Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #25 I absolutely bodied the day yesterday. I did everything on this list, every single fuckin' one AND I did my leg workout at the gym. This is my favorite part of my morning routine because I get to journal and collect my thoughts. I've recently realized that my mind is so fuckin' scattered, I have almost zero control over the "I-thought." Given my goal of abiding in a constant "no-thought" state within 2 years, I am going to have to start taking ownership of that, reading books and figuring out how to send the "I-thought" back down to the heart, which is where it came from. I would also like to start writing down my yearly goals on a daily basis. In this way, there is no emotional pull, I do what I have to do in order to meet my goals, and it really is that simple. My plan for approaching 500 women next year is that I am going to continue to drive up to the city every single weekend. I will eventually figure out how to summon up the courage to approach. Just keep trying things until something works. Keep fuckin' trying. There is SO MUCH resistance to doing this for me because of past traumas, but I will deal with this and become an authentically attractive man, it is just going to take time. Staying true to the daily habits that I have set for myself will also help with this because my self -efficacy will continue to increase, which will make me feel stronger and make me feel like I CAN approach these girls. I know I got this. My Goals: I have a fulfilling, healthy, conscious relationship in January of 2027 I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030 I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035 I abide in a consistent no- thought state in August of 2027 I win a “Future Champs” dance competition in June of 2026, a “Rising Stars” dance competition in June 2028 and an “Open” dance competition in June 2030 I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027 I have sex with 10 women by January 2027 I gain 10 pounds of lean muscle by January 2027 11.24.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 4 Brush teeth streak: 25 Floss streak: 25 Shower streak: 8 Meditation streak: 3 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 23 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 Brush teeth streak: 15 Wash face streak: 15 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 25 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 23 No weed streak: 5 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Done Back: Chest Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #24 I feel like I have a very good handle on what I want to do on a daily basis, at this point its just about training my mind to execute. This week I am going to try really hard to get the weekly goals accomplished. I am going to weight lift 3 days this week, on Monday during my dinner break (Legs) , on Tuesday before I go into work (Chest), and then on Saturday before I go into Boston (Back). I would also like to have a better handle on the food that I am going to be eating for the week. This will give me less stress as a lot of the times, I am going day - by - day trying to scrounge up enough protein. And I will also go to Boston on Saturday and finally get that tracker started of approaching women. Remember, I want to approach 500 women by the end of 2026. Things to do this morning (outside of morning routine): Call doctors Schedule with Hiroo, reschedule with Walden and Hagberg Put clothes away Make a goals list and put it into my wallet Here is a reminder of some of my goals: (I'd like to make a list of this on a notecard and put it into my wallet): I have a fulfilling intimate relationship, one that pushes me and helps me grow into a more mature and loving person, starting in January of 2027 I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030 I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035 I abide in a constant no- thought state in August of 2027 Become a world champion dancer: I win a "Future Champs" dance competition in June of 2026 I win a "Rising Stars" dance competition in June 2028 I win an "Open" dance competition in June 2030 I approach and hit on 500 women by January 2027 11.23.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 3 Brush teeth streak: 24 Floss streak: 24 Shower streak: 7 Meditation streak: 2 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 22 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Brush teeth streak: 14 Wash face streak: 14 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 24 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 No alcohol streak: 22 No weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 0 Legs: Back: Chest Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #23 I had a great day yesterday, I fulfilled on all of my morning routines, had dance practice with my competitive partner, organized my room so that it can fit 8 people in it for "Dungeons and Dragons" with my friends on Sunday, took a nap, and then hung out with my friends in which I DID NOT partake in any alcohol or drug consumption. Nicely done! Having 11 pm as the cutoff for no electronics is not the best measurement for this goal, as we were watching movies until midnight last night, I think I should just say "no phone after 11 pm"... although I don't want to allow myself to watch movies when I'm alone in bed so I'm just going to have to do my best with this one... But I don't want to break my streak just because I was hanging out with my friends and watching movies on the weekend. I didn't do a good job weight lifting this week, only hitting 1 out of the the 3 weight lifting sessions, oh welll... this just means that I have to organize my life better in order to accommodate for this habit. 11.22.