Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #18 Personal Journal: 11.16.25 Okay, so I had a rough day on Sunday in terms of habits. Weekends are hard. I woke up at 7:30 am on Sunday, I did brush and floss my teeth, but then I didn’t shower, didn’t do pushups or pull ups and didn’t meditate and then went BACK to sleep lol. I left the house without showering, meditating, or working out. Now, of course ending these streaks is not ideal, but it was beneficial to see the contrast in my state of well- being and competence when I do my morning routine as compared to when I don't. My brain was foggy and unorganized and I just felt like "bleh." This used to be my natural state, especially on weekends, but now I have a new standard for myself and it felt very odd. You know whats funny, even though it sounds like I am living with all of these rules which is restricting my freedom, it actually works in the opposite way. Because I have all of these habits and routines in place, the mind doesn't have to think about what its going to do, the routines are already set in stone, which frees the the soul up to explore different avenues in between the habits. Counter-intuitively, the better we are at following habits, the more freely our souls can fly. I also made a business decision at night time, my no electronics streak was at 1 anyways, and I wanted to watch the end of the Eagles, Lions game lol so I watched it until about 11:20 pm. Remember, the no electronics before bed applies at 11:00 pm This week I am going to try again and allow these streaks to grow and grow. Right now, I am realizing that my finances are not good and I am going to start taking ownership of that. No one is going to get me out of this hole but myself. Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 (Since I went back to sleep, I am going to have to end this streak at 16) Brush teeth streak: 17 Floss streak: 17 Shower streak: 0 (I did shower today, but since I left my house without showering, which is I am going to end this streak Meditation streak: 0 (I failed to meditate for three days straight, not ideal) Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 (sorry ) Funniness affirmations streak: 15 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 17 No ejaculation streak: 17 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 16 No alcohol streak: 15 No weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Note: As you can see, I took out the eat breakfast part of the morning routine as all I really care about is eating enough protein so I feel like that is unnecessary. I also took out the "grooming hair" part because this coincides with showering (I'm not going to shower without grooming my hair.) 11.17.25 This is for Monday, the first day of the new week and I killed it today, I accomplished every single task and I got my first workout of the week in. Go Ben! Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 1 Brush teeth streak: 18 Floss streak: 18 Shower streak: 1 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 16 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 18 No ejaculation streak: 18 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 17 No alcohol streak: 16 No weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #17 11.15.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 16 Brush teeth streak: 16 Floss streak: 16 Shower streak: 16 Groom hair streak: 16 Eat breakfast streak 16 Meditation streak: 0 (I failed to meditate for two days straight, not ideal) Push ups / pull ups streak: 5 Funniness affirmations streak: 14 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 16 No ejaculation streak: 16 ( I had a wet dream last night and no, wet dreams do not count. We are talking about deliberate ejaculation right here) Eat 150 g of protein streak: 15 No alcohol streak: 14 No weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Personal Journal: Okay, so I have started this habits journal a couple of weeks ago. I have done a really good job with a lot of the habits, such as waking up on time, working out every day, not watching porn, etc…. But I haven’t made any progress on the one biggest thing that I want in life right now, which is to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. This is what I truly want right now. The thing that makes this tricky is that I am incredibly shy when it comes to this. I also think that I am afraid of sexual encounters, they make me very nervous as I am very inexperienced when it comes to them. The other thing that makes this tricky is that I do have a crush on a girl from work and I sometimes envision being with her and just her as I would genuinely love that…. But I know that if I settle for just her now, then I would be compromising my vision, and I will NEVER compromise my vision. What I truly want in my life is to be able to walk up to anyone that I find attractive and express my authentic attraction towards them in a funny and flirty way. So I guess the vision entails being able to express my authentic attraction towards women in a fun and flirty way and having lots of sex with lots of women. This feels like a very lofty vision as I have had sex with lets say 1 and a half women so far ( I put in just the tip with the second girl so idk if that counts.) The biggest problem with the lots of sex thing is that I feel like I want this in a conceptual way, but then I