Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #104 Journal 2.14.26 Okay, so I am actually doing really well. A lot of things are starting to click for me in terms of being a successful dance instructor as well as a successful human, which essentially just entails becoming the person and accomplishing the things that I would like to accomplish in life. I am starting to embody a very masculine frame while at work and when I’m around people that entails what I would call being a “dog,” which entails not caring what others think, saying what I want to say when I want to say it and overall just being a fuckin’ bad ass. Truly, I have come so far in this regard. I finally feel like a real man. And the cool thing is that I am going to become more and more masculine the more I develop. This excites me. Okay, now let's take a look again at the vision I have for my life, what do I want: I want to be a world champion dancer I want to have an abundance of sexual experiences with an abundance of women I want to be able to have full-body orgasms and last hours having sex with someone I want to have a highly conscious, attractive, highly developed, fun girlfriend I want to be spiritually enlightened, or God-realized, or understand the Truth about reality, reaching consciousness level 1,000 I want to make money off of Youtube, getting passive income I want to have a self - help YouTube channel in which I help other men understand what it takes to attain a high abundance of women in their lives I want to have a nice house with a sliding door in the back that walks out to a patio, nice yard with an outdoor bar and pool, screened in porch in the front of the house, I have a large bookshelf with lots of books to read, I have a den area in which I love to read, there are lots of windows, lots of sunlight shining through. My bedroom is quaint and relaxing with ominous, outer space-like lighting. The kitchen is filled with updated appliances and lots of space to cook and clean. The overall layout of the house is very open. I want to sky dive, feeling what it feels like to fly. I want to create solo performances that move people emotionally, I want them to really FEEL it. I want to be a successful dance instructor, teaching over 30 lessons / week. I want to make $100,000 a year I want to have a shredded, God-like physique, one like Gerard Butler from 300 I want to have sexy masculine tattoos on my thighs For some reason, something has clicked inside of me and I am fully realizing that I can quite literally have anything that I want out of life. ANYTHING. And this is so obvious to me now because life is a FUCKIN’ DREAM. And you can dream up ANYTHING that you want. My understanding of this is not logical, its intuitive, I just know it. I could question whether or not this is legitimate but at the same time, I understand that I have to believe in myself in order to make these things come true into my life, so therefore questioning whether or not its possible is not resourceful or helpful to me in the slightest. So I am just going to keep on believing in myself. I have started to watch porn again. I am a bit torn by this, but the reason for it is this: my goal is to be able to be multi orgasmic and to have a complete control over my ejaculation and the circulation of my sexual energy. This requires me to be able to circulate the sexual energy throughout my body at will, with conscious intent. This requires me to masturbate and to get in touch with what it takes to not keel over and ejaculate. The more I practice this, the more control I will have over my ejaculation and sexual energy. I unfortunately am unable to in general arise sexual energy within my body without the use of porn, and that is the reason for porn entering my life again. I am content with this decision for now. Why do I struggle so much to stay motivated on the weekends? If I used even an ounce of the work ethic that I used during the week, I would be soaring above the clouds right now. I had a very awkward exchange while visiting my co workers lesson. She didnt approve of what I added to their dance and it made me feel like shit. I do not want to visit her lessons anymore. It doesn’t do a God damn thing for me. I feel masculine right now but I am not hitting on women, well, maybe I kind of am… I had a girls number but she stopped responding to me… I told a girl I liked her dress when I was out at that coffee shop. Thats not that bad. Before I get to the studio, I could try again to hit on someone, that would be nice. I have a new thing in which I really dont care if it doesnt work out with one girl, I dont give a fuck, it almost just lights a fire underneath me. But I’ve got to start getting out there and approaching once I get used to it everything is going to be cake. And I KNOW I am destined for greatness. I look around and I see people doubting themselves, thinking that they cannot get out of the hole that they are in. I am getting out and flying to the fuckin’ heavens . I’ll take every one of your students, I dont give a fuck. Look at all my goals listed above. I’m gonna fuckin’ crush this shit. Truly. 2.13.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 104 Brush teeth streak: 104 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 78 Meditation streak: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 12 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 106 No smoking weed streak: 61

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #103 Okay, so I am starting to eliminate a lot of things from my routines. Let's recap: There is no habit to cover in terms of when I wake up anymore. I have a high enough vision and enough things to do throughout the day to warrant waking up at an early time without the “forcing” myself to do it. I also got rid of the affirmations and visualizations as if I cannot even get a meditation habit going, my chances of visualizing and affirming every day are hopeless. Let's just focus on meditating first. The biggest habit that I am trying to integrate right now is a weekly workout regimen and a meal plan that I follow through with each week, but I'm just not sure how to track that just yet. 2.12.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 103 Brush teeth streak: 103 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 77 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 11 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 105 No smoking weed streak: 60