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 2 Brush teeth streak: 23 Floss streak: 23 Shower streak: 6 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 21 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Brush teeth streak: 13 Wash face streak: 13 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 23 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 21 No weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #22 I fuckin love this instrumental from Frank Oceans album Blonde, it is so good! We just had an in studio solo dance event last night and it went really well! I danced 15 times I think, which is the most I've ever done. My students were really happy and they did very well. I'm excited to talk to them about it next week. I FUCKIN LOVE my job. That is something that I was able to start manifesting for myself a long time ago. I had a crappy desk job and I always knew that I was meant to do something more. And pretty soon I am going to become a "world champion" rhythm dancer and bring my students along on the ride with me. On the not so chill side, I am starting to allow gaps in my morning routine on a consistent basis. I have started to take off the disciplinary hat and allow my mind to get it's way. I'd like to crack a whip on this right away.. This is what I want my day to look like: I wake up at 7:30 am, make my bed, grab my towel, I walk up stairs ( I don't care how tired you are, don't make coffee) I brush my teeth and floss and then head up to the top floor to shower ( wash body with soap daily and shampoo every other day) then I come back down to the downstairs bathroom and oil and trim my beard, style my hair and put on deodorant. Then I head downstairs to change into workout clothes. (1st floor is my room, 2nd floor is bathroom without shower, 3rd floor is bathroom with shower.) Now it's 8:00 am and it's time to journal and eat breakfast. I grab my computer and walk upstairs to the kitchen. I make myself a protein shake and I drink it while I am journaling about my habits yesterday. Then, at 8:30, I head back downstairs, sit down on the floor with a pillow under my butt and a blanket over my body and do my 30 minute meditation session. At 9:00 am I put the blanket back onto the bed and I start my push ups and pull ups. I do push ups until failure, give myself a 2 minute break, then pull ups until failure. I do 3 sets of these and I am recording how many reps of each set. When that's over, it is 9:30 am and I can leave the house for the day OR I can do whatever I want. I could lay in bed again and read some spiritual books if I wanted to, everything that I need to do for the morning is out of the way, now I can focus on other things. If I can actually stick to this routine for a long period of time, my self efficacy will sky rocket and I will feel so much more powerful, I will feel like I can grab life my the balls and accomplish ANYTHING. I can't wait for that feeling to manifest. ------- Now it's time to talk about some of the habits from yesterday. I got back on track with waking up at the same time every day. I also haven't missed brushing teeth and flossing and the funniness affirmations since we started. I missed the meditation session and the push ups and pull ups again. This has been a struggle recently. In general, I usually do everything I need to do right up until I need to meditate. This is causing a lot of resistance from my mind because it is the most emotionally challenging part of the routine. When I can overpower the mind and get it to surrender to this habit daily, that will be a real accomplishment. Next, I am struggling to implement the sexual abundance affirmation to my nighttime schedule while driving home, but it is new, I'll figure it out. I almost always brush my teeth and wash my face, nice job on that, and there is no excuse for using electronics past 11pm. Stop doing this. Next, my "whole day" goal of no porn has reached 22 days. I've never tracked this before but I think this is the longest I've gone or close to it. That is great! You are really growing in that area. I would be so happy with myself if I kicked that habit for good. Okay, now we have to get into a lengthy topic, which is ejaculation. I did ejaculate last night while I was hooking up with my roommate. So this is a positive experience actually because 1. I had a sexual encounter, which is what I'm working on and 2. It highlighted my inability to control my sexual energy while with a partner. When I masturbate by myself, I have very good control of whether or not I ejaculate, and actually, I never ejaculate without intent, I am always able to stop myself before keeling over, which is an accomplishment in it of itself. What happened with this girl is actually quite embarrassing, I was in the heat of the moment, I was grinding on her from the back and I literally came in my pants 🤦‍♂️. I was surprised at how little control I was able to have over my sexual energy. It is COMPLETELY different while with an actual person because she is so hot and she is right in front of you... Oh man, I got a lot of work to do on this one. After that happened, I fingered her for a while which seemed to give her multiple orgasms, although I would like to ask her if those are orgasms or not.. it seemed like it, her body is twitching and she's moaning and breathing heavily. Women seem to be able to have so much more pleasure during sex because they can just let go and enjoy the ride lol. The big thing here is that I just don't have the sex experience to be able to control the ejaculation while with someone yet. The place that I would like to get to with this is I want to be able to be inside of a woman for 20 minutes straight and have COMPLETE control over my sexual energy and ejaculation, circulating the sexual energy throughout my body, that is truly where I would like to get to with this. In this way, I am able to last as long as I want and I don't exert any energy by releasing my semen. Okay, how am I going to achieve this goal, 1. I need to practice by myself in which I attempt to last 20 minutes straight of masturbation without ejaculation 2. Read the book The Multi Orgasmic Man and do the exercises in the book ( this has helped me be able to control the ejaculation process but I still haven't been able to have multiple or full body orgasms during sex, which I would really like to experience) 3. Continue to have as many sexual experiences as you can possibly have, with this current girl as well as with new women. That took a while... Okay, next I am back on track eating 150 g of protein, no more alcohol is great and I am commiting to the no weed streak. I didn't do my workouts yet for the week, which means that I have to finish it up on Saturday and Sunday if I want to keep the streak alive, not ideal but I have to do it. 11.21.