have opportunities to escalate things and for whatever reason, in the moment, I just don’t want to… So does that mean that I don’t want the sex or am I just experiencing resistance to it because it makes me uncomfortable and I am not used to it. I am going to assume that it is the ladder because I really do want to experience sex with lots of women, I want this so badly. Now, I am reading The Path of Least Resistance and it is talking about “structural tension,” in which, people have current reality, which is where they are currently at, and then they have a vision, which is what they want in their lives. This “discrepancy” between “current reality” and the “desired result” or “vision” creates “structural tension” between the two because “current reality” is different and many times vastly different than the “desired result.” Listed below is a diagram of what I am talking about. If any human being is going to make significant changes in their lives, which is something that I would like to do, he or she has to understand how this works. Current reality is that I am very shy and fearful when it comes to approaching women as well as having sex with them. My vision or desired result is that I am able to approach women in a confident and smooth and funny and charming way and that I am an amazing sexual partner that has had experience with multiple different women. My current reality is clear, and my vision is also clear. Now, what am I going to do about this? How am I going to make my vision actually come into fruition? I am going to keep reading this book and hopefully it will help. But it is nice to clearly state what my current situation is and what I TRULY want. This feels very liberating.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #16 11.14.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 15 Brush teeth streak: 15 Floss streak: 15 Shower streak: 15 Groom hair streak: 15 Eat breakfast streak 15 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 4 Funniness affirmations streak: 13 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 15 No ejaculation streak: 15 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 14 No alcohol streak: 13 No weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I lost 3 of my streaks today; I didn't find time to meditate in the morning because I was on my phone. Then, after work my work friend asked me if I wanted to finish hit blunt with him. We went on a nice walk and finished smoking it. I think that he appreciated the hang out session, he got to vent about some issues he's having with his ex girlfriend. However, it was difficult for me to focus on what he was saying because my thoughts were very loud. I contribute this to the weed. Then, when I got home, I was on my phone for a solid hour in kitchen so that streak is also over. Unfortunate, but this is how it goes. It's funny, when I got home and was scrolling on my phone, it didn't even occur to me that I am losing out on a streak right now, I was completely on auto pilot because a. I was high and b. I still fall into low consciousness states sometimes where I am not aware of what I am doing. I did have a good day though other than that, my lessons went well, I was in a positive emotional state for most of the day, and I worked hard on the things that I wanted to. Now, its Saturday 11.15.25 at 6:38 pm, and this morning I woke up at 7:30 am to my alarm but I stayed in bed for a good hour. Then I finally showered and combed my hair, and had to leave immediately to meet my mom and help her with something. Since then, I went home, scrolled for a while, read 20 pages of a book, and took two naps. I haven't done any of the "negative" habits that I am avoiding such as watching porn and smoking weed, but I have not meditated and I have not done my push ups and pull ups. If I miss my meditation, the tracker will remain at 0, if I miss my push ups and pull ups, then the tracker will drop from 4 to 0, which is not ideal but it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. Its when the streak has grown to an increasingly high number is when failure doesn't seem like an option. I can't wait until I reach streaks of 100 for both. I will be ripped and very clear- headed. Also, the fact that I have evaded several urges to watch porn is a win for me. (these urges usually come up when I am bored.) I am also worried about a solo that I am doing with a student; one of our long time students told me that the intro is too boring, it needs to capture the audience's attention and he is totally right so I need to fix it. I also really don't like the routine that I came up with for her other solo, but I don't know what to do to change it. And I have to keep her positive so that she stays excited and confident. Anyways, I really need to finish my morning routine right now, which sucks because I now have the mental space to put it off or not... although I should just say to myself no.... you are doing this right now. And then in an hour, it will be done. I have been allowing my mind the wiggle room to take back some power from my Higher Self, which is not good. But I am aware of this and understand this, the "I-thought" is a very powerful force, it is tricky and manipulative. If I am really going to vanquish him, it is going to take many more attempts of persistence and hard work.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #15 11.13.