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Does anyone know if there's a way I can delete my forum account myself or does Leo/a mod have to do it? If it's the latter, I would really appreciate that being done. I don't recieve any substantial value from this forum and overall it's just been a distraction.

@Yimpa <3

Great, thank you.

My mind goes to these same places when I think about Infinity. It's horrific. Thinking about Infinity and being Infinity are two different things. I would just keep that in mind. It helps me.

I wouldn't force yourself if you're not feeling it. Pretty simple imo.

If my memory serves me right, Leo once said in a video (I cannot remember which one and it was awhile ago) that if someone who was also highly conscious met him in person say at his house, he and them wouldn't need to verbally speak to communitcate. What specifically did you mean by that, Leo? Did you mean that you both would be so attuned to each other's body language and facial expressions that you'd get all the necessary info you needed from each other without needing to speak or did you possibly mean you two would just straight up telepathically chat with each other?

I am 100% one of these "genetic freaks" that Leo has been so interested in for the past year or so. I have yet to meet someone who is naturally more insightful and sensitive than myself. I just haven't. I once took about 200 micrograms of LSD in highschool and had a complete God Realization. I almost expierenced God Realization just while high on weed once. I even almost expierenced it while driving sober in my car late at night. I tend to avoid these realizations, though, because having my particular sense of self resolidify feels like being sent to Hell. I'm VERY traumatized. Most of my childhood is lost to me (for now). Every therapist I've seen eventually (after like 10 sessions) starts to open up to me and then the therapist/client roles more or less reverse to my frustration. I can often intuitively predict or forsee how people's lives and especially romantic relationships will unfold over the next couple years or so with pretty good accuracy. I'm certain that some superstitious people think that I can read their minds lol If, after doing some much more intensive trauma work and mind training, I realize I am able to consistently predict future events or really see into the minds of other people, I'll just somehow base a career off of that and earn some good money for a time. I just felt compelled to share a bit about myself and brag about how mystical shmistical I am lol Thanks for reading. Edit: This is my first time posting and replying on here. I'll make sure to quote the people I'm replying to instead of just @ing them.

I think many people on this forum would benefit from reading/listening to Gabor Mate's perspective on trauma, addiction, mental/physical illness, and life in general. I think he's a wonderful example of someone who (imo) is very mature in a refreshing way. He's very good at being firm yet gentle when he's teaching and is excellent at synthesizing several different pov's into a larger, more inclusive one. I think his books should be on Leo's Book List. His writing style is very "pure" as far as I can tell. He touches on mysticsm but doesn't go too much into the deep end because he's honest about not having such experiences. He's very open and upfront about what he's experienced and what he holds to be true. I've found his work to be extremely helpful. He's great. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTQJmkXC2EI https://drgabormate.com/

@thepixelmonk Nice, I've heard good things about his son's journalism.

I'm sorry, but no. It wouldn't feel right to me. Also, I don't think there's really anything wrong with you per se. You may simply have some adaptations you unconsciously developed when you were young due to severe stress/traumatic events which could be the culprits that are holding you back in whichever way you feel held back. I suggest checking out Gabor Mate on YouTube and reading his books. His work helped me to understand people and myself in the way I do now. I probably would have ended my life a couple years ago if I hadn't found his work. I think his books should be on Leo's Book List.

No I can't. I've never seen one actually. Guess they're all afraid of me hehe

Lmfao I wish.

@Yimpa <3

@billiesimon If I meet with a mental health professional for long enough (which is not long for me), they eventually stop being helpful because they quickly get so comfortable with me that they start sharing bits and pieces about their own personal lives which my mind automatically picks up on and starts connecting dots about what kind of worldview they hold and how they were treated as a child and what they're insecure about and how their marriage is going and all that shit. I more or less seem to know more about them than they do me even though I've been talking way more than them. I grasp just how human they are and our sessions start becoming exhausting. I still respect them and appreciate their past help of course. I'm talking about intuitively understanding someone rather quickly and also being able to take many varibles into account on a situation so that I can intuitively have a good sense of how certain events will play out in the future. Right now, I think it's just my brain doing some heavy computing. I might just get so good at it (after much of my trauma is healed and I'm more in touch with my Self) that it will literally seem like magic to most people. Not to sound arrogant but it could be similar to how Paul experiences life in Dune. That book was boring as hell btw lol

@Tech36363 No I can't literally do that. At least not right now.

@Inliytened1 I understand and appreciate the warning. I try not to take anything any spiritual teacher says as dogma. I myself have several mental illness diagnoses. I could easily qualify as a disabled adult where I live. Thankfully, it is clear to me that the various (mental and physical) symptoms I experience are a result of severe trauma. Hence why I plan on doing some intensive tauma work.

@AndylizedAAY My stoner friend gave me them haha It was really unsafe and reckless in all honesty.

@Leo Gura Thanks Leo