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 1 Brush teeth streak: 22 Floss streak: 22 Shower streak: 5 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 20 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 12 Wash face streak: 12 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 22 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 20 No weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Interlude: Flow State I am going to post one more thing because I can't help myself, then I'm going to get in the shower and start my day. Here is a video of a man in a flow state, he's not thinking, he is purely vibing, purely in the present moment, words are just rolling out of his mouth, he's not insecure about it, he is in the zone, in his bag, in his element. This is what makes life exciting. These moments right here. Consciously and deliberately trying to enter these states is the name of the game. So turn off your fucking brain, enter a challenging situation and see if you can flow through it. That is the key, the situation has to challenge you, it has to challenge you just enough to make it so that you are out of your thinking mind, so keep challenging yourself, doing hard things and you will feel the sweet spot and the future you will thank yourself for it

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #21 Another tough day for me, my alarm wasn't even set so I woke up at 8:30 am. From there, I journaled and then I brushed and flossed, showered, ate something and then headed out the door for dance practice. So no meditation or push ups and pull ups so far. I was driving around near where I work finishing up my funniness affirmations and feeling very down about myself. During the "free talk" exercise part of the funniness affirmations exercise, I start to say inspiring things to myself such as "I am going to do whatever it takes to make my dreams come true," and "I am going to make a huge impact on people" and "I don't care what people think about me" this motivated me lots and I decided to head to the gym because my dance partner told me that she'd be late for practice. I head to the gym with a new surge of energy. I head into the locker room, I love taking my shirt off nowadays because I think that I look really hot, that is also motivating, too see what I have been able to sculpt through my hard work. I head into the workout area and pump out the push ups and pull ups. Then I do some calf machine exercises and a couple sets of leg presses. Then I have to meet my dance partner so I couldn't finish the "legs" workout. This means that I am going to have to finish it today and then do the back exercises this weekend or vice versa if I am going to keep my weight lifting streak alive. Dance practice was good, I was very motivated to make our routines feel good as I am remembering my intention to win a dance competition. It's important to know the reason that you are doing something, this is what makes it feel worth it to you. We also have a competition in D.C. in a couple of weeks that we are getting ready for. Then I had another dance practice with my other dance partner to work on "certification" which is getting more advanced patterns down in preparation for a test that will get us a raise. They both went well, very productive dance sessions. This is from 12-2 and 2-4, then I start the work day. I am honestly already tired, we have a meeting and then the lessons start up and I teach from 5:30 straight through until 10 pm. This is tiring but fun. I can really feel the lack of meditation as I am doing group class, my awareness of the present moment and surroundings is not at an optimal level. But I have come a long way as a teacher. I am able to go into almost any situation and be comfortable enough to teach. I still feel insecure about what I am teaching when there are students there that have been there for 5+ years and I've only been here for 2. I am trying to work on this, the idea is to just teach them, expose yourself to teaching them, curve into the uncomfortably of it, that is unfortunately the only way to deal with this. Lessons all go really well (we are prepping for a "solo night" that is tomorrow.) I had a lot of fun with one of my long time students, working on "walking with conviction" and we got to perform my favorite solo for some of the other people in the studio. I do need to vent about the last lesson of the night though. I have this one woman that takes 2-3 lessons a week so she is a very involved student and wants to get really good, but she comes in stoned off her ass and this day in particular, she was so fuckin' high dude it was insane. She couldn't follow anything and had no idea what was going on, it was as if I was teaching a toddler how to dance. All 3 solos that we have to perform tomorrow felt like shit when running through them. All of them, every one felt awful. She's just like a zombie, no emotion and awareness is at a -5. It's frustrating because she is actually really good sometimes, but not when she's stoned out of her gord. I think I need to talk to her about this, but I don't know how. Anyways, I am going to really try to put a smile on my face while dancing with her tomorrow as this is not about me, this is about her. And as long as she's happy with the performance then that should be good enough for me. I just don't understand why she thinks it's socially acceptable to come into a high end ballroom dance studio stoned off her ass... But I digress. I have 15 solos tomorrow, I've never done so many. This is great for me, it has pushed me to grow a lot as I have to remember all 15 routines. And both myself and my student get to practice being out there on the floor together, performing in front of people. Note: I unfortunately only ate 137 grams of protein yesterday so I feel as though I have to reset the counter back to 0. 😭 11.20.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 21 Floss streak: 21 Shower streak: 4 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 19 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 11 Wash face streak: 11 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 21 No ejaculation streak: 21 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 19 No weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 No body is coming to save you! You've always had the power to save yourself You think it's over? Nah champ, it's just getting started.. I don't care how many times you've failed.. You were built for impact and impact doesn't come easy.. It's forged in pressure, born from pain, shaped in silence You get to take control now, you get to write the next chapter You've got to stop making excuses for why it hasn't happened yet You're not stuck, you're just scared, and that's okay Everyone's scared... But fear isn't your enemy, comfort is Comfort will convince you that average is okay That good enough is good enough But deep down, you know it's not You weren't made to be average, you weren't made to coast You were made to dominate That dream you had, it's still alive, it's just waiting for you to believe in it again..

