Spiritual Warrior

I am very out of the loop when it comes to news. Can someone please explain to me why the U.S. is at war with Iran? Please and thank you 🙂

Okay, so I have a plethora of things to work on. Firstly, I really want to get back on track with this habit tracker. I just want to be clear headed and highly conscious and for everything to be clean. I want to be on top of things, to have a REAL handle on my life and my schedule and my environemnt. I don't think I've ever actually experienced this, is it even possible? I'd like to think that it is. Okay, but where does it start. What are you going to start with? First, what do you want big picture? Women / Dating: 1. I want to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. 2. I want to have a highly conscious girlfriend 3. I want to have a highly consious wife that I can build a life with Living situation: 1. Clean and organized room 2. Apartment that I can bring girls back to 3. House with a backyard and back porch Physique: 1. Consistent workout schedule / Meal Plan 2. Bulked up muscles 3. Shredded physique with very little fat, looking like a Spartan Warrior Dance: 1. Successful dance instructor (30 lessons / week, winning competitions) 2. World champion dancer ( Fully expressive, blows everyone out of the water) 3. Run a dance studio I posted a video on YouTube documenting my desire to start cold approaching women. Check it out below! Here is another video of the audiobook for The Book of Not Knowing:

I am going to be so good at game and attracting women into my life I feel the fear and I do it anyways I am a chick magnet I have full body orgasms and can last in bed for hours I have multiple women clamoring for my attention I am a responsible and organized and mature individual I have everything that I've asked for I share things on the Internet, things that are going to help humanity grow I have an amazing wife, we are building an empire together I attract high quality women into my life at every turn I cannot wait to see what kind of man I turn into

@croonprince appreciate the support brother! ✊

have rules for myself now that I am trying to get my life together, here goes: Make bed as soon as I wake up Set a time to wake up and abide by that Every Sunday night, create a schedule for yourself for the week and do your best to stick to it Meditate every single morning for 20 minutes Journal every morning, tracking your habits Approach at least one woman every single day and tell her that she looks nice, or beautiful, or pretty, or that you like her shoes ( start off with saying “excuse me” and then go into it every Sunday, grocery shop No more smoking weed (edibles are fine) No more drinking alcohol Try to be as honest with people as you possibly can Have your finances in order ( understand exactly how much is coming out and when) Shower as soon as you wake up and make sure you allow yourself to be splashed by cold water, it is good for your health and gets you out of comfort zone Protein shake and granola every single morning No more scrolling (endless scrolling is a thing of the past) from now on you are to do things with a purpose

Personal Journal ~ 3.30.26 I am starting to think that all of these circumstances that the Universe is putting me into is simply pushing myself to work on the things that I need to work on. For example, there has been a lot of growing pains in terms of dating and women, I am learning that I am not very good at any of this. I am not good at approaching, not good at escalating, not good at sex, etc.... this is an unfortunate truth and I REALLY don't feel like putting in the work to fix this area in my life. It is so fuckin scary and I know that I am going to have some very awkward encounters. But at the same time, I am going to have more free time in my hands because I don't have a dance competition that I am working towards. This is really nice honestly, if I really wanted to, I could drive up to Boston, see what I can do up there and then come back and go to work. That is an idea. They key is to be in a great mood, to have really good energy, that always works really well for me. Right now, I am simply not approaching enough women. All you have to do right now is approach these women and tell them that they are beautiful. Just go out there and do it. I am going to do this. And it is going to get easier and easier and easier. I will input this into my schedule so that I am constantly pushing myself. I could also go to El Santo every Thursday night, I've had some opportunities there. This needs to be a deliberate transformation so that I am making a commitment to take ownership of this area in my life. Steer into the uncomfortability. And you also need to start masturbating and circulating your sexual energy. You should also be working out consistently with a meal plan in place. I also want to have a complete handle on my finances so that I am saving money for a house one day or at the very least having a pad that I can bring women home to. But at the same time, I DONT want to bring these women home, I say that I do but I really don't and that's another thing that I am going to have to address. I forgot that I am house sitting this weekend for my friend. I could try to get my girl to come over after we dance... But she doesn't have a car.. I don't understand how I am going to get intimate with this girl, she has 4 fuckin kids at home... Dude just make out with her.. that is the first thing.. make out with her at the club or I by our car. Okay, fine so I will take her out to dance and I will attempt to be authentic in my behaviors towards her. If I want to kiss her then I am going to kiss her. That is your challenge, that is your intention. Okay, sweet. That sounds good. Now what's next? How about we figure out finances and meal plan. Okay so right now I am in the negatives which means that I've been dipping into the savings account that my dad set up for me so that I can pay for health insurance. He doesn't want me to dip into this which means I don't want to dip into it myself. How much are we talking? Well, it should have about $1340 in it and it has 1120 in it which means so have to come up with $220 to put back into the savings account. On Wednesday I get paid

