Spiritual Warrior

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Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #105 I have to post two entries on one sheet because the site was down every time I tried to get on yesterday. This is the only website that I visit that is consistently down. Then of course, I need to give Leo some grace as he is running this as a one man show and allowing me to post on here for free, not to mention all of the value that he has provided for my life. I appreciate you Leo! Over the weekend, I went out with one of my only single friends. We went to a nightclub that played salsa and bachata music. I was really feeling myself that night and this is the perfect setting for me because 1. they're playing music that I know how to dance well to and 2. Its still a nightclub, so people are trying to get laid. The salsa clubs I usually go to are for dancers, not people trying to get laid. This nightclub is a much better option given what I'm trying to work on. Anyways, shortly after walking in, I confidently went up to this older women with a slender, petite build and asked her to dance. As I was talking to her, she was very responsive, getting super close to me, and not letting go of my hand. However, she told me that she didn't want to dance yet because there was no one on the floor so I told her I'd come back in 15 minutes. I then approach a couple of latina ladies at the bar. The thing with this is that you really can't tell if they are going to be attractive until you're right up close. As I'm walking over there, I have to quickly decide which girl I want to ask to dance. Luckily, I chose right and the girl I approached is very cute. We go out onto the dance floor and start dancing with each other with no body contact at all. Then, the next song plays and its a bachata. I put my hands out with palms facing up to invite her to place her hands in mine. I start leading her through some patterns, she knows the basic step, but she doesn't know how to turn while staying on the beat, so shes not that good at least to my standards. I am having a blast though, this is important, if you are having fun, then she is having fun. There were times when I completely disconnected from her and I was dancing by myself, playing around with my footwork, this is also nice, I'm not trying to prove anything to her, I'm enjoying myself independent from her, this is attractive. There were several times throughout the dance when I glance over at her and she cracks a smile, when a woman smiles, at always melts my heart. We danced a few songs in a row and then I gave her a high five and left to find my friend. Then I see the petite older woman again and we start dancing. We first do salsa and she can tell that I have a ballroom background. We dance a couple of times and then I ask her if she wants to grab a drink, she says shes good, but then I say I really just want to talk to you a little bit and get to know you better so lets go over here, this was a good move and she obliges. She tells me that she is a teacher and she engages with me right up close, nose to nose. Although she is very attractive, she intimidated me with her aggressive energy, which made it difficult for me to lead the interaction. She starts telling me that when we dance I should be pulling her in closer and then she gets real close to me so that she can demonstrate. She is right in between my legs, there is no space whatsoever between the fronts of our bodies. We then hit the floor and I start leading her, very quickly she tells me to bring her in close, there is heat between our bodies I never get this close to a lady while I'm dancing with her. I lead her back out of the closeness so that I can lead her through some turns, she quickly tells me to bring her in close again. Now this is a very cool experience, don't get me wrong, but she is now leading the dance, I am following her lead which is a major turn off. Ladies need to understand that the guy has to feel like he is leading the interaction or he will not feel that authentic masculine energy. A woman that enjoys leading needs to find a way to surrender to the man's lead, stop trying to control things, allow us to figure it out, you can guide sure but you cannot control us. If we feel like you are controlling or manipulating us, we will leave. And thats exactly what happened, after a couple of dances, I told her that I wanted to take a break. I then head back to the other Latina girl that I danced with earlier. I know that she could see that I was dancing with the other girl, this is actually a positive thing in terms of attraction because she is seeing firstly that I am having fun at all times and secondly, she is seeing that I have options, if I choose her by the end of the night, which we will get to later, then she will feel special in the sense that I chose her. Anyways, I get over there and I start asking her questions and I quickly realize she doesn't speak any Enlgish. We start communicating through english to spanish translator on our phones. I actually found this experience quite fun and I did learn some things about her. We are developing raport here, this is important. She has to feel like she knows me so that she feels comfortable enough to go out on a date with me, or better yet, come home with me. We "talk," then dance a bit, then talk, then dance a bit, then talk some more. I'm actually kind of killing this shit. Eventually, I aks her if she wants to get lattes with me this week, she says yes, we exchange numbers and I even set up a time and a place right in the moment, so the date is totally set up. Now, will she bail on this date? I don't know.. but what I do know is if she does bail, then I simply did not develop enough of a rapport with her for her to be interested in me. All of these experiences are learning experiences. I am going to do my best to never get attached to any one single girl as I have a long road of me before I transform into the attractive man that I am destined to be. The other part of this is I still have residual feelings for my dance partner. This is difficult to deal with and I have to see this girl multiple times a week as we are prepping for a competition in late March. To add insult to injury, we are starting to get into the intimate side of dancing, in which we are flirting with each other while practicing our routines. I have decided that I will not hang out with her out side of the studio because if I hang out with her, my feelings for her will intensify and I will certain want more. If she asks me why I'm ducking her, I will be fully transparent and open about that. I also just realized that I set up this date with the Latina girl at the same time that we usually practice. I don't know if I did this consciously or unconsciously, it felt unconscious in the moment, but here we are and I DO NOT want to bail on this date as my dating life is my main focus right now. I now have to tell my dance partner that I made plans during our practice time. I believe that this is a growth experience for me as we may have to have a difficult conversation with each other and I am also doing what I want for myself, I want to go on this date more than having dance practice and I am sticking to that and I don't care how she feels about it. I am going to start setting boundaries with this girl as well as being more open to the fact that I am seeing other women. For a while, I hid this from her because I liked her, and I guess I thought maybe she liked me too and I didn't want her to see me hit on other women. But at the end of the day, there has been no indication that she likes me, we've never talked about having feelings for each other, she has invested nothing into me, and nothing intimate has ever happened between us. From my perspective, she is just a girl that I have a crush on. 2.14.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 105 Brush teeth streak: 105 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 79 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 13 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 107 No smoking weed streak: 62 Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #106 2.15.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 106 Brush teeth streak: 106 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 80 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed: 2 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 14 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 108 No smoking weed streak: 63

