Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #96 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 4 Make bed: 4 Journal: 97 Brush teeth streak: 99 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 70 Meditation streak: 4 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 4 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 4 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 4 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 4 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 98 No smoking weed streak: 53

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #1 Okay, it is 10.29.25 and I have realized that I have no discipline in my life which is setting me back from accomplishing my goals. Listed below are the habits that I would like to integrate as well as the reason for doing so: 1.Read when I get home (no electronics) this is for the purpose of having better sleep. I also have a larger vision of being very well educated, which starts with reading lots of books. Just a little bit every night will go a long ways 2.No sexual stimulation from internet No sexual stimulation from the internet. I see no benefit in watching porn, I have a history of being addicted to it and have therefore had struggles having an erection with a real woman, this is a no brainer. Stop with this nonsense. 3.Workout at gym 3 days a week Workout at the gym 3 days a week. I want to get really fuckin hot, like really fuckin hot. And the best way to do this as a man is to hit the gym and do it in a strategic and intelligent way. I am going to go 3 days a week, I am going to work out my chest on Monday at 11am - 12pm, this will be barbell bench press, dumbbell incline press, and that one with the cable that stretches your chest, it is going to be 4 sets and the first set is a warm up, so 3 real sets. Next is legs, I would like to use the angled leg Press, 4 sets, then the leg extensions, 4 sets, then use a calf machine, 4 sets again, next is back and arms. I want to start doing deadlifts again, I love deadlifts, then a barbell row and then a dumbell row, I really want to get my back jacked for dance. 4 sets of each again and this will be the workout routine for 3 months. Then I will have a de load week, in which I take the whole week off from weight training and I reevaluate how far I've come. I will also need to measure how much protein and carbs and calories that I am in taking and also weight myself on a daily basis so that I can track my progress 4.No ejaculating for 3 years No ejaculating for 3 years. This has to do with my goal of having sexual abundance in my life. I want to have sex with real woman, not with my own hand. Not ejaculating also gives me more energy to shift my focus into other things in life, such as having a bigger impact on people, reading books, meditating and overall being a healthier human that people look up to. I lead with integrity. 5. Approach and hit on 10 women every week for 1 year Approach and hit on 10 women every week, which would equate to 500 women on the year. This would be a great milestone for me and it would make me very proud. This coincides with the goal of wanting to have sexual abundance in my life. I want lots of sex with lots of women. That is what I genuinely want. I don't want to fake that anymore, I want this and therefore I will have it. Thank you God for allowing me to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. - Half time: as you can see, we already have an interrelated system at work, the no ejaculation goal supports the hitting on 10 women every week because not ejaculating will give me more motivation and energy and time to hit on several women a week, on the flip side if I hit on 10 women every week, watching porn and ejaculating becomes a lot less appealing, both cogs in the system are supporting each other. Nice job there. - 6. Eat 150 g of protein every single day I have learned that eating a lot of protein is imperative to building lots of muscle. I want to build lots of muscle in order to become the sexiest man I can be. This is required, therefore I have to eat enough protein. 7. Meditate every morning for 30 minutes moving past physical attractiveness, I want to be attractive in a sense that I am magnetic as a human being, people want to be around me, and I also want to be able to stay present and within the moment both for dance and also for the people around me, such as students and friends and family and co workers. The more I meditate, the higher my consciousness grows, and the more I understand the truth of reality, the more I am able to make an impact on the world. Overall, this is mainly for better mood and mental clarity, the motivation is NOT towards enlightenment, although I predict that is what it will turn into 8. Wake up at 7:30 am every day this challenge has two benefits: 1. It is going to build self discipline and character, and 2. I have to wake up that early in order to get everything done that I want to ( I've already mapped out my schedule accordingly) 9. Brush teeth morning and night this is also building self discipline and it is also for the betterment of my hygienic and overall health and well being. I am also a dance instructor, I work very close to people, therefore it is imperative that I have fresh breath. I may even want to pick up a toothbrush and toothpaste and keep it at the dance studio. 10. Floss teeth every morning another habit for self discipline and overall wellbeing 11. Shower and groom hair every morning this is similar to the last two, it is building character to stick to a habit. The main thing that I'm trying to do with this morning routine is that there are no grey areas here - no - I wake up at 7:30 am, I brush my teeth and floss, then I take a shower, then I groom my hair and beard, then I go downstairs and meditate for 30 minutes on the floor, then I do my push ups and pull ups, which is the next thing on this list and there is no wiggle room, there is no being wishy washy, no I am doing this every fucking day, I don't care if I get kidnapped and wake up in Antarctica, no - I am going to follow the same routine no matter what. Fuck variety - life is chock full of surprises, a routine keeps you grounded and focused and stable - this is the true masculine power - to have the self discipline to stick to this routine 12. Do 3 sets of push ups and 3 sets of pull ups every morning again, this is self discipline and it will also have a cumulative effect in turning me into a sexy, attractive man. I am going to make these things happen every single day like clock work. There are no excuses. It is time to start living with integrity and purpose and direction. This is the desire that I have been suppressing and distracting my self from with spiritual pursuits. I don’t really want to be enlightened, at least not yet. I have been using enlightenment as a distraction for many years because hitting on women and developing discipline in life is scarier and more uncomfortable to me than reading spiritual books and meditating. If I do these things, I will become the quintessential model of healthy masculinity. And this is what I truly want. I want to maximize my masculine energy to its absolute full potential. Then once I hit that peak, I will move into something more selfless, such as spiritual enlightenment, or whatever else I want to pursue. I am going to need a checklist that I have to check off every single day. This needs to be made public so that I can feel the embarrassment of missing a day. I want to do this on actualized.org, my favorite forum. Thank you God for allowing me to become aware of my authentic desire of being a vessel of healthy masculinity in this world. Thank you God for allowing me to create sexual abundance in my life. Thank you God for allowing me to create a life filled with love, laughter, joy, purpose, and gratitude. Listed below is my checklist for the first two days of my challenge. 