Whitney Edwards

Good one.

Out of every thing in my life, this by far is the hardest. It's not being rejected at the get go. I'm usually likable. But I usually get dumped after loss of interest. It's not much different than being rejected outrightly. Yet abandonment and rejection has been my greatest battle. Not getting the validation from the opposite sex. Not getting sex period. Not having romance. I find a lot of people desirable but nothing sticks for long. It gets boring after a while. The problem is not not finding someone. But finding someone who seems perfect at first and then being rejected by this "perfect person." It hurts like a million knives cutting through skin. Not even having that whiff, that slice of hope of finding someone romantically compatible and then it working out to some stable degree to a level where I'm content with how things panned out eventually and not feeling bitter anymore. Just knowing my youth is sorted out romantically. Maybe I'm too desperate and needy for human connection. I'm not asking much. Just one successful relationship is all it will take for me to feel that awesomeness, that wholesomeness I keep craving for, (maybe validation I don't know), but that one thing where it would feel like true sustainable love that lasts at least for a year or two. I know asking for a lifetime relationship is a bit too much. Nobody does that. But a year would be awesome. A year with a person I really desire to be with. All it takes. Humanity. I would not even complain if they dumped me for good. At least I got some validation. Rejection is awful, period. Why can't we have nice things? I know I sound like a baby whining for candy. What perspective helps?

Shiva mantra I choose this mantra - Sada Vasantham Hrudayaravinde Another Shiva mantra.

Energized mantras. Aum/om mantra Buddham Sharanam Gacchami or Bhrahmam Sharanam Gacchami. Sounds of Isha

And what is mature love?

Yes yes yes yes this. I swear Leo should respond to this. I literally feel your post in it's entirety. I had this exact same thought. Blessings. Blessings. You are most awesome. Stay blessed.

The soul is eternal. Death is just a point in samsara, it's nothing worth preparing for. Prepare for eternity.

You mean detaching the I from everything I do? How to raise frequency? Do you suggestions/techniques specifically? Nice. Thank you. How will I access consciousness if my survival ego gets in the way? I guess ego is bullshit too? Haha, this cracked me up. This is true in my experience. Are ego and consciousness antithetical to each other? Why is there such emphasis on losing the self? And how can you be conscious of it? Practical suggestions? Thanks. Thanks. Whats the correlation between ego and consciousness?

I'm a follower of Morgue Official. He is a good resource on the subject of occult. I think his thoughts are quite accurate on this subject matter, lucid and logically explained without making it too airy fairy. @BojackHorseman tell me what you think of the video. You'll gain some insight that will hopefully shed some light on your doubts and inhibitions. No woory, I'm in the same boat as you. Still searching, still discovering. I know this thing is hard to figure out especially for spiritualists but I'm all eyes and ears, I try not to be too skeptical of such things, they're intriguing to my mind. And who knows, right? I forgot, I've to re-follow this guy. Thanks for the topic, reminded me of what I left off. Side note- It's called Magick(and not magic), slight correction. have a good day. Another side note- my personal belief on the subject. Everything you believe is what you are. If you put enough energy into your belief, it will be true for you, might not be true for someone else simultaneously, but true for you. See how tricky your mind is? Your belief literally becomes your reality. Not objectively but at least subjectively, this is because the mind is hyper malleable, like a Styrofoam magnet, it will attract anything you make it to attract or repel. Laws of physics of magnetic forces.And quantum mechanics. Furthermore, look into the phenomenon of quantum entanglement and you'll be surprised how much of what we believe is coded already into the DNA of the universe. So what I think is that belief is a strong phenomenon just like a placebo//nacebo. Your belief can do wonders, of course within physical limits, that is. So you simply cannot take belief for granted. Some parallels to be drawn between the idea of magic and the idea of human intuition as well as human belief aka human mind itself. I find this very fascinating. How much of this is true can only be figured by the believer, not by anyone else outside the realm of experience. This experience belongs to the experiencer, as is pretty much the case with anything else. So you make of it whatever you do, depending on your experience obviously. That being said, once again, I think it's all about belief. And belief in of itself is a massive force. It's not so much about whether something is objectively true or false, it's how your belief alters your reality to your belief. I've read the book the Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton and it has changed my mind. I'd recommend it to you too. Bruce Lipton is my big favorite on this topic. And give this a watch too. I don't think it's so much about the occult. I see the occult as only an instrument. An instrument to be used for exploring. I think the hidden message lies in the human mind and it's deep processses of belief, psychic powers and intuition. You delve into the occult only to realize that the real mystery is your own mind, but you were searching so far out there. This also ties in with the law of attraction and Abraham /Esther Hicks is a good resource on this subject. Also there's many more good resources on similar lines that take you to the same or similar conclusions related to the law of attraction and self healing that you might want to take a minute to watch. Esther Hicks, Abraham Hicks, Wayne Dyer, Joe Dispenza. Neville Goddard. Joseph Murphy is my all time favorite on this topic. Similar lines. The power of the subconscious mind. This is the depth of western mysticism that has been delightful. The concept of vibration is also related to the same thing. Here's Abraham Hicks. Few years ago I read the book the Secret and it was mind blowing. I would recommend that too. May I recommend this audio book by Florence Scovel Shinn.

Enlightenment is higher consciousness, infinity, realizing you're God, realizing everything is whole in space and time, Enlightenment is realizing that your spirit is a vehicle of ever present ever expanding infinite consciousness that will tirelessly continue till eternity, samsara and enlightenment is reaching equilibrium through love and realizing that all of consciousness and infinity originates ultimately in the highest purest form of love, the fountain of infinite love and consciousness that is eternally in motion through time, with no beginning no end. Also it's escaping this finite matrix of life bounded by human illusions and experiencing God consciousness. I've nothing more to say. Your definition of enlightenment is not profound or is limited to human spectrum and quite advaita mish-mash misleading. You aren't quite there yet and judging by the nature of the post you haven't put sufficient hours into contemplation or have contemplated in a fast tracked manner using wrong foundations. Be clear, be open, do some more contemplating and explore your mind, do a ton of self inquiry and then reflect on the nature of things and you'll see meaning in Leo's profoundness. Right now you're an empty cymbal, clamouring but not tuning to the right beat. You need some hard work.

@WeCome1 highly appreciate your contribution. Please be kind enough to share more. It's awesome.

I'm ¦¦iSpiritual. (low key, don't know what the point of the post was, you've given too little information.)

Collecting wisdom from different sources.

As a beginner I would need some "beginner wisdom." it's already hard enough. Although I enjoy my own contemplations, I don't want to be in a spiritual ego chamber where it's only me and the wall. I also want to know what other gurus and philosophers think. I don't follow anyone blindly. There's always something to gain from someone. All that is needed is open eyes, open ears and an open heart, rest follows alchemically without too much effort.

Thanks for the understanding and Maturity.

I began pursuing spirituality since age 9 and today is gonna be embarking on that journey once again in the same gusto as I did when I was a kid. June 15. My spirituality day. I remember scribbling notes on spirituality when I was only 9 and I had told myself I'll always pursue spirituality and never stopped ever since.