Personal Journal ~ 3.29.26 ~ Part II I have been noticing that I am constantly thinking about what the person that I'm with wants. It's as if I don't think for myself. What she wants trumps everything and I am a constantly worrying myself about if she is taken care of, is she having fun, where is she? Is she looking at me? Does she hate me? Does she like me? Is she annoyed? What does she need? How can I help her? In a sense, this is nice cuz I am being empathetic but it is stifling. I am so worried about her that I am not thinking for myself and worrying about my own desires. It's not even empathetic either, it's selfish because I need her to be and feel a certain way. She must feel this sort of energy. But if I can look and act towards the world with dispassion and detachment, that is what is truly impactful. I feel so lost right now and I want some time to get my shit together and figured out.. unfortunately we're not getting back until 3 am tonight so basically I am going to go straight to bed when I get back and then I have to wake up and get ready for work . I don't understand how these other dancers have only been dancing for a year yet are so much better than me, of course some of them have had dance experience so there's that. I also feel like I'm in a hole in my dating life and I don't understand how on earth I'm going to get out of it. I need to turn into a different kind of man, a highly attractive man that is expressive and courageous and disciplined. I want all of this, but I'm just not sure if I believe in myself just yet. If I were to take that aspect of my life very seriously, I would actually move to a city, either Boston or NYC. But I really don't want to. Can I just visit these places and work on my social skills in that way? I also just don't want to improve my social skills, I don't feel like going to clubs, I'll hit on women during the day... But at the same time I don't want to do that either! How about you go out next Saturday or Sunday back to Boston and just see if you can muster up the courage to talk to some girls... You might surprise yourself. You want growth. And that is all. Your mind is lazy, it wants to weasel out of emotional labor. And your job is to focus on your vision, on what you are trying to create, this makes decision making easy, it is so simply, if I do x, I will get y, i.e. if I hit on 30 women a week, I will get very good at this. Is this something that I could actually do? Yeah maybe... But I'm scared... So fuckin scared. I don't want to do it! Why can't there be an easier path?! Now, I really want to get back on track with some kind of habit as well as taking out unhealthy habits. Firstly, what is it that you are trying to achieve right now or more specifically towards the future? I want a highly conscious girlfriend. I want a nice house with a porch in the back, secluded, I want to be an attractive man that is highly socially calibrated and respected. I want to have a thick face and a black heart. I want to go through a period in which I am cheeky and confident around women, swooning them with my charm, I want to have a shredded physique and I want to be spiritually enlightened and a world champion dancer. I want so many things! Now how on earth am I going to get started on them.. I'll be right back...