10.31.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Floss Shower Groom hair Eat breakfast Meditate Work out Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Wash face No electronics before bed "Whole day" goals: No porn No ejaculation Eat 150 g of protein Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week Approach 10 women I did a good job on everything except for no electronics before bed and eating 150 g of protein. I was on my phone before going to sleep and I am going to have to figure out how to incorporate 150 g of protein into my diet. The weekly goals are going to be assessed at the end of the week on Sunday. I am going to actually keep a counter of how many girls I have approached. I would also like to create a counter so that I can keep track of how many days I consecutively stuck to my habit. The higher the number, the more fulfilled I will feel.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #95 Things are going to change for me, drastically. I say this because I am attracting an optimistic and / or hopeful mindset into my life. I am starting to curve into everything that I am afraid of. I am no longer afraid to embarrass myself or to mess things up. I drive into whats uncomfortable. I take a delight in it. I want to know the Truth in every situation, even if it hurts, especially if it hurts actually. The idea is not to avoid hard times, it is to be able to take on hard times with an inner strength. This is the best route to take because I have VERY big goals. I want to own a dance studio, I want to have a house, I want to be a world champion dancer, I want to fuck LOTS of women, I want a God-like physique... This is the vision I have for my life. If I am going to actualize all of these things into my life, I have to become emotionally sound and disciplined and mature so that I can handle the trials and tribulations that come with manifesting this into my life. Lets take emotional mastery as an example. The root solution to dealing with emotions is to experience them fully instead of avoiding them. This is very obvious to me now, so take every action possible to you to do things that are emotionally challenging, especially when dealing with people. You know what else I have noticed? When certain people are around, I act differently. I can see and feel it, I don't act authentically anymore, it is unfortunate, it gets me out of the flow. But thats okay... this is just the reality of the situation that you are currently in. Okay, so I am sitting at a coffee shop. There are a few things that I would like to work on and I also really want to go to the gym because I only did the first set of my routine. What does your work schedule look like today? I am going to leave at 3 o'clock today to finish my workout. I could also use some more food because I couldn't drink a protein shake this morning because I didn't bring home my protein container. I could also use a meditation session but idk when or where to do this at. Okay, so I am going to leave here in 5 minutes to finish my workout. Then I am going to grab a protein shake at Cubmerland Farms so that I can substitute my protein shake that I missed this morning. Then. I will come back to work. I ahve to start teaching at 5:30 and I am going straight through until 9:15. I have the two group classes (6:15 and 7:00) and then P*******, J********, and I am forgetting who else. This means that I have to summarize one of my students critique sheets. I will do this first thing. I want to have a better understanding of my student body and what I need to do throughout the week in order to set myself up for success. I want to grow here rapidly. Truly. I don't know whats gotten into me lately but I am very focused and ambitious, its great, its awesome. And it stems from having a very large vision for my life. I am able to look at things going on around me with dispassion and detachment so that I can accomplish my goals independent of the opinions of others and how it will affect others. This is Thick Face, Black Heart. So when I start my day I am going to type up the summary so that I can present it to here on her lesson. I am going to teach all day and I would like to develop a better system of "things to do" while I am working. There are so many things that I am working on and I feel like I dont have a good handle on it. Tomorrow, I have a coaching at 11 am, which means I have to get out the door at 10:30 am. I also don't have food made for myself tonight, which is not ideal. Should I do this tomorrow morning or tonight? To not wake up my mom I probably should do it tomorrow, but that means that I have to eat something else tonight when I get home because I have nothing prepared, which I am okay with, my mom made some meatloaf and something else I think, why dont I just eat that so that I don't wake her up. I feel like there are other things I need to do but I m not sure what yet. I also need a new smooth ballroom shirt. I want to figure that out soon... and a vest too! After work, I am going to that swing dance place and then I am heading home... wait a minute, I have to work out tomorrow as well. When am I going to do that? IDK I will figure that out later. And then on Saturday, I am going to be heading to NYC to hit on women! I am very excited to jump into this deep cold pool. Okay... I have to go work out. Thursday: 7:30 shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Cook meals for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 10:30 Leave for gym 11:00 Work out 12:00 Dance practice 2:00 Dance practice 4-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 3 Journal: 96 Brush teeth streak: 98 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 69 Meditation streak: 3 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 3 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 3 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 3 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 3 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 No alcohol streak: 97 No smoking weed streak: 52

