Spiritual Warrior

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #228 ~ Mon Sep 21 '26 Some of my streaks just keep rising and rising, congratulations. I am tired right now, all I want to do is fuckaround all day. I miss those days where I have nothing going on and I can just "rot" all day. At the same time, I enjoy being the man that is able to take care of business. I love a girl, I want to be with her. But I also have other desires that are motivating me. I have a friend with benefits that I am trying my best to help get her out of her comfort zone. My life is filled with contribution. I am able to make a real positive and lasting impact on the people around me. I never know how to feel when i watch porn and ejaculate. I am doing it much less which pushes me to go out there and hook up with girls. I made out with two different girls last week. I understand the feminine to a high degree and I express my attraction towards them authentically. After i ejaculate however, i am done, i dont feel the attraction anymore. I want to start masturbating without any porn, in this way I will get in touch with the sexual energy inside of my body. I think I want another book on circulating sexual energy... or I just need to practice. My kriya yoga practice has yet to materialize which is unfortunate. I see the immense benefits that i can get out of it but I have been unable to fit it into my schedule thus far. But that's okay, one thing at a time... I want to sign up for a RASA session with Amanda Devi. If enlightenment is really the most important thing to me then I would prioritize it. I think I'm scared to do it but I really should just give it a shot, I have the money now. I also want to get a handle on my finances and my schedule. What am I doing with my time? How do I want my time to be allocated? What is most important to me? Should I put more time into reading books or should I put more time into getting certified at work. How much time do I want to spend hanging out with that girl? How about the other girl? How about time for yourself to relax? How about time for enlightenment? How important is money to you? All of these things require attention. Now, I have to get ready for work and give myself a haircut, clean my room, clean my car and maybe even do laundry. Daily goals: Make bed: 46 Take medication: 63 Shower: 63 Groom hair: 63 Brush teeth: 63 Floss: 6 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 0 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Pleasure yourself without porn Things to do: Ship thing to friend - do this on Monday Check out Finances Hang up things on wall Re organize bed Plessure yourself without porn Finances: Checking $3900 Money market $1,900

