off all psychedelics and substance including coffee and alchohol or psychoactive stimulant to try and become more acutely sensitive to mentation. On four occasions at work I lost the belief of reality and it dissolved into the singularity. To others back in the reality, that looked like the body fainting unconscious. The body was taking place in the others perspective. My perspective dissolved and joined back with the totology or source awareness. Black/white nothingness. I don’t have much to learn in that state anymore so I now create relative preferences from which to experience life. I don’t judge others nor do I feel emotional reaction to judgment of opinion from others much anymore. It’s just life living itself. That doesn’t mean that my little personality doesn’t create boundaries. At some point its perception of its own form in relation to another form has a distinction but it’s for the purpose of experiencing reality (relativity), not placing itself in a moral high ground. there are many stories and narratives to be explored here, including the varying states of consciousness itself and the realms one can go into. Removing one’s self from the senses and ceasing all movement of the mind goes back to the singularity but there is always another world and ego that forms. It seems that is what the mind does. Creates worlds to experience. ive woken up in realms I could have mistaken myself for having taken mushrooms or dmt. I’ve had a few 5MeO white light happenings. I’ve had one completely conscious out of body or ‘reality shift’ intentionally from start to finish and it was that experience that proved to me there’s nothing but awareness experiencing consciousness in a dream. I don’t control where I go but I know the frequency at which it happens diminishes when I stop routinely disciplining the mind. This last year I have done nothing at all and even my dreams have diminished. Only recently going back to quiet practice, has it started happening again. it depends how engrossed in the belief of the reality I guess but my being learns these things by contrasting between and making distinctions…

I had god realisation without drugs. It wasn’t even in relation to spiritual practice. It just happened one day during a deep dive enquiry into what I was cause I was trying to omit bias from my observation. My entire reality dissapeared including my body and sense of self. I still had the ability to question the singularity I found myself in which was beyond consciousness ( god) it was a singularity of awareness ( source) before god ( consciousness or knowing created itself by awareness turning back on itself making a self reference) it explored this formless and boundless singularity before recognising itself and remembering it was god. The shock shit me back into reality, body, self identity and left me speechless as a debunked atheist sitting in a chair wondering wtf just happened. I’d never heard of a psychedelic. I subsiquently did psychedelics to contrast the experience and with the exception of the buzzing energy, it was the same ( 5MeO) formless infinity before anything at all. I found myself using psychedelics to chase states of ecstacy because I knew how to move the mind to get there. I had already remembered being that which is. But I was not doing it off my own efforts as a fractal of consciousness. I cut it way back and started disciplining my mind instead, right back to the very thought of dissolving the self being an inhibiting factor to dissolution. I did one marijuana ceremony where I dissolved all belief so much I couldn’t get back to reality until I recreated it all from scratch. I gained a more comprehensive understanding as a human of how I as gif was imagining everything into existence and was holding it there by believing it was real… self deception. Very tricky. I went off all psychedelics and substance including coffee and alchohol or psychoactive stimulant to try and become more acutely sensitive to mentations. On four occasions at work I lost the belief of reality and it dissolved into the singularity. To others back in the reality, that looked like the body fainting unconscious. The body was taking place in the others perspective. My perspective dissolved and joined back with the totology or source awareness. I don’t have much to learn in that state anymore so I now create relative preferences from which to experience life. I don’t judge others nor do I feel emotional reaction to judgment of opinion from others. It’s just life living itself. That doesn’t mean that my little personality doesn’t create boundaries. At some point its perception of its own form in relation to another form has a distinction but it’s for the purpose of experiencing reality (relativity), not placing itself in a moral high ground. there are many stories and narratives to be explored here, including the varying states of consciousness itself and the realms one can go into. Removing one’s self from the senses and ceasing all movement of the mind goes back to the singularity but there is always another form and ego that forms. It seems that is what the mind does. Creates worlds to experience. ive woken up in realms I could have mistaken myself for having taken mushrooms or dmt. I’ve had a few 5MeO white light happenings. I don’t control where I got but I know the frequency at which it happens diminishes when I stop routinely disciplining the mind. This last year I have done nothing at all and even my dreams have diminished. Only recently going back to quiet practice, has it started happening again. it depends how engrossed in the belief of the reality I guess but my being learns these things by contrasting between and making distinctions…

Thanks! still learning how peeps argue relative world stuff and how they structure intellectual, language etc etc. you get me… I see another level to argument that he uses that I thought was interesting

Would anyone recommend ‘vaush’ as a good channel for opinion?

Kinda similar to increasing entropy through Co operation. The soup of consciousness ( chaos ) holding itself together in a relatively consistent pattern that changes and evolves . Like the description of the second law of thermodynamics, the organism holds itself together against the forces of the universe ( for a time) by making beneficial choices. In the case of consciousness, its patterns that stay around longer are the harmonious ones simultaneous to the overall good/love. The more there are harmonious ones, the more evolved the whole becomes. but outside of that is still the unchanging awareness witnessing it all. im still at the intellectual/conceptual point at understanding. No direct realisation yet. Need to get back to the meditation. It’s fallen by the wayside to build a house 😅.