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #94 Wednesday: 7:00 Shower and groom 7:30 Meditate 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast 8:30 Pack everything 9:00 head to dance training 10a-12p - dance training ($20) 12-10pm Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 2 Journal: 95 Brush teeth streak: 97 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 68 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 96 No smoking weed streak: 51

Interlude: Personal Journal Things to do after work: - nail down those moves: foxtrot explosion, tango abanico, and tango vienesse cross and memorize the routine - finish workout -Get gas - shovel driveway so that there is room for both cars -bring home water bottle Things to do (at some point): -get headlight fixed -sit down and figure out finances -figure out charger set up Insight: Honestly, spending those 45 minutes scrolling on Instagram absolutely fucked me. It pushed everything back this is why having discipline over your habits is so important because you have such a large vision now. I want to do REALLY WELL at this competition in New Orleans l. REALLY WELL. I am going to work my ass off to learn these steps and have proper form.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #93 A couple of things I'd like to run by you. Firstly, nice job with the workout yesterday. I made a list of everything that I want to do this week and it has done wonders. I have everything that I want to do this week planned out to a tee. I am excited to see where this goes. The road to become an attractive man is a treacherous, tumultuous path. Things don't get easier, but your ability to handle life's challenges greatly increases. I met a girl while I was on break at work yesterday. She couldn't find the coffee shop so I walked her over there, we chatted a bit. At the end of the conversation, I wish I told her that she was cute and asked her for her number.. too bad.. I will have many more opportunities though. You have to realize that every approach that you make is going to make these girls days, its not just about you. Tuesday: 7:30 Shower and Groom 8:00 consultation call 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Meditate 9:30 unsure 10:30 head to dance 11:00 Dance practice 12:30 Head to gym 1:00 Work out 2:00 Dance practice 4-10 pm: Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Practice circulating sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 1 Journal: 94 Brush teeth streak: 96 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 67 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 95 No smoking weed streak: 50

