Spiritual Warrior

Interlude: Personal Journal 12.31.25 With all of this time off with the holidays, I gotten very relaxed and not care so much about disciplinary goals, I think this is normal as I am hitting a reset button and I will get back into a nice groove when January turns up. I am also starting to put into perspective how far I have come over the past two years. It is truly remarkable, TRULY REMARKABLE. I am a grounded, attractive man that enjoys the hard work of going to the gym and reading books. Every chance I get, I am working on something, something to challenge himself. I am also deeply loving towards others, this has hit me recently as I have been able to enter a Field of Love and stay there throughout the day, no judgements, just pure Love pouring out of me. I have an abundance of women in my life and I am able to act authentically from my Heart when they are around. I have goals, lots of goals, lots of big, tangible goals. This is what pushes me to grow myself. If I am going to reach these massive goals that both scare but excite me, then I have to do x, y, and z. This creates a system in which there is no lack of motivation... because the vision is so clearly in my mind, there is no chance in hell I'm going to waste an entire day jerking off and watching Netflix... no shot.

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #1 Okay, it is 10.29.25 and I have realized that I have no discipline in my life which is setting me back from accomplishing my goals. Listed below are the habits that I would like to integrate as well as the reason for doing so: 1.Read when I get home (no electronics) this is for the purpose of having better sleep. I also have a larger vision of being very well educated, which starts with reading lots of books. Just a little bit every night will go a long ways 2.No sexual stimulation from internet No sexual stimulation from the internet. I see no benefit in watching porn, I have a history of being addicted to it and have therefore had struggles having an erection with a real woman, this is a no brainer. Stop with this nonsense. 3.Workout at gym 3 days a week Workout at the gym 3 days a week. I want to get really fuckin hot, like really fuckin hot. And the best way to do this as a man is to hit the gym and do it in a strategic and intelligent way. I am going to go 3 days a week, I am going to work out my chest on Monday at 11am - 12pm, this will be barbell bench press, dumbbell incline press, and that one with the cable that stretches your chest, it is going to be 4 sets and the first set is a warm up, so 3 real sets. Next is legs, I would like to use the angled leg Press, 4 sets, then the leg extensions, 4 sets, then use a calf machine, 4 sets again, next is back and arms. I want to start doing deadlifts again, I love deadlifts, then a barbell row and then a dumbell row, I really want to get my back jacked for dance. 4 sets of each again and this will be the workout routine for 3 months. Then I will have a de load week, in which I take the whole week off from weight training and I reevaluate how far I've come. I will also need to measure how much protein and carbs and calories that I am in taking and also weight myself on a daily basis so that I can track my progress 4.No ejaculating for 3 years No ejaculating for 3 years. This has to do with my goal of having sexual abundance in my life. I want to have sex with real woman, not with my own hand. Not ejaculating also gives me more energy to shift my focus into other things in life, such as having a bigger impact on people, reading books, meditating and overall being a healthier human that people look up to. I lead with integrity. 5. Approach and hit on 10 women every week for 1 year Approach and hit on 10 women every week, which would equate to 500 women on the year. This would be a great milestone for me and it would make me very proud. This coincides with the goal of wanting to have sexual abundance in my life. I want lots of sex with lots of women. That is what I genuinely want. I don't want to fake that anymore, I want this and therefore I will have it. Thank you God for allowing me to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. - Half time: as you can see, we already have an interrelated system at work, the no ejaculation goal supports the hitting on 10 women every week because not ejaculating will give me more motivation and energy and time to hit on several women a week, on the flip side if I hit on 10 women every week, watching porn and ejaculating becomes a lot less appealing, both cogs in the system are supporting each other. Nice job there. - 6. Eat 150 g of protein every single day I have learned that eating a lot of protein is imperative to building lots of muscle. I want to build lots of muscle in order to become the sexiest man I can be. This is required, therefore I have to eat enough protein. 7. Meditate every morning for 30 minutes moving past physical attractiveness, I want to be attractive in a sense that I am magnetic as a human being, people want to be around me, and I also want to be able to stay present and within the moment both for dance and also for the people around me, such as students and friends and family and co workers. The more I meditate, the higher my consciousness grows, and the more I understand the truth of reality, the more I am able to make an impact on the world. Overall, this is mainly for better mood and mental clarity, the motivation is NOT towards enlightenment, although I predict that is what it will turn into 8. Wake up at 7:30 am every day this challenge has two benefits: 1. It is going to build self discipline and character, and 2. I have to wake up that early in order to get everything done that I want to ( I've already mapped out my schedule accordingly) 9. Brush teeth morning and night this is also building self discipline and it is also for the betterment of my hygienic and overall health and well being. I am also a dance instructor, I work very close to people, therefore it is imperative that I have fresh breath. I may even want to pick up a toothbrush and toothpaste and keep it at the dance studio. 10. Floss teeth every morning another habit for self discipline and overall wellbeing 11. Shower and groom hair every morning this is similar to the last two, it is building character to stick to a habit. The main thing that I'm trying to do with this morning routine is that there are no grey areas here - no - I wake up at 7:30 am, I brush my teeth and floss, then I take a shower, then I groom my hair and beard, then I go downstairs and meditate for 30 minutes on the floor, then I do my push ups and pull ups, which is the next thing on this list and there is no wiggle room, there is no being wishy washy, no I am doing this every fucking day, I don't care if I get kidnapped and wake up in Antarctica, no - I am going to follow the same routine no matter what. Fuck variety - life is chock full of surprises, a routine keeps you grounded and focused and stable - this is the true masculine power - to have the self discipline to stick to this routine 12. Do 3 sets of push ups and 3 sets of pull ups every morning again, this is self discipline and it will also have a cumulative effect in turning me into a sexy, attractive man. I am going to make these things happen every single day like clock work. There are no excuses. It is time to start living with integrity and purpose and direction. This is the desire that I have been suppressing and distracting my self from with spiritual pursuits. I don’t really want to be enlightened, at least not yet. I have been using enlightenment as a distraction for many years because hitting on women and developing discipline in life is scarier and more uncomfortable to me than reading spiritual books and meditating. If I do these things, I will become the quintessential model of healthy masculinity. And this is what I truly want. I want to maximize my masculine energy to its absolute full potential. Then once I hit that peak, I will move into something more selfless, such as spiritual enlightenment, or whatever else I want to pursue. I am going to need a checklist that I have to check off every single day. This needs to be made public so that I can feel the embarrassment of missing a day. I want to do this on actualized.org, my favorite forum. Thank you God for allowing me to become aware of my authentic desire of being a vessel of healthy masculinity in this world. Thank you God for allowing me to create sexual abundance in my life. Thank you God for allowing me to create a life filled with love, laughter, joy, purpose, and gratitude. Listed below is my checklist for the first two days of my challenge. 10.31.