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 14 Brush teeth streak: 14 Floss streak: 14 Shower streak: 14 Groom hair streak: 14 Eat breakfast streak 14 Meditation streak: 3 Push ups / pull ups streak: 3 Funniness affirmations streak: 12 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 4 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 14 No ejaculation streak: 14 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 13 No alcohol streak: 12 No weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I finished my first week of consistent weight lifting. I am going to do the same exercises for 3 months, and then I will take a "de-load week," in which I do not work out. This means that as soon as this streak hits 12, I will take my de load week. I got this de-load week idea from the book "Bigger Leaner Stronger." This is so that I don''t burn myself out. During this week, I will take a look at how far I've come and make adjustments to my workout. I am turning into a very good executer in life.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #14 11.12.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 13 Brush teeth streak: 13 Floss streak: 13 Shower streak: 13 Groom hair streak: 13 Eat breakfast streak 13 Meditation streak: 2 Push ups / pull ups streak: 2 Funniness affirmations streak: 11 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 13 No ejaculation streak: 13 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 12 No alcohol streak: 11 No weed streak: 3 It was tough getting the 150 g of protein because I had $17 in my back account but needed to come up with 70 more grams of protein at 10 pm. I went to the gas station and got two bottles of "Muscle Milk", a string cheese stick, and two hard boiled eggs. This got me to 150 and then I went to the gym and worked out. Good job! Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #13 11.11.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 12 Brush teeth streak: 12 Floss streak: 12 Shower streak: 12 Groom hair streak: 12 Eat breakfast streak 12 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 10 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 12 No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 11 No alcohol streak: 10 No weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Chest: Done Legs Back Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I have lots to do. Firstly, I want to figure out what I’m doing with my doctors appointments. I have to be at work for a dance training at 10 am. I am also trying to figure out if I should go to Boston again to try to summon up the courage to hit on women. I think I can do that. I can do it. The thing that is going to help a lot with this is if I can execute on these habits day in and day out, week after week after week, I am going to start feeling more and more powerful. So powerful that I will feel a surging confidence and strength that will propell me into these ballsy and confident approaches. My goal is to actually be decent at this by the summer of 2026. In this way, I can walk around New York City, walk around Boston, the weather will be beautiful and I can just spit game to whoever I find beautiful. The idea of being able to express my authentic attraction towards women in a respectful yet direct way in my own authentic style is what is so tantalizing to me. This is extremely rare and if I can master this as a human being, especially as a human being that has been scared of girls for many years and that didn’t lose his virginity until he was 29, this will be incredibly fulfilling. The other thing that I really want is a ripped and shredded physique. If I just stick to this high protein diet with daily push ups and pull ups and a 3 days a week gym routine, I will get there.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #12 The next thing that I am going to do is omit weed from my diet. It puts me into a low energy and anti-social state and this state doesn't align with my goal of having an abundance of sex. This is being added to the list. It is 10:37 am on 11.11 and I successfully completed my morning routine. There were gaps again but I am in no position to end streaks just because I am not doing things in a timely manner. This morning, my roommate was in the shower when I was “supposed” to get in the shower, theres nothing that I can do about that. All I can do is do the best that I can with an understanding that if I allow gaps to squeak into the routine, I am allowing my mind to argue with my Higher Self, which is never a good idea if I truly want to create an amazing life for myself with a high level of discipline, sex, money, impact, and spiritual success. I would like to remind myself what the perfect morning routine would look like: 7:30 am - 8:00 am - 1. Wake up 2. Brush teeth & floss 3. Shower 4. Groom hair 8:00am - 8:30 am - Eat breakfast ( Protein shake & oatmeal 8:30am - 9:00 am - Meditation (5 minutes - getting set up, 5 minutes - nostril breathing, 5 minutes "ocean breath," 15 minutes "do nothing" meditation 9:00am - 9:30am - work out (3 sets of push ups & 3 sets of pull ups) 9:30 - start my day I tend to become frustrated with my lack of discipline when it comes to these habits, but I have never made it this far in terms of a lot of these streaks and I would really like to give myself a pat on the back for that, here are some examples of