Spiritual Warrior

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #128 I sell people almost every single time on introductory lessons. I don't miss. This is because I have gotten very good at making the couple or single lady feel like they can dance. I am providing them with the confidence and vision that they can become good, competent dancers. Good job on that. The next level is to get them to "extend" which is to have a plan for them moving forward that touches on their "benefit sheet" which is what they truly want to get out of dance at a more personal, emotional, psychological level. This the next step for me, get them to extend by getting them to see a long term vision for where we can take their dancing. 3.9.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 1 Journal: 127 Brush teeth streak: 127 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 101 Meditation streak: 10 Approaching women visualization: 1 Abundance of sex affirmation: 1 Funniness affirmation: 9 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 9 Free talk exercise: 9 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 130 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #127 Reached the century mark for showering in the morning, great job! 3.8.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 126 Brush teeth streak: 126 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 100 Meditation streak: 9 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 8 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 8 Free talk exercise: 8 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 129 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #125 Okay, so I technically did not journal yesterday, but I had thought that I at least sent it in as I did attempt to journal while I was at my friends house last night. I must not have hit "submit." Given the circumstances, I am not going to reset that streak as this would be very harsh. 3.6.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 3 Journal: 124 Brush teeth streak: 124 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 98 Meditation streak: 7 Approaching women visualization: 4 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 6 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 6 Free talk exercise: 6 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 127 Total number of women cold approached: 5 Habits & Disciplines journey entry #126 3.7.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 125 Brush teeth streak: 125 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 99 Meditation streak: 8 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 7 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 7 Free talk exercise: 7 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 128 Total number of women cold approached: 5

@Valach for sure, I appreciate it. I will keep this in the back of my mind as I "go through it."

@Valach mmmm... I understand what you're saying. The traumas are not from the lack of success but from something entirely different and using success with women to deal with the trauma is a dead end and will not not truly heal you. An interesting take, I am open to that being true.

@Valach just finished reading all of your posts on this thread and I want to summarize your view point, please correct me if I missed anything. You're essentially saying that everyone that is currently in the stage of "pick up" have not had the success with women that they would like to have which makes them feel wounded and insecure and undeserving and unloved. Therefore, this activity is not as healthy as it seems because you are healing traumas and not necessarily growing as a person. This is a great point and I agree. However, you have to realize that a man has to cope with these wounds and insecurities and avoiding the area instead of driving straight through it is not a good solution so you HAVE to engage in pick up to some extent in order to deal with the wounds, you can't avoid it. Therefore, the most healthy way to go about this issue for guys is to actively engage in pick up while understanding what you understand, which is that this activity that I'm engaging in is healing the wounded part of me and I will eventually transcend it and move onto something more highly conscious and with a greater impact on the world. What I am describing is ego development at its core. You should not skip over stages of your ego development. Burn through every stage until the flame is completely extinguished.

You're probably right, but the insecurities and emotional wounds still need to be healed. Exhaust your desire for sex by becoming successful in the area and then you will be conscious enough to transcend it.

Probably Mastery by George Leonard, having the insight that true mastery in a field takes over 10,000 hours of work is all you need to understand what it takes to be successful in anything.

I'd bet he is in a situation where he does not have an abundance of options. He is thinking "Ooooh, an attractive woman finally likes me, I need to wife her up."

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #124 3.5.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 2 Journal: 123 Brush teeth streak: 123 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 97 Meditation streak: 5 Approaching women visualization: 3 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 5 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 5 Free talk exercise: 5 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 126 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Recently, I have become frustrated with how selfish I still am despite all of the personal development work that I've put in. I am painting this as a negative thing as far as my emotional state goes but in reality becoming aware of my own selfishness is the first step towards coming down off of my self-righteous high horse. The step below this is being selfish and also not being aware of it at all, which is where I was prior to this revelation. Now, where do I go from here? It is my goal to continue to observe my behavior and be very honest with myself in terms of what is going on in the current situation, what is going on in my head, etc. it takes viewing reality in a zoomed out way and looking at it for what it TRULY is. Look for the Truth in every situation. Do not shy away from the Truth even if and especially if it hurts. Namaste.

