Spiritual Warrior

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #64 Today, I am going to head to the neighboring state to visit a girl. My intention going into this is to become more and more aware of what she needs for her development, I will also be letting loose and having fun as I would like to enjoy myself and she is an awesome girl. One thing that people get from me is a loving energy, a very loving energy. This is something that I’ve been able to manifest and grow over years. And I look forward to how loving I become in this life. My job here on this Earth is to become the MOST LOVING that I possibly can be. Give yourself up, surrender to the Greater Unknown. I have a vision of this girl crying. I wrap my arms around her and squeeze. She is crying about something that is silly, I tell her that “she is loved,” “We all love you and will always love you, no matter what you do, remember that,” This is what this girl is missing, its what A LOT of people are missing. Unfortunately, there are many parents out there in the world that don’t TRULY LOVE their kids, they love them but in a selfish and controlling way, in which they retract the love if the kid does something that they don’t approve of. This is sad, but the parent doesn’t know any better… I mean this is how they were raised as well. But we are growing as a society and we are evolving into something greater, something much better. But there is love all around us, just be open to feeling it. What do I envision for this girl, try to take yourself out of the equation. The idea is that she SHOULDN’T need you for anything, that is what you should want for her because not needing anyone for anything is a necessary part of everyone’s evolution. The cool thing about this is that you are able to see past her and past yourself, I am not focusing on her not texting me back yet, I am focused on what SHE NEEDS in her development which is key. What does she need in order to develop herself into a healthier human and reach her full potential? The first thing that comes to mind is the fact that she does not love herself. This is big, she is very insecure, mainly about her looks. I could give her compliments, which means I have to give compliments to other women as well. And you could start with something as simple as “I like your shirt.” I think something this simple could go a long way. Next, I’d like to analyze what she projects outwards, this will give me insights into what she needs. She definitely judges the way I sound and also the things that I wear at times, this means that she judges the way she sounds and the way she looks because we are both one and the same. What can I do about that? I can compliment her voice somehow as well. Honestly though, I think journaling about this is a bit overkill, I mean these things are supposed to come up organically. I think having the intention of helping her in her development is probably enough for now. Okay… fair enough. But be conscious of how she acts and then journal about it afterwards… okay, deal. As you can see, I like to have conversations with myself. This is a good way to deal with things for me, it feels like my lower self is talking to my Higher Self. The Higher Self is somewhere “out there” and the lower self is the one that is controlling the body and making choices. I am not affected by petty things anymore. I am on my own journey and my vision includes you and also sees past you, onto GREAT HORIZONS, ones that you nor I can currently see. But they are there and I will not stop until I meet my Maker. Its 9:50 am and I said I'd get there at 1 pm. It takes 1.5 hours, which means I have to leave from wherever I'm at by 11:30 am. I would like to unpack my car first and foremost, then give myself a haircut, then work out to some capacity and also pack that ebay item. Okay, ready go. Things to do: Print shipping label Package item and put in car Unpack car Organize room Haircut 1.4.26 Morning routine goals: Wake up at 7:30am: 1 Journal: 64 Brush teeth streak: 66 Floss streak: 2 Shower streak: 37 Meditation streak: 2 Funniness affirmations: 1 Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 2 Wash face streak: 2 No electronics before bed streak: 2 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 65 No smoking weed streak: 20 Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $687.50

Interlude: Personal Journal ~ 1.3.26 I fuckin' love journaling. So right now, I am sitting at IHOP. I had to do this pancake challenge in which I have to sit here for 24 hours, the catch is that for every pancake I eat, I get to subtract an hour. I've been here since 11:30 am, its 6:30 pm and I have eaten 15 total pancakes. This means that I have to stay here until 8:30 pm in order to finish the challenge. I was definitely suffering throughout the process, especially during pancakes 10-15, but looking back on it, it wasn't too bad. I will happily sit here for another two hours and just read and journal. I'm happy I did this. I also documented everything and put it onto my Instagram story. This was a lot of fun and it lines up with my vision of starting a YouTube channel, I am getting used to videoing myself and also I just love creating, it is one of my pure joys that I get out of life. People were VERY supportive in the comments, which I really appreciated, it felt like a real team effort! I really want to set my life up for success and I think that I made a mistake going away from the habit of waking up at 7:30 am every day, this is a good goal. I also stopped doing the affirmations of "I see funniness everywhere" and "I am independent of the good or bad opinions of others," these affirmations are golden, they make me a much happier person and a much funnier person, which helps with lessons and attracting women. I stopped doing these out of pure laziness, I allowed my mind to take control and get its way. No more of that, I can do these affirmations on a daily basis. I also really want to set up my workout schedule and eating habits. Yes, I'm doing a great job, my physique is improving, but I would like to be more strategic for efficiency. With that being said, I am going to come back to this because I first and foremost need to make a list of things that I need to do in order to feel more at home at my moms house, which I just moved into. Here is a list of things that I would like to do: Things to do: Unpack everything else in your car Organize room, put clothes away, find spot for books and other items, etc And thats actually it... just get these things done for now, TONIGHT. And then you can either read or journal some more about your life

You can be broke and meditate 20 minutes a day. Getting laid and getting finances in order could be your main priority and meditate a little bit every day using your favorite meditation technique which will pay dividends down the road when you've already got a girlfriend and have a lot of money.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #63 Yesterday was an interesting day. Heres the thing, I know that this tracker is in flux right now. My mood is also in flux. I am still in the process of moving into my moms house so things are not set up yet. Heres the thing though, even when I am not "100%," I'm still doing pretty well. Again, I am able to access mindsets that are VERY loving. And this is super important, both to my happiness as well as the effect that it has on others. Now, don't get this confused with being a "nice guy," I use lots of push - pull when dealing with people, there is lots of teasing and "poking fun" - I have learned that this is the best way to have a good time with colleagues and friends. We had a staff outing at this German restaurant and someone had to get "spanked" with a paddle because we bought a flight of shots. Other people volunteered me and I genuinely don't mind doing things like this, doing things like this always pay dividends in the "energy" department. I walk up their and get spanked... And it actually REALLY hurt, there was a really painful sting with each swipe. God damn... But I did it and afterwards I felt an emotional release and I felt more open socially and emotionally. I have been noticing that other people tend to talk about me around the table, which I am actually proud of (these are not bad things either, its all positive). This means that I am making some sort of impact on them, I am no longer invisible. Next, we go out to a salsa club and I have a lot of fun dancing with everyone there. I am going to keep doing this and practice certain things like eye contact and approaching women and socializing when I can.. In these salsa club settings I am not actually hitting on them... although who knows maybe I can build up to that.. The "hitting on" will occur during the city trips and while going about my business on the day-to-day. I have finally built something tangible with my life. I love my job, I love myself. I love my friends and family. I love everything about it. I am so proud of myself and what I have been able to create.. And the best part... Things are only going to get better. I love myself and everyone on this fuckin' Earth! 1.2.26 Morning routine goals: Journal: 63 Brush teeth streak: 65 Floss streak: 1 Shower streak: 36 Meditation streak: 1 Funniness free talk exercise: 0 Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 1 Wash face streak: 1 No electronics before bed streak: 1 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 64 No smoking weed streak: 19 Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $687.50

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #62 As you can see, I have reset most of these trackers. I am in the process of overhauling this thing again, as I have somehow lost the connection between why I'm doing the habit and what I'm building towards. I started journaling about what I am going to eat for food for the week and also when I am going to cook and grocery shop for it. I will post about this later, this habit tracker will be under construction for a few days as I figure this out. In the meantime, here is the the list "as is." 1.1.26 Morning routine goals: Journal: 62 Brush teeth streak: 64 Floss streak: 0 Shower streak: 35 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 0 Sexual abundance affirmation: 0 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 63 No smoking weed streak: 18 Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $687.50