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #92 Okay so I have created a meal plan as well as a schedule for the ENTIRE week. I am very excited to implement this. I am also going to go out to the city this upcoming weekend to hit on girls. This is my main priority. I HAVE to change myself into a man that gets laid often. This is non-negotiable. It is 7 am right now and I have to leave here by 7 am. I still have to finish my breakfast, shower and groom and also cook my food for the week. Hopefully I get everything done. Monday: 7:00: Shower and groom 7:30 Meditation 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast (protein shake) 8:30 Pack everything up 9:00 Head to the gym 9:30 Work out 10:30 am dance practice 1-10pm: work 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 0 Journal: 93 Brush teeth streak: 95 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 66 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 94 No smoking weed streak: 49

Interlude: Weight training regimen Workout 1: Push (Monday) Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 2: Pull (Tuesday) Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 3: Upper (Thursday) Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 4: Legs (Friday) Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #91 Several streaks have gone by the way side. I really want to become more organized in my life. The funny thing is that my weeks usually go really well because I just love my job so much. However, my weekends are kind of shit because I don't hang out with my friends that often, I don't usually wake up at the right time and start my day, everything is a mess on the weekend. What happened Friday night into Saturday? So I had a good day at work, I was productive and confident. Then, I went to a place to dance, I had never been there. I had fun dancing but I did not have much energy. This job takes a toll on the body sometimes. After I got out, I grabbed a pint of ice cream and a bag of chips, with full knowledge that I wanted to go to NYC and hit on women the following day, but I wanted to indulge and I couldn't control myself. I get home and I watched something on my computer as I down the ice cream and then passed out. I didn't was my face or brush my teeth.. The next morning, I wake up and I work hard on the Thick Face Black Heart summary, here it is: I continued to work on chapter 2 throughout the middle of the day, so I am being productive. Throughout the day, I probably took 2-3 naps, and I also masturbated without ejaculation. I think I sabotaged my plans of going to NYC because I was scared. There is no reason why I couldn't have done it. So I sabotaged that and the sabotage continued through the rest of the weekend. I have been a lazy sack the whole weekend. I tend to not hold myself to any standard on the weekends, I completely let go. Now, I don't want you to beat yourself up too much. Just get out of this hole and build yourself back up. Overall, you are doing great things. What are some highlights from the week: I uploaded chapter 1 of Thick Face Black Heart book summary I built 5 lessons out of thin air I had a couple of really good introductory lessons I opened up about being upset with my dance partner for breaking it off I talked to a traveling consultant coach for 45 minutes she is very attractive - (she also kept getting really close to me throughout the day, not sure if this is in my head or if it was legitimate) - again super attractive, I love experiences of talking to attractive women because I really want to get used to that so that I'm more comfortable Had a breakthrough with one of my students - we started dancing "close contact" for all of our smooth dances - she is stretching her feet and we started to use more emotion Okay, great, again really positive things throughout the week and then the weekend hits and things just hit the fan... although I did put in several hours into my YouTube channel, which is great. I am proud of myself, truly, but there are always things to work on. What do I want to do today: Take a shower Buy some toothpaste Brush teeth / floss Start to figure out what to do this week What does this upcoming week look like? Monday: 7:00: Shower and groom 7:30 Meditation 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast (protein shake) 8:30 Pack everything up 9:00 Head to the gym 9:30 Work out 10:30 am dance practice 1-10pm: work 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Tuesday: 7:00 Shower and Groom 7:30 meditation 8:00 consultation call 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything up 9:30 Head to the gym 10:00 Workout 11:00 Here I am going to head to the library and see if there is anything that I need to take care of 2:00 Dance practice 4-10 pm: Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Practice circulating sexual energy Wednesday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 head to dance training 10a-12p - dance training ($20) 12-10pm Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 circulate sexual energy Thursday: 7:30 shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Cook meals for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 10:30 Leave for gym 11:00 Work out 12:00 Dance practice 2:00 Dance practice 4-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Friday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Head to the gym 10:00 Work out 11:00 Dance training 1-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Saturday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Leave for New Haven 10:30 Head to Grand Central 12:30 Arrive at NYC 12:30-4:00 Make my way towards the dance studio, hitting on women on my way over there (20 minute walk) 4:00-5:30pm WCS Jack and Jill Prep - ($45) 5:30-8p - hit on women on my way over to the next dance studio (9 min walk) 8:00p - 12am Social dancing ($20) 12 am Head back to Grand Central 1:00 am Grand central train 3:00 am Get back to CT 4:00 am Get back home Sunday: 9:30am Shower and Groom 10:00 Meditate 10:30 Eat breakfast and Journal 11:00 Get things ready 11:30 Do laundry, grocery shop, cook meals for the week, give yourself a haircut, make something for the Super Bowl 3:30 head to the library to work on some things and get ready for next week 5:00 Leave for for the Super Bowl 6:00 pm Enjoy the Super Bowl! 11:00 pm get home, wash face and brush teeth Lets also take a quick look at what it is I am trying to accomplish in my life: I want an abundance of sex with an abundance of women I want a highly conscious and highly developed intimate relationship (at the end of the pick up journey) Open up a meditation center I want to be incredible at having sex, being able to have multiple full body orgasms and lasting for hours Become a world champion dancer Make $100,000 a year Lots of entries Lots of lessons Start a YouTube channel Approach 1,000 women Make a vast impact on humanity through my work Youtube channel Performing powerful solos Have a God-like shredded physique Exemplify authentic, healthy masculinity Write books on spirituality and enlightenment Buy a house for entertaining Reach a level of consciousness of 1,000 Okay, now how am I going to set my life up so that I am working towards my goals every single day? Wake up at 7:30am - dude just do it. Wake up and get in the fuckin' shower Workout 4 days a week ~ Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. I just have to do this - and I need an hour at the gym, no less than that Start meal planning - I want to have the necessary amount of macros in order to gain muscle - I am going to be more strategic about this and track everything Meditate daily Approach at least 10 women every weekend - you need to be meeting new attractive women on a weekly basis Work hard when you are in the studio and take multiple coachings a week On Sundays, always give yourself a haircut, meal prep for the week and Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 0 Journal: 92 Brush teeth streak: 94 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 65 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 93 No smoking weed streak: 48