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #1 Okay, it is 10.29.25 and I have realized that I have no discipline in my life which is setting me back from accomplishing my goals. Listed below are the habits that I would like to integrate as well as the reason for doing so: 1.Read when I get home (no electronics) this is for the purpose of having better sleep. I also have a larger vision of being very well educated, which starts with reading lots of books. Just a little bit every night will go a long ways 2.No sexual stimulation from internet No sexual stimulation from the internet. I see no benefit in watching porn, I have a history of being addicted to it and have therefore had struggles having an erection with a real woman, this is a no brainer. Stop with this nonsense. 3.Workout at gym 3 days a week Workout at the gym 3 days a week. I want to get really fuckin hot, like really fuckin hot. And the best way to do this as a man is to hit the gym and do it in a strategic and intelligent way. I am going to go 3 days a week, I am going to work out my chest on Monday at 11am - 12pm, this will be barbell bench press, dumbbell incline press, and that one with the cable that stretches your chest, it is going to be 4 sets and the first set is a warm up, so 3 real sets. Next is legs, I would like to use the angled leg Press, 4 sets, then the leg extensions, 4 sets, then use a calf machine, 4 sets again, next is back and arms. I want to start doing deadlifts again, I love deadlifts, then a barbell row and then a dumbell row, I really want to get my back jacked for dance. 4 sets of each again and this will be the workout routine for 3 months. Then I will have a de load week, in which I take the whole week off from weight training and I reevaluate how far I've come. I will also need to measure how much protein and carbs and calories that I am in taking and also weight myself on a daily basis so that I can track my progress 4.No ejaculating for 3 years No ejaculating for 3 years. This has to do with my goal of having sexual abundance in my life. I want to have sex with real woman, not with my own hand. Not ejaculating also gives me more energy to shift my focus into other things in life, such as having a bigger impact on people, reading books, meditating and overall being a healthier human that people look up to. I lead with integrity. 5. Approach and hit on 10 women every week for 1 year Approach and hit on 10 women every week, which would equate to 500 women on the year. This would be a great milestone for me and it would make me very proud. This coincides with the goal of wanting to have sexual abundance in my life. I want lots of sex with lots of women. That is what I genuinely want. I don't want to fake that anymore, I want this and therefore I will have it. Thank you God for allowing me to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. - Half time: as you can see, we already have an interrelated system at work, the no ejaculation goal supports the hitting on 10 women every week because not ejaculating will give me more motivation and energy and time to hit on several women a week, on the flip side if I hit on 10 women every week, watching porn and ejaculating becomes a lot less appealing, both cogs in the system are supporting each other. Nice job there. - 6. Eat 150 g of protein every single day I have learned that eating a lot of protein is imperative to building lots of muscle. I want to build lots of muscle in order to become the sexiest man I can be. This is required, therefore I have to eat enough protein. 7. Meditate every morning for 30 minutes moving past physical attractiveness, I want to be attractive in a sense that I am magnetic as a human being, people want to be around me, and I also want to be able to stay present and within the moment both for dance and also for the people around me, such as students and friends and family and co workers. The more I meditate, the higher my consciousness grows, and the more I understand the truth of reality, the more I am able to make an impact on the world. Overall, this is mainly for better mood and mental clarity, the motivation is NOT towards enlightenment, although I predict that is what it will turn into 8. Wake up at 7:30 am every day this challenge has two benefits: 1. It is going to build self discipline and character, and 2. I have to wake up that early in order to get everything done that I want to ( I've already mapped out my schedule accordingly) 9. Brush teeth morning and night this is also building self discipline and it is also for the betterment of my hygienic and overall health and well being. I am also a dance instructor, I work very close to people, therefore it is imperative that I have fresh breath. I may even want to pick up a toothbrush and toothpaste and keep it at the dance studio. 10. Floss teeth every morning another habit for self discipline and overall wellbeing 11. Shower and groom hair every morning this is similar to the last two, it is building character to stick to a habit. The main thing that I'm trying to do with this morning routine is that there are no grey areas here - no - I wake up at 7:30 am, I brush my teeth and floss, then I take a shower, then I groom my hair and beard, then I go downstairs and meditate for 30 minutes on the floor, then I do my push ups and pull ups, which is the next thing on this list and there is no wiggle room, there is no being wishy washy, no I am doing this every fucking day, I don't care if I get kidnapped and wake up in Antarctica, no - I am going to follow the same routine no matter what. Fuck variety - life is chock full of surprises, a routine keeps you grounded and focused and stable - this is the true masculine power - to have the self discipline to stick to this routine 12. Do 3 sets of push ups and 3 sets of pull ups every morning again, this is self discipline and it will also have a cumulative effect in turning me into a sexy, attractive man. I am going to make these things happen every single day like clock work. There are no excuses. It is time to start living with integrity and purpose and direction. This is the desire that I have been suppressing and distracting my self from with spiritual pursuits. I don’t really want to be enlightened, at least not yet. I have been using enlightenment as a distraction for many years because hitting on women and developing discipline in life is scarier and more uncomfortable to me than reading spiritual books and meditating. If I do these things, I will become the quintessential model of healthy masculinity. And this is what I truly want. I want to maximize my masculine energy to its absolute full potential. Then once I hit that peak, I will move into something more selfless, such as spiritual enlightenment, or whatever else I want to pursue. I am going to need a checklist that I have to check off every single day. This needs to be made public so that I can feel the embarrassment of missing a day. I want to do this on actualized.org, my favorite forum. Thank you God for allowing me to become aware of my authentic desire of being a vessel of healthy masculinity in this world. Thank you God for allowing me to create sexual abundance in my life. Thank you God for allowing me to create a life filled with love, laughter, joy, purpose, and gratitude. Listed below is my checklist for the first two days of my challenge. 10.31.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Floss Shower Groom hair Eat breakfast Meditate Work out Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Wash face No electronics before bed "Whole day" goals: No porn No ejaculation Eat 150 g of protein Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week Approach 10 women I did a good job on everything except for no electronics before bed and eating 150 g of protein. I was on my phone before going to sleep and I am going to have to figure out how to incorporate 150 g of protein into my diet. The weekly goals are going to be assessed at the end of the week on Sunday. I am going to actually keep a counter of how many girls I have approached. I would also like to create a counter so that I can keep track of how many days I consecutively stuck to my habit. The higher the number, the more fulfilled I will feel.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #104 Journal 2.14.26 Okay, so I am actually doing really well. A lot of things are starting to click for me in terms of being a successful dance instructor as well as a successful human, which essentially just entails becoming the person and accomplishing the things that I would like to accomplish in life. I am starting to embody a very masculine frame while at work and when I’m around people that entails what I would call being a “dog,” which entails not caring what others think, saying what I want to say when I want to say it and overall just being a fuckin’ bad ass. Truly, I have come so far in this regard. I finally feel like a real man. And the cool thing is that I am going to become more and more masculine the more I develop. This excites me. Okay, now let's take a look again at the vision I have for my life, what do I want: I want to be a world champion dancer I want to have an abundance of sexual experiences with an abundance of women I want to be able to have full-body orgasms and last hours having sex with someone I want to have a highly conscious, attractive, highly developed, fun girlfriend I want to be spiritually enlightened, or God-realized, or understand the Truth about reality, reaching consciousness level 1,000 I want to make money off of Youtube, getting passive income I want to have a self - help YouTube channel in which I help other men understand what it takes to attain a high abundance of women in their lives I want to have a nice house with a sliding door in the back that walks out to a patio, nice yard with an outdoor bar and pool, screened in porch in the front of the house, I have a large bookshelf with lots of books to read, I have a den area in which I love to read, there are lots of windows, lots of sunlight shining through. My bedroom is quaint and relaxing with ominous, outer space-like lighting. The kitchen is filled with updated appliances and lots of space to cook and clean. The overall layout of the house is very open. I want to sky dive, feeling what it feels like to fly. I want to create solo performances that move people emotionally, I want them to really FEEL it. I want to be a successful dance instructor, teaching over 30 lessons / week. I want to make $100,000 a year I want to have a shredded, God-like physique, one like Gerard Butler from 300 I want to have sexy masculine tattoos on my thighs For some reason, something has clicked inside of me and I am fully realizing that I can quite literally have anything that I want out of life. ANYTHING. And this is so obvious to me now because life is a FUCKIN’ DREAM. And you can dream up ANYTHING that you want. My understanding of this is not logical, its intuitive, I just know it. I could question whether or not this is legitimate but at the same time, I understand that I have to believe in myself in order to make these things come true into my life, so therefore questioning whether or not its possible is not resourceful or helpful to me in the slightest. So I am just going to keep on believing in myself. I have started to watch porn again. I am a bit torn by this, but the reason for it is this: my goal is to be able to be multi orgasmic and to have a complete control over my ejaculation and the circulation of my sexual energy. This requires me to be able to circulate the sexual energy throughout my body at will, with conscious intent. This requires me to masturbate and to get in touch with what it takes to not keel over and ejaculate. The more I practice this, the more control I will have over my ejaculation and sexual energy. I unfortunately am unable to in general arise sexual energy within my body without the use of porn, and that is the reason for porn entering my life again. I am content with this decision for now. Why do I struggle so much to stay motivated on the weekends? If I used even an ounce of the work ethic that I used during the week, I would be soaring above the clouds right now. I had a very awkward exchange while visiting my co workers lesson. She didnt approve of what I added to their dance and it made me feel like shit. I do not want to visit her lessons anymore. It doesn’t do a God damn thing for me. I feel masculine right now but I am not hitting on women, well, maybe I kind of am… I had a girls number but she stopped responding to me… I told a girl I liked her dress when I was out at that coffee shop. Thats not that bad. Before I get to the studio, I could try again to hit on someone, that would be nice. I have a new thing in which I really dont care if it doesnt work out with one girl, I dont give a fuck, it almost just lights a fire underneath me. But I’ve got to start getting out there and approaching once I get used to it everything is going to be cake. And I KNOW I am destined for greatness. I look around and I see people doubting themselves, thinking that they cannot get out of the hole that they are in. I am getting out and flying to the fuckin’ heavens . I’ll take every one of your students, I dont give a fuck. Look at all my goals listed above. I’m gonna fuckin’ crush this shit. Truly. 2.13.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 104 Brush teeth streak: 104 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 78 Meditation streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 106 No smoking weed streak: 61