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Floss Shower Groom hair Eat breakfast Meditate Work out Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Wash face No electronics before bed "Whole day" goals: No porn No ejaculation Eat 150 g of protein Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week Approach 10 women I did a good job on everything except for no electronics before bed and eating 150 g of protein. I was on my phone before going to sleep and I am going to have to figure out how to incorporate 150 g of protein into my diet. The weekly goals are going to be assessed at the end of the week on Sunday. I am going to actually keep a counter of how many girls I have approached. I would also like to create a counter so that I can keep track of how many days I consecutively stuck to my habit. The higher the number, the more fulfilled I will feel.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #59 I left off at 31:00 "You need some kind of medium... some kind of larger objective that is going to push you forward... " Personal Journal Writing in journal streak: I would like to state that I have been writing in this journal every single day since I started this... which is 59 days for 59 journal entries... that is impressive and I should add that to the list. How is the brushing teeth streak at 61 you might be asking... I have no idea, but hey fuck it.. Last week recap: So heres the thing, I had an emotionally challenging week last week, dealing with romantic feelings for someone, realizing how bad my finances are, waking up at 5 am, staying in the sauna, feeling embarrassed because I was too broke to buy my family Christmas presents. This stuff hurt but it was necessary... Yesterday, I had one of the best days in a long time. I woke up with lots of energy, in nothing short of a phenomenal mood. I dropped my car off at the shop and then walked around the town, taking photos of the scenery. I then went into work and called a bunch of clients and taught great lessons. I was goofy, in a great mood, getting lots of things done. It was a near perfect day. Peak states: These days come into my life and I very rarely used to experience these kinds of peak enjoyments before, the clear headedness, the fun and enjoyment, the presence, the expression... On second thought, I would experience these things for sure but a lot less frequently, when I had a girlfriend, I had lots of moments like this and in college for sure when I was hanging out with my friends or after college again.. hanging out with my friends... but here I am in this state AT MY JOB... I am getting paid for this... This job puts me in this state... thats fuckin' amazing! And ideally, this will trickle into your personal life too... when you're hanging out with friends and/or hanging out with a girl. That is very exciting. Now, what contributed to this phenomenal mood is I was fasting, i didn't eat for 24 hours.. I went from 8:30 pm two nights ago to 8:30 pm yesterday, no food. This did wonders for me... I was clear headed, there was nothing slowing down my mental faculties.. I want to keep doing this and see where it leads... I actually have A LOT to journal about, so buckle in... Girl situation: The next thing is, I made a big mistake with this girl in my life. I started to have feelings for her so out of what I was calling "respect for her" I started to drop the goal of hitting on other women.. what a mistake that was. This made me needy and clingy and desperate, that was the energy that I was giving off.. I put all of my chips in one basket without getting any sort of investment from her. What a fuckin' idiot.. now be nice to yourself.. You are learning so the approaching women tracker is back and I REALLY want to start a self help YouTube channel to help men with their dating lives and I will do this, I don't care how long it takes or how painful it will be. BE YOURSELF: The next thing is it is quite difficult to find a balance between being loving towards myself and enjoying life while also trying to grow into a man that has discipline in his life and is able to "handle business." I find sometimes that these things are polarizing and I don't know what to make of it. Now... I do know one thing for certain, I am DOING WELL... I really am.. I have a job I love... I am happy and content... I am doing challenging things... I am definitely pushing myself... Like I am trying my fuckin' best... AND for the first time in my life.. I am acting in an expressive manner, in which I am able to just BE MYSELF.. This is HUGE. Fuckin' HUGE. I cannot express that enough.. I am finally BEING MYSELF! Halle-fuckin-lu-jah! Emptiness: I have been reading The Book of Not Knowing recently (I of course still have spiritual pursuits that I am trying to actualize despite all of the material desires..) and there was an interesting contemplation exercises at the end of chapter 3 in which the author had you contemplate and feel into your own being for a state of emptiness. This emptiness was very clear to me the day prior, when I was going through those struggles at dance practice. My stomach was completely hollow, it felt very unpleasant. Whats interesting about this state is that my mind was actually very clear, meaning I was aware of every thought running through my head.. now the thoughts were mostly not positive which was painful and maybe it was really the thoughts that created the suffering and NOT the emptiness in the stomach. That is something to contemplate. The other thing is I feel like this emptiness is always present, it didn't really arise from anywhere, it is always within my being. What happens is the mind will churn and churn and churn and it distracts me from this feeling of emptiness. Now heres a question, why would the mind want to distract your being from this empty and hollow feeling? For some reason, it deems it as a negative feeling state, when in reality I don't think its negative, as a matter of fact, I was able to breathe with more awareness and I was much more aware of what was going through my mind and body. Approaching women tracker: While I was out yesterday, I approached two women and asked them for directions. Nice job! This is how you start doing something very challenging and scary, you take baby steps. Scatter brained: Now, the issue that I am starting to see within my psyche is this: So yes, I have lots of energy right now.. That is awesome... this is what pushes me to accomplish things.. contrast this to a low energy state in which I don't care about anything and I just want to jerk off and lay in bed.. fuck that.. I'm no where near that and I haven't been for a while... however, I am very scatter brained, thinking about this and that and that and this and it would really benefit me to streamline things so that I am working viscerally on one thing at a time. How am I going to do that.. I'm honestly not sure, but thats okay.. Just set the intention and let go. Morning routine goals: Journal: 59 Brush teeth streak: 61 Floss streak: 10 Shower streak: 32 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 3 Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 60 No smoking weed streak: 15 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: Very happy emotional state today ~ 12.29.25 It is one of the last days of 2025 and I am filled with excitement and happiness for whats to come. It's funny because emotionally, this past week has been one of the most challenging times in a long time.. But I have come out of this with a newfound understanding of what I have to do next year and where I am heading, I haven’t felt this clear headed in A WHILE. Good luck man, may the force be with you. I am stuck in a cool college town right now because my car is in the shop. I am going to have some fun and go on an adventure, take some photos, which I will put up on my Instagram. Have fun brother.