Interlude: Goals in life (categorized by tiers) I constructed this in order to create a very solid and tangible vision for what I am building towards in my life. This should create motivation within myself and the habits that I partake in on a day-to-day basis should follow suit so that I am building towards eaching all of these lofty goals one day. Valuable things require time to develop. First tier (5 year goals): Have a shredded physique Workout 3-5 days a week Eat 150 g of protein a day Win dance competitions Compete in as many dance competitions as possible Get a coaching once a week Practice as much as I comfortably can Become a “player” that has sex with lots of women Go out to Boston every weekend and talk to women Go out salsa dancing Thursday, Friday, Saturday nights Have a Youtube channel in which I talk about masculinity and I approach women “in the field” Start recording yourself talking about things Start recording yourself going out and talking to people Have full body orgasms while having sex, last for at least 30 minutes Get in touch with energy fields while meditating Masturbate without stimulation and last as long as possible Buy a cute little house with a porch and outdoor bar Save up money and continue to grow income through dance and YouTube Transition phase (5-10 years) Marry the girl of my dreams Second tier (10 year goals): Become an Arthur Murray dance studio owner Build lessons and events as quickly as possible Reach LOC 600 (non-dual state) Meditate every morning and read spiritual books every night Third tier (20 year goals): Open up a meditation center Daily meditation and save up money Write books about Truth and enlightenment Daily meditation and reading spiritual books Reach LOC 1,000 Daily meditation and reading spiritual books

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #61 I have grown frustrated with myself. I don't know whats going on but I am not attached to my vision anymore. I am waking up whenever and doing whatever... Now this is better than what I used to do for sure, I am now at least contemplating what I should be doing instead of just allowing my emotions to run the show right from the get-go (when I get out of bed.) There are a few moving parts here though, I just moved back in with my mom and I haven't really unpacked yet so I really need to settle into her house. Why don't you just do that and then you can take a look at the tracker. Cuz this is the other thing, I am feeling resistance towards some of the things on the tracker.. some of them are no brainers but I am starting to not take some of them very seriously.. I will need to focus in on them which I think firstly takes looking at long term goals. What are you trying to do with your life first and foremost? I've been noticing that the longer I am on this self- actualizing journey, the more rewards I get from Leo's videos, that's pretty cool. 12.31.25 Morning routine goals: Journal: 61 Brush teeth streak: 63 Floss streak: 12 Shower streak: 34 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 5 Sexual abundance affirmation: 5 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 3 No ejaculation streak: 3 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 2 No alcohol streak: 62 No smoking weed streak: 17 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: I don't give a fuck what he thinks about me I had a cool insight today, so I have decided that since I am still climbing out of debt and I have a heart surgery coming up, I am going to move back in with my mom for a few months until I can deal with these things. It then crossed my mind that my brother in law is coming over and he is going to see me unpacking my stuff. I think to myself, “I wonder what he is going to think about me moving back in here…” and then it hit me, “I don't give a single fuck what he thinks about this decision, I actually couldn't possibly care any less.." This is a breakthrough moment as I used to think about what others think of me sooooooo often. Nowadays, my vision is too strong for me to care what these people think about me, especially since I don't even really like him, he does nothing for my life, nothing. So stay clear of petty thoughts, you have way too much to live for to waste energy on that.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #60 Okay, a few things to unpack: Yes, I have lost some motivation to do these habits. I would like to have a better grasp on why I'm doing them. The other thing is that there is no excuse for to me not meditate in the morning, no excuse... however, I hear all of these different ways to meditate and it causes confusion within myself, I need to just sit down and pick something and I will use that for the next month.. then I can reassess.. But you HAVE to meditate.. you just have to in order to reach your goals... no excuses! I should also be making my bed in the morning, I'd love to add that. I would also like to say something about working out, so as you can see, the tracker is listed at "1." However, for the past I don't know.. 6 weeks, if we're counting the push ups and pull ups, I've been working out between 5-6 times a week. This is impressive and I haven't been that consistent before. And I have definitely seen the progress in the mirror. What I need to do is figure out a workout schedule that works with my work schedule. That is a good goal for the day, set your life up so that you are meditating and working out consistently, in a way that is going to grow you and help you achieve your goals. I will come back to this later. Next, I am going to be moving out of the house that I'm living in TODAY and moving back in with my mom. I decided this a couple of days ago and I've told the homeowner and my mom and everyones on board. I have a heart surgery coming up next year and I am going to have to pay a few thousand dollars for it, my car is also not doing very well, and I am barely paying my bills as it is... jesus, when am I going to get out this financial hole.. I am hoping that this is a good start, subtracting the rent from my expenses is going to give me about a $600 surplus which is exactly what I need to climb out of debt and pay for the surgery. The last thing I'll talk about is my roommate. So