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #90 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 11 Journal: 91 Brush teeth streak: 93 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 64 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 4 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 4 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 4 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 92 No smoking weed streak: 47

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #89 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 10 Journal: 90 Brush teeth streak: 92 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 63 Meditation streak: 4 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 4 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 4 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 3 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 3 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 3 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 91 No smoking weed streak: 46

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #88 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 9 Journal: 89 Brush teeth streak: 91 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 62 Meditation streak: 3 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 3 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 3 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 90 No smoking weed streak: 45

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #87 Okay, now this morning, I woke up at 7:00 am, but I stayed in bed until about 7:45 am. Its now 8 am, I am journaling right now and drinking my coffee. I wanted to get to the gym so that I could get a leg workout in, but I don't know if that is possible anymore. One thing that I'm realizing is that it really doesn't mater what order I do my morning routine in. I have had a healthy paradigm shift in regards to this, as I have realized that the intention of a morning routine like this is for an overarching goal, which is just to get things out of the way that set me up for success so that I can get on with the day afterwards and enjoy more success. It doesn't matter if I journal first or second or third, if it gets my ass out of bed on time, then that is what I should do. In the creative process, sometimes things change and you have to be able to adapt to that. When I try to get myself out of bed in the morning, the thought of showering is not enticing at all, so I procrastinate. However, the thought of drinking a hot coffee and journaling is VERY enticing so just lean into that, no harm there. Next thing on the agenda, I have realized that I really am hurt by this dance partnership break up and I should really talk to this girl about it. This is what a real man, or a real Thick Face Black Heart practitioner would do, of course ideally I am able to handle situations like these with dispassion and detachment, in which I am able to detach from the emotions that I am feeling in favor of a more wholistic, warrior-like mindset, but this is just where I'm at. On another positive note, I have about $1300 coming into my bank account tomorrow from this dance event over the weekend. I had owed my mom $320 and my dad $585 so I will be able to pay them COMPLETELY back. This is going to feel AWESOME to get this off of my shoulders. I also only have until mid March to pay back my debt relief program, that will also feel awesome. I feel like I'm finally starting to take back control of my financial life. Some things that I would like to save for: I need to start saving money in my bank account in case my car craps out on me, this is essential, I have no idea how long this thing is going to last, it is a 2001 Toyota Avalon with about 205,000 miles on it. The next thing is my heart surgery, I will have to pay at least $3,000 for it. There are the most important things but there are more things that I would like as well, lets make a list and order them by priority: New smooth shirt and smooth vest: $300 Heart Surgery: $3,000 New car: $5,000 Shrooms: $200 Upgrading teeth: $3,000 Dating coaching: $2,500 Tattoos: $500 Buying a condo / house: $10,000 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 8 Journal: 88 Brush teeth streak: 90 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 61 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 89 No smoking weed streak: 44