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #20 I have hit a point where my internal motivation has really hit a wall. I've stopped caring about sticking to these habits. This is frustrating, but I understand that it is all part of the process. Yesterday, my alarm went off at 7:30 and I stayed in bed for another hour. When I woke up, I didn't have enough time to workout or meditate. Luckily, I did find time to do the funniness affirmations so that streak is still going. When I got home, I smoked weed again with my roommate, I allowed myself to watch some of the "pro" dance routines from our last event on my phone as I'm laying there trying to go to sleep, and I didn't finish the "I have an abundance of sex" affirmation. When I get high, my mind becomes an infinite imagination loop and I find it very difficult to push the "I- thought" back down to the heart. Now, on the bright side, I am sticking to my no porn or ejaculation streak (20 days), which is really impressive and has a very positive impact on my life. I've also eaten 150 g of protein for 19 days straight, that is quite an accomplishment, and I can see the results in the mirror, I am noticeably more ripped and its only been 3 weeks... Imagine what I will look like by week 20... week 50... and so on. I am also very frustrated with how far I have to go to make my dreams come true. That is the issue with being honest about "current reality" and the "desired result," you have to become aware of how far it is that you have to go to get what you want.. that is hard. The biggest thing that I want right now is to just be able to authentically express my appreciation and love for the feminine creatures of this Earth. This is all I want really, and it starts with putting myself out there and talking to them, telling them how beautiful they are. On a more positive note, I have successfully infiltrated a world filled with beautiful women, which is through the dance studio. There are gorgeous women everywhere I look and I get to dance them. One thing that does make me special is that I LOVE women, I really do, I absolutely adore them... Which makes it frustrating that I don't have a girl of my own that I can share vulnerabilities with. Now I KNOW that I will get out of this hole and get laid and then get a girlfriend, I just don't have it yet, but I am going to figure this out, no matter what.. Another highlights is that I am significantly more focused while at work and I am in a significantly better mood, which makes my lessons go better, I think this happens because I am more organized in my life and I feel like I am finally being honest about my life and my goals, which frees up so much gunk in my head and allows me to be fully present while I'm with my students. I really do have the most amazing job in the world. The only thing that is holding me back is this girl situation, I HAVE to start approaching women and dealing with this. There is no way around it, I have to put myself out there and move through this. Otherwise, I will ALWAYS be frustrated. The suffering will never get any easier unless I tackle this problem head on. I am going to go to Boston on Saturday and attempt to hit on girls again. I will find a parking lot that is a lot cheaper and my plan is to ask 10 beautiful women where the Prudential Center is. Then by that time, I should feel warm enough to be able to hit on girl that I find attractive. Try to make this like a game that is fun. I also have to watch my finances and I will bring a bagged lunch so that I don't have to buy anything when I'm out there. Lets fucking go dude. You can do this! I believe in you! The farther along on the habits and disciplines journey that you go, the easier being uncomfortable will get for you. You know what is really frustrating... I find myself really hating my dance partner.. and you know why... its because I find her beautiful and gorgeous and funny and perfect and I want to express that to her. The issue is that I don't know how and I also don't want to complicate things, and also she used to date my co worker and friend. Lots of complicated things in terms of that. I feel like the solution to this frustration is to hit on other women because how could I express my appreciation and sexual interest towards her if I can't do it to random women on the street. It all stems from fear. I just haven't had the courage to put myself out there and risk being awkward and getting rejected. This is ALL that I want in life, I just want to reach a point where I am comfortable cold approaching women and facing rejection. And you know what... A lot of the things that I've gone through over the past 2 years has made me prepared for this right here... I have performed over 50 solos in front of an audience, I have danced 500+ "entries" in front of people, I have competed at a Dance O Rama, I had a girlfriend who I had sex with. I've hooked up with my roommate. I've asked and danced with 1,000+ women. I see myself getting more attention from women. I am much more comfortable in my own skin. I have gone on streaks with no porn and no ejaculation for 30+ days on multiple occasions, I almost pulled a REALLY hot girl back from the club, (but I was so nervous that I put the address wrong into my phone and then she said she was too tired lol.) I am being honest about my desires. Keep being honest. Keep pushing for what you want and all of your dreams will come true. Remember, the journey is the fun part. Once you get everything that you want, now what? This is what makes this part of your life exciting is that you can work on yourself from the ground up. You can create and turn yourself into whatever you choose... And NOTHING is stopping you from doing that. So be clear as to what you want. Be very fucking clear. And don't be swayed by emotional states. Continue down your path, sticking to your habits, to your beliefs. BE YOURSELF. BE YOURSELF AND KNOW THAT THATS GOOD ENOUGH. BE SECURE WITH YOURSELF. 