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #1 Okay, it is 10.29.25 and I have realized that I have no discipline in my life which is setting me back from accomplishing my goals. Listed below are the habits that I would like to integrate as well as the reason for doing so: 1.Read when I get home (no electronics) this is for the purpose of having better sleep. I also have a larger vision of being very well educated, which starts with reading lots of books. Just a little bit every night will go a long ways 2.No sexual stimulation from internet No sexual stimulation from the internet. I see no benefit in watching porn, I have a history of being addicted to it and have therefore had struggles having an erection with a real woman, this is a no brainer. Stop with this nonsense. 3.Workout at gym 3 days a week Workout at the gym 3 days a week. I want to get really fuckin hot, like really fuckin hot. And the best way to do this as a man is to hit the gym and do it in a strategic and intelligent way. I am going to go 3 days a week, I am going to work out my chest on Monday at 11am - 12pm, this will be barbell bench press, dumbbell incline press, and that one with the cable that stretches your chest, it is going to be 4 sets and the first set is a warm up, so 3 real sets. Next is legs, I would like to use the angled leg Press, 4 sets, then the leg extensions, 4 sets, then use a calf machine, 4 sets again, next is back and arms. I want to start doing deadlifts again, I love deadlifts, then a barbell row and then a dumbell row, I really want to get my back jacked for dance. 4 sets of each again and this will be the workout routine for 3 months. Then I will have a de load week, in which I take the whole week off from weight training and I reevaluate how far I've come. I will also need to measure how much protein and carbs and calories that I am in taking and also weight myself on a daily basis so that I can track my progress 4.No ejaculating for 3 years No ejaculating for 3 years. This has to do with my goal of having sexual abundance in my life. I want to have sex with real woman, not with my own hand. Not ejaculating also gives me more energy to shift my focus into other things in life, such as having a bigger impact on people, reading books, meditating and overall being a healthier human that people look up to. I lead with integrity. 5. Approach and hit on 10 women every week for 1 year Approach and hit on 10 women every week, which would equate to 500 women on the year. This would be a great milestone for me and it would make me very proud. This coincides with the goal of wanting to have sexual abundance in my life. I want lots of sex with lots of women. That is what I genuinely want. I don't want to fake that anymore, I want this and therefore I will have it. Thank you God for allowing me to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. - Half time: as you can see, we already have an interrelated system at work, the no ejaculation goal supports the hitting on 10 women every week because not ejaculating will give me more motivation and energy and time to hit on several women a week, on the flip side if I hit on 10 women every week, watching porn and ejaculating becomes a lot less appealing, both cogs in the system are supporting each other. Nice job there. - 6. Eat 150 g of protein every single day I have learned that eating a lot of protein is imperative to building lots of muscle. I want to build lots of muscle in order to become the sexiest man I can be. This is required, therefore I have to eat enough protein. 7. Meditate every morning for 30 minutes moving past physical attractiveness, I want to be attractive in a sense that I am magnetic as a human being, people want to be around me, and I also want to be able to stay present and within the moment both for dance and also for the people around me, such as students and friends and family and co workers. The more I meditate, the higher my consciousness grows, and the more I understand the truth of reality, the more I am able to make an impact on the world. Overall, this is mainly for better mood and mental clarity, the motivation is NOT towards enlightenment, although I predict that is what it will turn into 8. Wake up at 7:30 am every day this challenge has two benefits: 1. It is going to build self discipline and character, and 2. I have to wake up that early in order to get everything done that I want to ( I've already mapped out my schedule accordingly) 9. Brush teeth morning and night this is also building self discipline and it is also for the betterment of my hygienic and overall health and well being. I am also a dance instructor, I work very close to people, therefore it is imperative that I have fresh breath. I may even want to pick up a toothbrush and toothpaste and keep it at the dance studio. 10. Floss teeth every morning another habit for self discipline and overall wellbeing 11. Shower and groom hair every morning this is similar to the last two, it is building character to stick to a habit. The main thing that I'm trying to do with this morning routine is that there are no grey areas here - no - I wake up at 7:30 am, I brush my teeth and floss, then I take a shower, then I groom my hair and beard, then I go downstairs and meditate for 30 minutes on the floor, then I do my push ups and pull ups, which is the next thing on this list and there is no wiggle room, there is no being wishy washy, no I am doing this every fucking day, I don't care if I get kidnapped and wake up in Antarctica, no - I am going to follow the same routine no matter what. Fuck variety - life is chock full of surprises, a routine keeps you grounded and focused and stable - this is the true masculine power - to have the self discipline to stick to this routine 12. Do 3 sets of push ups and 3 sets of pull ups every morning again, this is self discipline and it will also have a cumulative effect in turning me into a sexy, attractive man. I am going to make these things happen every single day like clock work. There are no excuses. It is time to start living with integrity and purpose and direction. This is the desire that I have been suppressing and distracting my self from with spiritual pursuits. I don’t really want to be enlightened, at least not yet. I have been using enlightenment as a distraction for many years because hitting on women and developing discipline in life is scarier and more uncomfortable to me than reading spiritual books and meditating. If I do these things, I will become the quintessential model of healthy masculinity. And this is what I truly want. I want to maximize my masculine energy to its absolute full potential. Then once I hit that peak, I will move into something more selfless, such as spiritual enlightenment, or whatever else I want to pursue. I am going to need a checklist that I have to check off every single day. This needs to be made public so that I can feel the embarrassment of missing a day. I want to do this on actualized.org, my favorite forum. Thank you God for allowing me to become aware of my authentic desire of being a vessel of healthy masculinity in this world. Thank you God for allowing me to create sexual abundance in my life. Thank you God for allowing me to create a life filled with love, laughter, joy, purpose, and gratitude. Listed below is my checklist for the first two days of my challenge. 10.31.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Floss Shower Groom hair Eat breakfast Meditate Work out Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Wash face No electronics before bed "Whole day" goals: No porn No ejaculation Eat 150 g of protein Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week Approach 10 women I did a good job on everything except for no electronics before bed and eating 150 g of protein. I was on my phone before going to sleep and I am going to have to figure out how to incorporate 150 g of protein into my diet. The weekly goals are going to be assessed at the end of the week on Sunday. I am going to actually keep a counter of how many girls I have approached. I would also like to create a counter so that I can keep track of how many days I consecutively stuck to my habit. The higher the number, the more fulfilled I will feel.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #228 ~ Sun Sep 20 '26 Daily goals: Make bed: 45 Take medication: 62 Shower: 62 Groom hair: 62 Brush teeth: 62 Floss: 5 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 5 No ejaculation: 5 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Ship thing to friend - do this on Monday Finances: Checking $3900 Money market $1,900

