Whitney Edwards

Some pondering....... Some bit of vulnerability. In hindsight, Leo helped me a lot and still continues to do so. Which is awesome. If I have to name one hero in my life, it's definitely Leo. He got me out of the ditch. He did me a great favor. I was trapped and he helped me get out of it. I will forever be indebted to Leo for this, I was going through a lot at that time in my life when Leo helped me. Even if my body leaves my body in death, I won't forget Leo's charity to me. I am highly grateful and indebted to him for his compassion in teaching me the right things. The next hero in my life is obviously my husband. My mom woke me up and did not let me sleep so I'm feeling a bit exhausted. She does this often where she won't let me sleep. Revisiting an old place in my life — To a person who I came across a few years back — I felt belittled by you. I mean who are you. This post is written in anger. Because yea, I still hoard some anger against you and someone else too. You judged me severely. I was going through a rough time and all you did was keep pushing me down. In hindsight a lot of people gave me good advice which I neglected. I wish I hadn't but I used to carry a chip on my shoulder back then, I had low social awareness, zero personal reflection, stuck in trauma and horrible conditions of living, I didn't even have money and I was suicidal nearly every day and I remember how you used to torture me nearly everyday. you were clearly manipulative. The memories flood back. I was sick of you and the mental torment. Thank God you're gone. I can breathe in peace. I mean who the f do you think you are. Huh. You're what. You are someone who lives in the basement in a dark room judging me with your keyboard and what good were you doing. How were you better than me, for you to judge me? You were like.... A truck driver or a fire fighter. And you would casually date whoever would f you in a club or something or some girl who you met on Tinder or some shit like that. And you thought you were a great dude. To look down on me. Thank God your true colors were revealed in time but you needed to be exposed. You had humiliated me and taken advantage of my weaknesses, manipulated everyone against me. And you think you're high quality I guess. I want to get this off my chest because it's been hurting me for so long. Thanks for all the trauma you gave me. You sick individual. You don't deserve happiness in life. Because your mind is full of sick ideas. You hate people and when that hate is reflected back at you, you feel sorry for yourself and play victim. I'm still recovering from all the trauma you created around me. I couldn't even block you. It was pathetic and painful to deal with..... In hindsight me getting removed was a huge blessing in disguise. I have ginormous self awareness now that I never had before. Time taught me things.. It was pure mental harassment. And you used everything in your power to manipulate, overpower and harm me. It was my misfortune to have come across you in my life. Some people are heroes. And some people are like you who bring others down by harming them covertly. I'll never forget the scars you gave me. The way you used to frighten me. I used to feel helpless back then in your presence. When you were gone, I said good riddance. I got freedom from your torment. In hindsight a lot of people were sympathetic to me. I never realized it. I used to judge them negatively. Because I was in a negative frame of mind and I needed more support, more advice, more guidance, more intimate conversations. Although this forum is a competitive place. So there's that. I needed a non-judgmental place, not a competitive place.. Because I came from a place of problems and not a place of privilege. But I did well for myself so far. Thanks to the people who supported me all through the time and still support, trust and believe in me. I needed them.

Great. Awesome. Congrats.

@retroAA thank you so so much for this post. It came at the right time. I had been thinking about this. So thank you.

I'll sleep for an hour and then wake up and do some meditation. I use a timer app for this. Then I have stuff to attend to. I will focus on Michael's advice after that.

Anyway I'm not very talented at chess. And I have an IQ of two digit. *feels inferior and flees.*

At first I felt like it's a bit red pilled, but he makes a good point. This advice is legit. @NoSelfSelf might completely agree. It's a great lesson in evolving masculinity.

I just want to explore political ideas exclusively.

So how would you envision Canada to be, personally? I mean politically and socially.

+1 Thanks for sharing your account.

Globally, the rolling out of neoliberal policies has led to a plethora of harmful socioeconomic consequences, including increased poverty, unemployment, and deterioration of income distribution.

Sounds like a bad place for bigots and an awful place for immigrants.

You have a point. Thanks for responding to my thread.

A few tips — Join a Facebook or WhatsApp group in your country that is related to personal development. Make a WhatsApp group of your own and send link to your friends who are interested in joining. Hire a therapist. Watch YouTube videos in your native language that's related to your personal development. Leo's older videos on primary self development are good enough Dissociate and disconnect from people who are not interested in self development. Socialize a shit ton to develop yourself. And to find people who are like-minded. Hire an accountability partner on this forum. Start a journal to keep a progress record. Interact more on the forum. Read relevant books. Making a forum might not help you because there's just too many unconscious people that need to be weeded out every now and then. It becomes a task in and of itself. You have to constantly patrol like a police. Not healthy for your own development. Best personal development advice — Save time and money.

Nope. Caring and loving a woman is respecting her. But breaking her boundaries is not. Also no gender likes clinginess to begin with. It reflects self esteem issues and lack of concern for the other, it's not real wholesome love, it's just keeping someone hanging around for needs. Relationships = mutual self respect.

Absolutely Sir. Bows to you in reverence.

What's exactly liberal about Canada? Explain to me in 10 separate points.

Sometimes I am secretly jealous of men. They can do so many things better than me. Why God why? Why are men so good at so many things? Now what I'm going to say is quite terrifyingly insightful and important and it provides me closure on a lot of questions about masculinity and femininity that have bothered me for some time. This chapter sometimes needs to be closed and sometimes reopened to gain more clarity and perspective. So..... I also think that this is the gist of the debates between men and women most of the time. Men want a high quality woman. They will never settle for a low quality woman. This is a given. They don't want the slutty character type of woman. They want a classy wonderful woman who fits their stereotype of an ideal woman. Or they just want to fuck when they don't get that. Now the real thing. Men reject low quality women in bars and clubs because it doesn't fit the kind of woman they want. They get frustrated by such women. Also they can't lower their standards. This is their inherent masculinity. But then they spot a high quality woman somewhere. Chances are that she is already taken. Like she already has a boyfriend. Now. Let's say she doesn't have a boyfriend. She might be the wife material, marriage material, commitment material. But the man doesn't fit to her standards of what's she wants in a man. As usual women always date up. They don't like to date down. When he doesn't fit those standards, she is more likely to reject him. He is frustrated by such rejection because he really desired her and now he cannot get what he really wants. So this is where he sits. In a conundrum. He doesn't like the woman who is far too easily available and accessible and he cannot get the woman who isn't accessible. Classic paradox.

Oh.... Runs to save cherries from being popped.

Pool.

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@Marcel how do you manage to be so sexy, What's your secret, Do you mind sharing? (absolutely not meaning to embarrass you....ya know )

Chess is so boring. No offense

You shouldn't have the right to judge other's character when you can't judge your own.

Me = emotional trashcan.