11.19.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 Brush teeth streak: 20 Floss streak: 20 Shower streak: 3 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 18 Night time routine goals: Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Brush teeth streak: 10 Wash face streak: 10 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 20 No ejaculation streak: 20 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 19 No alcohol streak: 18 No weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #19 11.18.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 2 Brush teeth streak: 19 Floss streak: 19 Shower streak: 2 Meditation streak: 2 Push ups / pull ups streak: 2 Funniness affirmations streak: 17 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 9 Wash face streak: 9 No electronics before bed streak: 0 Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 19 No ejaculation streak: 19 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 18 No alcohol streak: 17 No weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Personal Journal: I fucked up last night, I smoked weed with my roommate when I got home from dance practice (this is about 12:30 am.) And then I came into the house high as fuck and I was on my phone, making dance videos until 2:30 am, that was stupid. It didn't even register that I shouldn't be doing this until I finally put the phone down. I got sucked down into the rabbit hole and I was completely unaware of it. This entire "Habits and Disciplines" journey has been a lot more challenging than I thought it would be. It is a messy process trying to train my mind, my mind is stubborn and lazy and doesn't like not getting its way. But I am consciously working on these things, which is a great first step. Prior to this journey, I would scroll on my phone for hours while laying in bed, I don't do that anymore, last night was a fluke. I am also making a conscious effort to be sober at all times, I am making a conscious effort to eat enough protein, I have a much better handle on my finances, I am treating my entire life like a personal development project, I am no longer looking at porn and squirting my semen everywhere, I am following the funniness affirmations habit with consistency and it has vastly improved my sense of humor and overall mood already. I am proud of myself despite all of the setbacks. The mind will not surrender very easily, this is obvious. I would like to add one affirmation to the list, I am going to do an "I have an abundance of sex in my life" affirmation every night while driving home from work or wherever I am that day, this will be added to the "night time routine goals." I am starting to realize how far away I am from my goals and I'm not sure how to feel about it. Some of these things that I want are going to take YEARS and YEARS to really come about, such as financial goals, dating goals, confidence goals, self esteem goals, I mean what have I been doing with my life up until now, why have I not dealt with these things yet.... I guess theres no point in thinking that way though, all I can do is focus on what I want now and build towards it. One day I will look back at this journal entry and cry tears of gratitude for how I continued to push even when I felt hopeless. I am reading the Success Principles right now by Jack Canfield and I decided to write down some goals for myself, this is principle 7: Unleash the power of goal setting. I wrote down what I want and then under it, I wrote down a tangible goal of when I am going to receive this goal into my life. The idea is that my subconscious mind is going to work towards making these things happen for me. I want a very fulfilling intimate relationship, one that pushes me and helps me grow into a more mature and loving person I have a fulfilling intimate relationship, one that pushes me and helps me grow into a more mature and loving person, starting in January of 2027 I want my own house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back I have a house with a private, fenced in back yard, deck and porch in the back on June, 2030 I want to own an Arthur Murray dance studio I own an Arthur Murray dance studio in June of 2035 I want to abide in a no- thought state - This I abide in a constant no- thought state in August of 2027 I want to win a real dance competition, at a Dance O Rama I win a dance competition in June of 2026

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #18 Personal Journal: 11.16.25 Okay, so I had a rough day on Sunday in terms of habits. Weekends are hard. I woke up at 7:30 am on Sunday, I did brush and floss my teeth, but then I didn’t shower, didn’t do pushups or pull ups and didn’t meditate and then went BACK to sleep lol. I left the house without showering, meditating, or working out. Now, of course ending these streaks is not ideal, but it was beneficial to see the contrast in my state of well- being and competence when I do my morning routine as compared to when I don't. My brain was foggy and unorganized and I just felt like "bleh." This used to be my natural state, especially on weekends, but now I have a new standard for myself and it felt very odd. You know whats funny, even though it sounds like I am living with all of these rules which is restricting my freedom, it actually works in the opposite way. Because I have all of these habits and routines in place, the mind doesn't have to think about what its going to do, the routines are already set in stone, which frees the the soul up to explore different avenues in between the habits. Counter-intuitively, the better we are at following habits, the more freely our souls can fly. I also made a business decision at night time, my no electronics streak was at 1 anyways, and I wanted to watch the end of the Eagles, Lions game lol so I watched it until about 11:20 pm. Remember, the no electronics before bed applies at 11:00 pm This week I am going to try again and allow these streaks to grow and grow. Right now, I am realizing that my finances are not good and I am going to start taking ownership of that. No one is going to get me out of this hole but myself. Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 0 (Since I went back to sleep, I am going to have to end this streak at 16) Brush teeth streak: 17 Floss streak: 17 Shower streak: 0 (I did shower today, but since I left my house without showering, which is I am going to end this streak Meditation streak: 0 (I failed to meditate for three days straight, not ideal) Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 (sorry ) Funniness affirmations streak: 15 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 7 Wash face streak: 7 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 17 No ejaculation streak: 17 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 16 No alcohol streak: 15 No weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Note: As you can see, I took out the eat breakfast part of the morning routine as all I really care about is eating enough protein so I feel like that is unnecessary. I also took out the "grooming hair" part because this coincides with showering (I'm not going to shower without grooming my hair.) 11.17.25 This is for Monday, the first day of the new week and I killed it today, I accomplished every single task and I got my first workout of the week in. Go Ben! Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 1 Brush teeth streak: 18 Floss streak: 18 Shower streak: 1 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 16 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 8 Wash face streak: 8 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 18 No ejaculation streak: 18 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 17 No alcohol streak: 16 No weed streak: 3 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Back: Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #17 11.15.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 16 Brush teeth streak: 16 Floss streak: 16 Shower streak: 16 Groom hair streak: 16 Eat breakfast streak 16 Meditation streak: 0 (I failed to meditate for two days straight, not ideal) Push ups / pull ups streak: 5 Funniness affirmations streak: 14 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 6 Wash face streak: 6 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 16 No ejaculation streak: 16 ( I had a wet dream last night and no, wet dreams do not count. We are talking about deliberate ejaculation right here) Eat 150 g of protein streak: 15 No alcohol streak: 14 No weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 Personal Journal: Okay, so I have started this habits journal a couple of weeks ago. I have done a really good job with a lot of the habits, such as waking up on time, working out every day, not watching porn, etc…. But I haven’t made any progress on the one biggest thing that I want in life right now, which is to have an abundance of sex with an abundance of women. This is what I truly want right now. The thing that makes this tricky is that I am incredibly shy when it comes to this. I also think that I am afraid of sexual encounters, they make me very nervous as I am very inexperienced when it comes to them. The other thing that makes this tricky is that I do have a crush on a girl from work and I sometimes envision being with her and just her as I would genuinely love that…. But I know that if I settle for just her now, then I would be compromising my vision, and I will NEVER compromise my vision. What I truly want in my life is to be able to walk up to anyone that I find attractive and express my authentic attraction towards them in a funny and flirty way. So I guess the vision entails being able to express my authentic attraction towards women in a fun and flirty way and having lots of sex with lots of women. This feels like a very lofty vision as I have had sex with lets say 1 and a half women so far ( I put in just the tip with the second girl so idk if that counts.) The biggest problem with the lots of sex thing is that I feel like I want this in a conceptual way, but then I have opportunities to escalate things and for whatever reason, in the moment, I just don’t want to… So does that mean that I don’t want the sex or am I just experiencing resistance to it because it makes me uncomfortable and I am not used to it. I am going to assume that it is the ladder because I really do want to experience sex with lots of women, I want this so badly. Now, I am reading The Path of Least Resistance and it is talking about “structural tension,” in which, people have current reality, which is where they are currently at, and then they have a vision, which is what they want in their lives. This “discrepancy” between “current reality” and the “desired result” or “vision” creates “structural tension” between the two because “current reality” is different and many times vastly different than the “desired result.” Listed below is a diagram of what I am talking about. If any human being is going to make significant changes in their lives, which is something that I would like to do, he or she has to understand how this works. Current reality is that I am very shy and fearful when it comes to approaching women as well as having sex with them. My vision or desired result is that I am able to approach women in a confident and smooth and funny and charming way and that I am an amazing sexual partner that has had experience with multiple different women. My current reality is clear, and my vision is also clear. Now, what am I going to do about this? How am I going to make my vision actually come into fruition? I am going to keep reading this book and hopefully it will help. But it is nice to clearly state what my current situation is and what I TRULY want. This feels very liberating.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #16 11.14.