I hadn't seen my roommate for a few weeks. She just stopped being in the common areas. I knew something was up because she's usually quite social. I had become frustrated with her because I was literally doing every one of her dishes, she didn't touch that sink for WEEKS. Anyways, I was gonna bring this up to her, but now that I'm leaving and seeing her in the state she was in yesterday (which I will get to in a minute).. there really isn't a point. She came downstairs yesterday and holy shit this woman's emotional state was.. I mean its hard to explain.. but I would describe it as lost, anxious, depressed, whats the point? - I mean this is probably the worst mental state I have ever witnessed. I could feel the energy, and it made me feel very bad for her, but at the same time I REALLY didn't want to be around her. She took the day off today to visit her friend in Maryland, which I KNOW she cannot afford. I don't know what the fuck shes doing. If I found myself in that emotional state, I would do EVERYTHING I could do address it, ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. She told me that she was on meds for 10 years and she just came off of them and this is why she is feeling the way she is... jesus christ.. I mean what a fuckin' mess.. anyways, I hope she figures this out, I mean she has to right? Okay, one more thing... There are some things that I have to do today, its my friends birthday and I'm going to post something on Instagram to wish him a happy birthday, I have to move all of my stuff out of here except the bed and dresser, I of course have to shower, and I need to meditate.. see this is the thing, I don't do the morning routine in order anymore, which is exactly what I wanted to do in the first place, have a set routine that I follow EVERY FUCKIN MORNING.. and I have completely gone away from that. Why you might ask? Well its truly because I don't see the benefit of it in reaching my goals, in my vision.. If I did see the benefit, I would prioritize it. I am going to come back to this idea later. 12.30.25 Morning routine goals: Journal: 60 Brush teeth streak: 62 Floss streak: 11 Shower streak: 33 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 4 Sexual abundance affirmation: 4 Work out: 1 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 0 Wash face streak: 0 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 2 No ejaculation streak: 2 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 1 No alcohol streak: 61 No smoking weed streak: 16 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: Personal Journal 12.31.25 With all of this time off with the holidays, I gotten very relaxed and not care so much about disciplinary goals, I think this is normal as I am hitting a reset button and I will get back into a nice groove when January turns up. I am also starting to put into perspective how far I have come over the past two years. It is truly remarkable, TRULY REMARKABLE. I am a grounded, attractive man that enjoys the hard work of going to the gym and reading books. Every chance I get, I am working on something, something to challenge himself. I am also deeply loving towards others, this has hit me recently as I have been able to enter a Field of Love and stay there throughout the day, no judgements, just pure Love pouring out of me. I have an abundance of women in my life and I am able to act authentically from my Heart when they are around. I have goals, lots of goals, lots of big, tangible goals. This is what pushes me to grow myself. If I am going to reach these massive goals that both scare but excite me, then I have to do x, y, and z. This creates a system in which there is no lack of motivation... because the vision is so clearly in my mind, there is no chance in hell I'm going to waste an entire day jerking off and watching Netflix... no shot.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #59 I left off at 31:00 "You need some kind of medium... some kind of larger objective that is going to push you forward... " Personal Journal ~ 12.29.25 Writing in journal streak: I would like to state that I have been writing in this journal every single day since I started this... which is 59 days for 59 journal entries... that is impressive and I should add that to the list. How is the brushing teeth streak at 61 you might be asking... I have no idea, but hey fuck it.. Last week recap: So heres the thing, I had an emotionally challenging week last week, dealing with romantic feelings for someone, realizing how bad my finances are, waking up at 5 am, staying in the sauna, feeling embarrassed because I was too broke to buy my family Christmas presents. This stuff hurt but it was necessary... Yesterday, I had one of the best days in a long time. I woke up with lots of energy, in nothing short of a phenomenal mood. I dropped my car off at the shop and then walked around the town, taking photos of the scenery. I then went into work and called a bunch of clients and taught great lessons. I was goofy, in a great mood, getting lots of things done. It was a near perfect day. Peak states: These days come into my life and I very rarely used to experience these kinds of peak enjoyments before, the clear headedness, the fun and enjoyment, the presence, the expression... On second thought, I would experience these things for sure but a lot less frequently, when I had a girlfriend, I had lots of moments like this and in college for sure when I was hanging out with my friends or after college again.. hanging out with my friends... but here I am in this state