things that I am proud of: I have woken up 11 days straight no later than 7:30 am I have flossed every day for 11 days straight I showered and groomed my hair every morning for 11 days straight I have meditated for 9 out of the past 11 days, doing a difficult meditation that involves no back rest and has breathing exercises I did push ups and pull ups every morning for a week straight. I've never done that before! I have done 20 minutes of "funniness affirmations" in the car for 9 days straight I made it through 7 days of no electronics after 11pm. I used to have my phone on me every night, in bed, scrolling and scrolling until my mind finally decided to stop I have gone 10 days of eating 150 g of protein daily. I have never done this before and I can already see the results I haven't drank alcohol in at least 2 months. I haven't done this since high school I have gone out with the "intention" of hitting on women. I haven't done this in two years and I should be proud of myself for at the very least making that initial first step There will always be frustrations to this work, but it is super important to look at how far I have come. I would also like to make a list of positive changes within myself that I have noticed from these past 11 days of. I am noticeably more attractive. My physique is bigger and more muscular due to the the workouts and high protein intake. My face looks clear and eye contact is good ( probably because of better sleep due to no electronics before bed and no porn) I also gave myself a nice haircut, which stems from the ambition to get laid and hit on women I am much funnier already through a week of the funniness affirmations. I tend to just say shit to make myself laugh, this makes my work days and hanging out with friends and dance trainings with my dance partners much more enjoyable, and it will really help me when I finally summon the courage to talk to girls I have more mental energy to spend on other things, such as developing good lesson plans, working on finances, reading books because I already have a set routine in place that I am trying my best to execute every day. I also already took the time to make sure that these habits align with my higher vision so I don't have to waste mental energy on that anymore, if I just continue to try again and again and again to make these habits stick, eventually they will and my dream life will be on the horizon. Overall mood is much better in general, this is due to the funniness affirmations and also my self efficacy is rising because I am sticking to these habits or at the very least given it my very best effort If I have already seen this much improvement in 10 days, I cannot believe where I will be in a month, 6 months, a year, 5 years, 10 years when these habits and disciplines are stuck into my body like glue. "Life is hard no matter what, choose your hard!" ~ my boss Streak list from yesterday, 11.10.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 11 Brush teeth streak: 11 Floss streak: 11 Shower streak: 11 Groom hair streak: 11 Eat breakfast streak 11 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 9 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 11 No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 10 No alcohol streak: 9 No weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #11 Conquering my own mind Here I am laying on my bed at 11:24 am. I have to leave for work by 12:30 pm and I have not meditated or done my push ups and pull ups. I was supposed to finish with these two habits by 9:30 am. Here is another day in which I am not disciplined within myself. Hey, at least I haven't watched any porn yet. Im not sure who actually reads this shit, but I want this to be a journal in which you are seeing the internal battle that it takes to make habits come into fruition. It is a grind with lots of effort and lots of failure. I am FINALLY taking accountability for the things that I want in life, but my mind is so used to weaseling out of the things that make it feel uncomfortable. I am able to point this out because I know that I am going to figure this out and make all of my dreams come true. There is not a doubt in my head that I am going to have an abundance of sex, I am going to become a very successful ballroom dancer and instructor, I am going to make a huge impact on many people, I am going to stick to habits on a daily, weekly, monthly and yearly basis. All of these things are being manifested by me and are on their way but …. The path is not a straight path without obstacles, it is a windy path with monsters and demons and manipulating goblins. There is so much muck to trudge through when it comes to mastering the mind. That is essentially what I am doing here, I am conquering my own mind.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #10 11.8.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 9 Brush teeth streak: 9 Floss streak: 9 Shower streak: 9 Groom hair streak: 9 Eat breakfast streak 9 Meditation streak: 5 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 7 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 7 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 9 No ejaculation streak: 9 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 8 No alcohol streak: 7 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - 2 out of 3 workouts, I have tomorrow to finish this Approach 1 woman this week: counter: 0 11.9.