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 15 Brush teeth streak: 15 Floss streak: 15 Shower streak: 15 Groom hair streak: 15 Eat breakfast streak 15 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 4 Funniness affirmations streak: 13 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 15 No ejaculation streak: 15 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 14 No alcohol streak: 13 No weed streak: 0 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I lost 3 of my streaks today; I didn't find time to meditate in the morning because I was on my phone. Then, after work my work friend asked me if I wanted to finish hit blunt with him. We went on a nice walk and finished smoking it. I think that he appreciated the hang out session, he got to vent about some issues he's having with his ex girlfriend. However, it was difficult for me to focus on what he was saying because my thoughts were very loud. I contribute this to the weed. Then, when I got home, I was on my phone for a solid hour in kitchen so that streak is also over. Unfortunate, but this is how it goes. It's funny, when I got home and was scrolling on my phone, it didn't even occur to me that I am losing out on a streak right now, I was completely on auto pilot because a. I was high and b. I still fall into low consciousness states sometimes where I am not aware of what I am doing. I did have a good day though other than that, my lessons went well, I was in a positive emotional state for most of the day, and I worked hard on the things that I wanted to. Now, its Saturday 11.15.25 at 6:38 pm, and this morning I woke up at 7:30 am to my alarm but I stayed in bed for a good hour. Then I finally showered and combed my hair, and had to leave immediately to meet my mom and help her with something. Since then, I went home, scrolled for a while, read 20 pages of a book, and took two naps. I haven't done any of the "negative" habits that I am avoiding such as watching porn and smoking weed, but I have not meditated and I have not done my push ups and pull ups. If I miss my meditation, the tracker will remain at 0, if I miss my push ups and pull ups, then the tracker will drop from 4 to 0, which is not ideal but it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. Its when the streak has grown to an increasingly high number is when failure doesn't seem like an option. I can't wait until I reach streaks of 100 for both. I will be ripped and very clear- headed. Also, the fact that I have evaded several urges to watch porn is a win for me. (these urges usually come up when I am bored.) I am also worried about a solo that I am doing with a student; one of our long time students told me that the intro is too boring, it needs to capture the audience's attention and he is totally right so I need to fix it. I also really don't like the routine that I came up with for her other solo, but I don't know what to do to change it. And I have to keep her positive so that she stays excited and confident. Anyways, I really need to finish my morning routine right now, which sucks because I now have the mental space to put it off or not... although I should just say to myself no.... you are doing this right now. And then in an hour, it will be done. I have been allowing my mind the wiggle room to take back some power from my Higher Self, which is not good. But I am aware of this and understand this, the "I-thought" is a very powerful force, it is tricky and manipulative. If I am really going to vanquish him, it is going to take many more attempts of persistence and hard work.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #15 11.13.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 14 Brush teeth streak: 14 Floss streak: 14 Shower streak: 14 Groom hair streak: 14 Eat breakfast streak 14 Meditation streak: 3 Push ups / pull ups streak: 3 Funniness affirmations streak: 12 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 4 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 14 No ejaculation streak: 14 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 13 No alcohol streak: 12 No weed streak: 4 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week streak: 1 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back: Done Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I finished my first week of consistent weight lifting. I am going to do the same exercises for 3 months, and then I will take a "de-load week," in which I do not work out. This means that as soon as this streak hits 12, I will take my de load week. I got this de-load week idea from the book "Bigger Leaner Stronger." This is so that I don''t burn myself out. During this week, I will take a look at how far I've come and make adjustments to my workout. I am turning into a very good executer in life.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #14 11.12.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 13 Brush teeth streak: 13 Floss streak: 13 Shower streak: 13 Groom hair streak: 13 Eat breakfast streak 13 Meditation streak: 2 Push ups / pull ups streak: 2 Funniness affirmations streak: 11 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 3 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 13 No ejaculation streak: 13 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 12 No alcohol streak: 11 No weed streak: 3 It was tough getting the 150 g of protein because I had $17 in my back account but needed to come up with 70 more grams of protein at 10 pm. I went to the gas station and got two bottles of "Muscle Milk", a string cheese stick, and two hard boiled eggs. This got me to 150 and then I went to the gym and worked out. Good job! Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Chest: Done Legs: Done Back Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #13 11.11.