Spiritual Warrior

Nope The simple task of creating good pictures of myself requires self expression, or self love

Jerk off more often Treat life more cheerfully and friendly Make counter intuitive decisions

My egoic structure doesn't want to die Why not? Because it feels like it will lose everything Everything? What is everything? Everything is safety and nourishment and love. He feels like he will lose all of that if he dies, he feels like he will be left alone in the bitter cold, with nobody to hold him. Why would he think that's what death is? The loss of all things.. How does that make sense? It makes sense because he is in the dream. Whatever is true will be revealed to him... In a matter of time. Thank you.

I, myself does not want to die But that is not truly me That is my egoic structure

I want to move in order to improve my chances with women. Why is my whole family against this decision? Because they don't want me to change. Why not? Because they are use to how I am and what I do Or... They don't want me to die

Why do women not like short guys? I've heard this statement many times in my life and it always hurts my soul because I'm short.

I am 5'5" without shoes on

@Princess Arabia Lots of words of wisdom on this thread and I appreciate everyone for it, but this is by far the most profound; it moved me emotionally. Thank you for taking the time to write.

I just opened up to this page in Spiritually Incorrect Enlightenment by Jed McKenna and love the line in it. "All the worlds a stage, all the men and women merely players, and Captain Ahab is the final role; the role that sets us free. Whoever wishes to awaken from the dream state of duality into the reality of their being just step out of their current character and into the role of Ahab; must become Ahab. Ahab is monomaniacal-focused entirely on one thing to the exclusion of all else-and that's the way out of the dream. The only way."

This is a very underrated topic. Learning how to express yourself verbally with the right tonality is key to attracting people to listen to you, which will allow you to have a greater influence on others. A person could be saying the most profound thing on earth, but if they sound like a robot, no one is going to listen. Have fun with your voice.

Spiritual Autolysis - Journal Entry #52 - Sat Dec 3rd '23 - 1:30 PM I Was Mad at You Because You Bit me.. and it Hurt Oh.... Spirituality... How I have missed you. There is nothing more pure than the pursuit of enlightenment, of God, of truth. I am sorry that it's been so long, but I needed a break... I was mad at you because you bit me ... And it hurt. I touched upon something sacred and you beared your teeth at me and gave me a snip on the arm. I had thought spirituality was all rainbows and butterflies but it isn't. No, it can be very difficult and painful .. beautiful... gorgeous, always that but also painful. I didn't want to deal with the pain, with the truth, but now I am back, ready to give it another go. Lower self: Yes, I am back. Higher self: What do you want to get out of this? Lower self: I miss you. I miss spirituality. All of these social games chasing material desires are so shallow, there's no depth to it. It's boring. And it's just weird. It feels like I am being fake constantly. And not fully doing what I want. Higher self: What is truth? Lower self: Truth is the highest ideal. It is the best thing that you can pursue. It is the ultimate pursuit. Higher self: What about the pursuit of God? Surrendering to God, Surrendering to the universe? Lower self: Why is surrender important? Higher self: Because without it, all there is is control. Control of other people. Control of your own environment. No one cares that you're not doing well. It's all a mind game. A manipulation game. Why do you want others to care about you anyway? What are you gaining? Lower self: I'm gaining their acceptance and approval and love and sex in some circumstances. Higher self: Is this what you want out of life, to be accepted and approved of and loved and to have lots of sex? Lower self: In a sense, yes. I can see that my egoic structure needs these things. He needs to feel the love and acceptance, but I have higher visions. I want to make a positive influence on a large group of people. I want to give to others, to help them out, these are my higher ideals. Higher self: What are you doing to actualize your higher ideals? Lower self: I don't know. My selfish thoughts over the past week: Why do they like him and not me? What's wrong with me? Why can't I be loved more? Why can't I act differently?

Expect the ego backlash and endure it. Be aware that it's going to poke it's ugly head when you make real progress in an area in your life. Expect it and go through the emotional labor of being pulled back into what's comfortable. After the ego backlash is over, continue down the path, making more progress in the area that you're working on.

Trying to work on loving myself. Any book or video recommendations on that? Thanks.

I want to love as deeply as I possibly can. I want to love deeper than the darkest depths of the ocean. I want my love to burn as hot as the sun. I want to embrace love with all of my being. I want to radiate love throughout my entire body.

