Spiritual Warrior

A primary choice is a conscious choice that you make, such as I want a well trimmed body. A secondary choice is making the choice or series of choices that will lead to the primary choice being actualized. For example, I want a well trimmed body (primary choice). I will go to the gym 3 days a week (secondary choice). I will eat 3000 calories/day for 8 weeks (secondary choice.) I will eat 2300 calories/ day for 8 weeks (secondary choice.) I will repeat this process over and over and over again for an entire year (secondary choice.) Throughout this process of actualizing a primary choice, you will encounter resistance, such as having the thought "I've worked hard all week, surely I can take today off from going to the gym," or "Surely I can take a break from meal planning just for today." When these thoughts arise, your job is to make the secondary choice to go to the fucking gym because you want to actualize the primary choice, which was consciously made by you.

The other thing that I want to make myself aware of is that nobody is doing what I'm doing. Literally nobody in my immediate circle has gotten into pick up. Every single one of my friends lets something fall into their lap and then wifes her up. This is the unconscious way to do it. Because it's the easiest. It is the path of least resistance. My roommate just got divorced after two years of marriage, he meets a girl at a bar, she is his girlfriend now and he's already talking about getting married to her. Like what the fuck... What is wrong with these people. Do you allow your life to run you or are you running your life? The thing that makes the work here on actualized.org so valuable is that we are shining light on the things that most people are completely blind to. We are building a life consciously, we are not letting society or circumstances dictate what we do in our lives. This is what sets me apart from other people (at least in my area). Yes, I have a lot to work on but I am strategically and systematically building the life that I want for myself. And I'm sorry but I don't think other people are doing this. I know this because when I ask people "What is your vision for your life?" Their answers are wishy washy. They don't fucking know or don't care enough to just sit down and plan it out. It takes work to think about what you actually want to create in your life, the easier path is to just run on auto pilot and let your environment run it for you. This is what most people are doing. As a dance instructor, I would like to make it my duty to encourage people to dream big. Most people just don't believe in themselves, that is the core issue. And it's sad... very sad. And to be aware of why you are acting the way that you are in the moment that you're doing it, this takes work. To look for the truth of the situation instead of remaining unconscious to it. Again, being unconscious is a million times easier, but we are not looking for easy solutions, we are just looking for real ones. When I act immature, I am consciously aware of it. When I act selfish, I am consciously aware of it. When I judge others, I am consciously aware of it. When my ego gets triggered, I am consciously aware of it. When I give myself resistance, I am consciously aware of it. When I a suppress my true desires, I am consciously aware of it.

Intermission Since deciding to get back into pickup, I've been experiencing ego backlash. I have been jerking off a lot, being lazy, not standing by my own habits, etc. The funny thing is I've actually been a lot happier since Ive decided to start my pick up journey again. It was as if I had this burning desire inside of myself that Ive been hiding from and now it is out in the open and I am going to fully embrace it. What made me fall off of the pick up journey was that I got a girlfriend, she loved me, I loved her, she was nice to me, we had sex, we went on trips together, she made me laugh. It was a beautiful period in my life. But I always had this nagging desire to get back into pick up, and when she started to talk about getting married in as soon as a couple of years, I knew that it wasn't a good idea to continue any further. A man embarks on the pick up journey not for the fruits, but for the growth that he will get from obtaining said fruits. The main things that I'm working on right now in my life are: 1. Finances, getting income up so that I can live comfortably. 2. Pick up, hitting on women as often as possible and having sex with them. 3. Being more mature, delaying instant gratification in favor of long term principles and values, sticking to habits such as working out 3 times a week, making sure my caloric intake is at least 2700 calories, meditating every morning, 4. Living with integrity, not doing anything for blatantly selfish reasons, caring about the feelings of other, understanding that you have your own biasees. Continue to work on these things and in just a few years you will be a very attractive, mature, highly conscious young man. At the end of this period, I predict that you will truly be ready to take the leap into tier two thinking, the systems approach. Then you will start to dissolve the ego.

I've started to walk around in a way that says "I am looking for women to hit on" the problem is that I'm not doing it. Soon enough I will look back at this post and laugh because of how far I have come, but I have to put in the work. Do you know what method I REALLY believe in... Visualization and affirmations. Visualize hitting on women every morning. Affirm that you will have sex with beautiful women every day, make your meals every two days, be mature, don't masturbate while using porn. I know that I have to put in the work but I am on the right path and Im not confused anymore. I know EXACTLY what I must do. Things have never been so clear to me. These women are going to love the fact that a highly conscious, highly developed, attractive man is hitting on them. One of the things that I want to start doing is just walk up to a woman and tell her that I think she's beautiful and then walk away. The problem right now is that I don't have the courage to walk up to her because I don't know how to carry the conversation on. Just tell her she's beautiful and walk away. Baby steps. Keep taking baby steps. Eventually it will compound. And you have to genuinely think she's beautiful or cute or gorgeous. It has to be congruent.