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 12 Brush teeth streak: 12 Floss streak: 12 Shower streak: 12 Groom hair streak: 12 Eat breakfast streak 12 Meditation streak: 1 Push ups / pull ups streak: 1 Funniness affirmations streak: 10 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 12 No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 11 No alcohol streak: 10 No weed streak: 2 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Chest: Done Legs Back Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0 I have lots to do. Firstly, I want to figure out what I’m doing with my doctors appointments. I have to be at work for a dance training at 10 am. I am also trying to figure out if I should go to Boston again to try to summon up the courage to hit on women. I think I can do that. I can do it. The thing that is going to help a lot with this is if I can execute on these habits day in and day out, week after week after week, I am going to start feeling more and more powerful. So powerful that I will feel a surging confidence and strength that will propell me into these ballsy and confident approaches. My goal is to actually be decent at this by the summer of 2026. In this way, I can walk around New York City, walk around Boston, the weather will be beautiful and I can just spit game to whoever I find beautiful. The idea of being able to express my authentic attraction towards women in a respectful yet direct way in my own authentic style is what is so tantalizing to me. This is extremely rare and if I can master this as a human being, especially as a human being that has been scared of girls for many years and that didn’t lose his virginity until he was 29, this will be incredibly fulfilling. The other thing that I really want is a ripped and shredded physique. If I just stick to this high protein diet with daily push ups and pull ups and a 3 days a week gym routine, I will get there.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #12 The next thing that I am going to do is omit weed from my diet. It puts me into a low energy and anti-social state and this state doesn't align with my goal of having an abundance of sex. This is being added to the list. It is 10:37 am on 11.11 and I successfully completed my morning routine. There were gaps again but I am in no position to end streaks just because I am not doing things in a timely manner. This morning, my roommate was in the shower when I was “supposed” to get in the shower, theres nothing that I can do about that. All I can do is do the best that I can with an understanding that if I allow gaps to squeak into the routine, I am allowing my mind to argue with my Higher Self, which is never a good idea if I truly want to create an amazing life for myself with a high level of discipline, sex, money, impact, and spiritual success. I would like to remind myself what the perfect morning routine would look like: 7:30 am - 8:00 am - 1. Wake up 2. Brush teeth & floss 3. Shower 4. Groom hair 8:00am - 8:30 am - Eat breakfast ( Protein shake & oatmeal 8:30am - 9:00 am - Meditation (5 minutes - getting set up, 5 minutes - nostril breathing, 5 minutes "ocean breath," 15 minutes "do nothing" meditation 9:00am - 9:30am - work out (3 sets of push ups & 3 sets of pull ups) 9:30 - start my day I tend to become frustrated with my lack of discipline when it comes to these habits, but I have never made it this far in terms of a lot of these streaks and I would really like to give myself a pat on the back for that, here are some examples of things that I am proud of: I have woken up 11 days straight no later than 7:30 am I have flossed every day for 11 days straight I showered and groomed my hair every morning for 11 days straight I have meditated for 9 out of the past 11 days, doing a difficult meditation that involves no back rest and has breathing exercises I did push ups and pull ups every morning for a week straight. I've never done that before! I have done 20 minutes of "funniness affirmations" in the car for 9 days straight I made it through 7 days of no electronics after 11pm. I used to have my phone on me every night, in bed, scrolling and scrolling until my mind finally decided to stop I have gone 10 days of eating 150 g of protein daily. I have never done this before and I can already see the results I haven't drank alcohol in at least 2 months. I haven't done this since high school I have gone out with the "intention" of hitting on women. I haven't done this in two years and I should be proud of myself for at the very least making that initial first step There will always be frustrations to this work, but it is super important to look at how far I have come. I would also like to make a list of positive changes within myself that I have noticed from these past 11 days of. I am noticeably more attractive. My physique is bigger and more muscular due to the the workouts and high protein intake. My face looks clear and eye contact is good ( probably because of better sleep due to no electronics before bed and no porn) I also gave myself a nice haircut, which stems from the ambition to get laid and hit on women I am much funnier already through a week of the funniness affirmations. I tend to just say shit to make myself laugh, this makes my work days and hanging out with friends and dance trainings with my dance partners much more enjoyable, and it will really help me when I finally summon the courage to talk to girls I have more mental energy to spend on other things, such as developing good lesson plans, working on finances, reading books because I already have a set routine in place that I am trying my best to execute every day. I also already took the time to make sure that these habits align with my higher vision so I don't have to waste mental energy on that anymore, if I just continue to try again and again and again to make these habits stick, eventually they will and my dream life will be on the horizon. Overall mood is much better in general, this is due to the funniness affirmations and also my self efficacy is rising because I am sticking to these habits or at the very least given it my very best effort If I have already seen this much improvement in 10 days, I cannot believe where I will be in a month, 6 months, a year, 5 years, 10 years when these habits and disciplines are stuck into my body like glue. "Life is hard no matter what, choose your hard!" ~ my boss Streak list from yesterday, 11.10.25 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30 am streak: 11 Brush teeth streak: 11 Floss streak: 11 Shower streak: 11 Groom hair streak: 11 Eat breakfast streak 11 Meditation streak: 0 Push ups / pull ups streak: 0 Funniness affirmations streak: 9 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 11 No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 10 No alcohol streak: 9 No weed streak: 1 Weekly Goals: Weight lift 3 days a week weekly streak: 0 Number of women "cold approached" so far: 0