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #227 ~ Sat Sep 19 '26 Daily goals: Make bed: 44 Take medication: 61 Shower: 61 Groom hair: 61 Brush teeth: 61 Floss: 4 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 4 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Ship thing to friend

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #226 ~ Fri Sep 18 '26 Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 0 Make bed: 43 Take medication: 60 Shower: 60 Groom hair: 60 Brush teeth: 60 Floss: 3 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 3 No ejaculation: 3 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Ship thing to friend Practice Argentine Tango

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #225 ~ Thu Sep 17 '26 My life has changed dramatically. I get girls now, I am a successful dance instructor, I experience glimpses of the infinite / what death is, I have a good head of my shoulders, I am valuable at work and as a friend and intimate partner, I feel myself letting go of ego or at least becoming more aware of it, my body is becoming more muscular, everything is really working out and its because I have put in the time over these past few years to really grow myself and take care of business. I am living consciously nowadays with intention, with heart and with soul. Congratulations to you, you are one of the lucky ones. Now its your duty since you have made it this far to help others get to where you have gotten to. That is why you have been blessed with all of these lessons. You are here to serve others, to help them learn what you have started. Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 2 Make bed: 42 Take medication: 59 Shower: 59 Groom hair: 59 Brush teeth: 59 Floss: 2 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 2 No ejaculation: 2 No electronics before bed: 2 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Ship thing to friend

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #224 ~ Wed Sep 16 '26 Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 1 Make bed: 41 Take medication: 58 Shower: 58 Groom hair: 58 Brush teeth: 58 Floss: 1 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 1 No ejaculation: 1 No electronics before bed: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 (☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Ship thing to friend Record video

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #222 ~ Sun Sep 13 '26 Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 0 Make bed: 39 Take medication: 56 Shower: 56 Groom hair: 56 Brush teeth: 56 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Push ups & pull ups: 0 No porn: 7 No ejaculation: 7 No electronics before bed: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 0 Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Get new light bulbs

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #222 ~ Sun Sep 13 '26 Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 4 Make bed: 38 Take medication: 55 Shower: 55 Groom hair: 55 Brush teeth: 55 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 Push ups & pull ups: 0 No porn: 6 No ejaculation: 6 No electronics before bed: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 (☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Get new light bulbs

I wouldn't try to grasp or hold on to it, this will get you right back into the funk that you were in. You got into the state that you were in precisely because you let go of the need to grasp or cling onto something. Its very paradoxical.

What is death?