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #103 Okay, so I am starting to eliminate a lot of things from my routines. Let's recap: There is no habit to cover in terms of when I wake up anymore. I have a high enough vision and enough things to do throughout the day to warrant waking up at an early time without the “forcing” myself to do it. I also got rid of the affirmations and visualizations as if I cannot even get a meditation habit going, my chances of visualizing and affirming every day are hopeless. Let's just focus on meditating first. The biggest habit that I am trying to integrate right now is a weekly workout regimen and a meal plan that I follow through with each week, but I'm just not sure how to track that just yet. 2.12.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 103 Brush teeth streak: 103 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 77 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 105 No smoking weed streak: 60

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #102 Once I get to 90 days of not smoking weed, I am going to smoke a big fat blunt after work with my friend. These goals are not set in stone and meant to last forever. They are adjustable depending on your vision. 90 days is enough time to deplete the dependency out of my body. After that, I will reset and see if I'd like to restart the counter or allow myself to indulge in weed at times. 2.11.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 102 Brush teeth streak: 102 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 76 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 10 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 104 No smoking weed streak: 59

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #101 I am removing lots of things from this list as all of the habits that I am trying to undertake are overwhelming to my psyche and it has caused for frustration and continuing to relapse on habits. Integrating habits into your life comes in layers. You start with a few things and then they become habits and you don't have to consciously think about them anymore... and then you a few more habits. A big one that I've added to the "whole-day goals" list is "Compliment one woman's appearance" - this is a great way to ease myself into the pick up journey. I know that I am going to attain an abundance of sex in this lifetime, but I have to start with baby steps as I am currently terrified of this journey. Yesterday, I told a woman she was "wearing a nice dress" - these kinds of interactions are easy enough that I will do them - thats whats important. 2.10.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 9 Journal: 101 Brush teeth streak: 101 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 75 Meditation streak: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 1 Belly breathing exercise: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 9 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 103 No smoking weed streak: 58 Compliment a woman's appearance: 1

