Spiritual Warrior

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  1. Just because you see the limitations of stage red does not mean that you are ready to transcend it. Again, you can't move around the stages, you must move through them, embrace it, surrender to it.
  2. What the fuck happened to this idea. This was back in March. Im no where close to being ready for the quantum leap, it's funny you thought you were. I still have so much to learn and do and have. I want to master my finances. I want to master my dance. I want to master my teachings. I want to master my relationships. I want to master my sexuality. I will be grinding on these things for the next 10 years. Then I'll be ready to transcend. Don't rush your way to the top. Take in every stage as if you're sipping red wine. Savior it, let it marinate in your mouth.
  3. Principle 3: Decide what you want Be honest with yourself when contemplating what you want. Don't follow someone else's dreams, follow your own authentic path I want a house with a fenced in yard I want a king sized bed I want a dog to play with I want a smart, funny, beautiful, highly conscious girlfriend. I want to open up a dance studio. I want to travel and teach people to dance, become a traveling consultant I want to fuck 10 different girls I want to be better than ******* at dancing I want to have a one night stand I want to salsa dance in Spain I want to go to a tantra speed date event I want to understand the truth behind my own sexuality I want to write a book about the masculine vs the feminine I want to kill an animal and eat it for food I want to read every book on Leo's book list I want to fuck someone after meeting them at a dance event I want to weigh 150 pounds I want to make a woman my wife and love her as deeply as I can I want 3 more tattoos on my thighs I want to go to the dentist twice a year I want to professionally whiten and straighten my teeth
  4. What is spiral dynamics on a sexual level? Red is overcome with sexual desire. Sex is everything to red. Orange enjoys sex and has broadened its horizons enough to not be overcome by it like red. Green is able to be very feminine but does still enjoy the more animalistic sex. Green starts using sex for its own general wellbeing. Yellow uses sex to improve its health. Turquoise doesn't need sex.
  5. This is total bullshit. I was very selfish in my relationship I had selfish desires I wanted to have more sex I wanted to have sex with other people I wanted my freedom back I want to focus my full attention on my dancing and I saw her as a distraction I had selfless intentions as well I always wanted her to feel protected and safe I wanted her to feel good I wanted her to enjoy herself I wanted her to accomplish anything that she wanted in life I respected her as an individual I cared about her emotions
  6. There is this girl at my work that is the most beautiful creature I have ever met in my life. I cannot act normally around her and I'm constantly thinking about where she is in the room, if she's looking at me, etc... I'm honestly not interested in this girl as a romantic partner, all I want to do is act normally around her so that I feel more comfortable at work. If I am constantly thinking about her looking at me, then I must really care about what she thinks about me. That must be the root issue, but I'm just not sure how to deal with it. Any advice?
  7. I could also frame this as I am integrating my full masculinity as well. Masculinity embodies domination and conquering, being assertive, to be willing to sacrifice, to be willing to face fear in the faith and say bring it the fuck on.
  8. Integrating Stage Red This is not stage orange, I'm not calm. Im mad. Im very passionate. I'm very motivated. I feel like an animal. And I want to feel like an animal. What people don't understand is that this is a normal feeling for a human being to go through. This is what spiral dynamics teaches us. I want to dominate. I want to conquer. And that is natural. I love it right now. I do not care what others think of me. I do not care what others think of me. Engrain this into your brain. My ultimate goal is to fully transcend into tier two, stage yellow. This will happen when I own my own dance studio, then I will have to look at the dance studio as a system. But first, in order to be able to transcend into stage yellow, I have to first exhaust all of my material desires at the lower stages, mainly sex and money for now. Then I will have to check out stage blue again and stage green again to see if I missed anything there. It's about being a fully integrated human being at this point for me.
  9. I'm not lost, this is how a stage red character thinks and at this stage of my life, I want to integrate this stage fully. I've been deprived of sex for 29 years of my life. Now I want to dominate and conquer this issue. A healthy stage red is able to tackles his goals while still abiding by morals and ethics that do not intend on hurting others. Eventually, of course I will transcend this but as of right now, this is the path that I must take.
  10. The feminine wants to have beautiful things, it wants to be happy, it wants beauty, it wants love. The feminine desires to surrender to the masculine. The masculine wants to have things, it wants to hunt, it wants to gather, it wants to fight, it wants to dominate, it wants to conquer. The masculine desires to surrender to the feminine.
  11. The masculine vs the feminine A man wants to please his woman. If he doesn't feel like he is pleasing her, he will leave. A woman wants to feel desired. If she doesn't feel desired by her man, she will leave.
  12. I broke up with my girlfriend because I wasn't getting enough sex. It's really that simple. I want more sex in my life and I will find it elsewhere.