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #102 Once I get to 90 days of not smoking weed, I am going to smoke a big fat blunt after work with my friend. These goals are not set in stone and meant to last forever. They are adjustable depending on your vision. 90 days is enough time to deplete the dependency out of my body. After that, I will reset and see if I'd like to restart the counter or allow myself to indulge in weed at times. 2.11.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 0 Journal: 102 Brush teeth streak: 102 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 76 Meditation streak: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 10 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 104 No smoking weed streak: 59

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #101 I am removing lots of things from this list as all of the habits that I am trying to undertake are overwhelming to my psyche and it has caused for frustration and continuing to relapse on habits. Integrating habits into your life comes in layers. You start with a few things and then they become habits and you don't have to consciously think about them anymore... and then you a few more habits. A big one that I've added to the "whole-day goals" list is "Compliment one woman's appearance" - this is a great way to ease myself into the pick up journey. I know that I am going to attain an abundance of sex in this lifetime, but I have to start with baby steps as I am currently terrified of this journey. Yesterday, I told a woman she was "wearing a nice dress" - these kinds of interactions are easy enough that I will do them - thats whats important. 2.10.26 Morning Routine: Make bed: 9 Journal: 101 Brush teeth streak: 101 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 75 Meditation streak: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 1 Belly breathing exercise: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 9 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 103 No smoking weed streak: 58 Compliment a woman's appearance: 1

Transcending the Spiral, Entry #20 ~ Stage Red & Orange integration ~ February 10th, 2026 Where am I on the spiral dynamics ladder at this stage in my life? At around this time 2 years ago, I was contemplating whether or not I was ready to take the quantum leap into tier two. I now realize that I was dead wrong. I am not ready to take the quantum leap into stage yellow and may not be for another 5 years. This whole situation is interesting because the main characteristic of stage yellow is to be aware of the spiral itself and to understand that everything underneath tier two is a necessary development of the ego, which I am in tuned with. However, the second characteristic of stage yellow is to be able to zoom out and look at things in the world as “systems” and the tendency is to have a more holistic approach in which you are attempting to elevate the entire system instead of your own agenda. This is where my current situation gets in the way of living of living in a tier two way, which would be a more selfless and impactful way of living or Being. Right now, I am living at my mother's house, making $35k a year doing something that I love. My dating life is shit, I almost never have the courage to approach women, I've only had sex with two women in my life, and probably like 20 or 30 times total. So basically, my living situation and lack of sex requires me to stay in the tier one way of thinking in which I have to learn to manipulate my environment and brain power in order to achieve the material desires that I seek. The good news is that I have lots of healthy stage blue and stage green within me. I started integrating stage blue at a young age. My ability to understand right from wrong has always been good, and to this day I have a solid morale compass. I embarked on the stage green journey 8 years ago when I went vegan and traveled around the country “searching for myself” and getting into spirituality. I have always been a very empathetic person ever since youth, which made it easy to integrate this stage into my psyche. However, to truly get what we want in this world we must conquer and manipulate and in a way deceive. A human can go about this in a stage red way, which is taking things by force and doesn't take into account the negative impact that it will have on others… or it can go about this in a stage orange way, in which the spiritual side of life has at least been ignited (albeit a tiny flame.) the stage orange person gets what he wants out of life in a win-win way, in which his efforts are for the betterment of him and the person he is interacting with. I would like to share a couple of scenarios in which a stage red individual and a stage orange individual would use to accumulate wealth and sex. This is important to put awareness on because stage green and stage blue integration is not required in order to achieve things in the world, this is what stage red and orange are used for. The blue and green stages need to be integrated in order for human beings to be more integrated with love and harmony and community, but they are not responsible for making a human “get ahead in the world.” There is something about stage red that lights a fire underneath my belly. I want to taste the delicious nectar of my opponents. This is not barbaric or non-human, I am in touch with “my inner ape” which means I am in touch with exactly where I came from. In a lot of ways, my mindset is going to be entrenched in stage red’s conquer all mindset. However, I have developed myself enough to not go overboard. But truthfully, my ego or psyche has been so far removed from this kind of behavior that it yearns for a taste of this and I have to give this to myself. But again, don't worry about going overboard, you are way to empathetic and devleoped to become a true monster in this life. The more loving way to go about getting what we want in this life is to take a more stage orange approach in which every scenario is a win win. If I have sex with you, I win and you win. If I teach you how to dance, I win and you win. If you hire me, I win and you win. If you hang out with me, I win and you win. This is my goal over the next 5 years, using the stage red and stage orange mindset and the power of Thick Face Black Heart, I am going to get laid a lot, make lots of money and allow for my ego or psyche to have everything material that it craves. By then, I should be able to dissolve the selfish desires out of my system and I can start to take a look at systems thinking in a way that I can have a much more profound impact on a large group of people.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #100 I just reached the century mark for journaling, congratulations! The main thing in my life that I am working on is being able to approach women and express my attraction towards them. This has got to be my main priority. I don't want to put this off any longer. Everything I do right now needs to be geared towards accomplishing this in life. This means that I am going to prioritize this over everything else. Be very aware of your tendency to become attached to the women that you see everyday through work. This is a trap. DO NOT hang out with them outside of the studio, you will become attached and want to pursue them, and this is not the goal. I want to make a streak goal in which I compliment at least one woman on her appearance every single day. Is this possible? Yeah I think so... This is what I need to do in order to create some momentum for myself. I did this today, I was at a coffee shop and I told a woman that I "that's a nice dress" - this is honestly a really good start. The prospect of approaching a woman at a coffee shop and hitting on her feels incredibly daunting, but I can get there. Deep down, I do believe in myself, but there is so much resistance to this becoming a reality. The vision of it going well has got to propel you into action. That is the key. Your current reality is that you do not approach women and you don't have anyone to have sex with or become intimate with in your life. Your vision is to firstly have an abundance of women that you can have sex with, and out of that bunch, you will choose one of them and you will make that one your girlfriend. The reality is that I feel like a little bitch, unable to get laid, has no courage to approach women, this causes me great shame and pain and I don't want to go on living like this. I have to change this about myself. I just have to. And every approach will making you stronger and stronger and stronger. The road is long and treacherous but I am willing to go down it. 2.9.26 Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 1 Make bed: 8 Journal: 100 Brush teeth streak: 100 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 74 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 Belly breathing exercise: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 102 No smoking weed streak: 57