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #58 Okay, so a few weeks back I took out the tracker to track my progress in hitting on women. This was because I started to have feelings for one girl, which got my head spinning and all I wanted was to sack up with her. This turned out to be detrimental because it made me needy and caused for severe negative emotions. Of course, this was a positive experience for my growth, just not very pleasant. I am also soooooo fuckin' scared of taking this hitting on girls seriously. I'm so fuckin' scared. But heres the thing..... I have to fuckin' do this. I just have to. ... A couple of other things that I'm up to, I am going to start Door Dashing and maybe even get a second job at a coffee shop to pay for my bills. But I AM GOING to make time for myself to head to the city and hit on women. Make it fun for yourself and you might want to add a visualization exercise every morning.. I am excited about this! An abundance of sex is coming into my life. I also wrote a letter to my ex girlfriend and I told her that I really appreciate everything that she did for me. She made me feel more loved than anyone has ever made me feel. This created the pathway for me to start loving myself, truly loving myself and I'm very happy with how far I've come in regards to that and I owe her praise for getting me started down that path. Is this the right move? I don't know, but it'll make her feel really good and thats what matters. I am also going to post an Instagram post about my friend because its his birthday in two days, it'll be filled with a bunch of funny and cool photos of him. I made sure to highlight him in the post, making sure that HE looks good and not worrying about myself. This is about him. Thats important. He will appreciate this, I know it. I am also thinking that I'd really like to masturbate every night, so that I can feel out the sexual energy in my body. Should I add taking maca every morning to the equation... Idk... maybe... An abundance of sex in my life... and to inspire other men.... This is what I'm after and I WILL find a way to deal with this... you can count on that. KILL THE BOY AND LET THE MAN BE BORN The boy avoids discomfort, the man charges into it. You can't rise if you let the boy keep the wheel "What if we fail? What if it hurts?" KILL THAT VOICE The boy says "I hope," the man says "I will" The boy runs from pain, the man runs through it Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 60 Floss streak: 9 Shower streak: 31 Meditation streak: 4 Funniness free talk exercise: 2 Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Work out: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 59 No smoking weed streak: 14 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 0 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Let the journey begin! Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #57 After a solid day of motivation two days ago, I had one of the most emotionally challenging days of the year. I felt an empty pit in my stomach, I felt like no one loved me, I felt like everything was pointless, I had no motivation to do anything, and nothing I did could get me out of the hole that I was in. Today, I am feeling a little bit better but there is still a lack of motivation within me. Anyways, I hope to get all of my habits done today at least and get my "Sunday goals" met. I would also like to create the intention again of hitting on women, I was distracted by my feelings towards one girl in particular, but that is not a good way to go about dealing with this goal. You have to understand how to authentically express your attraction, this is what you are missing within your psyche. I am going to add the approach tracker back onto the bottom of the sheet in order to remind myself of this big goal. It will have three entries within it: 1. Number of women approached for something small, like asking for directions 2. Number of women complimented on their appearance and 3. Number of women approached and hit on. I like this idea because I can certainly do the first one, and this should be a warm up, the second one i have rarely done, and the third one i have done maybe a dozen times in my life. I also really want to get my finances in order. I am going to start doing Door Dash so that I can get a little extra cash, I'm just not sure how much time I should spend on it and when I am going to do it. 12.27.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 59 Floss streak: 8 Shower streak: 30 Meditation streak: 3 Funniness free talk exercise: 1 Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Work out: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 8 No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 58 No smoking weed streak: 13 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 0 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Let the journey begin! Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

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Interlude: Emotional Turmoil ~ 12.27.25 This morning, I woke up at 5 am, had an excellent workout at the gym, hit the sauna and then went to dance practice. Dance practice was going well at first, but then I was triggered emotionally by something she said. The trigger occurred when she told me that she was going out to a salsa club and that she invited someone else to go with her. Immediately, I was like " Why didn't she invite me?" "No one loves me,""No one will ever love me.." "Why bother?" These are some of the thoughts that ran through my head. What came with the thoughts was an empty feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was like my stomach dropped and it just stayed there. After this occurred, I could not get out of my emotional state. I tried to release it using the Sedona Method, it made me feel a little better but then the thoughts and emotions would come right back. I starting getting sad, I put my head down and my dance partner immediately noticed. She asked me what was wrong and I told her that I was fine. She knew I was lying and asked again. I told her that I was fine and she prys again, eventually I cave and just say "I don't want to talk about it, you don't need to know whats going on in my head." She says that it would help and she even jokingly says that she'd blackmail me unless I tell her whats wrong, which is kind of sweet and at the very least I understand that she really wanted to understand why I was feeling the way that I did. The issue is that I don't understand it in the moment. And why do I get triggered so easily from such a simple thing. Is it because I have feelings for her? Or would I have reacted this way towards anybody? I am starting to think that I may have some trauma from my childhood in which I felt unloved and when things happen to me as an adult that make me unloved, I get triggered with very negative emotions, of emptiness and pessimism. But how do I know if its trauma from childhood or something else entirely? Also, does it even matter that I have trauma? What does knowing that help you with? I know that in order for me to live an amazing life, I have to both deal with this trauma and also create a system in which I am able to regulate my emotions better. God, what should I do? I have these two books next to me, "Loving What Is" by Byron Katie and "Taming your Gremlin" by Rick Carson. There is also the Lefkoe Method, which is a course that I bought a while back that i did not finish. It cures limiting beliefs that we integrated in childhood. This might be the perfect time to rekindle that. What do you think, God? God: Those two books are great, but not for you right now. You should take a good look at the Lefkoe method again, that is a great idea. There is also a book that accompanies The Field of Love, "Without This Thought, Who am I?" Remember, Martin Birrittella suffered from being unloved as a child as well. He didn't realize that he had this limiting belief until he was 40 years old. He has come into your life for a reason, take advantage of him. These emotional triggers that you experience, I know they are painful and I'm sorry you have to go through them, I really do feel for you, but... they are telling you something, they are pointing you in the direction that you must go down. Without the triggers, without the pain, you wouldn't be led down the correct path. So I'm sorry, I really am, but trust me this is good for you.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #56 I have hit a surge of energy and motivation recently, reading books, seeking advice, waking up early, working out, talking to people, it is awesome! Life can be a magnificent thing if that is your intention! I really want a girlfriend and I am going to manifest that for myself.. I will happily receive her into my life and love her with my all of my heart. 12.26.