Personal Journal ~ 3.29.26 I will say that I had a VERY interesting weekend. Lots of points of growth and interesting things happened to me. The thing is that I really want to play to my strengths. My strength is dancing so if I go out to a night club it has to be dance related. I should also be going out with someone. I also just don't know what to do about my dating situation. Like I don't want to go to nightclubs, I really don't. I also don't feel like approaching women. Id much rather just work on my dancing and build wealth that way rather than approach girls because I am terrified and I don't feel like socializing in that way. Id much rather just meditate and work on my dancing and things of that nature. However, if you don't go out, you'll never understand how to flirt and how to attract women. This is the thing, I want to have an abundance of women in my life but I don't want to put in the work that it is going to take to get it. That is where we have a disconnect. Where else in your life is this applicable? I am willing to put the work into my dancing to become a world champion dancer so not there. At the moment, I am not willing to put in the mental energy to get super ripped and I am not willing to put in the mental energy to get my finances handled. But... The main thing is the dating life, I am not willing to put in the time or the embarrassment at this moment. Although you did approach someone over this weekend, it went terribly, but at least you did it. There is so much fear and anxiety linked to this is the problem. But I know that I have to deal with it. I cannot skate around this issue, I have to dive in head first. I can visualize myself approaching in a smooth and confident way and it probably starts with just complimenting a woman's appearance. I also really want to escalate things with the girl that I'm dating, that is your next challenge, escalate with her with intention, you are trying to get intimate with this woman, now let's put our big boy pants on and figure out what that is going to take, and bring a fuckin condom, go into your next date with the intention of fucking her. This is the thing right here, I am too damn nice... Wayyyyyyy too nice. The cool thing about last night is that my friend wanted to go out real bad, we went out to a nightclub, she was dancing with this guy and they started getting intimate with each other. I have some sort of feelings for her but I was able to not become emotionally triggered by it, which is a positive thing. I allowed the emotion to roll right through me and we ended up hanging out a lot the rest of the night which I loved because I love spending time with her. I am always like, "is she up?" "What's she doing?" "Is she looking at me?" Etc.... I am also noticing that all I ever want to do is leave and go home and go to bed or do something less social, this happened at the night club and at the after party later on. I would like to dissect this and figure out what I should be doing. I believe that I should be pushing my limit and staying out as late as I can because it is these uncomfortable situations that help grow you the most. Should I continue to go out with this friend because it is going to push me out of my comfort zone? I just want to be good at approaching and to have all of these kinks figured out so that I can be smooth with it, but of course this is a valuable skill and requires time and energy and practice. I didn't approach anyone at this nightclub but I did approach a woman earlier in the day at the hotel, I want to do this more often, it's just so difficult to do a smooth approach, this shit is not easy but I am willing to practice. I would like to approach someone at the airport today, just fuckin' do it man, you have nothing to lose. At the club, there were girls that I could have went up to and started dancing in front of, or at least asked a question to start some sort of interaction, I just don't know what to do and I am riddled with fear. I also don't hold eye contact well. At one point, I passed this woman and we made eye contact, I involuntarily let my eyes flutter away and she was verbally annoyed that I didn't engage with her. It's moments like these that require attention. I am also noticing that I REALLY care about what people think about me, like REALLY care. I thought I made a lot of progress on that front but I really haven't.... I mean I have but it's like I thought I completely dealt with it but I have my much farther to go.

Personal Journal ~ 3.28.26 Dude my life needs an overhaul. For real. I am so proud of how far I've come and I'm really into this new book "A Million Thoughts" and I want to start taking mediation MUCH more seriously. But at the same time, I have a surgery coming up and I don't have an abundance of women in my life. I want to start socializing again and to bring back lots of discipline into my life so that I can actualize what I want to in life. It's been difficult for me to get a handle on things because I had an overnight dance event last weekend and overnight dance event this weekend too so it's just not stop action and I just want to take a breath and get my life together. Of course, I am going to have SOOOOO much breathing room when I go in for surgery. There is a cute girl right across from me... Okay I just approached her and I said "excuse me, you're really pretty" and she said "I'm 18." Hey, at least I approached. My two main passions are dancing and meditation. The next passion I would say is attracting women and having sex. This is just something that I REALLY want to overcome in my life, which is being able to authentically express my attraction towards women. And of course, at the end of my time here in this materialistic era, I want a high quality WIFE that I will marry and make my queen. I am infatuated by women and I just want to snuggle up with them and feel their loving energy. That's really all I want, I want to feel their love and also to be able to experience multi orgasmic states. Unfortunately, I am not approaching new women on a regular basis so I am not currently getting the experience that I want.