Interlude: Things to do today ~ 1.27.26 Okay, so right now I feel fuzzy. I don't know what to do. I know I've got to meditate and get my visualizations in, but I also have no clean underwear. I have to do some laundry. This ideally should have been done on Sunday night so that I felt ready for the week to begin. This is what I am missing in my schedule, a Sunday night in which I make sure that I have everything set up for the week. Okay, so I will work on this next weekend, but for now I have to start playing catch up. What is it that I should be doing on Sunday nights anyways? I want to give myself a haircut, clean and organize my room, do laundry, cook food for myself for Monday through Thursday. Anyways, I now have to play catch up. So I have to do my laundry, give myself a haircut, cook food, meditate, organize my room, and then head to the gym and then to work. I wanted to get to work early so that I could start calling people to get them in this week, we will see how that goes. My lesson count is low this week, but hey I have to get things ready and in order, theres no way around it. Okay, ready set go,...

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #86 Yesterday I had a good day. We were snowed in so I spent the day shoveling, reading books, napping, and creating videos for my Youtube channel. Nowadays, I am always doing productive things when I have free time because I have such a strong and overarching vision for my life. This is vastly different from how I used to live 3+ years ago. A masculine energy has awoken within me in which I am embodying a man with a Thick Face and a Black Heart, in other words I do not care what others think about me and I will do whatever it takes to meet my goals. This will carry me into this weekend in which I am going to head to New York City and approach women. I feel a new surge of energy when I tell you this, I am going to make this happen no matter what. I am now willing to fail, I do not care about how a single approach goes, I do not care what these women think about me, I only care about THE RESULT. Thats all I fuckin' care about. And in order to get the result, which is actually just the girl of my dreams, I have to approach AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. I have grown frustrated with my inability to wake up at the time that I have set for myself. Its not that hard to get your ass up when the alarm goes off and it will do wonders for the goals that you are set to reach because you will have the necessary time that it takes to actualize them. Think about it, you waste an entire hour when you are supposed to wake up, scrolling on your phone. That is an entire hour that you could spend organizing your life, or working out, or journaling, or working on your YouTube project. Get your ass up. Last night, I did watch porn and masturbate and ejaculated. The ejaculation was an unintentional "retrograde ejaculation" in which the semen dispersed into my bladder. I could tell because no semen came out of the head of the penis, but I completely lost my erection. This is a big wake up call as I have no idea anymore how to actually have full body orgasms. This needs work. I am excited to start treating the women that I know at work differently. I recently became aware that I act a certain way around them in hopes that I will get into their pants one day. This is neediness behavior. I am COMPLETELY shifting this mindset. I do not care what they think about me. AT ALL. I do not pursue women at work. I do just fine pursuing them elsewhere. The road to becoming a masculine man is a tumultuous and difficult path and I am finally ready to take the first step. Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 7 Journal: 87 Brush teeth streak: 89 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 60 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 88 No smoking weed streak: 43

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #85 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 6 Journal: 86 Brush teeth streak: 88 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 59 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 15 No ejaculation streak: 15 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 87 No smoking weed streak: 42

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #84 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 5 Journal: 85 Brush teeth streak: 87 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 58 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 14 No ejaculation streak: 14 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 86 No smoking weed streak: 41