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 58 Floss streak: 7 Shower streak: 29 Meditation streak: 2 Funniness free talk exercise: 0 Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Work out: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 7 No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 7 No alcohol streak: 56 No smoking weed streak: 12 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: Pesonal Journal ~ The day after Christmas '25 I woke up at 5am this morning, and I was angry. Its difficult to be in a state of Love when you are angry. Anyways, I went to the gym and got my work out in. I called the mechanic to let him know that I am leaking oil. I think they messed something up when they did my oil change last week.. It was Christmas yesterday and I went to my sisters house. My car was in their driveway and I left an oil spill and they were freaking out about it… Jesus christ guys… calm the fuck down. They put cat litter on it to soak it up. This rattled me emotionally as I felt embarrassed, but then I used the Sedona Method to release my emotions. I don’t love being around my brother in law as I feel no Love from him. Then again, ideally, Love comes from an internal source. In this way, you are completely non- needy and independent of other people giving you things. After releasing, I did feel better, we watched the football game and I bonded with my dad. I love him so much and I will be so heartbroken when he passes on, hes 67 I think. As I’m sitting there trying to enjoy family time, I kept thinking about getting back to my house so that I could read more books and get my life sorted out. Family time feels hollow to me at times, I mean I do love my sisters and my parents, but at the same time, all I want to do is make a greater impact on others and work on my physique and have enlightenment experiences and dance and work on my intimate relationships. Family time doesn’t help with these things.Then again, you can practice being Loving towards them… thats right, you still need to write some cards for your family and also print out some photos, show them some Love. That is your job today. I also need to deposit that money at the bank. Those are your two tasks before going to your moms house at 12:30 pm. This brother in law also throws the vibes off, he is just so disconnected from Love, truly he is, it is very obvious. My other brother in law is also disconnected from Love, I witnessed him beat the shit out of his dog. He’s an absolute piece of shit for that actually… I avoided him for about a year after this incident… What is wrong with these men… I am disappointed in both of them in a way, but I know deep down that they are me and I am them because we are all One. I should also remember that I have also done some terrible things in this life that I do not care to share on here… remember that… we’ve all done terrible things, that doesn’t mean we don’t deserve Love. God Loves every single human being on this Earth, no matter how heinous their crimes are, God even Loves Adolf Hitler.. And I can become that person, I can become God-like… and why not…. Why not become God-like… I mean what else is there to do here????? The thing I’m most excited about is having another intimate relationship. There is something about sharing insecurities and vulnerabilities with someone, sharing a bed together, sharing intimacy, sharing secrets, telling them things you haven’t told anyone… And intimacy is right around the corner for me… I can feel it.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #55 Here I am, I woke up at 5 am today with the intention of heading to the gym as a part of my morning routine. I'm not sure how long this is going to last, but I want to challenge myself to do this. I will add "working out" to the morning routine habit tracker. I also switched up the weekly goals and replaced them with financial planning to get a handle on income and expenses, giving yourself a haircut to look fresh, and grocery shop and meal prep for better organization and protein intake. The last thing, I am still in debt, but i am climbing out of it, paying back my parents as well as a debt relief company, I would like to track that as well, it will feel so fuckin' good to get out of that, it should take me 3 months. Then I can really start saving. 12.25.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 57 Floss streak: 6 Shower streak: 28 Meditation streak: 1 Funniness free talk exercise: 6 Sexual abundance affirmation: 6 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 6 No ejaculation streak: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6 No alcohol streak: 55 No smoking weed streak: 11 Weekly Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: My new life Here I am, sitting in my bed room on Christmas Day, I'm not with family, not with a girlfriend, not with anyone but myself. And I am happier than ever. I am so excited for the life that I am going to create for myself. I can see how far I've come and I am so excited to create something magical, something magnificent with this life. I have many ideas of what I want to do, which include getting out of debt, building up my savings account, buying a houe, winning dance competitions, showing emotion while performing, becoming intimate with women, having full body orgasms, having enlightenment experiences, teaching 30 lessons a week, entering non-dual states, I want it all.. And guess what, I am going to get it all because you can receive ANYTHING THAT YOU DESIRE in this life. ANYTHING. So dream fuckin' big, stop limiting yourself, get your head out of your ass and into the clouds. I've also realized that it truly is better to feel pain than nothing at all. Pain really isn't so bad, that nip on your neck and nose when you walk outside, that bottomless pit feeling in your stomach when you get heat broken, the hot sting when you slice your hand open, the weakness that you feel when your body is sick or recovering from surgery. Every experience like this is a wonderful opportunity to explore a new feeling state. You should feel it and use the Sedona Method to let it go and allow wellbeing to flow into your consciousness. This is the way. Its better to feel pain than nothing at allllllllllll Keep your head up, looooooooooove

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #54 I am not easily impressed by people nowadays. I look around at all of these insecure and unhappy and unexpressive faces and I think to myself, what have you been doing with your time here on Earth? How have you not dealt with this yet? How are you still working a job that you hate? Why are you settling for mediocrity? I want to help these people more than anything.. And at the same time work on myself... so that I can teach with integrity. I must also remember that I came from the exact that place as them, I was insecure, I was unhappy, I was unexpressive. I see myself in them, but I climbed out the gutter and made it out to the other side. It took a while too and I had A LOT of help, you cannot forget that; Leo, former and current bosses, parents, family members, friends, authors of every book that you've read.. all of these people have helped form you into this magnificent version of yourself. 12.24.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 56 Floss streak: 5 Shower streak: 27 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 5 Sexual abundance affirmation: 5 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 5 No ejaculation streak: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 5 No alcohol streak: 54 No smoking weed streak: 10 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #53 I know I've got to start my day soon, but I'd just like to take some time to say that I am TRULY happy right now. I came home from work yesterday, I had just received a Christmas gift from one of my long time students in which she wrote a "Performance Review" for me as an instructor and the amount of work that she put into this gift made me feel sooooo grateful. Of course the review was a joke and the things that she put into it were firstly hilarious and secondly, spot on, calling me out for forgetting choreography and saying "Wait, thats not it" often... She also wrote me a heartfelt card where she wrote down her favorite memories from the past year... It was just the cutest, most thoughtful gift a guy could have received... I am so grateful for the life that God has allowed me to create for myself. And guess what.... I've worked my ass off to get here, truly, I have. And now, I am reaping the benefits, in a sense I am coasting off of my hard work, it feels REALLY REALLY good. I am not sure if I am making the right decision to cut out push ups and pull ups from my daily habit. Then again, if I get to the gym and do my workouts, there you have it, those are you muscle building exercises, you really haven't given that a shot yet... And you are seeing the growth. Yeah, I mean you're right, the new plan is to wake up, shower, MEDITATE, eat breakfast and journal, pack your lunch, then head to the gym, get in the sauna, shower there again, and then start your day... Now, firstly I honestly want to do this every single fuckin' day, even on days like this where I don't have any real obligations. How long will a routine like this take? Okay, so showering and grooming takes 30 minutes, meditating takes 30 minutes, eating breakfast AND journaling takes 30 minutes, packing a lunch lets say takes 30 minutes, then I would leave for the gym. So that means the full routine at home will take 2 hours. So If I wake up at 7:30 am, I would be able to leave for the gym by 9:30 am, get to the gym at 10 am, work out for what... I'm not sure honestly, lets say 30 minutes for now, then hit the sauna for 15, then shower and groom for 15.. By then, I'll be out of the gym by 11 am, then I could head to the studio to start working on my craft and stay until I get out at 10pm. Now, is this feasible? Kind of, so on Mondays it definitely is, everything is perfect for a Monday. On Tuesday, I usually have a coaching at 11 am, which means I'd have to leave the gym by 10: 30 am, which is fine, that just means I have to wake up at 7:00 am instead of 7:30. Then on Wednesday, I have a