AT MY JOB... I am getting paid for this... This job puts me in this state... thats fuckin' amazing! And ideally, this will trickle into your personal life too... when you're hanging out with friends and/or hanging out with a girl. That is very exciting. Now, what contributed to this phenomenal mood is I was fasting, i didn't eat for 24 hours.. I went from 8:30 pm two nights ago to 8:30 pm yesterday, no food. This did wonders for me... I was clear headed, there was nothing slowing down my mental faculties.. I want to keep doing this and see where it leads... I actually have A LOT to journal about, so buckle in... Girl situation: The next thing is, I made a big mistake with this girl in my life. I started to have feelings for her so out of what I was calling "respect for her" I started to drop the goal of hitting on other women.. what a mistake that was. This made me needy and clingy and desperate, that was the energy that I was giving off.. I put all of my chips in one basket without getting any sort of investment from her. What a fuckin' idiot.. now be nice to yourself.. You are learning so the approaching women tracker is back and I REALLY want to start a self help YouTube channel to help men with their dating lives and I will do this, I don't care how long it takes or how painful it will be. BE YOURSELF: The next thing is it is quite difficult to find a balance between being loving towards myself and enjoying life while also trying to grow into a man that has discipline in his life and is able to "handle business." I find sometimes that these things are polarizing and I don't know what to make of it. Now... I do know one thing for certain, I am DOING WELL... I really am.. I have a job I love... I am happy and content... I am doing challenging things... I am definitely pushing myself... Like I am trying my fuckin' best... AND for the first time in my life.. I am acting in an expressive manner, in which I am able to just BE MYSELF.. This is HUGE. Fuckin' HUGE. I cannot express that enough.. I am finally BEING MYSELF! Halle-fuckin-lu-jah! Emptiness: I have been reading The Book of Not Knowing recently (I of course still have spiritual pursuits that I am trying to actualize despite all of the material desires..) and there was an interesting contemplation exercises at the end of chapter 3 in which the author had you contemplate and feel into your own being for a state of emptiness. This emptiness was very clear to me the day prior, when I was going through those struggles at dance practice. My stomach was completely hollow, it felt very unpleasant. Whats interesting about this state is that my mind was actually very clear, meaning I was aware of every thought running through my head.. now the thoughts were mostly not positive which was painful and maybe it was really the thoughts that created the suffering and NOT the emptiness in the stomach. That is something to contemplate. The other thing is I feel like this emptiness is always present, it didn't really arise from anywhere, it is always within my being. What happens is the mind will churn and churn and churn and it distracts me from this feeling of emptiness. Now heres a question, why would the mind want to distract your being from this empty and hollow feeling? For some reason, it deems it as a negative feeling state, when in reality I don't think its negative, as a matter of fact, I was able to breathe with more awareness and I was much more aware of what was going through my mind and body. Approaching women tracker: While I was out yesterday, I approached two women and asked them for directions. Nice job! This is how you start doing something very challenging and scary, you take baby steps. Scatter brained: Now, the issue that I am starting to see within my psyche is this: So yes, I have lots of energy right now.. That is awesome... this is what pushes me to accomplish things.. contrast this to a low energy state in which I don't care about anything and I just want to jerk off and lay in bed.. fuck that.. I'm no where near that and I haven't been for a while... however, I am very scatter brained, thinking about this and that and that and this and it would really benefit me to streamline things so that I am working viscerally on one thing at a time. How am I going to do that.. I'm honestly not sure, but thats okay.. Just set the intention and let go. Morning routine goals: Journal: 59 Brush teeth streak: 61 Floss streak: 10 Shower streak: 32 Meditation streak: 0 Funniness free talk exercise: 3 Sexual abundance affirmation: 3 Work out: 0 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 5 Wash face streak: 5 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 1 No ejaculation streak: 1 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 60 No smoking weed streak: 15 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 2 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Interlude: Very happy emotional state today ~ 12.29.25 It is one of the last days of 2025 and I am filled with excitement and happiness for whats to come. It's funny because emotionally, this past week has been one of the most challenging times in a long time.. But I have come out of this with a newfound understanding of what I have to do next year and where I am heading, I haven’t felt this clear headed in A WHILE. Good luck man, may the force be with you. I am stuck in a cool college town right now because my car is in the shop. I am going to have some fun and go on an adventure, take some photos, which I will put up on my Instagram. Have fun brother.

