Whitney Edwards

Yep.

Thanks for sharing.

Is there an App like this on Google store that I can install on my phone?

Thank you.

I have a water purifier system installed. I purchased the iSpring RCC7AK 6-Stage RO filter. https://www.amazon.com/iSpring-RCC7AK-Capacity-Drinking-Remineralization/dp/B005LJ8EXU/ref=mp_s_a

Life is so much about so many things. Why make it about things that aren't necessarily helpful to it. Stay in my dreams. Live in my hope. Grow in my days. I wish I could just live in my dreams. Life is so beautiful, so final, so momentous.

January 14 2025. Tuesday. I suffered a lot. Woke up from nightmare (right now). Not feeling good. Feels like something anxiety provoking was going through my mind.

@Marcel thank you. 👍

January 14 2025. Tuesday. Today was an eventful morning. I went for a morning walk and I almost walked for about an hour which is a great improvement. Cheers to myself. Then I decided to reward myself a bit for yesterday's work and for conquering a little bit of my social anxiety. I went to the store to get a chocolate pastry/cake. During the morning walk, a white cat rejected my petting. And I felt a bit upset lol. Cats generally don't reject me but every time on the morning walk some cat rejects me. I swear cat rejection hurts a lot. I'm a long time cat lover and I can't resist petting a cat as soon as I see it. So when I went to the store I saw this cat and surprisingly it allowed me to pet it lol. I petted it so much. It took my petting quite graciously. That made my day. Little things make me happy. The cat's fur was so soft omg. I even tried to pick it up gently but it ran under a chair. Nice cute cat. Uploaded picture and video. At the store I did not feel any social anxiety. I was in a good mood today and maybe that helped reduce some of the anxiety that I otherwise experience in most social situations and outside settings. Also the cat calmed me a bit as I played with it while talking to the store clerk. So even if I felt anxious (a tiny bit) playing with the cat diverted and distracted some of my nervousness. So cheers to myself on this baby step towards conquering social anxiety. That is definitely the goodest cat.

January 14 2025. Tuesday. Was just relaxing and watching TV. Animal planet mostly. Now I need to go for a morning walk. Took my morning meds..

January 14 2025. Tuesday. Just woke up. Woke up late today. Thats okay because I was up late. Today is a great day. Sunshine awaits me.

Tomorrow I need to look for medication for my mom.

January 13 2025 midnight.. I'm very happy today that I finished a lot of work. I am exhausted. And I ate some. But it's okay. I wish I could get some makeup stuff. I just drank some coconut water. It made me feel colder than usual. I'm trying to keep myself warm in these cold months. Just want another sip of coconut water...

@Marcel How do you feel looking at this?

January 13, Monday 2025. Do what's best for you, not what others like or don't like. I feel a heavy presence on this forum. Like constantly being watched. Like someone is always policing every word. This is not good for the brain.. The brain needs freedom, peace, growth, respect and dignity. Not being micro controlled all the time even over petty nonsense. Or something that raises your blood pressure. Fuck that. People communicate with each other to have a good time not for being patrolled or policed or put down. I'm slowly discouraging my own interaction on the forum and encouraging my own solitude. My husband was right that I shouldn't interact much. That was pretty much my last interaction. I have had enough of this forum. It's always some drama being riled up. In fact I'm most peaceful when I'm away from it. I have to be honest about why I interact on the forum. It gives me a dopamine hit. That is all.

January 13 2025 I think it's best for me to not interact on the forum. What's the point anyway? What do I get out of it? It's been lame. Any contribution I make is always taken for granted or met with some negativity. Shouldn't you feel better when helping someone. You help someone because they're in need and then you get smacked by someone else on the same thread. One person will say "hey good advice" and another person will say "this is shitty advice"... I'm beginning to lose my patience with this forum. It's like people are never congratulated or told good job or encouraged even on the bare minimum effort they put in to help others. Instead those who try to help are actually discouraged from helping. Why will I take out time from my busy routine and help someone only to be smacked in return with a discouraging blow. What the fuck. Why will I do that. I'm done with social games where people are competing for who is better. You are better or I am better. Enough with these stupid games. Who is it profiting anyway? Not me.

January 13, Monday, 2025. Ate a boatful. Now I'm ready for a nap. Today is a blessed day. Everything was so wonderful and fine despite my anxiety.

January 13, Monday. 2025. Timestamp. Ordered food from outside. Junk food. I'm very hungry right now and I couldn't cook because I had work today. Some days can be cheat days. Today I'm extremely exhausted from work. So thought it was a good idea to order takeaway food. I indulge in junk food a bit here and there. Today is celebration and reward day because I completed a lot of work. So feels good. Rewarding myself with some junk food. I promise I'll eat cleaner from tomorrow. Today I just needed a break.

January 13, Monday. 2025. Timestamp. 11. 49 A.M. Came home from work. Now I'm free for the rest of the day. Work completed successfully.

I'm a bit anxious right now. I need to get ready. My heart is racing right now. Just motivating myself becomes a hard task. I don't want to feel super tensed. I just want to relax for the day. Hope everything is fine. I need to wear my jewelry and put some makeup on.

@Marcel @Marcel@Marcel.. Sweet love. Walks hand in hand with you. Hope you feel great.

Now I'm having breakfast. Nice warm idlis. Dosa. And a hot cup of tea. I just finished my hot shower. Breakfast is delicious today. I packed all my documents.

I had ordered a few items. Right now I need to take a hot shower.. And be ready. I took a cold shower yesterday. I'm up and fully awake and ready for the day. I'll do some meditation before I go to work. It will take long before I come back.. I bought a beautiful pen. A smooth writing one. This is the first time I spent something on a pen in my entire life lol. My brain is hyper alert for some reason. My mom is still asleep.

January 13, Sunday. 2025. I woke up really early. I actually woke up at 4 am. But fell asleep again. Today got some important stuff to do.

I'm sick of vegans shaming non-vegans. I don't have to feel bad when I enjoy my bowl of chicken. This is just going too far and utter nonsense.