  13. Exploring the Masculine Entry #1 What is it that the feminine wants out of the masculine? That's what this journal will be about: Let's start with what a woman wants from a man in dance: Strong frame, one that a woman can feel taken care of in On the dance floor, the woman needs to feel protected, especially if you are moving around the dance floor. The woman should not need to be looking over her shoulder, worrying about crashing into somebody. She should feel protected, cared for. A woman wants a man to ask her to dance with confidence, comfortability, totally non threatening A woman would like to be escorted onto the dance floor by a gentleman, have her grab your arm and escort her to where you would like to lead her. A man has to make the decisions on the dance floor with confidence A man has to give the woman the necessary signals in order to lead her through the next dance move, this requires a vision of what you are trying to do. A woman wants the man to make her feel like a woman, i.e. beautiful, flowey, in tune with emotions, a mother like figure, like a beautiful flower that should be shown off to the world, one that blossoms with the most vibrant and magnificent colors
  14. You've seen others do it. Now why don't you believe that you can do it?
  15. The first time I went up to her: I walk into the room and say hi to everybody, I give everyone a hug, then when I get to the girl, she's sitting down on her phone. I say Hi ______. She doesn't even hear me lmao. My friend says "dude you have to be louder" Then she looks up at me and says hi, then I didn't know what to say and looked away. A conversation then unused between the rest of the group there and it wasn't awkward. Now that I am single, I'd like to date this girl. By the end of 2025. This means that I will have to turn into the kind of man that she would be attracted to. It's not that I don't feel attractive, its more so that I don't feel like i deserve the girl, I can tell myself that I deserve her all I want, but until I truly believe it it doesn't matter. In order to believe that I deserve her, I will need to convince myself that I deserve her. And I can't do that without killing it in the looks, career, and financial department. This is what pushes you to be a better man. It's sex. Everything is geared towards sex.
  16. I want an inground pool and a fenced in, private backyard. I want a porch with a walkway that leads to the pool. I want a bar area that has kombucha and beer on tap. The house doesn't have to be big, it just needs character and good vibes in the inside. I'd like an entertainment area that is very open, lots of room to move around. I want a lot of windows so that I can look out into the backyard. I want a king sized bed so that my girlfriend and I have lots of room to roll around while we sleep. I want a modern kitchen with stainless steel appliances and granite countertops. The living room will be carpeted, the kitchen/ dining room hard wood. The road that we live will be tucked away but easy to find. Neighbors will be friendly but keep to themselves.
  17. Nice list
  18. I like this take.
  19. I did the exact same thing, I was in he corporate world for a few years and hated it so I started traveling off and on for a couple of years hoping to find my life purpose. Eventually, I exhausted the desire for travel out of my system and came back home, but I hadn't found my life purpose. A few months later, I walk into a dance studio to learn how to dance, they like me and end up hiring me. I've never loved a job more. I have now found my life purpose. Funny how life works.
  20. 1. Society sets us up for a mediocre life. Main stream media is not pushing us to self actualize 2. Instilling hard work and discipline into your life is difficult, especially with all of the instant gratification that is right at our fingertips. 3. Some people have serious trauma from childhood that has given them worse pain than anything you or I can even fathom
  21. Of course not! I found mine at 28 Life has its way of unfolding the chapters for you at the perfect time
  22. I experienced ego death while I was on shrooms a week ago and it was terrifying. I am posting this is as a point of reference and as a warning. If you use psychedelics recklessly, you could quite literally kill yourself. I took shrooms with four people, my gf and my friend and his gf. When the shrooms started to peak, I entered a dream like state in which I didn't know that I was a human being, I didn't know my own name, I didn't know what my job was, I didn't know that I had any sort of life outside of what I was experiencing right now. I didn't know who these four people were that I was with, I saw them as characters that's energy made me feel a certain way, but I had no idea who they were or how they got here. I could not comprehend how to pee. I didn't know anything, I was a blank slate, but my mind was not quiet, it was very messy with so many random and sometimes terrifying thoughts. The scariest part of this experience was that it felt like the shrooms were trying to push me towards jumping off of this cliff and into the water, which would have been extremely dangerous. I would get closer and closer and closer, but I kept saying that I was too scared. The ocean to me in the moment was eternal love, but something inside me must have known that it was also death. If there weren't others to stop me, I might have summoned the courage to jump off because I didn't think that anything mattered, I was just this floating ball of consciousness with no past and no future and jumping into an ocean of eternal love sounded very appealing. I did many embarrassing things during this trip which include trying to pull my girlfriends top off, barking, crying, trying to literally jump through the cars GPS screen, saying that I'd fuck my friends gf, and peeing my pants. ( I was fully conscious while peeing my pants, I just could not comprehend that it mattered.) It was funny, I was FULLY immersed in this trip right up until I stepped out of my friend's car. As soon as I stepped out, the trip was over. I look down at my clothes and they are soaking wet with piss, my toe is bleeding, and I have one sandal on. The reality of what just transpired came crashing down on me all at once. My ego is back.
  23. We split a quarter between four people so no more than 2 grams. My life was extremely unorganized at the time as well, which probably added to how messy the trip was.
  24. Thanks for normalizing my experience, it makes me feel better Thanks, yeah I guess it was