dance training at 10:00 am, which means that I'd have to leave the gym by 9:30... which means I'd have to wake up at 6:00 am, which again is fine I guess, although I have been doing dance practices on Tuesday night after work which can go until midnight or later... not sure about that one... but I can at least try it, its very important for me to work out in the morning and then hit the sauna... I love this idea.. But I could always take out Wednesday mornings to accomodate for a healthier dose of sleep. I'm also not sure if 30 minutes is enough time for a good workout, but I think its a good start, just go REALLY hard for those 30 minutes. Next, on Thursday, I don't have dance practice until 12 pm so that means that I can sleep in until 8 am. YIPEEEE! It'd be nice if I went out on Thursday night to social dance in order to 1. practice being social and 2. practice my craft. Next, on Friday, I always head to my moms for 10 am to do some work for her (I am working for her in oder to pay back a debt that I owe her.) If I were to get to her house by 10, I'd have to leave the gym by 9:30 am, which means I'd have to wake up at 6 am. I guess thats fine... Then I'd head to work and I would love to go out again on Friday night to practice my craft and socialize with some people. Now, lets crack into the weekends. So I'm still figuring out how I want to spend my weekends. Firstly, its really nice to decompress from a long week and just take some time to myself.. that is all great stuff... but firstly, lets ask ourselves, which habits do I REALLY want to keep... on the weekends, and the answer is EVERY SINGLE one of them, except going to the gym, I will allow myself to take the weekends off from the gym. This means that I will wake up at I'm not sure what time yet. But I wake up, get in the shower, do my meditation, journal and eat breakfast and from there... well we haven't decided what we are going to do yet. At first, I was thinking that I'd head to the city every single Saturday and hit on some women... I have since allowed myself a brief hiatus from this activity. The Universe knows my authentic desire to express my authentic attraction for woman and my desire to help other men do the same. I am going to "let go" of this for now and see what turns up, the path that I have to take to fulfill on this desire will be revealed to me in due time.. Now, on the weekends I honestly really want to read like all day and take notes on my computer, just do personal development, maybe occasionally I'll hit up a friend or friends and see if they want to go on a hike or grab a bite. The other thing I could do is schedule dance practice with my dance partner, that is not a bad idea... there is also a new girl at our studio, I would love to practice with her on the weekends... All of these are great ideas. Also, now that I think about it, I think I want to go to the gym on the weekends too because 1. It will get me out of the house and 2. I just love going there, the workout, the sauna, the people there, all that shit is great. Random thought: The crazy thing about having a competitive dance partner is you are seeing them multiple times a week for hours at a time, working and growing together, laughing and joking, there is physical touch, we travel together around the country to compete, this is a very intimate experience that we are sharing with each other. Okay, thats enough for today, I am going to work some of these things out later.. and remember, do not kill yourself hitting on these habits right now, you are still in a phase of setting up your life for success, this is a future endeavor, eventually you will have an absolutely SHREDDED and muscular physique, you will be one of the sexiest men on this planet, you will have abundance of sex, an abundance of money, you will be in a constant no - thought state, you will understand the deep TRUTHS about reality, but these things will take years to manifest, some will even take decades, so give yourself some grace and continue to allow WELLBEING to come into your life. 12.23.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 55 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 26 Meditation streak: 1 Funniness free talk exercise: 4 Sexual abundance affirmation: 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 4 No ejaculation streak: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 53 No smoking weed streak: 9 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #52 Okay, I am going to attempt to redo my post from yesterday as I think it will be constructive to recap it. The first thing I did was overhaul the habit tracker. So heres the thing, I started this journal with a lot of grinding and brute forcing my way into completing tasks. Now, this worked for a while and it was a great way to start things off, however, I've been reading lots of books about "letting go" such as Ask and It Is Given, The Sedona Method, and The Field of Love and I am starting to realize that life is only a grind if you make it a grind. You can in fact work hard in a totally peaceful state without any clenching and grinding involved whatsoever. And this is the much more spiritual way to live and it leads to a happier life. So let go, you are not in control anyways, the Universe has a plan for you that is unfolding. Next, I'd like to write down my top 3 goals in life, these should be ones that I simply cannot live without, do this quickly as these should be intuitive answers: Reach LOC 1,000 Write books about Truth and Enlightenment Win dance competitions Here are some extra goals, but they are less important than the ones listed above: Have a highly conscious girlfriend / wife Express my attraction towards women in an authentic and direct way Have a cute house with a man cave in the basement, a pool, outdoor bar Create a self - help YouTube channel talking about masculinity and following my career as a dancer and how to hit on girls (I really want to inspire young men to express their attraction towards women in a confident and direct way) Have an absolutely shredded physique (chiseled chest, 6 pack abs, broad shoulders, massive back, trunks for thighs, bulging forearms and biceps, defined calves, and a muscular butt) Access a no - thought state, in which I am flowing without using my mind Read every book on Leo's book list Help grow my students in LOC Make 6 figures off of just dancing Interlude: Contemplating how to make a positive impact on other men Next, I want to explain a story that happened a couple of weeks ago that I would like to contemplate: I walk into a salsa club and there is a girl that I know there and she is with a man. I walk up to them and the girl's attention immediately reverts to me. She is attentive and laughing at me without giving him the light of day. We flirt with each other for the rest of the night as the other guy has to sit back and watch. Now, it is my true desire to yes get good at attracting women, which I am practicing in this situation, but I would also like to have a positive impact on this young man that was talking to her. Lets take a look at what happened from his perspective so that I can better understand his situation. This will be in 1st perspective from his perspective. Ready, go: I think to myself "wow, this cute girl is giving me attention, this is awesome! Maybe I'll even get laid tonight." But then, a charismatic guy walks up to her and starts talking. He's barely even paying attention to her, yet her eyes are all over him, and she is laughing at everything he says. Whats so special about this guy anyways! And why doesn't anybody love me for me! Maybe when we start dancing, I can win her back. The night goes on and she continues to be all over this man, what a dick! Fuck that guy! He's not even that good looking! He tells me he doesn't drink, what pompous prick! He says that its because "He values being clear headed and alcohol doesn't help with that." Ughhhhhh this guy sucks, how about you live a little! I watch them leave together and I get in my car. Now I am thinking thoughts like "Why doesn't anyone love me, why doesn't anyone desire me, what's wrong with me? I'll never be loved again." Now, the reason I can explain this man's mindset with such conviction is because I USED TO BE HIM. I was frustrated with my lack of success with women for YEARS and YEARS and YEARS. It was EXTREMELY painful. And this allows me to have GENUINE and DEEP empathy for these men. And I want to help you because you deserve to be LOVED. You deserve to have all of the sex that you desire, and for that matter, all of the money and happiness and wellbeing that you desire. The problem with this guy is he was sooooooo low energy, there wasn't an ounce of fun and expressiveness to him. The reality is that if he is going to attract a girl of this quality, he has to work on his social skills and expressing himself in an authentic manner. So get out of your head and do some things that are going to challenge you, you don't even have to hit on women at first, just do difficult shit, do shit that scares you, and I promise you will get used to curving into the scary situations and you'll realize that they're really not that bad. So take every opportunity to push yourself out of your comfort zone and I assure you that this will lead you to all of your desires being met. Good luck to you. I love you. Now, I would like to explain my thought process when it comes to changing the habit track, lets take a look, shall we.... 12.22.