Personal Journal 3.27.26 I have a dance competition tomorrow morning. We are going to get a massage in the morning, then head to the airport and fly into New Orleans. My dance partner has her hair appointment at 4:30 am which is absolutely absurd and then we go out onto the floor at 8:30 am. I am used to these comps at this point as I've danced in front of people many times throughout my young career. I am more excited than anything. The intention is literally to just have fun with it. Having fun is what excited the judges, the better we can exemplify joy and connectedness, the better we will place. You know what I really want? I want a woman that I can build an empire with, that I can travel the world and conquer things with, that I can grow with everyday, that keeps me in check and is honest with me and highly conscious. I want to build something with someone, not just use them to fulfill a sexual craving, I want this to be a powerhouse couple that takes the world on by storm. Now that I have set my intention on that, I will attract this woman into my life. In the mean time, I am going to consciously work on approaching, socializing, and attracting women and eventually I will start a relationship with one lucky girl. I have realized that I am not very good at escalating things, even just kissing a girl is difficult for me, I overthink things, the girl likes me but I just don't authentically express the fact that I want to kiss her, this is what I am going to consciously work on. I did something interesting yesterday, I posted an Instagram story of a picture of the girl that Im talking to. I did this because 1. I wanted to brag about this beautiful woman that I've attracted into my life 2. I love creating things, every Instagram story to me is like a work of art 3. I would like to see how the women in my life respond to this - I am trying to understand what attracts women, I truthfully don't get it and I would like to understand it from my own direct experience. So sit back and take a look at what happens. It is possible that they will act differently now that they see you with someone, but I'm not sure... Mind you I am not trying to manipulate, truly I really don't want to do that, but in order to figure these man to woman attraction dynamics out, I have to try things and observe what happens. Namaste. I need to pack.

I like that you remained proud even though you fell off, you're right, this is still quite an achievement. And the next time you go for it, you will last 6 months!

Interesting perspective, and I do remember that emotional model that has pride quite low, I think it's from Ken Wilber. The problem here is in a sense I am asking everyone to write down things that they are "grateful" that they accomplished, I just happened to use the word "proud." I think the reason "pride" is so low is because you are feeding your own ego, you are "proud" of yourself and yourself alone, and there's nothing wrong with that, I think that can be a very positive thing, but to be "grateful" for what you've accomplished is recognizing that you are not the only one that steered the boat, the universe allowed you to create these amazing things in your life and you are "grateful" for them. So a better way to phrase the post would be, "what is it that you are grateful for having accomplished in your life?" Thanks for your perspective.

Nice work everyone, it's important to appreciate how far you've come and you all have lots to be proud of👏

What are you proud of? As self help junkies, we tend to look for things to improve upon, but it is just as important to be proud of the things that you have accomplished. Please share some things that you are proud of about yourself. Here is my list: I am proud of... The fact that my socializing skills has significantly improved. I am much more likely to talk to strangers at the gym or in a grocery store. I used to feel so quiet and reserved, now I say what's on my mind. The fact that I am competing and placing in these dance competitions, it was difficult to imagine getting to this point a couple of years ago but here I am. My emotional mastery progress, I am much more in tuned with my emotions and allowing them to pass through me is much easier. I am proud of myself for attracting a good looking woman into my life.

Personal Journal ~ 3.26.26 As you can see I am not tracking my habits at the moment. This isn't necessarily ideal, but life throws curveballs at you some times and I am going to take this as an opportunity to hit the reset button and I will come back to this with a propose. I would really like to start journaling every morning again with the habit tracker and also an intention for the day. For example, I am going to try to be content and completely non needy today, I don't need anything from anyone, I am content within my own space, ready to make an impact on others. I also really need to find my smooth vest, I hope it's in the wash because I can't find it in my room. I pray to God that I didn't leave it in the hotel. I should really check and make sure I have EVERYTHING before leaving a venue. Let's go check right now if it's in the dryer. I am proud of... The fact that my socializing skills has significantly improved. I am much more likely to talk to strangers at the gym or in a grocery store. I used to feel so quiet and reserved, now I say what's on my mind. I am so proud of the fact that I am competing and placing in these competitions, it was difficult to imagine getting to this point a couple of years ago but here I am. I am very proud of my emotional mastery progress, I am much more in tuned with my emotions and allowing them to pass through me is much easier. I am proud of myself for attracting a good looking woman into my life.