Thank you for all the replies, I love hearing your insights. The thing that I am noticing that is a mind warp is as soon as the first comment rolled in and it was praising me for being aware of my selfishness, I jumped right back onto my self-righteous high horse and started trotting along thinking to myself "Oh yeah, look at me, I'm so conscious, I am aware of all my selfishness." Its just funny how that works, it is positive that I'm aware of the selfishness, no doubt about it. But then my mind eats it up and thinks I'm hot shit for it. Its like I don't even want to be this person that craves things anymore, material desires, more sex, more money, a bigger house. I can see that the greatest impact a human being can have on the world lies within a tier two way of thinking (I'm talking spiral dynamics here) in which he is able to zoom out and build systems that can sustain and help humanity prosper and grow. That is where real growth can be had and it is my life purpose to make as great of an impact on humanity as my potential will allow. The issue with being in tier two for me right now is I have not burned through my karma in the dating field, I am living with my mom right now, and I only make $35k a year. A person can have all the desire in the world to be at tier two where he can make the greatest impact, but if he doesn't have these more survival based needs met, there's no way he realistically makes the "quantum leap" into a tier two way of thinking. So in conclusion, I will continue to work on exhausting my desires for dating and sex, becoming a maser in my field of work, and making enough money so that I can buy a nice but modest house. While doing that, the foundational thinking mind will be looking to experience the truth within every situation that he encounters, being honest towards other people and probably more importantly towards himself.

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #123 I find it fascinating that despite how much work that I've put into my personal development, my ego continues to get very triggered by things. My emotional state is never at rest, my brain chatter is constant, constantly complaining about a situation here or there, "she did this to me... Why would he do that ..I'm never going to talk to her again... She doesn't even care about me." It's like bro, calm the fuck down. Everything is fine, you are on a good track and more importantly, you are not the only specimen on this earth, it's not all about you! It frustrates me that I am still so selfish, but then again this is a positive step in the right direction, being aware of your own selfishness and self centeredness is the start of a path that takes you off of your self - righteous high horse. There is much more to life, there is a much greater impact that you can have beyond the petty things that are going on in your mind. 3.4.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 1 Journal: 122 Brush teeth streak: 122 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 96 Meditation streak: 3 Approaching women visualization: 1 Abundance of sex affirmation: 1 Funniness affirmation: 3 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 3 Free talk exercise: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 124 Total number of women cold approached: 5

I've gone on two dates with a girl and she is very into me, all I have to do is set up the logistics and this will lead us to an intimate experience with each other. I am NOT looking for something serious right now as I want to date around with multiple women and I also don't see a future with her. I intuit that the right thing to do here is to let her know that I am not looking to turn this into a serious relationship as this is how I would like to be treated if the roles were reversed. The issue with this is if I tell the girl this before sex then I might not get the sex. Now you might think that I'm cold and crass for allowing myself to think like this, but I think a vast majority of us men have this exact thought, we are just unaware of it or will not admit it to others. I am doing the opposite, I am highlighting my own selfishness as highly conscious people are built on the foundation of brute honesty and truth, even if and especially if it paints you in a negative light. I know what the right thing to do is... the question is... will I actually do it? The fact that I am contemplating this and am not gung ho about it shows to me how selfish and biased I am. I just said that this is what I would want from the girl, yet I'm not going to give her the same courtesy? Double standards at its finest out of pure selfishness. Fuck that - I am going to tell her before having sex with her. This is the highly conscious and truthful way to go about it. I want to be a player in order to become an attractive man but I would like to do it in a highly conscious way - I have much to learn but this is a good start. I am going to seduce this woman while being COMPLETELY truthful and honest with her. And if it doesn't work out because of that I can sleep well tonight knowing that I did the right thing. Curious as to what ya'll think. Feel free to share opinions.

Habits & Disciplines journey entry #122 3.3.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 121 Brush teeth streak: 121 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 95 Meditation streak: 2 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 2 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 2 Free talk exercise: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 123 Total number of women cold approached: 5

You right

Appreciate the candidness. You're right, this is low conscious behavior - not something that I want to be a part of.