I use it for “compassionate enquiry “ sessions with good effect. it doesn’t do the work for me rather it acts as a sounding board to bounce and explore ideas off. I give it the basic breakdown of patterns and emotions I notice and it restructures the write up more concisely for the understanding of the client. everything at the moment is online back and forth chat but once I develop the method more, I’ll move to face to face or live call sessions. It also helps when I do it in my own shadow work. I have a daily jot where it updates and informs me when patterns emerge.

I’m not putting much thought into this but could it be that this entire ‘great awakening’ conspiracy was a construction of the orange man to get into power by manipulating the most susceptible ( pre rational believers). The first election happened around the start of covid where he used Cambridge analytica ( a British company) to analyse profiles on social media. Then there was something floating around about him approaching Russia to use troll farms to infiltrate spiritual/religious community spreading a great awakening conspiracy about elites, Satan worship, etc etc spreading all the corruption that he himself is involved in but using it as a tactic to deflect from himself and put attention, even false attention on others. Putting himself in the position of a saviour and growing a group of followers. there were shreds of truth in the stories flying around the internet but nothing was what it seemed. I saw it slowly seeping into the spiritual community 5 years ago. I got caught up in it for two years till I saw through it. im actually greatful for being in the mindset so now I know how that mind works and how to try and stop it spreading into my other communities. actualized.org has been pivotal in learning to discern when a mind trap is happening but also that there are many differing perspectives here. All have their own shred of truth and help point to what is. so if it is coming out the orange man has ties to kgb, and this whole thing was a bizarre plot to attempt a power grab, then I may have to pay more attention to my intuition in future. it may not be the case, we’ll just have to see. min the mean time, just protect our vulnerable. It feels like we can’t do much to change or fight things but, I’ve just finished training in therapy so I’m going to be there for my communities mental health and integration.

I would like to weigh in on this discussion even if it was a while ago because I just got asked a question if all humans have a soul. It came after they attended a lecture where the speaker was going on about non-conscious players… but if everything is consciousness, there’s no way that anything in existence is ‘not’ that. the only thing that is, is awareness that is the container and witness of everything created. What is created and to be known and explored is consciousness. the word consciousness means ‘with-knowing’. so consciousness, is a self created mind within awareness. It has a masculine (conscious, thought/idea, penetrative, impressing) part and a feminine ( subconscious, ocean, womb, receptive, impressionable part) part. One impresses on the other creating a movement, like a stone thrown into still water creating ripples. Energy that moves/radiates. We label this energy emotion within us and emotion prompts us to take action and ‘do’ something or manifest into a reality that feeds back to us as perceptions. the manifest reality can be described as the child that results from the interaction between the masculine and femanine aspects of the mind. The child is like a pattern that emerges from the ocean of consciousness. none of the forms that arise are the awareness which is the absolute truth witnessing it all but the question is, the part that retains impressions and uses it to evolve the mind. I would say as awareness is the totology, consciousness is an infinite mind which some call god and it is the god/mind/head that evolves while awareness stays the same. As everything created, experienced, perceived, is consciousness, there can’t be anything in the creation that is not “a conscious player”. what I think the speaker is saying is that some people are consciously aware of themselves but some people are not consciously aware of themselves but they make the mistake of equating this to some people having no soul or animating force. I suspect he’s trying to frame his reality in south a way as to dismiss certain types of people and so actually caught himself in a dualistic mindset that is related to this ‘great awakening’ pseudo Christian conspiracy. any thoughts?

@AION @AION your footer link to Neville Goddard just “synchronicitied” me 🤣👆🥰.

Thanks for that. I’ll have a read. 👍🙏

I came across this video around a week ago before I read the last blog( watched videos) post and found it interesting. What I reckon is his hypothesis on how we ended up in a patriarchy. Not neccessarily how we got to the misunderstanding and discrimination of some humans by other humans but the history of sexual biology and why we have diverse variation. my take from it is that we’ve evolved past the ability to physically adapt because of tools and higher level/ conceptual language so we now evolve socially, culturally, personality with a wide range of genetic mutations creating a pool of possible solutions/or adaptations to situations in a societal landscape. The backlash is coming from a prior culture with less personality, less open mindedness and I say that because of neurological research into gender or sexual orientation variation that shows, not a specific structure relating to sex ( even though it is there in some cases) but rather structures related to open mindedness where the wider range of identity that has appeared over the last 20 years has been as a loosening of attachment to conceptual frameworks and acceptance of differentiation throughout the species ( which has always been there but hidden under adherence to stereotypes). freedom would be attained by the fight for rights in other words creating a framework within which people can live and thrive. It is freedom by the very limitations imposed to prevent people from intruding on other people’s personal boundaries. For lived and expressed freedom to exist there must be limitations, boundaries for it to operate in. Complete freedom would be the freedom to do whatever including the prevention of life to thrive. If humanity was completely free, it would destroy itself.

