Whitney Edwards

I want to do exercises to make my butt even rounder than it is.

I want to continue to evolve my Femininity.

^^you speak truth.

How many push-ups do you do in a day? Asking out of curiosity.

The biggest and the ugliest trap is Ego. Rest are just tools used by the Ego.

So what's the difference between a true genius and a truly insane?

Why should we travel at the speed of light? To become energy?

@Carl-Richard @Sincerity @Leo Gura Is a genetic freak who can attain insane levels of consciousness considered a genius too?

Likability also depends on cultural biases though. If a culture is biased against an invention or a new concept, there's a problem. It could be a problem even today. We have people who actively want to block AI's penetration into human fields. They are scared of AI. I guess that's possible. A cultural bias can stop a genius from spreading his ideas or his invention could remain stunted due to lack of recognition. (not chatgpt used)

No Gpt used.

Nah. We are quite capable of using our brains fella.

Vincent Van Gogh, Alan Turing. Examples of people whose value was never recognized during their lifetimes. Liking is a subjective thing. It's about conformity. Yes to a certain extent likability does act as a barrier or a bias. Yet it also protects society from mad scientists.

Mexico will be safe. Don't worry. The US has bigger fish to fry than worry about Mexico.

January 24, Friday , 2025. Woke up early. Feels a bit refreshed. No nightmares last night.

@zazen hope it's not China's strategy to get information.

I watched it over and over. It was so powerful.

January 23, Thursday, 2025. I told my sister that I got my passport. Today I felt protected by my husband.

Doing some psychoanalytical deep diving on your post with whatever information you provided. First off, good job for holding it together. 7 years is a very long time. She sounds manipulative to me when she tells you that love should be unconditional. She is using that as an excuse to be with other men. She is treating you like a second choice, someone she can come back to whenever she is not getting along great with the other men she is seeing. You're with her, probably just for the sex in my estimation. And that's not healthy. You don't enjoy a deep sense of connection with her since you don't feel like texting her. I see that as a signal that the connection is already gone/faded. She treated you much worse in the relationship. Sex is a deep connection, if you want to have it with anyone, of course you can, that's on you. But having sex with someone who you deeply admire and love is a fulfilling experience, a completely different experience from just having sex for the sake of sex. Now coming to the second girl. I don't think it's the best idea to have sex with someone who was your girlfriend's friend. It creates unnecessary drama in the relationship. Also a bit awkward. It's not a great sign of relationship integrity when a girl sleeps with her friend's boyfriend. It just screams awkward, desperate and morally shallow. Whatever may have been the reason behind her breaking up with her friend, it just screams low value and integrity. Especially when she told you that boyfriends of her friends are taboo. You cannot fully trust someone like that. It creates a web of desperation, awkwardness and discomfort. It seems from your post that you are a bit needy for sex which is perfectly fine since you didn't have girlfriends before and didn't have much experience with the opposite sex. So it could be the reason why you put up with your current/ex girlfriend for 7 years. And this neediness might attract unwanted girlfriends or partners in your life which is probably not healthy for you long term. But you have to overcome this neediness by being a bit sexually extroverted. You won't be able to overcome it by simply focusing on yourself. So I would recommend you to explore a lot out there, just healthy exploring, not exploring out of desperation as that can attract girls who use you and dump you or girls who just keep you around. By sexual extroversion I mean, you could have a bit of fun, just casual sex, being with other women. Since this girlfriend gave you a bad experience, cut her off completely and cut her friend off too. They are no good to you as you are sort of stewing in the same environment and the same energy. You need fresh energy. So go out, cold approach in a club, attend parties etc. Meet new people, new girls in your city. Have sex with women who are interested in casual sex. That way you sort of master your sexual neediness so that doesn't become a hurdle in relationships. It would be good if you move on from this current girl and never look back again. It's a sign of strength to pull yourself from a shitty situation. ". I live by myself in nice apartment in the center of the city, hanging out with friends and family and I also decided to change my work for the better (While I'm writting this I got a call from a job I really want to invite me for a job interview which is GREAT). I exercise, spend time in nature, read and just do things for which I didn't have energy before since my mind was ocupied by my relationship. "This part of your life is really great and kudos for bringing your life back on track despite your bad experience. Once you get some sexual experience, you'll be more matured and confident around women. I don't mean to say not to focus on yourself. You have to keep yourself and your goals as the center of your life. The sex is just for fun and getting experience and exposure. If you gain some confidence around women, you will be able to make better choices in your future female partners. Your choice should not come from desperation, neediness and fear. It should come from mutual trust, confidence and a happy wholesome relationship that is healthy for both you and your future partner. Best.

January 23, Thursday, 2025. I'm feeling better (slightly) I wish I could just cry. I had some ice cream today. I wanna sleep so bad. My health is recovering. I just want to sit in the back of a car and relax looking outside at city lights and people whispering. I was a bit worried about my passport and that worry has gone away for good.

I guess women act differently around different men. Generally Brazilian men are very hot.. Handsome + humor = cha'ming. Women can sense that. They let loose around such men. The same women close up when someone is boring or judgemental. Also brazilian culture celebrates romance despite being Christian.

I want to buy a sexy blue dress.

January 23, Thursday, 2025. Who cares if Trump became president. I can enjoy my life. I don't have to be bothered by it. Late night comedians help me deal with the Trump trauma lol.