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #99 Its 6:47 on Monday and I have dance practice at 10:15. This means that I have to leave here by 8:30am to get to the gym at 9:00 am. I also have to figure out what I’m eating today and what I’m cooking. I unfortunately cannot open the actualized forum page right now because it is not working. I am going to have to journal about my upcoming week without it. Thats okay… there is a lot that I need to figure out. I kind of like waking up this early (5:30 this morning) it gives me a lot of time to figure things out before I get my day started. I no longer feel like a victim in this world. I am a force that can accomplish anything that I put my mind to. I am confident and self-reliant. All of my goals will be met with enough drive and focus. Okay, so I still have to eat breakfast and figure out what I am going to eat and do for the remainder of the week. I really wish I could quiet my mind down. It is so noisy up there. Like shut the fuck up.. Let me focus on my goals. What are your goals?? World champion dancer Successful dance instructor, making 6 figures Clear headed, emotional master Not swayed by the opinions of others Gets laid A LOT Is very sexy and very attractive Is not afraid to fail Expresses himself authentically out there on the dance floor Has a YouTube channel with a million subscribers, talking and making an impact on his students Has a shredded, “God-like” physique Is enlightened, understand the truth about reality and the human condition I am starting to see the trajectory of this work: I can have all of the sex that I want, I can have all of the fame that I want, I can sculpt myself into anything that I want myself to be, I can be insanely attractive and sexy, I can be a vessel for Truth, I can be the man that women look up to and swoon over and are inspired by, I can be THAT GUY.. and this is exactly where I’m heading, just watch. Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 0 Make bed: 7 Journal: 100 Brush teeth streak: 102 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 73 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 Belly breathing exercise (count to 100) "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 7 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 101 No smoking weed streak: 56