Transcending the Spiral, Entry #20 ~ Stage Red & Orange integration ~ February 10th, 2026 Where am I on the spiral dynamics ladder at this stage in my life? At around this time 2 years ago, I was contemplating whether or not I was ready to take the quantum leap into tier two. I now realize that I was dead wrong. I am not ready to take the quantum leap into stage yellow and may not be for another 5 years. This whole situation is interesting because the main characteristic of stage yellow is to be aware of the spiral itself and to understand that everything underneath tier two is a necessary development of the ego, which I am in tuned with. However, the second characteristic of stage yellow is to be able to zoom out and look at things in the world as “systems” and the tendency is to have a more holistic approach in which you are attempting to elevate the entire system instead of your own agenda. This is where my current situation gets in the way of living of living in a tier two way, which would be a more selfless and impactful way of living or Being. Right now, I am living at my mother's house, making $35k a year doing something that I love. My dating life is shit, I almost never have the courage to approach women, I've only had sex with two women in my life, and probably like 20 or 30 times total. So basically, my living situation and lack of sex requires me to stay in the tier one way of thinking in which I have to learn to manipulate my environment and brain power in order to achieve the material desires that I seek. The good news is that I have lots of healthy stage blue and stage green within me. I started integrating stage blue at a young age. My ability to understand right from wrong has always been good, and to this day I have a solid morale compass. I embarked on the stage green journey 8 years ago when I went vegan and traveled around the country “searching for myself” and getting into spirituality. I have always been a very empathetic person ever since youth, which made it easy to integrate this stage into my psyche. However, to truly get what we want in this world we must conquer and manipulate and in a way deceive. A human can go about this in a stage red way, which is taking things by force and doesn't take into account the negative impact that it will have on others… or it can go about this in a stage orange way, in which the spiritual side of life has at least been ignited (albeit a tiny flame.) the stage orange person gets what he wants out of life in a win-win way, in which his efforts are for the betterment of him and the person he is interacting with. I would like to share a couple of scenarios in which a stage red individual and a stage orange individual would use to accumulate wealth and sex. This is important to put awareness on because stage green and stage blue integration is not required in order to achieve things in the world, this is what stage red and orange are used for. The blue and green stages need to be integrated in order for human beings to be more integrated with love and harmony and community, but they are not responsible for making a human “get ahead in the world.” There is something about stage red that lights a fire underneath my belly. I want to taste the delicious nectar of my opponents. This is not barbaric or non-human, I am in touch with “my inner ape” which means I am in touch with exactly where I came from. In a lot of ways, my mindset is going to be entrenched in stage red’s conquer all mindset. However, I have developed myself enough to not go overboard. But truthfully, my ego or psyche has been so far removed from this kind of behavior that it yearns for a taste of this and I have to give this to myself. But again, don't worry about going overboard, you are way to empathetic and devleoped to become a true monster in this life. The more loving way to go about getting what we want in this life is to take a more stage orange approach in which every scenario is a win win. If I have sex with you, I win and you win. If I teach you how to dance, I win and you win. If you hire me, I win and you win. If you hang out with me, I win and you win. This is my goal over the next 5 years, using the stage red and stage orange mindset and the power of Thick Face Black Heart, I am going to get laid a lot, make lots of money and allow for my ego or psyche to have everything material that it craves. By then, I should be able to dissolve the selfish desires out of my system and I can start to take a look at systems thinking in a way that I can have a much more profound impact on a large group of people.

