Whitney Edwards

Have you ever tried beer and wine?

Today was an eventful morning. I went for a morning walk and I almost walked for about an hour which is a great improvement. Cheers to myself. (normally I feel extremely shy when I go out) Then I decided to reward myself a bit for yesterday's work and for conquering a little bit of my social anxiety. I felt a tad bit anxious before going to the store. I was fiddling with the thought of whether to go or not. Not like a panic attack but I was still anxious. Then I told myself "let's just do this.." (most often I retreat out of anxiety but my elevated mood helped me to feel a bit more confident... I went to the store to get a chocolate pastry/cake. During the morning walk, a white cat rejected my petting. And I felt a bit upset lol. Cats generally don't reject me but every time on the morning walk some cat rejects me. I swear cat rejection hurts a lot. I'm a long time cat lover and I can't resist petting a cat as soon as I see it. So when I went to the store I saw this cat and surprisingly it allowed me to pet it lol. I petted it so much. It took my petting quite graciously. That made my day. Little things make me happy. The cat's fur was so soft omg. I even tried to pick it up gently but it ran under a chair. Nice cute cat. Uploaded picture and video. At the store I did not feel any social anxiety. I was in a good mood today and maybe that helped reduce some of the anxiety that I otherwise experience in most social situations and outside settings. Also the cat calmed me a bit as I played with it while talking to the store clerk. So even if I felt anxious (a tiny bit) playing with the cat diverted and distracted some of my nervousness. So cheers to myself on this baby step towards conquering social anxiety. Pro tip I learned today - try to distract myself / yourself a bit in situations where anxiety begins to raise it's ugly head. Try to be in a good mood before approaching a social situation. It doesn't take it away entirely but helps in taking the edge off a bit.

Wtf is this. This is some baseless conspiracy.

Oh God. This is the most childish thing to do. I worked on a game for 7 years. No way in hell would I give it to anyone. Even if someone paid me a million dollars, I won't give my precious game to them. It's my hard work of 7 years. And it's my retirement investment for old age. They can take my life but not my game. No way I'm giving away that. Elon Musk is evil for buying others hard work. Truly Evil.

Relaxation in. Toxicity out. This is actually a famous technique. It's called Breathe in Peace, Breathe out Stress. This video has music that can accompany your breath movements.

Umm. I think you can always approach more. Rejections hurt a lot. But you shouldn't be attached to her at all.. I think she had made up her mind already. So there was no point of dreaming about her. Relationships are a mutual thing. The feelings have to be strong on both sides. This relationship seemed one sided to me. You seem like a good person who isn't hitting the jackpot. But don't worry. Keep going and you'll find your soulmate. Best wishes to your journey in life. You are doing good.

And then what does it do to the liver?

January 16, Thursday, 2025 I ordered breakfast just now from a nearby restaurant.

January 16, Thursday, 2025 Just woke up. Woke up late today. I'm not sure if I slept late. But I woke up at 4 am and then went back to bed once again.. Just paid the bill. I have another bill to pay. I need to go to office today. Between 8 am - 10.30 am. I need to have breakfast now.. Later I'll try to use ChatGPT if I ever get time.

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Newsom was actually a good candidate for President.

Mindfulness and meditation are two separate practices. You can do mindfulness meditation. But mindfulness is more about a way of life. Meditation is just a tool.

Your emotional plane is your scope for happiness. If you are originally in a bad emotional state, it will be harder for you to be happy in any situation. No amount of money or success will make you happy if you inherently don't feel good to begin with. So mastering your emotions is likely the first step. To conquer your inner demon. Yes. Once you're emotionally stable, you'll need certain external conditions to be happy. This is practical advice. You can't just build your emotional state through meditation and simply rely on it forever. The meditation is to build emotional resilience and a state where you can experience happiness. It's like a baseline. An example of it would be like this — you need basic nutrition to be at least able to go to the gym. If your nutrition is lacking, the gymming will make you feel tired and you might give up. You cannot do strength training if you are feeling weak and you would end up with sore muscles because your body isn't in the perfect condition to do certain exercises if you have health conditions. So first you will need to have a baseline health where your nutrition and general health statistics are near normal to be able to visit the gym consistently. Now once your health is normal, you can visit the gym and improve your fitness levels and get even stronger and healthier. Just being healthy won't help or upgrade fitness levels.. Hope you got it.

Leo is clarity aware. And clarity is what you need in the real world dealing with real stuff.

Social anxiety is about social settings. Socializing is an important aspect and part of dating for women as well. The dating section is not just for men, it's for women as well. If a woman has social anxiety she will have trouble dating and socializing as well. Men don't just talk about dating here. They talk about socializing in general as well. Have you heard about game? Game is not just about approaching women. It is also about developing oneself to become an ideal partner. I'm trying to develop my socializing skills so that I can have more friends and so I don't feel uncomfortable in social settings like a club or party or dancing with the opposite sex. This comes under the topic of friendships which is a part of relationships in general.. This section is not just romantic relationships. It's all kind of relationships including friendships as well. This is not general anxiety, it's social anxiety related to interactions and friendships.

Inner secrets revealed so cute.

Because it's about social anxiety. And a lot of people who talk about social anxiety complain about it in this section. Because this section deals with socializing not just dating, social skills and friendships as well.

January 15 2025. Wednesday I'm just trying to rest. I need to go tomorrow and submit my documents to the office. I need originals as well as a copy. I need to wake up early and make everything ready. Hopefully I won't need to pay money. I have less cash and I won't have much time to go to the ATM. I'm trying not to be anxious and I'll sleep early today. I also need to get a prescription this week or next week. I need to pay a bill tomorrow. My urine was completely clear today. I need to drink a lot of water. I need to look deeper into the problem of my nightmares and the reason behind them. The exact reasons. I'm planning to use ChatGPT and various versions of it a little more. Today made 1 thread and a journal for it. Strictly use ChatGPT. I want something free and something I can consistently rely on.. Also I'll need better strategic prompts to get better personalized output. More intuitive output. Also learn by observing why I get nightmares at specific sleep times.

LA CEO Keith Wasserman offered any amount for privately protecting his home. Not sure how ethical that is. Article tagged below image. https://nypost.com/2025/01/13/us-news/la-ceos-home-burns-down-after-he-offered-any-amount-for-private-protection/

Let's say you got drunk once in a year. Or once every couple of months. I think most people can manage that. Not completely drunk, just a couple of drinks. It's usually to loosen up in a party setting. Helps to have long conversations especially if you are introverted and nervous. I have seen people drink and then they laugh like crazy for hours and it's a fun evening for them which would have been boring otherwise. Of course there are downsides. It's not a great solution for social anxiety but I agree that it helps with inhibition slightly.

I think that you should already choose right from the onset your ideal compatible girlfriend. Now having a relationship with her will create massive dissonance in you since you are with a person you don't necessarily believe to be the best for you. Compatibility is difficult — often we end up breaking off even the most compatible ones. Relationships are like a gamble. You can't really plan too early because you never know how things are gonna pan out.

Best channel.

January 15 2025. Wednesday Just came back from pharmacy for my psychiatric meds and they declined it because my prescription was old. I will need to visit my psychiatrist some time this week or next week to get a fresh new prescription.

Should I try fasting. But I'm scared lol. Not mentally ready yet. Nice to see your growth. A bit jealous.

But democracy also brings in people like Trump. Something more evolved than democracy is needed. The country can't be wasting 8 years on Trump-like candidates.