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #58 Okay, so a few weeks back I took out the tracker to track my progress in hitting on women. This was because I started to have feelings for one girl, which got my head spinning and all I wanted was to sack up with her. This turned out to be detrimental because it made me needy and caused for severe negative emotions. Of course, this was a positive experience for my growth, just not very pleasant. I am also soooooo fuckin' scared of taking this hitting on girls seriously. I'm so fuckin' scared. But heres the thing..... I have to fuckin' do this. I just have to. ... A couple of other things that I'm up to, I am going to start Door Dashing and maybe even get a second job at a coffee shop to pay for my bills. But I AM GOING to make time for myself to head to the city and hit on women. Make it fun for yourself and you might want to add a visualization exercise every morning.. I am excited about this! An abundance of sex is coming into my life. I also wrote a letter to my ex girlfriend and I told her that I really appreciate everything that she did for me. She made me feel more loved than anyone has ever made me feel. This created the pathway for me to start loving myself, truly loving myself and I'm very happy with how far I've come in regards to that and I owe her praise for getting me started down that path. Is this the right move? I don't know, but it'll make her feel really good and thats what matters. I am also going to post an Instagram post about my friend because its his birthday in two days, it'll be filled with a bunch of funny and cool photos of him. I made sure to highlight him in the post, making sure that HE looks good and not worrying about myself. This is about him. Thats important. He will appreciate this, I know it. I am also thinking that I'd really like to masturbate every night, so that I can feel out the sexual energy in my body. Should I add taking maca every morning to the equation... Idk... maybe... An abundance of sex in my life... and to inspire other men.... This is what I'm after and I WILL find a way to deal with this... you can count on that. KILL THE BOY AND LET THE MAN BE BORN The boy avoids discomfort, the man charges into it. You can't rise if you let the boy keep the wheel "What if we fail? What if it hurts?" KILL THAT VOICE The boy says "I hope," the man says "I will" The boy runs from pain, the man runs through it Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 60 Floss streak: 9 Shower streak: 31 Meditation streak: 4 Funniness free talk exercise: 2 Sexual abundance affirmation: 2 Work out: 3 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 4 Wash face streak: 4 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 0 No ejaculation streak: 0 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 59 No smoking weed streak: 14 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 0 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Let the journey begin! Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

Habits and Disciplines Journey Entry #57 After a solid day of motivation two days ago, I had one of the most emotionally challenging days of the year. I felt an empty pit in my stomach, I felt like no one loved me, I felt like everything was pointless, I had no motivation to do anything, and nothing I did could get me out of the hole that I was in. Today, I am feeling a little bit better but there is still a lack of motivation within me. Anyways, I hope to get all of my habits done today at least and get my "Sunday goals" met. I would also like to create the intention again of hitting on women, I was distracted by my feelings towards one girl in particular, but that is not a good way to go about dealing with this goal. You have to understand how to authentically express your attraction, this is what you are missing within your psyche. I am going to add the approach tracker back onto the bottom of the sheet in order to remind myself of this big goal. It will have three entries within it: 1. Number of women approached for something small, like asking for directions 2. Number of women complimented on their appearance and 3. Number of women approached and hit on. I like this idea because I can certainly do the first one, and this should be a warm up, the second one i have rarely done, and the third one i have done maybe a dozen times in my life. I also really want to get my finances in order. I am going to start doing Door Dash so that I can get a little extra cash, I'm just not sure how much time I should spend on it and when I am going to do it. 12.27.25 Morning routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 59 Floss streak: 8 Shower streak: 30 Meditation streak: 3 Funniness free talk exercise: 1 Sexual abundance affirmation: 1 Work out: 2 Night time routine goals: Brush teeth streak: 3 Wash face streak: 3 No electronics before bed streak: 0 "Whole day" goals: No porn streak: 8 No ejaculation streak: 8 Eat 150 g of protein streak: 0 No alcohol streak: 58 No smoking weed streak: 13 Sunday Goals: Financial plan for the week Give yourself a haircut Grocery shop & meal prep Circulate sexual energy Number of Attractive Women Approached: For a favor (for example: asking for directions): 0 Complimenting appearance: 0 Hit on with intention of getting number or setting up a date: 0 Let the journey begin! Debt relief figures This is how much money I have left to pay back: For mom: $340 For dad: $685 For debt relief program: $825

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