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #221 ~ Sat Sep 12 '26 Alright so I'm at an overnight dance training in upstate New York. I love a girl that I work with. I love being around her. I've been having insights into the ability to create whatever kind of life that I want for myself. This is actually quite profound. I. I can also understand that we all merge into a pool of infinite love when we die. This is so obvious to me now. Of course, this is why life is a dream and you can create any kind of dream that you want... because the foundation of reality is an infinite stream or pool of infinite love. Infinite love equates to infinite creation. Now here's the kicker and the thing to consider... do I want to devote everything to this job, do I want kids ina few years, do I want to hook up with a bunch of girls, do i want to get married, how important are my friendships, how much time do I want to devote to reading spiritual books, etc... there are so many things to consider and so many options. Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 3 Make bed: 37 Take medication: 54 Shower: 54 Groom hair: 54 Brush teeth: 54 Floss: 4 Kriya yoga: 0 Push ups & pull ups: 0 No porn: 5 No ejaculation: 5 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 (☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 1 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #220~ Fri Sep 11 '26 Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 2 Make bed: 36 Take medication: 53 Shower: 53 Groom hair: 53 Brush teeth: 53 Floss: 3 Kriya yoga: 0 Push ups & pull ups: No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 4 No electronics before bed: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 (☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #219~ Thu Sep 10 '26 Thank you to the universe for allowing me to find a job that I love. Thank you to my parents for giving me a trauma free childhood. Thank you to all of my friends who are nice to me and support me, I love you all. Thank you God for this opportunity to live in the dream state and create. That is the point of life, it is to create. Think about that, you can create ANYTHING that you want. That is so cool! Now go out and enjoy yourself! I'm starting to think that this girl is actually a big distraction for me right now. Of course I want her, but there are so many things that I'm trying to get a handle on outside of my infatuation for her. Why can't I just focus on that first. You keep complaining that you have too many things going on, but you are creating this life for yourself. You are investing your time and energy into all of these things, don't you see that. This isn't neccessarily bad, you are vaiuable now, you value your own time, other people value your time, but god damn, theres too much going on to actually pursue a state of no mind. I have to go, byeeeeee. Daily goals: Wake up at 7:30 AM: 1 Make bed: 35 Take medication: 52 Shower: 52 Groom hair: 52 Brush teeth: 52 Floss: 2 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 3 No ejaculation: 3 No electronics before bed: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 5 Wash face before bed: 5 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 (☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it - I have a number to call to pay it off Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals - Cancel dance lesson with dan

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #218~ Wed Sep 9 '26 I have become more aware of the hypocrisy of my own behavior. I become jealous when this girl that I like is touchy feely or flirty with her students, but I am literally the biggest flirt with my students, always smiling and joking around with them. Double standards. I am starting to feel really pessimistic right now and I don't understand why. Its as if this veil has been lifted that is my life and now everything feels pointless. What am I going to do about this? I feel like things are pointless now, I mean what is worthy of my time anymore? Do I still want to pursue this girl? Should I just shut everybody out so that I can pursue enlightenment? Do I just want to relax? I mean the good news is that the world is your oyster and you can do and create whatever the fuck you want. But God damn, everything fuckin' pointless! How do I let this feeling go? You just do it, just let it go, let it all out. What do I want? I want to be a great husband. I want to be enlightened. I want to be able to let go and relax. I want to help my students grow substantially. I want to be God realized. I want to be in a great mood all the time. I want to handle business. Great, now let it all goo.... Daily goals: Make bed: 34 Take medication: 51 Shower: 51 Groom hair: 51 Brush teeth: 51 Floss: 1 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 1 No ejaculation: 2 Brush teeth before bed: 4 Wash face before bed: 4 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 7 Clean room: 7 Clean car: 6 Things to do: Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals -

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #217 ~ Tue Sep 8 '26 I want to add a push ups and pull ups regimen to my morning routine. I'm also going to take out the protein shakes, I just don't see it being sustainable and sometimes you simply just have to switch things up. Ideally, I wake up at 8 am, I go upstairs and eat my granola / cereal with milk and get a coffee. Wake up at 7:30 am Make bed Take medication Drink coffee, eat cereal Journal 8:00 Take a shower, groom hair, etc. 8:30 Push ups / pull ups 9:00 Kriyah Yoga 9:30 Pack lunch and fill waters 9:40 Leave for work For food: Cereal w/ milk, lentils w/ rice, tuna when I get home Daily goals: Make bed: 33 Take medication: 50 Shower: 50 Groom hair: 50 Brush teeth: 50 Floss: 0 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 8 Brush teeth before bed: 3 Wash face before bed: 3 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals -

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #216 ~ Mon Sep 7 '26 I Daily goals: Shower: 49 Groom hair: 49 Brush teeth: 49 Floss: 0 Take medication: 49 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 32 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 7 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 2 Wash face before bed: 2 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals -

Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #94 ~ Sun Aug 20 '26 ~ 10:48 AM This is a rant. Sometimes, my Autolysis journals will look like this. My mind is starting to contemplate things that it may not be ready for. Strap yourself in because this ride is going to get bumpy. here i will be contemplating the ultimate Truth, what is death? Death is the ultimate Truth in the sense that there is nothing more final than death. It canot have any other meaning. To understand the Truth about death means that you understand the entire Universe. We are talking about the Absolute realm right here. And the Absolute realm is right here, right here in front of me. But the problem is right now I am not conscious of it. I feel like I'm on a high right now. But tomorrow is going to come and all of a sudden I am going to be roped right back down into social games. But I do know what I want out of life. And it ain't so easy to distinguish right from wrong. Maybe I should eat two cans of sardines every night... I'm getting away from the topic at hand. Life is a mystery in the sense that we're not supposed to find out all of its deepest darkest secrets. This finite being is not supposed to become Enlightened. He is here for a different reason, to survive. I now have such a great foundation of what Truth work really is and why it is important. If I didn't care about Truth, then I wouldn't know what to do with my life, I wouldn't have a direction. I do want to have children one day, maybe when I'm 35 years old. I am here on this desolate planet with no one to turn to and no where to go. Where would you go anyways when you die. Theres nothing else but right here. You are here and you are shackled, attached to this body and mind, trying desperately to hold on to something for stability when there ain't any (or theres infinite stability depensing on which way you look at it.) Burn the ego to the ground, thats what my mind keeps saying, but I want to love the ego wth all my heart, just like I love Izzy. If you love someone truly, then you will be able to let them go. You will always have to let them go in the end anyways. But enjoy your time with them, theres nothing wrong with that. Even if you get married, that doesn't mean that you own the person. I am afraid that I won't end up with her. If you don't end up with her, then she simply wasn't right for you. The Universe does not make mistakes. This whole thing is so much bigger than you.

This is my first honest attempt at doing spiritual autolysis. This is a method to attaining truth- realization coined by Jed McKenna. "Autolysis" means self-digestion, and "Spiritual" means the level of self that encompasses the mental, physical and emotional aspects. All you really have to do is write the truth. Just write down what you know is true, or what you think is true, and just keeping writing, until you come up with something that is true. Spiritual Autolysis Journal Entry #1 - Wed Apr 19 '23 - 8:28 AM Lower self: I am a human being. My name is Ben. I know that I am a human being because I was told that I am a human being from my schooling and my parents and everyone else within society. I am told that we as human beings have evolved from chimpanzees or bonobos. Higher self: Okay... do you have any direct experience of yourself as being a human being? Lower self: No... this is just what I have been told. Higher self: Okay... then how do you know that it is true? Lower self: Well... I don't. I am just trusting what other people have told me. Higher self: Okay, then we agree that you do not know for a fact that you are a human being? Lower self: Yes. I agree... My name is Ben though. I was given this name from my parents when I first came out of the womb. Higher self: Have you ever experienced what it means to be Ben? Lower self: Well... I have a bunch of beliefs and pictures in my head that I feel like embody who I, or Ben is as a person, i.e. what Ben is good at, what he's bad at, which people are my best friends, who Ben's family is, etc. Higher self: Okay... Would you agree that these are all just beliefs and pictures in your head, this Ben cannot be a truth within the universe. There is nothing fundamental about it. You do not know what it is like to be Ben. These are all just fictions in your head, beliefs about yourself, there is no being to speak of. Lower self: Yes, I agree. I am starting to see a recurring pattern here. Does the truth lie within being? Higher self: Yes, I think so. Lower self: Well how do you know? Higher self: Well... I don't know, it just seems like the correct way of thinking about things. If all of these beliefs and fictions in our heads are just that, fictions like Pete Ralston has talked about, then how else are we going to come to the truth about things. Lower self: First off, you are putting your faith in Peter Ralston too much. How do you know what he is saying is true? Higher self: You're right, I don't. I want to question what he is saying as well. But... we have already established that there is no inherent truth to the Ben label or the human being label, correct? And this has been established because when we boil down the human being label, this is just a label that other people have come up with in order to label what this species should be called. We call this species human beings. No pure truth to this. Just a label. Same with the beliefs that you hold about Ben, no pure, fundamental truth there either. That is what this work is all about, cutting past all of the bullshit labels and getting to what is truly TRUE. That is what we are after here, and I think this was a good start young Padawan. Lower self: Thank you When will we speak again? Higher self: When you are ready.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #215 ~ Sun Sep 6 '26 I hate cooking. Like I really don't like it. However, I want to be healthy. How am I going to be healthy without cooking. I want to start having cereal in the morning. 7 wishes with whole, organic, pasture raised milk. Then i want some lentils with rice. What about the meat? Can I just have that when I get home from work? Will that be enough protein? Maybe... depends, I've been trying to eat 150 g , but is that too much? Do I really need that much protein? So no more protein shake? Correct, no more protein shake. 7 wishes: 16 g protein, lentils: 20 g protein, Rice 10 g protein, sardines 18g protein Sometimes I feel like I am blindly trusting what I hear from books about a subject. The bottom line is that I have not liked the progress that I've gotten in the gym based on the routines that I am engaging in right now, so I am now on a quest to figure out a better path. I've gained some muscle, theres no doubt about it and I now have a workout regimen that I am following on a weekly basis, these are all necessary things to sort out in life.. Daily goals: Shower: 48 Groom hair: 48 Brush teeth: 48 Floss: 7 Take medication: 48 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 31 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 0 No ejaculation: 6 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls - idk how to pay it Get new light bulbs - ACE hardware on Saturday of next week Wash sandals - Call about hospital bill