I would like to share with you guys a trap that I fell into in my life; getting into spirituality too early. When I was 23 years old, I graduated college and had an existential crisis. I didn't know who I was outside of my college self and didn't know what to do with my life. I started to dabble in the self help field, watching lots of Leo's videos and reading some self help books. I also got a job at a Telecommunications company (which my mom basically handed to me I might add) and I started working long, stressful hours. The first couple of years flew by. When I was 25, I decided to quit and spend all of my money on traveling and self help books, I coasted by for a couple of years, living off of COVID unemployment money, money that I had saved up, and some odd jobs. This is when I started to get into spirituality. I read all of Jed Mckenna's books, The Book of Not Knowing, Conversations with God and I listened to every one of Leo's videos on Spiritual Enlightenment. I was blown away by the material and am still fascinated as to what this state of consciousness is and how I can get there. This seems like a nice trajectory that I've taken, but there are a couple of major problems with it. I know now that I was using spirituality as a distraction from the authentic desires that I held for creating a successful dating life and also finding my life purpose. These spiritual pursuits were not an authentic desire of mine, they were merely being used to avoid the emotional labor that it would take to tackle my dating needs and to find my life purpose. Sure, I now have a nice baseline understanding of what enlightenment is and what techniques can be used to get there, but now at 28 I am basically starting from ground zero in the dating world and I have found my life purpose, but am at ground zero in terms of building this life purpose into a successful career that can earn a sustainable income. As an adult, the evolution of a man's desires should go more or less like this: 1. Get success in the dating world 2. Find your life purpose and create success within it 3. Pursue spirituality / enlightenment Can you pursue all three at once? Yeah sure, probably.. just be careful that you are not half assing the pursuit of them. If you are going to pursue something, then fully lean into it. That is why it is more ideal to pursue one fully and then move onto the next. Unenlightened people can be described as living in the dream state, enlightened people have exited the dream state and couldn't go back in if they tried. Yes, I admit it, I am dreaming, but I am enjoying every delicious, juicy, painful, anxious moment within this dream... and until it is an authentic desire of mine to leave this dream state, I will not pursue it... and neither should you. I hope someone gets something out of this and best of luck to you all.

Jeez.. you are very rude. You should think about how you converse with people. I'm not going to interact with you anymore.

It's about being fun loving, having a sense of humor and being goofy. This is what gets you laid. You clearly have not developed these traits yet. And counter intuitively, you will become a happier person once you embody this. Its mentally exhausting having to take life so seriously all of the time.

Affirmations for improved dating life: I have sex with beautiful women I attract beautiful women Beautiful women are attracted to me I approach beautiful women I approach beautiful women with confidence Women swoon over me Women find me irresistible I make women laugh with ease I am a 10 / 10 I am the best thing that will ever happen to a woman Beautiful women love me I like to fuck beautiful women I can seduce any woman that I desire Seduction comes easily and naturally to me I always take my shot with women I am naturally flirtatious Women love me I am the perfect man for a lady I lead women with ease and confidence I am authentic to my true nature while I'm around women I love flirting and teasing beautiful women Beautiful women are all around me I am the man that every woman wants I have a sexual prowess that women find irresistable

Try to respectfully lead her into having sex with you This will be fun for both of you and you will gain a direct experience of what it takes to lead which will help you grow.

I went on a date with this girl last night. This was my first date in over 2 years. Going into it, I was surprisingly not that nervous. I went into the bowling alley, sat down at the bar and order a seltzer water with a lime. The girl walks into the bowling alley and sits down next to me. She is cute but not beautiful. I ask her how the drive was, she says not bad. We banter back and forth for a little while, then we go over to the front desk and say that we want to bowl, the wait is 25 minutes. We walk around the venue for a bit, talking about boring topics. Eventually we sit down again, and we start to talk about something interesting. I ask her if there are ever any crazy coincidences that happen in her life. She tells me a story and I listen. Then I tell her a story of how I hadn't been pulled over in two years, then I quit my job and I get pulled over the day that I quit and then the following day after that. I told her that I perceive this as a sign from the universe that I am not yet done with this job, there is something else that I need to learn and take away from this. We talked some more about this and that was my favorite conversation of the night. Our lane opens up and we mosey on over to it. When we input our names onto the screen, it makes you take a picture of yourself making a silly face, a sad/ angry face, and a triumphant face. Damn... I hate taking pictures of myself. We bowl for an hour and the fun meter never went above a 4. Then I walk her to her car, give her a hug, and that was that...

Surrendering to God A: Why should someone surrender to God? Why not fight with God? Why not argue with him and berate him and throw stones at him? B: Would he do that to you? A: No B: You also have no choice in the matter, you have to surrender to him, he is all powerful, the creator of all of existence, what else is there to do but surrender. A: Surrender? What does that even mean? B: You surrender to the experience, surrender to the path, stop fighting it, it's already been laid out for you. A: Okay... Then why don't I have a routine and why does my head jumble around and why do I never know what the right thing to do is? You do know the right thing. How do I know that I know the right thing? Because there is no wrong thing. What would make something wrong? It's wrong if it doesn't benefit me, if it was a mistake, if I hurt somebody or ruined a relationship. And what makes these instances wrong? They are not truly wrong per se but they hurt me.. and I always know that I could have handled the situation in the "right" way, which is the opposite of the "wrong" way. Sure.. but how could you possibly learn how to do something in the "right" way without learning from its opposite, the "wrong" way. Yeah.. I guess you're right. We need both, and you can't have one without the other. Does that make them not opposites? Because if two things are dependent on each other, then how could they be opposites, they are one and the same. They must be. Can they be both? Yeah.. I guess they can, I mean they are right now. Can they be opposites and dependent on each other? Yeah I guess. You guess or you know? I don't think I know anything anymore I say again, can they be opposites while simultaneously being dependent on each other? Lets back up for a second.. what is the definition of an opposite? Two opposites are two opposing forces that balance each other out. What if there's only one opposite? Not possible. You cant have one opposite, there needs to be a second thing in order for the balance to be needed.

Date time .. I'll let you know how it goes

However she wants to feel..

Love this.. allow the woman to blossom into a beautiful flower, vibrant and free flowing

How is Leo staying afloat financially while not releasing any YouTube content?