Interlude: Personal Journal ~ 1.25.26 I am a professional ballroom dancer and dance instructor. I have started to gain success in this business in which I compete in competitions, people know who I am, my students are winning awards. I am one of the “hot” dance instructors. Anyways, this is all great and a necessary step in the natural development of the ego. However, I am firstly way too much in my own head, unable to stop or even slow down thoughts most of the time. The times when I do this the best is when I am dancing actually. Now, although I have become an “attractive man” on paper, muscular physique, charismatic, talks well, good hygiene and grooming habits, I do not have an abundance of women and sex in my life despite being around so many of them in the ballroom world. Why is this? Because I do not approach women. EVER. I just don't. I have failed again and again and again to approach a single girl when out and about in public. Now all of this is going to change, I know it. But it is going to take courage on your part. It is going to take getting out of your comfort zone, it is going to take doing things that make you uncomfortable and that you don't want to do. Now, are you ready to take this heros journey on? Or are you going to push it off another month, another year, another two??? What would your life look like if you went all year not pursuing your true authentic desires. Or better yet, what would your life look like if you did pursue your true authentic desires for the next year? I would have a shredded physique. I would have an abundance of women in my life. I would have an abundance of sex in my life. I wouldn't simp over ANYBODY. Women and men would respect me fully. I would have emotional intelligence to handle any and every situation. My behaviors around women would be non needy but attractive, honest, and direct. How am I going to get there? I am in a great mindset right now. I am in a super masculine aura that tells people “I mean business.” I don't give a fuck about how people view me. I don't give a fuck if I walk by somebody and don't say hello. I don't give a fuck if you reject me. I don't give a fuck about what your opinions are about me. I am going to get mine. This is the energy that I am going to carry with me through the year of 2026. Also, steer into what's uncomfortable in EVERY situation that you undertake. Start telling women that you find them beautiful. Go to NYC every weekend and hit on every girl that you see. Perform and compete in every single competition that you possibly can. Work hard for your students, develop them to their fullest. And above all else, love yourself, put yourself first, you deserve the fuckin’ world. And don't let any girl’s rejection of your authentic self tell you otherwise. It is time to turn the boy into the fuckin man. Let's fuckin’ go.

Ive never tried this but it sounds very useful. Can you give me an example of the "shadow work" questions that you used?

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #83 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 4 Journal: 84 Brush teeth streak: 86 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 57 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 13 No ejaculation streak: 13 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 85 No smoking weed streak: 40 On another note, I fuckin love this video. I will no longer be a nice guy, no longer be a push over, I am a fuckin' man, I have a thick face and a black heart and I accomplish every single goal that I set out for myself. No matter fuckin' what. I am going to dive into the belly of the beast if it fuckin' kills me because I will not live like this anymore while I have so much potential. I am going to look at the eye of the storm and walk straight into it.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #82 I have a big dance event this weekend, listed below are some things that I have to pack for it. Things to pack: Work pants - need to wash Black jacket - in car Work shirt for Friday - need to wash Work shirt for Saturday - need to wash Polo shirt Black tie - going to wear Green sparkle tie - at the studio Black vest -need to wash Smooth Dance shoes Rhythm dance shoes Black socks (3 pairs) Underwear (3 pairs) Black button up - need to wash Blue jeans Silver chain - can't find Rhythm shirt #1 Rhythm shirt #2 Smooth shirt Tanning stuff - have just need to pack Phone charger - All I have is mac charger, I guess that will have to do Hustle formation shirt - have just need to pack Hustle staff formation shirt - have just need to pack Wig and sunglasses for staff formation - have just need to pack Cuff links Cowboy hat Things that I need to wash: Black vest Black button up Dress pants Black shirt Purple shirt Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 3 Journal: 83 Brush teeth streak: 85 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 56 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 12 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 12 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 12 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 4 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 12 No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 84 No smoking weed streak: 39