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #214 ~ Fri Sep 4 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 46 Groom hair: 46 Brush teeth: 46 Floss: 5 Take medication: 46 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 29 Kriya yoga: 1 No porn: 4 No ejaculation: 4 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 1 Wash face before bed: 1 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days - it just came in Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Get new light bulbs Wash sandals Call about hospital bill

Here's a video of Kevin Hart roasting Meek Mill and his squad. The frame that he excuses is incredible, he's confident, unfazed and has complete control over the audience. Not to mention, he's only 5'3". Watch this for inspiration on what it takes to be charismatic and to lead others.

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #213~ Thu Sep 3 '26 What is it that you want? I want a girl in my life. Someone that I can grow with and have a good time with. I want to make a lot of money doing what I love, dancing. I want to get closer to God. I want to understand the Truth of the universe. I want to be jacked and shredded. I want to have integrity and to be an impressive man. I want to have a good work ethic and to also understand other people and what makes them tick. I want to start letting go of all of my neurotic tendencies. Daily goals: Shower: 45 Groom hair: 45 Brush teeth: 45 Floss: 4 Take medication: 45 Drink protein shake: 2 Make bed: 28 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 3 No ejaculation: 3 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 0 Wash face before bed: 0 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 4 ( ☑️☑️☑️) Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Get new light bulbs Wash sandals

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #212 ~ Wed Sep 2 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 44 Groom hair: 44 Brush teeth: 44 Floss: 3 Take medication: 44 Drink protein shake: 1 Make bed: 27 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 2 No ejaculation: 2 Eat 150 g of protein: 0 Brush teeth before bed: 17 Wash face before bed: 17 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 ( ☑️☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 6 Clean car: 5 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Call Daniele - ask what the song means to her Get new light bulbs Wash sandals

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #211 ~ Tue Sep 1 '26 Daily goals: Shower: 43 Groom hair: 43 Brush teeth: 43 Floss: 2 Take medication: 43 Drink protein shake: 0 Make bed: 26 Kriya yoga: 0 No porn: 1 No ejaculation: 1 Eat 150 g of protein: 1 Brush teeth before bed: 16 Wash face before bed: 16 Weekly goals: Workout 3x: 3 ( ☑️ Give yourself a haircut: 0 Do laundry: 6 Clean room: 5 Clean car: 4 Things to do: Change oil (I can't get my hood open) - lunch break tomorrow (Wednesday) Cut Tyler and Amanda music Buy paint by numbers thing FIX PHONE - I called and I ordered a new sim card for new phone - will come in the mail in 3-5 business days Get new card at L Bank Set up high yield savings account Pay tolls Call Daniele - ask what the song means to her Get new light bulbs