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #98 What do I want for my life? I want to be able to approach any woman on this planet and authentically express my infatuation for her. This is my main goal right now. I also want to become a successful dance instructor, teaching lots of lessons on a weekly basis and being able to provide genuine value to my students. So much value that they are astounded at the value that I am providing towards them. I also want to be able to have the freedom to make my own schedule. I want to fuck lots of women. I want to handle business and be confident and take care of things and have emotional intelligence and work hard and be able to talk to people with confidence. I want to be a sexy and attractive man that gets laid A LOT. But… I am feeling some type of way right now.. but why? I feel lost. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing. I feel like I have no grasp on what Im doing. I feel behind. I feel like all of my students are leaving me. I have got to find a way to create balance in my life so that I don't feel overwhelmed by everything that's going on. My vision is so much bigger than any one girl. Remember that. My new goal is to wake up as soon as the alarm sounds. The time that I wake up will vary and that is okay. It is clear what I have to do. Now what will my workout consist of? 1. Leg press 2. Barbell squat 3. Dumbbell lunge 4. Lat pulldown 5. Dumbbell curls 6. DB rear lateral raise Sunday: 6:30 shower and groom 7:00 meditate 7:30 eat breakfast and journal 8:00 get ready to leave 9:00 leave for gym 9:30 work out - finish legs workout and pull exercises 10:30 head to convention center 11:00 work convention center 2:00 head to grocery store 2:30 grocery shop - guac (avocados, red onion, limes, cilantro, chips), chicken thighs, rice, asparagus or a veggie on sale, whole milk, shrimp, banza pasta, kidney beans, lentils, mixed veggies, toothpaste) 3:30 throw laundry in the washing machine - also have mom 3:30 cook meals for the next 3 days 5:00 give yourself a haircut and put laundry away 6:00 head to mikes house for the Super Bowl Morning Routine: Wake up as soon as alarm sounds: 0 Make bed: 6 Journal: 99 Brush teeth streak: 101 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 72 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 6 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 100 No smoking weed streak: 55

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #97 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 5 Make bed: 5 Journal: 98 Brush teeth streak: 100 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 71 Meditation streak: 5 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 5 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 5 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 5 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 5 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 5 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 5 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 99 No smoking weed streak: 54

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #96 Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 4 Make bed: 4 Journal: 97 Brush teeth streak: 99 Floss streak: 4 Shower streak: 70 Meditation streak: 4 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 4 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 4 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 4 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 4 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 4 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 4 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 4 No alcohol streak: 98 No smoking weed streak: 53

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #95 Things are going to change for me, drastically. I say this because I am attracting an optimistic and / or hopeful mindset into my life. I am starting to curve into everything that I am afraid of. I am no longer afraid to embarrass myself or to mess things up. I drive into whats uncomfortable. I take a delight in it. I want to know the Truth in every situation, even if it hurts, especially if it hurts actually. The idea is not to avoid hard times, it is to be able to take on hard times with an inner strength. This is the best route to take because I have VERY big goals. I want to own a dance studio, I want to have a house, I want to be a world champion dancer, I want to fuck LOTS of women, I want a God-like physique... This is the vision I have for my life. If I am going to actualize all of these things into my life, I have to become emotionally sound and disciplined and mature so that I can handle the trials and tribulations that come with manifesting this into my life. Lets take emotional mastery as an example. The root solution to dealing with emotions is to experience them fully instead of avoiding them. This is very obvious to me now, so take every action possible to you to do things that are emotionally challenging, especially when dealing with people. You know what else I have noticed? When certain people are around, I act differently. I can see and feel it, I don't act authentically anymore, it is unfortunate, it gets me out of the flow. But thats okay... this is just the reality of the situation that you are currently in. Okay, so I am sitting at a coffee shop. There are a few things that I would like to work on and I also really want to go to the gym because I only did the first set of my routine. What does your work schedule look like today? I am going to leave at 3 o'clock today to finish my workout. I could also use some more food because I couldn't drink a protein shake this morning because I didn't bring home my protein container. I could also use a meditation session but idk when or where to do this at. Okay, so I am going to leave here in 5 minutes to finish my workout. Then I am going to grab a protein shake at Cubmerland Farms so that I can substitute my protein shake that I missed this morning. Then. I will come back to work. I ahve to start teaching at 5:30 and I am going straight through until 9:15. I have the two group classes (6:15 and 7:00) and then P*******, J********, and I am forgetting who else. This means that I have to summarize one of my students critique sheets. I will do this first thing. I want to have a better understanding of my student body and what I need to do throughout the week in order to set myself up for success. I want to grow here rapidly. Truly. I don't know whats gotten into me lately but I am very focused and ambitious, its great, its awesome. And it stems from having a very large vision for my life. I am able to look at things going on around me with dispassion and detachment so that I can accomplish my goals independent of the opinions of others and how it will affect others. This is Thick Face, Black Heart. So when I start my day I am going to type up the summary so that I can present it to here on her lesson. I am going to teach all day and I would like to develop a better system of "things to do" while I am working. There are so many things that I am working on and I feel like I dont have a good handle on it. Tomorrow, I have a coaching at 11 am, which means I have to get out the door at 10:30 am. I also don't have food made for myself tonight, which is not ideal. Should I do this tomorrow morning or tonight? To not wake up my mom I probably should do it tomorrow, but that means that I have to eat something else tonight when I get home because I have nothing prepared, which I am okay with, my mom made some meatloaf and something else I think, why dont I just eat that so that I don't wake her up. I feel like there are other things I need to do but I m not sure what yet. I also need a new smooth ballroom shirt. I want to figure that out soon... and a vest too! After work, I am going to that swing dance place and then I am heading home... wait a minute, I have to work out tomorrow as well. When am I going to do that? IDK I will figure that out later. And then on Saturday, I am going to be heading to NYC to hit on women! I am very excited to jump into this deep cold pool. Okay... I have to go work out. Thursday: 7:30 shower and groom 8:00 Meditate 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Pack everything 9:30 Cook meals for Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday 10:30 Leave for gym 11:00 Work out 12:00 Dance practice 2:00 Dance practice 4-10pm Work 10pm Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 3 Make bed: 3 Journal: 96 Brush teeth streak: 98 Floss streak: 3 Shower streak: 69 Meditation streak: 3 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 3 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 3 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 3 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 3 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 3 No alcohol streak: 97 No smoking weed streak: 52