I have been thinking recently... Where are we all going? What is the point of this thing called life? We must be going somewhere... The answer to this question lies within the spiral of spiral dynamics. The goal for all of us is to climb up the spiral and fully integrate each stage on the way up. The higher you climb, the closer to God and truth that you get. I want to help my friends move up the spiral. I don't want to manipulate the people within the friend group for my selfish gains, I want to manipulate the entire system, so that they all, individually move up the spiral at their own pace. This requires me to understand where each person is at and what they need to do in order to fully integrate a stage and then transcend it. I will also need to develop myself along the spiral simultaneously so that I can better help them. This plan also requires me to start tapping into stage yellow. In order for me to change a system, I will need to understand how a system works. I am talking about a single human being as a system here, and also the friend group itself as a system, which I will have to understand more clearly in order for there to be real change. I need to first understand where each player is at on the spiral. Do they have any red? Orange? Blue? Green? Any yellow? What does each person embody? What do they enjoy doing? What are they working on or need to work on? (I am not using their real names for privacy) For reference, we are all about 27 / 28 years old right now. Listed below are the main players within the friend group. There is a hierarchy to this. I am going to put Pablo at the top. He hosts the most, is very close with all of the top players of the friend group. I would consider myself his right hand man. (its possible that I am being biased here, I will try to more consciously look at this matter) I am the best at schmoozing with everyone. I am the closest with the people at the bottom of the friend group. He is closest with the people at the top. My role is to make them feel included. His role is to plan and organize things. I trigger stage green empathy and stage orange charisma for this, he triggers stage orange planning and also has the best sense of humor, probably also a stage orange trait. Pablo - Has fully integrated red at a young age. He got into a fight in high school while standing up for what he believed was right, and has had several altercations with authority figures in which he was standing up for what he believed in. I feel safe while he is around. Has integrated blue very nicely as well, he has strong family values, strong loyalty, has self-discipline (although could maybe use a little work), he does tend to engage in "white lies" but he has improved upon this over the years. (White lies show lack of empathy and a willingness to manipulate other people) Has not fully integrated orange yet, he does have a house, a nice car, and seems to be well off. But he is still a penny pincher. This means that he is not living in abundance with his finances. Its as if he has been stagnant financially ever since he bought his house a couple of years ago. Green - Not a big hugger, eye contact is good. Has never done yoga. Does not eat healthy. Does show empathy towards others, but mainly kids, women, and the elderly. Struggles to give out love and empathy towards other men. Summary on Pablo: Seems to have nicely integrated red and blue and is done with those two. He is now stagnant at orange, needs to work that out. Honestly, I think that getting him to dive right into green would be very beneficial to him. Get him to a yoga class. That's the first step. Myself - Red- Has not fully integrated red yet. He is still small, has not worked out enough to build real muscles. Does not always say how he feels so that he will get approval from other people. Blue - Has not fully integrated blue either - Work ethic and self - discipline are not great. Is fairly loyal towards his friends and family. Orange - is not financially independent, is in credit card debt, does not have a house or even an apartment, does not have a serious girlfriend or a nice car. Green - Has integrated green nicely. Was a vegan for 2.5 years. Goes to yoga. Eats healthy food. Has done psychedelics. Gives out a fair amount of hugs. Is triggered by ugly stage red antics, such as animal abuse and racial inequality. Yellow - Has ambitions to integrate yellow's systems thinking, but I'd say does that have any integration of yellow just yet. Summary of myself: Although I have a lot of work to do on the red/blue/orange front. While I am working out those kinks, I will be able to simultaneously show my friends what stage green is all about - I want to get them to engage in these activities, such as hiking, yoga, healthy food, psychedelics, and being more loving towards others. Ant - Red - I know that in his rugby days in college and football days before that, he must have had to trigger red at times. I also know that he would have these crazy drinking and fighting competitions in college at his rugby parties. This screams red to me. I know he has also kicked people out of his parties in college, is also a big dude, definitely worked out for a while in his hay day. He shoved one of our other friends to the ground one time for "crossing a line" - It was controversial, but this shows that he is willing to trigger red and assert his dominance. (this was like 4 years ago) I think he's fully integrated red and transcended it. Blue - Has to wake up every morning at the same time. Has good loyalty and good family values. Orange - does have a house, a nice car, has fixed up the house, makes good money, shows good charisma, Green - Does have a good amount of green. Uses the word love a lot. Asks me if I need a hug sometimes. (I never do that) Is very caring and empathetic to the feelings of his friends, although I do notice that he misses the cues of his girlfriend when she is upset. Has never gone to yoga. Eats somewhat healthy. Drinks kombucha sometimes. Does still drink alcohol a lot. Summary for Ant: He seems very well integrated on all fronts. Am I missing something or is he ready to start moving over to yellow? He actually may have integrated more green than myself. I am unsure how to handle him. Paco - Definitely some red. His fighting history and interest in the UFC and the WWE is evidence of this. Does he have enough red? Yes. Does he have enough blue? No. I think he could use an increase in his self-discipline and work ethic. He is inconsistent and tends to slack off, not wake up on time. He is lazy in soccer, does not get back on defense, which is evidence towards not being a team player. Does he have enough orange? No. He is living with his parents right now and therefore not financially independent. He has orange-like traits in his money grabbing and ego-centric ways. His charisma and strategic thinking could use some work. Does not have very much green. Not that into hugging and is just very eco centered. He cares about his friends and loved ones, but doesn't care about strangers. Not very accepting of the transgender community. Still uses homophobic slurs. Summary - He is way too ego centric. He will have to integrate the more communal and loving stages of blue and green. If I can introduce him to stage green more, I think that will go a long way. Hug more, invite him to yoga, etc. Overall summary: Several other people within the friend group will need to be analyzed, but this is a good start. What can I do right now to help these folks? Get them to go to yoga with you. Or go on a hike, be more loving, flash green in front of them, get your hands on some psychedelics.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #100 I just reached the century mark for journaling, congratulations! The main thing in my life that I am working on is being able to approach women and express my attraction towards them. This has got to be my main priority. I don't want to put this off any longer. Everything I do right now needs to be geared towards accomplishing this in life. This means that I am going to prioritize this over everything else. Be very aware of your tendency to become attached to the women that you see everyday through work. This is a trap. DO NOT hang out with them outside of the studio, you will become attached and want to pursue them, and this is not the goal. I want to make a streak goal in which I compliment at least one woman on her appearance every single day. Is this possible? Yeah I think so... This is what I need to do in order to create some momentum for myself. I did this today, I was at a coffee shop and I told a woman that I "that's a nice dress" - this is honestly a really good start. The prospect of approaching a woman at a coffee shop and hitting on her feels incredibly daunting, but I can get there. Deep down, I do believe in myself, but there is so much resistance to this becoming a reality. The vision of it going well has got to propel you into action. That is the key. Your current reality is that you do not approach women and you don't have anyone to have sex with or become intimate with in your life. Your vision is to firstly have an abundance of women that you can have sex with, and out of that bunch, you will choose one of them and you will make that one your girlfriend. The reality is that I feel like a little bitch, unable to get laid, has no courage to approach women, this causes me great shame and pain and I don't want to go on living like this. I have to change this about myself. I just have to. And every approach will making you stronger and stronger and stronger. The road is long and treacherous but I am willing to go down it. 2.9.26 Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 1 Make bed: 8 Journal: 100 Brush teeth streak: 100 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 74 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 Belly breathing exercise: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 102 No smoking weed streak: 57

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #99 Its 6:47 on Monday and I have dance practice at 10:15. This means that I have to leave here by 8:30am to get to the gym at 9:00 am. I also have to figure out what I’m eating today and what I’m cooking. I unfortunately cannot open the actualized forum page right now because it is not working. I am going to have to journal about my upcoming week without it. Thats okay… there is a lot that I need to figure out. I kind of like waking up this early (5:30 this morning) it gives me a lot of time to figure things out before I get my day started. I no longer feel like a victim in this world. I am a force that can accomplish anything that I put my mind to. I am confident and self-reliant. All of my goals will be met with enough drive and focus. Okay, so I still have to eat breakfast and figure out what I am going to eat and do for the remainder of the week. I really wish I could quiet my mind down. It is so noisy up there. Like shut the fuck up.. Let me focus on my goals. What are your goals?? World champion dancer Successful dance instructor, making 6 figures Clear headed, emotional master Not swayed by the opinions of others Gets laid A LOT Is very sexy and very attractive Is not afraid to fail Expresses himself authentically out there on the dance floor Has a YouTube channel with a million subscribers, talking and making an impact on his students Has a shredded, “God-like” physique Is enlightened, understand the truth about reality and the human condition I am starting to see the trajectory of this work: I can have all of the sex that I want, I can have all of the fame that I want, I can sculpt myself into anything that I want myself to be, I can be insanely attractive and sexy, I can be a vessel for Truth, I can be the man that women look up to and swoon over and are inspired by, I can be THAT GUY.. and this is exactly where I’m heading, just watch. Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 0 Make bed: 7 Journal: 100 Brush teeth streak: 102 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 73 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 Belly breathing exercise (count to 100) "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 101 No smoking weed streak: 56