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am I decided that I am going to take out "wake up at 7:30 am" because I started it to develop discipline within myself, which definitely had a positive impact on me. Heres the thing though, waking up at a certain time doesn't have a positive impact on my life in it of itself, and it was causing me a great deal of stress waking up every day at that time. The more efficent and wise thing to do is to wake up at whatever time that allows me to fit in the habits that I REALLY prioritize. Brush teeth streak: 54 KEEP Floss streak: 3 KEEP Shower streak: 25 KEEP Meditation streak: 0 KEEP - this is probably the most important one when you look at the goals that you have for your life and should be done as soon as possible Funniness free talk exercise: 3 I have decided to take out "I see funniness everywhere" as I believe I've exhausted this one, meaning this thought pattern has been instilled within me, I don't need to beat myself over the head with it anymore. I am definitely going to keep the free talk exercise, in which I talk with absolutely no filter for 10 minutes. The other affirmation was "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" - I am leaning towards getting rid of this one too, but I will keep it around for a little while longer Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 This one is EXTREMELY important to me as it is probably one of my authentic desires, to have an abundance of sex in this lifetime, its just something that I NEED to experience and I just haven't yet, and after about a month of using this one, I have felt the shift in my psyche and outside reality and I am very excited as to where this will lead Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 KEEP Wash face streak: 5 KEEP No electronics before bed streak: 1 KEEP "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 3 KEEP - theres no need for porn, especially since this was an addiction, let this go No ejaculation streak: 3 KEEP for now, I may transcend this but there is noticeably more energy within my body when I go long periods of semen retention, which helps with my goals Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 KEEP - you have to do this No alcohol streak: 52 KEEP No smoking weed streak: 8 KEEP Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 This whole thing is new, so I have done a great job of doing push ups and pull ups every day, probably doing between 80-90% of days since I started. However, I want to get BIG and I feel like just doing push ups and pull ups is not going to help with that, also I have twigs for legs and I really want trunks so I decided that I am going to go to the gym every morning before I go into work and get these exercises done. If I miss it in the morning, which hopefully I wont, then I will go in at night Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #51 As I just said, my entire post from this morning got wiped clean but I made a lot of changes to the tracker because I have realized that the habits could be set up better for more efficiency and more alignment towards my goals. Although the fact that I lost the post has me frustrated, I'm not going to lie to you... The reason for doing this is to grow and writing things down is what helps me grow. Whether or not it's published is irrelevant. I don't feel like explaining all of my changes to the goals on here because I already did, so just trust me this is good for me. 12.21.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 53 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 24 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 2 Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 51 No smoking weed streak: 7 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 5 days a week streak: 0 Monday: chest Tuesday: legs Wednesday: push ups and pull ups Thursday: legs Friday: back

Interlude: What the fuck just happened? Jesus christ, I just hit "submit" after writing the LONGEST journal entry I have ever written with a complete overhaul of the habit tracker and several written stories about my life and the whole thing didn't post, it just disappeared entirely AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... I need to decompress, I will come back to this later....

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #50 I showed my face for the first time in my last post, I wonder how I will feel about that moving forward. For that reason, I hid a few of the posts that I wasn't comfortable sharing with the world. Showing my face to everyone aligns myself with the authentic desire to create a YouTube channel that inspires young men to express their attraction towards women in a healthy way. I am also going to be taking a look at this habits tracker as I think it needs some tweaks. For example, I think I need some more weekly goals on here, such as "give myself a haircut" or "do laundry" or "grocery shop." I would also really like to start going to the gym first thing in the morning and getting my workout in and then hitting the sauna and showering there. But then, I still need to meditate, should I meditate at the studio and then plan my day... Ohhhh.. I actually kike that a lot. So I would wake up, brush my teeth, put a hat on because I will have bed head and head straight to the gym.. then I get my workout in, which I would also like to tweak, then sauna and shower, then head to the dance studio where I will meditate and plan for my day, then I do whatever I want from there. The only thing that I could possibly do differently is shower when I wake up as well... It seems pointless to shower twice within a two hour span, but at the same time, I'm not sure how I'm going to feel with a hat on working out and then heading into the sauna with messy hair... Not sure... The habit tracker that I've been using for the past month and a half has been EXTREMELY beneficial to me. However, it does need an overhaul, let's take a look at each one, I will be writing down my 12.20.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 52 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 23 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 50 No smoking weed streak: 6 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back: There are a few things that I really need to do this weekend, preferably tomorrow to actualize a good week for myself and a good life moving forward, these things are: Do your laundry Clean your room Do the dishes Make food for the week

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #49 I seem to have lost my mojo. I have lost motivation to keep my streaks going. My room is a mess, the bedsheet isn't even attached to the mattress anymore. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... I don't know what to do!!! Everything feels pointless.... I want a life with discipline and passion and courage... I want that SOOOOOOO BAD. Why can't I stick to habits, why does my lazy mind always win out? And why do I let it? You just have to do it and ask questions later.. you should also remember that you have come a long way in lots of areas. Lets make a list, shall we.... 1. Building muscle Lets take a look at how my physique has changed over the past 5 years: 2021: 2026: As you can see, my muscle definition has significantly improved, chest is more chiseled, you can see the abs, shoulders are broad, and the posture is also much better, which I probably got from dancing. I actually look like a grown man, instead of a boy. 2. An abundance of women Next thing, lets talk about the abundance of women in my life. In 2021, the only women that I would talk to were my friend's girlfriends, my mother, my sisters, and occasionally and I mean VERY occasionally there would be a single mutual friend and I would usually fall head over heels for her because this was such a rare opportunity. I would never even think of approaching a random girl and chatting them up. I was WAY too insecure and unconfident. In 2026, I have approached about a dozen strangers and chatted them up, I work with several beautiful women at my job as a dance instructor, I dance with beautiful women all day, I could go out to salsa clubs every weekend and confidently ask every women in there to dance with me. HUGE SHIFT. This is an important aspect to my life purpose because one of my goals in life is to master