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #94 Wednesday: 7:00 Shower and groom 7:30 Meditate 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast 8:30 Pack everything 9:00 head to dance training 10a-12p - dance training ($20) 12-10pm Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 2 Make bed: 2 Journal: 95 Brush teeth streak: 97 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 68 Meditation streak: 2 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 2 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 2 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 2 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 2 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 96 No smoking weed streak: 51

Interlude: Personal Journal Things to do after work: - nail down those moves: foxtrot explosion, tango abanico, and tango vienesse cross and memorize the routine - finish workout -Get gas - shovel driveway so that there is room for both cars -bring home water bottle Things to do (at some point): -get headlight fixed -sit down and figure out finances -figure out charger set up Insight: Honestly, spending those 45 minutes scrolling on Instagram absolutely fucked me. It pushed everything back this is why having discipline over your habits is so important because you have such a large vision now. I want to do REALLY WELL at this competition in New Orleans l. REALLY WELL. I am going to work my ass off to learn these steps and have proper form.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #93 A couple of things I'd like to run by you. Firstly, nice job with the workout yesterday. I made a list of everything that I want to do this week and it has done wonders. I have everything that I want to do this week planned out to a tee. I am excited to see where this goes. The road to become an attractive man is a treacherous, tumultuous path. Things don't get easier, but your ability to handle life's challenges greatly increases. I met a girl while I was on break at work yesterday. She couldn't find the coffee shop so I walked her over there, we chatted a bit. At the end of the conversation, I wish I told her that she was cute and asked her for her number.. too bad.. I will have many more opportunities though. You have to realize that every approach that you make is going to make these girls days, its not just about you. Tuesday: 7:30 Shower and Groom 8:00 consultation call 8:30 Journal and eat breakfast 9:00 Meditate 9:30 unsure 10:30 head to dance 11:00 Dance practice 12:30 Head to gym 1:00 Work out 2:00 Dance practice 4-10 pm: Work 10 Head home 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Practice circulating sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Make bed: 1 Journal: 94 Brush teeth streak: 96 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 67 Meditation streak: 1 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 1 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 1 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 1 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 1 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 95 No smoking weed streak: 50

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #92 Okay so I have created a meal plan as well as a schedule for the ENTIRE week. I am very excited to implement this. I am also going to go out to the city this upcoming weekend to hit on girls. This is my main priority. I HAVE to change myself into a man that gets laid often. This is non-negotiable. It is 7 am right now and I have to leave here by 7 am. I still have to finish my breakfast, shower and groom and also cook my food for the week. Hopefully I get everything done. Monday: 7:00: Shower and groom 7:30 Meditation 8:00 Journal and eat breakfast (protein shake) 8:30 Pack everything up 9:00 Head to the gym 9:30 Work out 10:30 am dance practice 1-10pm: work 10:30 Brush teeth and wash face 11:00 Circulate sexual energy Morning Routine: Wake up at 7:30am: 0 Make bed: 0 Journal: 93 Brush teeth streak: 95 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 66 Meditation streak: 0 Affirmations / Visualizations streak: Hitting on women visualization: 0 "I love having sex with lots of women" affirmation: 0 "I see funniness everywhere" affirmation: 0 "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others" affirmation: 0 Free Talk exercise (Say anything that comes to your mind): 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 94 No smoking weed streak: 49