Interlude: Dance Partnership Ending ~ 1.22.26 My dance partner told me that she doesn't want to be competitive partners when I age out of the category in August. We already have plans to compete together in March in New Orleans so we have to do that. After that, I won't be able to compete at the one in June because of the heart surgery and after that, there is one in Chicago and a local one, both in August. Although I could technically dance with this partner for those I would like to compete with someone else instead. The reason is because this is not a long term partnership anymore. Therefore, I would much rather develop some chemistry with someone else that I can use to catapult us into the next category, which is much more competitive. If I get this rolling now, I can start working on our routines now in preparation for August. I'm actually looking forward to this. The other positive to this is that this current dance partner has gifted me with an emotional roller coaster of an experience dancing with her. She's completely unhinged, highs are super high and lows are super low, which is honestly exactly how I am, which makes us not a well balanced match for each other. This other girl that I am going to be dancing with is very grounded, which is probably exactly what I need. Im thinking that we probably compliment and balance each other well. Im actually really excited to no longer be on this emotional roller coaster and to have some stability in my dance partnership. I am going to tell her about this as soon as I can so that we are all on the same page.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #81 This is is an entertaining video journal; here I contemplate how frustrating it is feeling like you're so far away from your goals and what I have been doing with my life over the past 10 years. I have noticed a few things recently, so the first one is that I have had a breakthrough in my dancing. I now take every dance with a lady as an opportunity to give the woman an experience like no other; I express to her how beautiful I think she is, how sexy I think she is.. through the dance and the cool thing about is that its just a dance, so there are no rules, you can go as far as you want with them. And this is what they want, these women want to lose themselves in the dancing, they want to FEEL something that they've never felt before. They want to feel that love, that intimacy that they have been craving for for so many years. You think people stick around and pay thousands of dollars to learn patterns in a dance... FUCK NOOOOO ... They want to feel their feminine essence in a way that they've never experienced before. And this is what I provide to every woman that I dance with. I am going to continue to push the envelope more and more in this regard. The second thing I've realized is that I am truly terrified of escalating things with women. I have a lack of experience, I have a fear of intimacy, and I overall just have no idea what I'm doing. Now this should not stop me from trying. And I will start trying. Starting next weekend (I have a dance event all of this weekend), I will go back to Boston and see what I can do. I am not so much scared of talking to these girls, I've felt progress in that regard, I am just scared of escalating things in a non-creepy way. I have also decided that I definitely need a second job. I am going to print a resume out and head to coffee shops and see if any of them are hiring. I know I can get a job if I try hard enough. I will tell them that I can work any morning except Wednesday so that I can keep my dance trainings which start at 10 am and of course I go into work at 1 oclock on Mondays and Fridays. This should give me that cushion that I need to start saving (in case I need another car), paying back my parents, and start saving so that I can pay for that "dating" workshop. One of the cool things about journaling is I am starting to look at my current situation under a fuckin' microscope. I'm really starting to understand and be honest about exactly where I am in life, which is exactly what you need to do if you are going to actualize big goals. Understand and be honest about where you are currently at and understand and be honest about where you want to go. This creates structural tension that will propell you towards the life of your dreams. Read more of The Path of Least Resistance for more insights regarding this. Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 2 Journal: 82 Brush teeth streak: 84 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 55 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 11 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 11 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 11 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 11 ( I am going to go until at least March 27th without porn and ejaculating - this is when I am competing in New Orelans.) No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 83 No smoking weed streak: 38

I was at my best friends birthday party yesterday and my ex girlfriend was there with her new boyfriend. She was snuggled up with him all day. At first, I am thinking "why does she have to be here? This is MY best friend." "Why can't she at least control herself, doesn't she know I'd rather not see that?" But then it dawned on me that all this is is an "emotional regulation challenge" in which i have to find a way to "feel and let go" of the current emotional state. Situations like this are not going away any time soon, the only thing that you can do is train your emotional regulatory system to handle and deal with this. Avoidance is never the answer. I will also say that he does seem like a genuinely good guy. I am very happy that she found someone that is treating her well, I know the guy before me really sucked. The reality is that the ex girlfriend, for whatever reason, acted the way that she did. I cannot change someone else's behavior, all that I have control over is how I handle it. And again, I want the challenge, I will have to face even greater challenges in the near future if I am going to reach my goals. I will go so far as to say I am thankful for this challenge yesterday. Treat every challenge like a growth experience.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #80 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 1 Journal: 81 Brush teeth streak: 83 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 54 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 10 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 10 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 10 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 10 No ejaculation streak: 10 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 82 No smoking weed streak: 37