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #98 What do I want for my life? I want to be able to approach any woman on this planet and authentically express my infatuation for her. This is my main goal right now. I also want to become a successful dance instructor, teaching lots of lessons on a weekly basis and being able to provide genuine value to my students. So much value that they are astounded at the value that I am providing towards them. I also want to be able to have the freedom to make my own schedule. I want to fuck lots of women. I want to handle business and be confident and take care of things and have emotional intelligence and work hard and be able to talk to people with confidence. I want to be a sexy and attractive man that gets laid A LOT. But… I am feeling some type of way right now.. but why? I feel lost. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I feel like I have no grasp on what Im doing. I feel behind. I feel like all of my students are leaving me. I have got to find a way to create balance in my life so that I don't feel overwhelmed by everything that's going on. My vision is so much bigger than any one girl. Remember that. My new goal is to wake up as soon as the alarm sounds. The time that I wake up will vary and that is okay. It is clear what I have to do. Now what will my workout consist of? 1. Leg press 2. Barbell squat 3. Dumbbell lunge 4. Lat pulldown 5. Dumbbell curls 6. DB rear lateral raise Sunday: 6:30 shower and groom 7:00 meditate 7:30 eat breakfast and journal 8:00 get ready to leave 9:00 leave for gym 9:30 work out - finish legs workout and pull exercises 10:30 head to convention center 11:00 work convention center 2:00 head to grocery store 2:30 grocery shop - guac (avocados, red onion, limes, cilantro, chips), chicken thighs, rice, asparagus or a veggie on sale, whole milk, shrimp, banza pasta, kidney beans, lentils, mixed veggies, toothpaste) 3:30 throw laundry in the washing machine - also have mom 3:30 cook meals for the next 3 days 5:00 give yourself a haircut and put laundry away 6:00 head to mikes house for the Super Bowl Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 0 Make bed: 6 Journal: 99 Brush teeth streak: 101 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 72 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 100 No smoking weed streak: 55

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #97 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 5 Make bed: 5 Journal: 98 Brush teeth streak: 100 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 71 Meditation streak: 5 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 5 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 5 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 5 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 5 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 5 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 99 No smoking weed streak: 54

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #96 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 4 Make bed: 4 Journal: 97 Brush teeth streak: 99 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 70 Meditation streak: 4 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 4 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 4 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 4 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 4 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 98 No smoking weed streak: 53

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #95 Things are going to change for me, drastically. I say this because I am attracting an optimistic and / or hopeful mindset into my life. I am starting to curve into everything that I am afraid of. I am no longer afraid to embarrass myself or to mess things up. I drive into whats uncomfortable. I take a delight in it. I want to know the Truth in every situation, even if it hurts, especially if it hurts actually. The idea is not to avoid hard times, it is to be able to take on hard times with an inner strength. This is the best route to take because I have VERY big goals. I want to own a dance studio, I want to have a house, I want to be a world champion dancer, I want to fuck LOTS of women, I want a God-like physique... This is the vision I have for my life. If I am going to actualize all of these things into my life, I have to become emotionally sound and disciplined and mature so that I can handle the trials and tribulations that come with manifesting this into my life. Lets take emotional mastery as an example. The root solution to dealing with emotions is to experience them fully instead of avoiding them. This is very obvious to me now, so take every action possible to you to do things that are emotionally challenging, especially when dealing with people. You know what else I have noticed? When certain people are around, I act differently. I can see and feel it, I don't act authentically anymore, it is unfortunate, it gets me out of the flow. But thats okay... this is just the reality of the situation that you are currently in. Okay, so I am sitting at a coffee shop. There are a few things that I would like to work on and I also really want to go to the gym because I only did the first set of my routine. What does your work schedule look like today? I am going to leave at 3 o'clock today to finish my workout. I could also use some more food because I couldn't drink a protein shake this morning because I didn't bring home my protein container. I could also use a meditation session but idk when or where to do this at. Okay, so I am going to leave here in 5 minutes to finish my workout. Then I am going to grab a protein shake at Cubmerland Farms so that I can substitute my protein shake that I missed this morning. Then. I will come back to work. I ahve to start teaching at 5:30 and I am going straight through until 9:15. I have the two group classes (6:15 and 7:00) and then P*******, J********, and I am forgetting who else. This means that I have to summarize one of my students critique sheets. I will do this first thing. I want to have a better understanding of my student body and what I need to do throughout the week in order to set myself up for success. I want to grow here rapidly. Truly. I don't know whats gotten into me lately but I am very focused and ambitious, its great, its awesome. And it stems from having a very large vision for my life. I am able to look at things going on around me with dispassion and detachment so that I can accomplish my goals independent of the opinions of others and how it will affect others. This is Thick Face, Black Heart. So when I start my day I am going to type up the summary so that I can present it to here on her lesson. I am going to teach all day and I would like to develop a better system of "things to do" while I am working. There are so many things that I am working on and I feel like I dont have a good handle on it. Tomorrow, I have a coaching at 11 am, which means I have to get out the door at 10:30 am. I also don't have food made for myself tonight, which is not ideal. Should I do this tomorrow morning or tonight? To not wake up my mom I probably should do it tomorrow, but that means that I have to eat something else tonight when I get home because I have nothing prepared, which I am okay with, my mom made some meatloaf and something else I think, why dont I just eat that so that I don't wake her up. I feel like there are other things I need to do but I m not sure what yet. I also need a new smooth ballroom shirt. I want to figure that out soon... and a vest too! After work, I am going to that swing dance place and then I am heading home... wait a minute, I have to work out tomorrow as well. When am I going to do that? IDK I will figure that out later. And then on Saturday, I am going to be heading to NYC to hit on women! I am very excited to jump into this deep cold pool. Okay... I have to go work out. Thursday: 7:30 shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Cook meals for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 10:30 Leave for gym 11:00 Work out 12:00 Dance practice 2:00 Dance practice 4-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 3 Journal: 96 Brush teeth streak: 98 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 69 Meditation streak: 3 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 3 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 3 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 3 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 3 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 No alcohol streak: 97 No smoking weed streak: 52