Personal Journal ~ 3.3.26 Okay so I am feeling frustrated right now with my lack of discipline. Before I start down the rabbit hole of everything thats wrong with me right now, lets highlight some things that I have been doing well recently. Some highlights: I’ve been able to tap into a newfound masculine aura in which I don’t care what others think and I go after what I want - right now I am experiencing the first level of this, I can tell that there are layers to this work right here and I am only scratching the surface I reached 72 days of not smoking weed I’ve completely given up alcohol, reaching over 100 days straight without it I am a lot more organized in my daily life, my room is never as messy as it used to be I have been journaling every day for 100+ days straight I am becoming noticeably better at teaching dance as well as dancing. My lesson count results haven’t really shown that but I am starting to think more long term as the lesson counts will grow in the near future I have 3 to 5 very solid students that I see long term commitment with. It would take something catastrophic for them to leave I am starting to have a much better grasp over my student base and I am pushing them to come in more Creativity is blossoming as my choreography has been getting better and better I have approached 5 women in the past month, 4 of them at a nightclub and another one at a CVS. In this process, I have been going out with one of the girls on a consistent basis for the past couple of weeks, the next step is to create some intimacy with her - I am also debating whether or not to tell her before I have sex with her that I am not looking for anything serious I have a newfound vision to become a highly conscious pick up artist that shares insights with people on YouTube I have a vision of becoming a world champion dancer, this has motivated me greatly and it is probably the only thing in my life that I am sure about without any doubt in my mind. I admitted that I started to have romantic feelings towards my dance partner. This was a very fulfilling and emotionally challenging event and I am super proud that I was able to do it 28 days without ejaculating Some areas to work on: I want to start getting out of bed as soon as I wake up and start my day. I have to realize that I have all of these goals that I would love to actualize in my life so lets get fuckin’ to it. Stop wasting time. What do I waste time doing? Sleeping. Scrolling on YouTube and Instagram and Spotify. Okay, lets stop. Just stop. Do you want to cut these things out completely? Yes. Yes I do. The biggest problem right now is just that I don’t have any control over my life. I don’t run my schedule. I don’t understand how I’m doing with my habits. I don’t know why I’m even doing the habits. I understand my vision but I don’t have the practical things taken care of, such as finances and daily habits and room cleanliness and car cleanliness. Getting these things handles would do absolute wonders for my mental health and success in general. The thing that I notice the most is I have all of these cravings, a craving to listen to a song, a craving to watch a video, a craving to scroll, a craving to check my messages or my email, it is exhausting. I want to start putting awareness on all of these urges so that I can take control of the situation. How does my financial situation look? What am I going to do about that? I don’t know - that side of things feel so fuckin’ overhwhelming - which is why you need to get on it and take some responsibility over it. Go to a financial institution if you have to. Okay, I have to go to work, going to have to come back to this later.

Thanks for the reply. I enjoy your flexible view on the matter. We as humans are free to do as we please. There are no cosmic consequences to our actions, or at least not that I'm aware of.

Give her space, that is the best thing for her right now You cannot heal her wounds, only time will

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #121 I feel like no woman wants me romantically. What a shitty feeling for a man to go through. But in reality, I have a woman that is very into me right now, I had a woman a year ago that was very into me, that wanted to marry me. So thats not really true. MY mind just likes to make myself feel pity for myself. Why does it do that? And how do I deal with it? What is the truth about these thoughts of "No one wants me romantically?" Well it firstly stems from the women that I work with. I don't understand why neither of the girls that I like show any interest in me, I have shown a great drive and work ethic, I am a good looking guy, what is missing? I don't understand and it is incredibly frustrating. Of course, from their perspective, I have shown no interest in them.. well thats not entirely true, I've actually told both of them that I like them, one of them two years ago and the other one a couple of days ago. And of course now they are going out to breakfast together and they are probably going to talk about me crushing on one of them. The reality is that I would actually date either of them, whichever one will take me... honestly thats how I feel. That sounds really sad, its unfortunate that this is the position that I am in. In reality I just don't have an abundance of high quality women that I am talking to and coming into contact with, which makes me desperate to hang onto whoever will take me. This NEEDS to change, I am not happy with my current reality in this regard. The real solution here is to just go ape shit on approaching women outside of this place and to get everything figured out, finances, work ethic, habits and disciplines, do all of this stuff by yourself, for yourself and things will fall into place. But how do you know that? I don't. I truly don't, but hey lets try it. The main thing thats frustrating me right now is I am always lazy as fuck when I wake up in the morning. So like this morning, I actually woke up at 6:30 am. I wanted to wake up at 7:30 so this is an hour early. Ideally, I get my ass out of bed and get in the shower, then meditate, which would actually bring me to 7:30 am in which I've already completed my first two tasks for the day. This would be fuckin' awesome. However, that is not what happened. Instead, I layed in bed for a while an then when my 7:30 alarm went off, I didn't want to wake up so I laid there for another hour, now its 8:30, I walk downstairs and then I lay on the couch in the living room for another hour lmao, and all of a sudden, it is 3 hours later... fuck me. And now I have to get all of my habits done in the morning and I am no longer focused on them because I am in a lazy mindset, one that wants to go back to bed. Action item: Tomorrow I am going to get out of bed AS SOON AS I WAKE UP or the alarm sounds, whichever comes first. You need to add some adversity to your life. I am going to fuckin' do this. I am going to fuckin' do this. Just like I am going to get amazing results with women, having lots of sex, helping young men approach and improve their dating lives, I am going to be an incredible dancer that wins dance competitions, and I am going to be one of the most highly conscious human beings on this planet. Namaste. 3.2.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 120 Brush teeth streak: 120 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 94 Meditation streak: 1 Approaching women visualization: 1 Abundance of sex affirmation: 1 Funniness affirmation: 1 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 1 Free talk exercise: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 28 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 122 No smoking weed streak: 1 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Habits & Disciplines Journey Entry #120 3.1.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 119 Brush teeth streak: 119 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 93 Meditation streak: 0 Approaching women visualization: 0 Abundance of sex affirmation: 0 Funniness affirmation: 0 Independent of opinions of others affirmation: 0 Free talk exercise: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 27 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 121 No smoking weed streak: 0 Total number of women cold approached: 5