the feminine creatures of this Earth. This will help me with my teachings as a dance instructor as well as my intimacy goals 3. Shift in confidence Next, lets take a look at a couple of videos of myself The first video is of me venting about something from 5 years ago. I was staying in an Airbnb in West Virginia. Whats funny is that I actually talk about taking a ballroom dancing class, I manifested my current job into reality 5 years ago. That is so fuckin' cool! Notice that my voice sounds unsure of itself, as if I am scared that someone is going to hear me. There is also an underlying sadness and disappointment in my overall being. Even though I say in the video "I feel so much better," my emotional state is that of hopelessness and lack of direction and uncertainty and fear. All of these things are going to look VERY different in the next video, 5 years later. The video listed below is from 6 months ago. As you can see, my demeanor is completely different. I take my time answering questions, I speak in a confident and secure and deep voice. I am sharing my thoughts, and I am speaking my mind in an authentic and honest way. Also, right on par with the "abundance of women" progress, there is a cute girl behind the camera. This is a COMPLETELY different person below as compared to above. Now imagine where you are going to be 5 years from now... let that sink in.... There is also something interesting in the dynamic between the two of us. I am saying that the masculine way of being is to stick to habits and not be swayed by emotional states. She is questioning my claims by proposing that if I follow my emotions and take better care of myself, this will lead me to better opportunities in life. She does have a point. The conclusion that I've come up with is yes its important to stick to habits, but brute forcing your way into accomplishing things is not a healthy way to live. Our desire for progress should be coming from our Heats, from a place of love and kindness towards ourselves. She is in touch with this. She also catches me off guard and asks me what I want out of life.. I say that "I want to make an impact on the world and I want to attain a high level of consciousness, one that most humans haven't accessed." It is very cool that I felt comfortable enough to speak this into a camera. And this is a very authentic desire of mine, I want a high level of consciousness more than anything. Five years ago, I wasn't even comfortable telling people that I meditate because I thought they would think that I'm weird. Thats great progress. She then says something interesting, she claims that if I continue to grow in my consciousness work and truly reach high levels, anyone that I come in contact with will be influenced by my heightened levels of consciousness, so why even bother dissecting this masculine vs feminine paradigm? Sure, again another great point, but the masculine and feminine paradigm is a part of consciousness and therefore needs to be understood as a human being. The final point in the video, which we realize together, is that the masculine is about "holding space," which I would compare to feeling like theres a steel orb around you, in which you are comfortable sitting and just "being." It is imperative for the masculine to "hold space in order for the feminine to feel comfortable enough to fully express her authentic femininity, which is all women's true desire. This is very true. Dissecting this really puts into perspective firstly, how awesome this girl was at interviewing and listening and also I would just like to say that this video shows that I am a grown fuckin' man. I answer things with integrity and honesty and I am not afraid to share my thoughts. That is true progress, I am very proud of myself. Okay, I honestly feel much better about myself. Now, above all else, I really need to start cleaning my room. Okay, ready go.... 12.18.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 51 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 22 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 49 No smoking weed streak: 5 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #48 On an emotional level, this has been a very interesting couple of weeks. I went to a dance competition and had a blast with my dance partner, had a blast with her again the following weekend, intuited that I would end up hurting her one day and cried, went out on a coffee date with another girl, started making friends with the guys at my gym, and did a photo shoot at work in an elf costume. And probably most importantly, I've discovered that I am currently stuck in a sad and pessimistic mindset, which is not optimal for the life that I am trying to create for myself. This is all good stuff, very eventful, but I am not sure where to go from here. I have stopped making my routines a priority as I am hitting a reset button in order to reassess. Is this just me being lazy or do I really need this break... I don't know... But I really don't know what to do. My rooms a mess, that is the first issue. I'm still in debt. I'm not living a life with an abundance of sex. I have feelings for a girl and its making my head spin as I want to pursue her but at the same time I don't. I am confused. What is it that you want in this life? Lets just focus on that. I want to be a successful dance instructor. Okay, and what does that mean to you? I want to win dance competitions at a high level. I want to be able to walk into any studio in the world and provide value to every single instructor and student there. I want to make 6 figures through just dancing. I want to make a YouTube channel in which I hit on women in cities and post about it. I want to inspire men to do this in a respectful yet flirtatious way that actually works. I want to be able to approach women and tell them that they are beautiful. I want to express my authentic attraction towards them. I want to be able to have sex with women for 30 straight minutes, circulating the delicious sexual energy throughout my body while she climaxes again and again and again. I want to be clear headed and loving in all situations. I want to have a shredded and muscular physique, one that is truly sexy, one that inspires others to work on their bodies. I want to be able to express myself authentically, not worrying about what others think about me in every situation that I go into. I want to have a cute house with a big backyard and a porch and a pool and an outdoor bar and a basement with a pool table and darts. I want to have a highly- conscious relationship that is grounded in Truth and Love and helps each other grow to our full potential. I want all of my friends and family to know that I love and care about them very much. I want to reach LOC 1,000 and help other people reach higher levels of consciousness. I want to write books about enlightenment and Truth. I want to open up a meditation center. I want to go on a 10 day meditation retreat. I want to meet and be taught by someone that is truly enlightened. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This is taken from the description from a YouTube video, it is a beautiful description of what hopefulness and optimism looks like: There is a place beyond the mountains where the rivers turn to gold beneath the morning light , Eldoria, the city that never truly sleeps, but quietly breathes with the dawn. They say the air itself hums with memory there, and the wind carries the scent of roads long traveled. A lone wanderer walks toward it now, guided not by maps, but by faith — the soft kind that grows in silence. His path is rough, yet every step gleams with the promise of something waiting just beyond the horizon. This piece was born from that feeling the ache of distance and the calm that follows when you finally stop running. It is music for those who travel in spirit as much as in body, who see the world not as it is, but as it could be. Let it draw you toward quiet fields, crumbling bridges, and a sky that forgives all things. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Is my routine listed below going to create the things in life that I have listed above? I would say yes, you've also got to understand that following this routine is more than just building habits, I am building self esteem. Doing this shit over and over and over and over again without wavering is building me into a strong and competent human being and man. Into a man that is able to summon the courage to talk to anybody that he wants to, to summon the courage to tackle life's greatest challenges, to tackle his insecurities, to master and regulate his emotions, to inspire others, to be a loving person, to teach all day and all night. The one thing that I would like to add and that I'm excited to add to this routine is I want to go to the gym first thing in the morning. What would that look like? 12.18.