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #94 Wednesday: 7:00 Shower and groom 7:30 Meditate 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast 8:30 Pack everything 9:00 head to dance training 10a-12p - dance training ($20) 12-10pm Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 2 Journal: 95 Brush teeth streak: 97 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 68 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 96 No smoking weed streak: 51

Interlude: Personal Journal Things to do after work: - nail down those moves: foxtrot explosion, tango abanico, and tango vienesse cross and memorize the routine - finish workout -Get gas - shovel driveway so that there is room for both cars -bring home water bottle Things to do (at some point): -get headlight fixed -sit down and figure out finances -figure out charger set up Insight: Honestly, spending those 45 minutes scrolling on Instagram absolutely fucked me. It pushed everything back this is why having discipline over your habits is so important because you have such a large vision now. I want to do REALLY WELL at this competition in New Orleans l. REALLY WELL. I am going to work my ass off to learn these steps and have proper form.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #93 A couple of things I'd like to run by you. Firstly, nice job with the workout yesterday. I made a list of everything that I want to do this week and it has done wonders. I have everything that I want to do this week planned out to a tee. I am excited to see where this goes. The road to become an attractive man is a treacherous, tumultuous path. Things don't get easier, but your ability to handle life's challenges greatly increases. I met a girl while I was on break at work yesterday. She couldn't find the coffee shop so I walked her over there, we chatted a bit. At the end of the conversation, I wish I told her that she was cute and asked her for her number.. too bad.. I will have many more opportunities though. You have to realize that every approach that you make is going to make these girls days, its not just about you. Tuesday: 7:30 Shower and Groom 8:00 consultation call 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Meditate 9:30 unsure 10:30 head to dance 11:00 Dance practice 12:30 Head to gym 1:00 Work out 2:00 Dance practice 4-10 pm: Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Practice circulating sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 1 Journal: 94 Brush teeth streak: 96 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 67 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 95 No smoking weed streak: 50

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #92 Okay so I have created a meal plan as well as a schedule for the ENTIRE week. I am very excited to implement this. I am also going to go out to the city this upcoming weekend to hit on girls. This is my main priority. I HAVE to change myself into a man that gets laid often. This is non-negotiable. It is 7 am right now and I have to leave here by 7 am. I still have to finish my breakfast, shower and groom and also cook my food for the week. Hopefully I get everything done. Monday: 7:00: Shower and groom 7:30 Meditation 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast (protein shake) 8:30 Pack everything up 9:00 Head to the gym 9:30 Work out 10:30 am dance practice 1-10pm: work 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 0 Journal: 93 Brush teeth streak: 95 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 66 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 94 No smoking weed streak: 49

Interlude: Weight training regimen Workout 1: Push (Monday) Barbell Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Incline Bench Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Dumbbell Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Triceps Pushdown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 2: Pull (Tuesday) Barbell Deadlift 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps One-Arm Dumbbell Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Lat Pulldown 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Alternating DB Curl 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 3: Upper (Thursday) Seated Dumbbell Press 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Seated Cable Row 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Close-Grip Bench Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps DB Rear Lateral Raise 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps Workout 4: Legs (Friday) Barbell Squat 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Leg Curl 3 sets x 4 to 6 reps Leg Press 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps DB Lunge 3 sets x 6 to 8 reps

