Long time lurker here.
Asking all seasoned psychonauts,
what is the best psychedelic for personal growth, inner game, human/ego development?
I am NOT interested in spiritual awakening at the moment, although I’m sure I will focus on it later in life. Right now I want to turn inward in this human being and face my fears and traumas, and see why and how I am setting myself back in this human life. And I want to see the potential that I can have for myself and others in this life.
I am aware that of course personal work goes paired with spiritual/consciousness work especially when doing psychedelics. It is not that I am not willing to get mindfucked or face difficult realities. it just that I want to know the best psychedelic that will not direct me to totally inpersonal or absurdly radical states of consciousness like 5-MeO-DMT or Salvia. I know this is possible because I have had a first glimpse of awakening on THC where I was identified as consciousness and not as the body and mind. this was a moment where it happened which felt like an ego-death. but this had nothing to do with my personal self, I didn’t really get a good look at my ego’s constructions or anything. I became conscious of the other side but I didn’t deconstruct my ego.
Maybe I’m getting this all wrong and proper 5-MeO tripping will fix my inner game. But it’s a burning question I have for fellow psychonauts.
For example NN-DMT seems a lot more personal than 5-MeO-DMT, since it contains a lot more forms and hallucinations. I would expect you could do more personal work with it because of course the person/ego is still in the realm of forms?