@Verg0 I like the helicopter/ mountain climb analogy. once you get the glimpse and maybe a couple of other realisations and insights about how the reality is created, there is no need or purpose to go into that state or chase that state again while trying to master or experience being a human ( or any other form). The experience is the climb and taking in all the smaller experiences along the way. Enjoying exploring the things you come across ( and getting to know them/ discover them or dare I say creating them as you attach a narrative while dissecting them further) even getting to the peak by climbing you are not going to sit there forever. You eventually go back down into the various different things that fragment and separate to greater degrees the further down the mountain you go till you find a civilisation of beings, plants, animal, elements, stories and concepts blanketing them all while all of it derived from the very uniform substance/minerals at the peak of the mountain. my own journey has shown what ‘is’ and how it works. There’s nothing more to do but descend back into the dream/illusion/reality and ‘evolve’ the mind through the adversity of the experiences. the relation to others has become about teaching the fundamentals of the mind ( thought, emotion, action/reaction) to guide people away from suffering ( mental anguish and its distinction from injury that doesn’t necessitate suffering) so it frees them to explore in whatever way they choose be it seeking the absolute or just creating a business, family, traveling the world, inventing something or expressing through the arts. It’s up to them and none of my concern. I just choose that as a purpose to guide and help while I am here doing my own work. I could keep doing psychedelics but at some point it turns into bypassing personal work and chasing bliss states which I know I can create while sober. It’s all in the level to which the mind is entrenched in belief. But I also don’t rule it out as sometimes it’s a nice bit of respite to go home every now and then. I also don’t really teach or speak much about advanced spirituality anymore as it doesn’t help anyone so I just explore it by myself. Being that it is a direct experiential of the absolute at that level there is no one else to tell so it is a pointless exercise if others have not or do not experience it for themselves. What I find is Most people are just trying to liberate themselves from trauma and behaviour patterns or trying to escape their reality because they can’t cope but they don’t even know most of the problem is coming from them. Cracking that cage open for someone is a difficult task especially when what is in the cage is likely to bite you out of fear. I liked your video and there are certainly some nice ways of phrasing various things that I would find useful when guiding others ( especially those who insist psychedelics show you the truth and get lost in conspiracy and delusion) seeing it as something of an external story Co opted by the ego and continuing to refuse self Inquiry or even the severe lack of integration or help I’ve come across in plant medicine retreats or communities.

You can transcend and see it all as the one and when you come back you can experience it all because it is one. It doesn’t matter what you choose, the thing is that you have consciously chosen your preferences through which to experience life. Those preferences tie in with what opens your greatest potential ( and yes that means ego, bias, unique frequency, these are a part of you). when a person doesn’t choose consciously and just acts out of subconscious conditioning, repeating mistakes or falling into disharmonious patterns that conflict with others, it causes chaos individually and collectively. the difference is that the former knows what he is doing and has the ability to change when it doesn’t work. The later is stuck and blames the external world for their own lack of not knowing themselves. the later can also blame the former for making conscious choices to live their life experience by, because they are not actually enlightened and don’t recognise enlightenment. the former can point out all the mechanisms behind how reality relates to reality but it will always be mired by a particular perspective. A perspective that was consciously chosen by looking through multiple perspective to gain a higher vantage point. the deeper the former goes into the understanding of the infinite possibilities to understand, the further away they grow from others who will no longer be able to relate to them. This does not mean they are wrong, it means they have continued to develop where others have not.

I’ve found this to be the biggest problem in teaching and helping participants integrate after psychedelic ceremony. no matter what they are opened up to, they always fall back into beleif and the ego reforms Co opting everything to their own benefit. I’ve found I’ve had no choice but to go right back to basics and council through emotional deconstruction back to the thought or perception that caused the emotion in the first place. This means I am no longer willing to teach advanced spirituality because the people I’m working with are so far behind it’s not worth the arguments and severe anger/ emotional outbursts and insults. It doesn’t help them or me. 🙄

Sometimes I wonder if there are actual harmonised consciousness streams. i wrote this essay and uploaded it about two weeks ago. im now listening to Leo’s post modernism 2, hearing similar concepts including the reference to using the tool to analyse the tool looping back on itself 🤣. theres no real point to this comment, I’m just amusing myself. thanks for the continued contemplation and sharing @Leo Gura.

Just happened to come across this and thought it was an interesting window into Elon’s character. https://youtu.be/9BDmC5u_MLE?feature=shared