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #91 Several streaks have gone by the way side. I really want to become more organized in my life. The funny thing is that my weeks usually go really well because I just love my job so much. However, my weekends are kind of shit because I don't hang out with my friends that often, I don't usually wake up at the right time and start my day, everything is a mess on the weekend. What happened Friday night into Saturday? So I had a good day at work, I was productive and confident. Then, I went to a place to dance, I had never been there. I had fun dancing but I did not have much energy. This job takes a toll on the body sometimes. After I got out, I grabbed a pint of ice cream and a bag of chips, with full knowledge that I wanted to go to NYC and hit on women the following day, but I wanted to indulge and I couldn't control myself. I get home and I watched something on my computer as I down the ice cream and then passed out. I didn't was my face or brush my teeth.. The next morning, I wake up and I work hard on the Thick Face Black Heart summary, here it is: I continued to work on chapter 2 throughout the middle of the day, so I am being productive. Throughout the day, I probably took 2-3 naps, and I also masturbated without ejaculation. I think I sabotaged my plans of going to NYC because I was scared. There is no reason why I couldn't have done it. So I sabotaged that and the sabotage continued through the rest of the weekend. I have been a lazy sack the whole weekend. I tend to not hold myself to any standard on the weekends, I completely let go. Now, I don't want you to beat yourself up too much. Just get out of this hole and build yourself back up. Overall, you are doing great things. What are some highlights from the week: I uploaded chapter 1 of Thick Face Black Heart book summary I built 5 lessons out of thin air I had a couple of really good introductory lessons I opened up about being upset with my dance partner for breaking it off I talked to a traveling consultant coach for 45 minutes she is very attractive - (she also kept getting really close to me throughout the day, not sure if this is in my head or if it was legitimate) - again super attractive, I love experiences of talking to attractive women because I really want to get used to that so that I'm more comfortable Had a breakthrough with one of my students - we started dancing "close contact" for all of our smooth dances - she is stretching her feet and we started to use more emotion Okay, great, again really positive things throughout the week and then the weekend hits and things just hit the fan... although I did put in several hours into my YouTube channel, which is great. I am proud of myself, truly, but there are always things to work on. What do I want to do today: Take a shower Buy some toothpaste Brush teeth / floss Start to figure out what to do this week What does this upcoming week look like? Monday: 7:00: Shower and groom 7:30 Meditation 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast (protein shake) 8:30 Pack everything up 9:00 Head to the gym 9:30 Work out 10:30 am dance practice 1-10pm: work 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Tuesday: 7:00 Shower and Groom 7:30 meditation 8:00 consultation call 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything up 9:30 Head to the gym 10:00 Workout 11:00 Here I am going to head to the library and see if there is anything that I need to take care of 2:00 Dance practice 4-10 pm: Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Practice circulating sexual energy Wednesday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 head to dance training 10a-12p - dance training ($20) 12-10pm Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 circulate sexual energy Thursday: 7:30 shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Cook meals for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 10:30 Leave for gym 11:00 Work out 12:00 Dance practice 2:00 Dance practice 4-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Friday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Head to the gym 10:00 Work out 11:00 Dance training 1-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Saturday: 7:30 Shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Leave for New Haven 10:30 Head to Grand Central 12:30 Arrive at NYC 12:30-4:00 Make my way towards the dance studio, hitting on women on my way over there (20 minute walk) 4:00-5:30pm WCS Jack and Jill Prep - ($45) 5:30-8p - hit on women on my way over to the next dance studio (9 min walk) 8:00p - 12am Social dancing ($20) 12 am Head back to Grand Central 1:00 am Grand central train 3:00 am Get back to CT 4:00 am Get back home Sunday: 9:30am Shower and Groom 10:00 Meditate 10:30 Eat breakfast and Journal 11:00 Get things ready 11:30 Do laundry, grocery shop, cook meals for the week, give yourself a haircut, make something for the Super Bowl 3:30 head to the library to work on some things and get ready for next week 5:00 Leave for for the Super Bowl 6:00 pm Enjoy the Super Bowl! 11:00 pm get home, wash face and brush teeth Lets also take a quick look at what it is I am trying to accomplish in my life: I want an abundance of sex with an abundance of women I want a highly conscious and highly developed intimate relationship (at the end of the pick up journey) Open up a meditation center I want to be incredible at having sex, being able to have multiple full body orgasms and lasting for hours Become a world champion dancer Make $100,000 a year Lots of entries Lots of lessons Start a YouTube channel Approach 1,000 women Make a vast impact on humanity through my work Youtube channel Performing powerful solos Have a God-like shredded physique Exemplify authentic, healthy masculinity Write books on spirituality and enlightenment Buy a house for entertaining Reach a level of consciousness of 1,000 Okay, now how am I going to set my life up so that I am working towards my goals every single day? Wake up at 7:30am - dude just do it. Wake up and get in the fuckin' shower Workout 4 days a week ~ Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. I just have to do this - and I need an hour at the gym, no less than that Start meal planning - I want to have the necessary amount of macros in order to gain muscle - I am going to be more strategic about this and track everything Meditate daily Approach at least 10 women every weekend - you need to be meeting new attractive women on a weekly basis Work hard when you are in the studio and take multiple coachings a week On Sundays, always give yourself a haircut, meal prep for the week and Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 0 Journal: 92 Brush teeth streak: 94 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 65 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 93 No smoking weed streak: 48

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #90 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 11 Journal: 91 Brush teeth streak: 93 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 64 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 4 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 4 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 4 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 92 No smoking weed streak: 47

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #89 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 10 Journal: 90 Brush teeth streak: 92 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 63 Meditation streak: 4 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 4 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 4 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 3 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 3 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 3 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 91 No smoking weed streak: 46

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #88 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 9 Journal: 89 Brush teeth streak: 91 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 62 Meditation streak: 3 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 3 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 3 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 90 No smoking weed streak: 45

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #87 Okay, now this morning, I woke up at 7:00 am, but I stayed in bed until about 7:45 am. Its now 8 am, I am journaling right now and drinking my coffee. I wanted to get to the gym so that I could get a leg workout in, but I don't know if that is possible anymore. One thing that I'm realizing is that it really doesn't mater what order I do my morning routine in. I have had a healthy paradigm shift in regards to this, as I have realized that the intention of a morning routine like this is for an overarching goal, which is just to get things out of the way that set me up for success so that I can get on with the day afterwards and enjoy more success. It doesn't matter if I journal first or second or third, if it gets my ass out of bed on time, then that is what I should do. In the creative process, sometimes things change and you have to be able to adapt to that. When I try to get myself out of bed in the morning, the thought of showering is not enticing at all, so I procrastinate. However, the thought of drinking a hot coffee and journaling is VERY enticing so just lean into that, no harm there. Next thing on the agenda, I have realized that I really am hurt by this dance partnership break up and I should really talk to this girl about it. This is what a real man, or a real Thick Face Black Heart practitioner would do, of course ideally I am able to handle situations like these with dispassion and detachment, in which I am able to detach from the emotions that I am feeling in favor of a more wholistic, warrior-like mindset, but this is just where I'm at. On another positive note, I have about $1300 coming into my bank account tomorrow from this dance event over the weekend. I had owed my mom $320 and my dad $585 so I will be able to pay them COMPLETELY back. This is going to feel AWESOME to get this off of my shoulders. I also only have until mid March to pay back my debt relief program, that will also feel awesome. I feel like I'm finally starting to take back control of my financial life. Some things that I would like to save for: I need to start saving money in my bank account in case my car craps out on me, this is essential, I have no idea how long this thing is going to last, it is a 2001 Toyota Avalon with about 205,000 miles on it. The next thing is my heart surgery, I will have to pay at least $3,000 for it. There are the most important things but there are more things that I would like as well, lets make a list and order them by priority: New smooth shirt and smooth vest: $300 Heart Surgery: $3,000 New car: $5,000 Shrooms: $200 Upgrading teeth: $3,000 Dating coaching: $2,500 Tattoos: $500 Buying a condo / house: $10,000 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 8 Journal: 88 Brush teeth streak: 90 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 61 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 89 No smoking weed streak: 44