Exploring the Feminine Entry #19 6:09 PM 11/11/24 I am quite rusty when it comes to pick up but I know I have to get back out there. I envision where I can take this in 2-3 years and that's what excites me. I sometimes have thoughts about my ex and how I want her back. She really was a great girlfriend and really did love me, but the issue was that I wasn't ready to get wifed up. I felt like if I never finished my pick up journey then I would always regret it. When I think of wanting my ex back, this thought arises because I am being cowardly. I don't want to plunge back into pick up because it's scary, very scary. I don't want to jump back into the depths of the ocean... But the reality is that deep down, I actually do. I broke up with this girl for a reason, and I did not take this decision lightly. I want to explore my sexuality with multiple partners. I want the growth experience of hitting on lots of women. I want to better understand the dynamics between the feminine and the masculine so that I can one day write a book about it. The issue right now is that the thought of hitting on a girl is very daunting to me. I want to take baby steps. What I am going to do for the first week is I will go to a coffee shop every morning with my laptop. I have actual work to do on there anyways. I am going to position myself near an attractive girl and set my computer up to actually do some work. Next, I am going to walk up to this girl and ask her if she can watch my computer while I go to the bathroom. I will put awareness on the way that I open the girl, saying something like "Excuse me, miss," *smile, then say "Would you mind watching my computer while I go to the bathroom?" You want to have a deep but friendly voice that does not come off as needy. Do this over and over and over again. Once I get used to the "Excuse me, miss" opener, I will move onto actually hitting on the girl. In this situation at a coffee shop, I could say "Excuse me, miss," *she looks at me "Hi, I saw you from over there and I just think you're really cute and I just wanted to say hi." The key here is to keep it playful and light and fun. That is more my style. Don't put too much stake in this encounter. This is one of many. Then I can start doing this at libraries, parks, bars, on the street, anywhere. The next thing that I can start doing is going out on weekends. I have a couple of single buddies, Id like to start going out with them and start approaching women. They would benefit as well. The next thing I can do is join some speed dating events. These can be really good experiences for you as you are practicing talking to girl after girl after girl and you can potentially set up dates that way. I've already gotten laid from one of these speed dating events but it took several months. The next goal is to do the speed dating events and get her to come home with me that night, and if that doesn't work then get her number and set up a date. The next thing I want to do is continue to work out. Do not let your career and workout goals slip because you are doing pickup. They should not interfere with these goals. I want to find a way to balance these different areas of my life. The last thing I'll talk about is masturbating. I want to continue to masturbate but without the use of porn, I will only use my thoughts. This will put more of my attention into my body. I want to really feel into my body when I am having sex. I have read a book called the "multi orgasmic man", which talks about how to have multiple and full body orgasms as a man. I'd like to continue to learn about this, and eventually I want to master it so that I can have sex as long as I want with girls without ejaculating at all. I want to give these women the best sex they have ever had in their lives. This is what will keep them coming back to me. At the end of the day, I want an abundance of sex but I don't have that much time and I also don't want to commit to any one girl. This means that it's imperative that the sex is really really good so that they come back begging for more. I know this will be a long journey, but I am excited for it. I do want to get married one day and have children, but I don't care who that is going to be right now. All I am focused on is growing myself through pickup. I will also be focusing on being a better dance instructor, getting my finances up, and becoming strong and muscular. Good luck.

"Whether you believe you can or not, you're right." ~ Henry Ford A woman wants a guy that knows what he wants and goes for it. This is extremely attractive to the feminine.

Exploring the Feminine Entry #18 Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I trust that God has a plan for me I realize now that I HAVE to get my sexual needs met. Otherwise, this will continue to plague me. Be a player. That is literally what you signed up for. You didn't want to have a girlfriend. You had one, a really great one... But I had to mess it up because I wasn't ready to commit. Now... In order to get sex again I have to start pushing myself and going out more. Start staring people in the eyes. Go out to coffee shops. Have a big vision that you are working towards. Sign up for speed dating events. Go out into the city. Push yourself out of your comfort zone. I am independent of the opinions of others. Masturbate for 20 minutes straight without ejaculating. Masturbate without porn. Be open to being attracted to women. And if you are attracted to her, hit on her. Actually hit on her. You attract what you want to create. It's really that simple.

I used Viagra twice and it completely desensitized by dick, I couldn't feel a thing. But it works very well if you want to last a while and get hard easily.

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It's important to integrate stage orange before doing serious spiritual work. If you pursue tier two without first becoming wealthy and developing a good work ethic, you're spiritual practices will be half baked. Understand that becoming wealthy is a natural part to a human beings evolution. Pursue money and sex, experience the limitations of both, then transcend into more selfless endeavors.

This is very untrue. Try to extract this limiting belief out of your system. Women are much more attracted to a mans masculine nature, his sense of humor, and his drive. The issue is that you cannot display these traits through a dating app, so a woman has nothing else to go on other than looks, so she picks the most attractive men to match with.

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Talking to multiple girls is an emotionally taxing endeavor

That's fair. And you're right, I do not have children.