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 10 Brush teeth streak: 10 Floss streak: 10 Shower streak: 10 Groom hair streak: 10 Eat breakfast streak 10 Meditation streak: 6 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 ( I did do this but I failed to complete this by 9:30 am so I am going to hold myself accountable and put the streak back to 0.) Funniness affirmations streak: 8 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 I was high last night, lost track of time and was on my phone past 11pm, and then I ended up passing out in my bed without washing my face or brushing my teeth. It's sad to see this streak end. I completely blame the weed. I am going to omit weed from my diet and add it to the "whole day goals" starting tomorrow. "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 10 No ejaculation streak: 10 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 9 No alcohol streak: 8 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - finished with 2 out of the 3 days this week. I failed. ❌ Approach 1 woman this week: counter: 0 I failed again on this ❌ "Consistency is coming back.... You're going to have bad days... Consistency doesn't mean that those days don't exist... That's normal.... You're creating a pattern.... A rhythm... A rhythm of doing... Of trying over and over and over again.... Until there is so much water that the dam completely breaks ... There's a version of you in the future... That future version of you is built on the foundation that you are building today..." Let's try again next week

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #8 Okay, so I ended my push up pull up streak today. I had to do 4 sets because I missed 1 yesterday ( I normally do 3.) I tried to fit them in before work, but I failed. Then I tried to fit it in when I get home at 11 pm but my mind told me that I was “too tired” and I fell asleep in my bed with my work clothes on. But I did get up an hour later and brush my teeth and wash my face so I'm going to allow myself to keep that steak going. Everything else went well, except the fact that I was supposed to weight lift on Monday morning, Tuesday morning, and Thursday morning. I weight lifted on Monday morning and Wednesday night. Now it's the weekend and I still have to do my back exercises, ( which I will get done today, I promise.) Now, I would like to list out the benefits that I'm already noticing from embarking on this “habits and disciplines” journey as I tend to focus on the things that I am failing at when Im already seeing tangible differences in the way I am acting and thinking. Firstly, the funniness affirmations have done wonders for my sense of humor already. I am goofy and fun at work and during dance trainings, and I just blurt things out that pop into my head, I'm always looking for things to say that make myself laugh, that is the key, I am literally laughing at myself halfway through the joke, that is what you want, self amusement. This is going to help me tremendously with girls and also being a fun dance teacher. I can't wait to see where this takes me. The next thing is just having the intention of hitting on women, lots of women, and being authentic about that desire has also done wonders for my life, and I haven't even hit on anyone yet. The reason that I can already see the benefits of this are that it's like I used to bank on attracting one of the girls within our branch of dance studios ( there are about 10 attractive women within the dance studios), but now I don't really care about them at all, I mean I do care about them as human beings, but Im not trying to impress them anymore because I have a much higher vision than settling down with one of them. No, I want an abundance of women so that I can have really good game and have lots of sex. I've even told a couple of them that I am approaching, this holds me accountable and I'm actually hanging out with one of them today and she is going to be my wingman. I'll let you know how this goes later. The next benefit is I feel like a more masculine, healthily integrated man as I am actually staying true to my habits, or at the very least really trying my best. This makes it so that I don't care about what others think, I really don't because I am creating something, which is an amazing life for myself. If one person doesn't like the way that I said something, guess what….. I don't give a fuck. I'm going to be my authentic self and move towards my dreams, and this is the creative-orientation rather than the reactive-orientation that Robert Fritz talks about in The Path of Least Resistance. I take action in order to create the life that I want to create for myself, rather than taking action based on a reaction to external or internally stimuli ( like emotions.) Which is honestly how a lot of human beings operate and it's certainly how I used to operate. Anyways, I'm doing a great job and I'm very proud of myself. Of course, there are lots of cracks in my routines and I am going to figure out a way to get my mind to surrender to the routine so that I wake up and immediately do this, then immediately do that, etc.. I look forward to figuring this out. I also can't wait to get good at game, I just have to jump into the pool. That is the best way to go about life, jump into the deep end and figure out how to swim as your down there. Here is the streak checklist: 11.7.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 8 Brush teeth streak: 8 Floss streak: 8 Shower streak: 8 Groom hair streak: 8 Eat breakfast streak 8 Meditation streak: 4 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 (😭😭😭 it hurts so bad to have to put a streak back down to 0) Funniness affirmations streak: 6 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 7 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 8 No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 7 No alcohol streak: 6 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - 2 down (still at 2 😥, but I've got this! 💪) Approach 1 woman this week: counter: 0 ( still at 0 but I am going to hit on women today)