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 50 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 21 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 12 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 21 No ejaculation streak: 21 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 48 No smoking weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #47 I love journaling! I really do love it. Now, I had a rough day yesterday, it was filled with lack of motivation and pessimism and self doubt. Nowadays, these kinds of modes of thinking are pretty rare, which is positive. In response to this, I did something a little different this morning. Instead of trying to grind through what I was going through and force myself to wake up and get some shit done, I decided to give myself love instead. I allowed myself to sleep in and I tried my damnedest to love every ounce of myself this morning, despite all of my "shortcomings." This is a powerful process and its not that easy to do either. We always want ourselves to change and we think that we need to brute force our way into creating change, but the real change lies in loving ourselves and opening ourselves up to the many desires that we have, opening the door to true and lasting happiness and wellbeing. This is where I am heading as I continue to unlock the door to the Field of Love. Its funny, my dad called me this morning telling me that I should be setting up appointments with heart surgeons. He was saying that hes worried about me because I'm lifting weights and I could have a stroke. As soon as he said this, I felt annoyed. But this is just how his brain opperates, he worries about the people that he loves. But his mind is not very nice to him, coming up with these tragic stories inside of his head. For me, I am in touch with my body. I am not going to have a stroke, I am healthy because I feel healthy. Yes, I understand that I need to have another heart surgery and I appreciate the doctors letting me know that, but... I am not going to worry myself about it, I have learned enough in this lifetime to understand that the Universe has its own plan, theres no need to mentally masturbate about things. Now, with all of. this self love stuff going on inside of me, I do want to get some tangible things done right now right here before I head to dance practice at 12 o'clock. This means that I have 1 hour before I have to leave. I definitely need to shower and I also want to meditate, which means that my push ups and pull ups will have to come after work tonight. Also, what am I doing this weekend? I would honestly love to go to a coffee shop and try to summon the courage to hit on a girl or two. I am going christmas shopping with my friends at 3 o'clock on Saturday and I would also like to go to the yoga studio and take a class and also ask them if I can do their work study program. I am going to head there in the morning, but I am going to find out when my co worker will be there because she is the one that will help me get into the work study program, so either Saturday or Sunday depending on when shes working there, I just have to ask her today. Then on Sunday, I am baking Christmas cookies at my cousins house and my sister will be there! I love her. 12.17.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 49 Floss streak: 11 Shower streak: 20 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 11 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 20 No ejaculation streak: 20 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 47 No smoking weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Interlude: Releasing sadness ~ 12.17.25 The song and music video perfectly depicts what I'm going through right now with the realization that I am creating my own reality of sadness and dissapointment. As you can see, I am drawing the sad balloon myself, I am creating my own reality.. I then attach the sadness to my "being" and start moving through the world.. The sadness that I am feeling is then reflected in the outside "world." But then, I get a glimpse of Infinite Love.. But I'm scared of Infinite Love because it means that I have to give up this pessimistic mindset that I have grown so fond and attached too... so I push the world away and lock myself in the comfy castle that I've constructed The solution is to summon the courage to cut ties with the sadness and make room for Infinite Love.... And I will get there, it is part of my destiny in this lifetime... What an absolutely perfect depiction of what I am going through right now. I'd like to thank the artist "Larry Pink the Human" ~ I wish you happiness and wellbeing for now and for eternity

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #46 12.16.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 6 Brush teeth streak: 48 Floss streak: 10 Shower streak: 19 Meditation streak: 12 Push ups / pull ups streak: 10 Funniness affirmations streak: 10 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 13 Wash face streak: 13 No electronics before bed streak: 0 (oops) "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 19 No ejaculation streak: 19 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 46 No smoking weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 For week of 12/8-12/14 Legs: done Chest: Back:

Interlude ~ Realization: I think I'm a sad boy Holy shit, is my vibrational energy that of a sad boy that attracts negativity into his life? Looking back at all of the posts from these past two weeks, almost every one is relating to being sad about something, a yearning, missing something, lacking something... Holy shit am I creating that reality for myself? I got this idea from the book "Ask and It is Given" in which they talk about how you are creating your own reality with your vibrational energy. And I am ALWAYS sad about something. There is always something wrong and I think that I really like this headspace... For example, I love songs like this: I walk this Earth all by myself I'm doing drugs but they don't help My voice says nothing when I'm screaming out for help I stretch my hand, but my grip just gives out I used to love crying in my girlfriends' arms, it felt so liberating and I felt so loved. Now heres the question, do I want to let this persona go? Or do I want to hold onto it? This is a genuine question and I should answer it honestly... No, I don't think I want to let go of it to be honest with you. Could you let it go though? Could you let go of being sad? Also, what felt so good about crying in the arms of someone that loves you? I think that I was able to fully express myself with her. I wanted to cry. I wanted to feel okay about crying. I wanted to let go of the emotion instead of bottling it in. Thats what these cries did for me. And I think that I was lacking this from my own parents, I never felt comfortable expressing my emotions with them. I want to get to a point in which I express my emotions while dancing a solo in front of people, that will be a real testament to my growth as a human being. or this song... Okay, this beat is fire though... Cause I see a vain look in your eyes Tell me, do you see the same, same look in mine? ... You're gonna leave her You have deceived her She's just a girl Now what the fuck am I going to do about this? I won't be able to actualize all of the massive goals that I have for my life if I continue to identify with being a sad boy that is never happy and that cries a lot and that feels bad for himself... Well... Lets take this back to the Sedona Method... could you let this go? Yes of course I could let it go. I mean it is possible. Would you let it go? Yes, I would let it go so that I can open myself up to a happier mindset and a more joyful and peaceful emotional state. How am I going to hit on these girls anyways if I am a sad sack all of the time? When? When are you going to let this go? I am going to let it go right now. I am going to choose to be happy, to be content, to be joyful, to be courageous, to be fearless. Huh.... that was easy...

Interlude: If I fly too far, will I still have a place inside your heart ~ 12.16.25 This song makes me think about my ex girlfriend. She was quite literally the sweetest creature I have ever met, so loving, so nurturing, not a mean bone in her body. Do I miss her sometimes? Yes absolutely.. The issue here is that I am so stuck in this human mindset mentality, creating a story for myself as if it was a soap opera. I know deep down that this is not the best way to live, at least according to the enlightened ones of this world.. but I can't help but be pulled in by the drama of it all.. I mean what a beautiful story it would be if I dated half the girls in the city and then came back to my first real crush and married her?.. will it actually happen.. who the fuck knows... So if I fly too far Would i still have a place inside your heart? When you see what I've become Will you love me for who I am not who I was?