Hi, I'm a ballroom dance instructor so I have lots of experience in these dance setting, salsa clubs, ballroom events, etc. Yes, you're right bachata can be a very sensual dance. From my experience, despite how sensual it can get, its just a dance, there isn't anything past that. You enjoy a dance with another human being, you give them a high five or a hug at the end of it and then you move onto the next partner. This is how most of the people feel that are immersed in the dance culture. When you are new to it, it does seem overwhelming and maybe even wrong but again, it's just a dance, you get used to it.

Interlude: I am not a lyricist, I am just a bastard child, here to experiment I want to start taking my life more seriously mainly on the spiritual front. I am all set up to be a successful dancer and dance instructor. All of that will fall into place, as well as my intimate relationship, this all has its place and I can let go and coast off of the foundation that I have built. Where I need a conscious push is in my spiritual pursuit. I am not taking this seriously and I am in a place in which I have so much damn potential. I understand what it means to be enlightened on a conceptual level, which is a rare thing. I understand that a human being increases his level of consciousness in stages. I understand that it is going to take an experimental shift towards the Truth. I can also feel that something is off in my life right now, I see that everything that I am doing is shallow, it lacks meaning. More important to this I might add is how on earth do you know what to pursue when you don't know what the Truth about reality entails? You have it ass backwards.. you are right now pursuing things without knowing how everything works. But how could I understanding everything, is that even possible? I don't know but I'm willing to put in the work to find out.

Interlude: Move on Beginnings always hide themselves in ends. Truthfully, I've been feeling very sluggish recently and I have no one to hang out with on the weekends. This is sad to me as I used to have a girlfriend that I could always kick it with. I need new friends to go out with, I need a new life. I am sick of the life that I've been living. But what do I want? I want to be disciplined and meditate every day. I want to be clear headed. I want to be able to approach any woman out there in the wild and call her beautiful. I want to keep going down this path of self mastery and self discovery, no breaks, no more getting off. Continue to push yourself out of your comfort zone, even when you don't want to, especially when you don't want to. We are all rooting for you. Attract anything and everything that you want into your life. Only you have the power to do this. I am going to become a famous and very important figure within the dance community. I am going to inspire others, old and young to maximize their full potential and to be fully creative and expressive and hard working in their endeavors. Never settle. Always continue down your path until you reach the end. I am the greatest thing to happen to this studio. I teach 30 lessons a week. I win every dance competition that I enter. I have an amazing girlfriend that loves and takes care of me. I have a magnetic masculine presence that women cannot get enough of. I am also humble and quiet when I need to be. I am amazing at sex, able to last for hours without cumming while my girl cums over and over and over again. I have a nice house that is totally paid off. I make millions of dollars doing the one thing that I love, dancing. I am an emotioanlly mature person that does not get effected easily by the opinions of others. I am emotionally sound and grounded, able to handle life's challenges with calm and ease. I read lots of books in my spare time, creating a wealth of knowledge within my brain. I am disciplined, when I say I'm going to wake up at a certain time, you can be dammned sure I'm waking up at that time. I am the man who knocks. I am the guy that your attention should be on. I command attention. I dominate situations when I need to. At the same time, I am capable of completely shutting off my brain. I am organized and ready for war when I am called upon. My car is clean and I am ready for anything.