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #7 11.6.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 7 Brush teeth streak: 7 Floss streak: 7 Shower streak: 7 Groom hair streak: 7 Eat breakfast streak 7 Meditation streak: 3 Push ups / pull ups streak: 7 Funniness affirmations streak: 5 I am going to come clean, I didn't do the push ups and pull ups in the morning so I had to do it at night. I did not do 3 sets, I only did 2. I am sorry but I was really tired, I wish I had the mental fortitude to push through. I am going to make myself a deal. I have to do 4 sets this morning and I will allow myself to keep the streak going. This is not ideal I know but I also want to give myself some grace. Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed streak: 6 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 7 No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 6 No alcohol streak: 5 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - 2 down Approach 1 woman this week: counter: 0 I am going out on Saturday with a friend that's a girl with the intention of hitting on girls. This is going to be good for me for two reasons 1. She gets me into a very playful mood because she's funny and we joke around a lot with each other ( she is my competitive dance partner so we've grown close. Nothing intimate has happened between us though, I would definitely be down, she's beautiful and funny but she used to date me Co worker / friend so I'd rather not deal with the implications of that and keep her as a good friend and just meet lots of women outside of this "dance circle." I live in an abundance mindset now, which is so freeing and very different from where I came from.) 2. This is going to hold me accountable as I am going to look like an idiot if I bail out and don't hit on anyone again. If I were alone, I could easily just bail and say "I'll do it next time. I cannot wait to see the counter of approaches start to move up, soon it will hit 100, then 500, then 1000. I cannot wait!!!!

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #6 This morning I woke up so God damn frustrated. I am frustrated by my finances. I am frustrated by my lesson count. I am frustrated by this and that and that and this. The “I thought” starts firing away immediately, as soon as I wake up. And I allowed another crack to come into my routine, I was checking my fantasy football team this morning and now everything is set back. It's 8:34 am, I am still eating breakfast and I was supposed to start my meditation at 8:30 am. I just want to give up, literally… that is what I'm going through right now, I want to stop with all of the habits, I want to not care about work or enlightenment and everything else that I am going through. I am writing this because it is exactly how I feel right now, and its important to be honest about my current situation, no matter how ugly. With that being said, if I were to live in the “creative orientation” I would not care about my current emotional state and I’d stick to the behaviors and actions that will create the life of my dreams. I think I could use a refresher on what I'm trying to create in my life. Let's do that later though, for now, let's get back to my habit check list: 11.5.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Floss streak: 6 Shower streak: 6 Groom hair streak: 6 Eat breakfast streak 6 Meditation streak: 2 Push ups / pull ups streak: 6 Funniness affirmations streak: 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 5 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 6 No ejaculation streak: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 5 No alcohol streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - 2 down Approach 1 woman this week There were several cracks in the routine again, 1. I forgot the funniness affirmations on my way to work so I had to do it on the way home and 2. I did an angled leg Press exercise during weight training and then I did some leg extensions ( which is part of the weekly routine that I put together for myself) but my left leg started shaking violently everytime I lifted my leg up. I think this is because I did a lot of weight for angles leg press, I've never done so much weight. I decided to stop as shaking violently probably isn't healthy. I finished with calf raises so I technically didn't finish the workout. Im still going to give myself the workout credit, keeping in mind that I should have figured out a way to finish the workout regardless of the hiccup.

Thank you brother 🙏 I agree, be honest about your authentic desires and take full responsibility for making them happen. Best of luck to you on your journey.

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry # 5 Okay, so I did a great job yesterday as well. I completed everything on my list. There was one "crack" in my routine though. I made a plan to weight lift on Monday, Tuesday, and Friday of this week in order to stick to my 3 days a week goal. However, I had to babysit all day today and then go straight into work afterwards so I didn't have any time to weight train.. and there is no dinner break on Tuesdays because we're open 4-10pm. What I should have done was workout after work, at 10pm. I had every intention of doing that, but as soon as I got into my car, I decided that I was "too tired" and that I just wanted to go home and go to bed. This is an issue, if I continue to allow my emotional state or the "I - thought" to overrun me then I will continue to fail at keeping my habits. Now, I have every intention of weight lifting 3 times this week but I am making my life harder by pushing it back a day. I am going to go to the gym during my dinner break today, which would be at like 2:30. I am doing legs today. Here is the checklist: 11.4.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Floss streak: 5 Shower streak: 5 Groom hair streak: 5 Eat breakfast streak 5 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 5 Funniness affirmations streak: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 4 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 5 No ejaculation streak: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week - 1 down Approach 1 woman this week I love seeing these numbers rise and rise. As you can see, I am starting to play around with the setup of the checklist.

Habits and Disciplines Journal Entry #4 Yesterday was rough, I did not do everything on my list but I did make a valiant effort and I am proud of that. The real issue was that I allowed my morning routine to have “gaps” in it. This is what the guy in this video is talking about. There shouldn't be any way to miss any routine because at exactly 7:30 am I wake up and shower and brush my teeth and comb my hair and floss. At exactly 8:00 am I make coffee and fix myself up some breakfast. At exactly 8:30 am I start my meditation routine. At exactly 9:00 am I start my workout. At exactly 9:30 am I leave to go to work. In this way, there is no room for gaps in which the mind will have space to make excuses or micro decisions. The idea here is to embody the face that this is what we are doing and the “I- thought” has no say in the matter. I completed my shower and then went downstairs for breakfast. I ate breakfast and then went downstairs to start my meditation. As I’m sitting down to meditate, I have an urge to watch a Youtube video, I can’t remember what video it is but its something silly, something that adds no value to my life. I watch and that leads to several more videos and all of a sudden a half an hour has gone by. After wasting 30 minutes, I know that I should now start my meditation despite the hiccup, but I then start to feel a wave of angry emotions regarding the fact that I hadn’t finished my “dance goal” worksheets for my students yet. These emotions were accompanied by thoughts of telling my boss off, saying“I didn’t have time because I have a life, I have other things going on.”’ Its crazy what kind of tricks the mind plays on us just to avoid discomfort. After dealing with the emotions of anger, I decided that I would feel better if I just wrote the dance projections that morning before going into work instead of following the rest of my morning routine. This is exactly what I did and I finished most of them so I felt better about it, but now I am heading to work without having done my daily workout routine of pushups and pullups and my meditation routine. And to add insult to injury, I only did half of my funniness affirmations because I was scatter brained while driving to work and forgot at first, and I am supposed to go to the gym and workout Monday morning, but because I wasted time this morning dicking around and doing things for work I don’t have time to do that either. So now, I am working 1-10 pm today with a 1 hour dinner break and I still have to weight lift, do sets of push ups and pull ups, meditate, and finish my funniness affirmations. I am so fucked…. Still, I was determined to get all of these things done as I do not want to end my streaks on day 4, so on my dinner break, I go to the gym to get my push ups and pull ups in and I do the rest of the funniness affirmations as I’m driving back to work. Then, when I get out of work, I head to the gym to do my chest workout. I had the intention of meditating when I got home, but I decided that it was not worth it as I got home at 12:30 AM and I had to get up at 5 am the next day. Too bad.. But I am very proud of the tenacity and strategy that I put forward to get most of the things done. Here are the checklists: 11.3.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth Streak: 4 Floss Streak: 4 Shower Streak: 4 Groom hair Streak: 4 Eat breakfast Streak: 4 Meditate Streak: 0 Work out Streak: 4 Funniness affirmations Streak: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth Streak: 4 Wash face Streak: 4 No electronics before bed Streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn Streak: 4 No ejaculation Streak: 4 Eat 150 g of protein Streak: 3 No alcohol Streak: 2 Weekly Goals: (These are really going to start this upcoming week 11.3.25 - 11.9.25, I will cross it off as soon as I complete it, and it will remain checked through the rest of the week) Weight lift 3 days a week - 1 down Approach 1 woman this week - I'm growing the balls, I will do this