Whitney Edwards

(no chatgpt used) It depends largely on how much importance you place on his opinions about you. It also depends on how you place him socially in relation to you or how he is placed by the human social system in relation to you. Is he in a higher position financially, socially or hierarchy-wise in relation to you? Does he have more friends than you do or a wider social circle? Does he have community influence? Do you feel insecure around him in regard to your self image? Do you feel like he will make you look bad in front of others? As in he might say something nasty about you and others might believe it? Do you feel like his insults are somewhat true or have validity to them? Your problems are both external and internal. By psychoanalyzing your post (although more context would have been better), I'm concluding that you are having these issues — 1. Low self confidence. You inherently don't feel super good about yourself. Maybe there's a dip in your confidence levels. You don't feel super duper confident even though subconsciously you would like to. 2. You overthink other's opinions. You are putting in too much value into what this person thinks or says to you. It either hurts your dignity/self respect or you give too much value/validation to it. 3. You subconsciously believe it (his insults) to be true. This may or may not be true. This could purely be my assumption. If you believe them to be true, for example, someone might consider themselves to be fat because they were fat shamed. In this case you'll need to determine if his opinion or insult is shaping your self image in your mind. If he is being constructively critical of you, then it's okay for you to explore it. Since he is insulting you, you should not believe it to be true at all. It will impact your self esteem. This process is called internalization where our mind tends to internalize what the other person is saying and actually begin to believe them. It's very harmful. 4. You feel like fighting it off - you are probably attached to your self image that any insult becomes a threat to your inner self image. Then you feel an intense urge to fight it or resist. This is okay. The feeling is completely valid although not useful as it will take away your inner peace. It will bolster the bully as they can see that you give them attention and they relish in you fighting back. Fighting and resisting it is okay too if that makes you feel like you are standing your ground. But if you're ruminating over it constantly, then it's already eating your peace of mind. Now external problems — 1. You could be in a unhealthy environment where this person is being extremely toxic to you from time to time, triggering you on purpose and it would be safer to simply remove yourself from their vicinity if it's too much of a headache. This is not your internal problem but something that could happen to anyone with healthy self esteem and the abuse should not be tolerated. This might mean that his bad behavior is really crossing the limit and it's best to not engage with his harmful conduct. This might happen where despite trying your best to keep your internal locus of control and inner peace, it still bothers you. Here the problem is external and your inner mindset didn't play a part in making you feel worse. It's overly toxic and you are better off without that environment. 2. These incidents have happened to you in the past and they are probably happening again and causing you stress. Or they are just something you're always sensitive to and you operate healthier, optimal and better when such things don't exist. In which case, they are best avoided and you shouldn't think that something internal is hindering you. Just avoid people who act like jerks. 3. Higher position - if this person is at a higher position socially then you, then it's completely valid for you to feel bad about yourself after hearing their insults. The human mind naturally places more value on someone's opinion if that someone is considered more important socially. In this case too, you simply try not to validate their insult or let it impact. They are not important and they shouldn't have an influence on you. Try to not give them power from your side and stand your ground internally although this is a bit tougher to do when the person is in an authority position. For example if someone random insults me I wouldn't feel as much bad as I would if my own mother insults me, since I view her as more important than others. Hope it helps.

(no chatgpt used in writing this post) It depends largely on how much importance you place on his opinions about you. It also depends on how you place him socially in relation to you or how he is placed by the human social system in relation to you. Is he in a higher position financially, socially or hierarchy-wise in relation to you? Does he have more friends than you do or a wider social circle? Does he have community influence? Do you feel insecure around him in regard to your self image? Do you feel like he will make you look bad in front of others? As in he might say something nasty about you and others might believe it? Do you feel like his insults are somewhat true or have validity to them? Your problems are both external and internal. By psychoanalyzing your post (although more context would have been better), I'm concluding that you are having these issues — 1. Low self confidence. You inherently don't feel super good about yourself. Maybe there's a dip in your confidence levels. You don't feel super duper confident even though subconsciously you would like to. 2. You overthink other's opinions. You are putting in too much value into what this person thinks or says to you. It either hurts your dignity/self respect or you give too much value/validation to it. 3. You subconsciously believe it (his insults) to be true. This may or may not be true. This could purely be my assumption. If you believe them to be true, for example, someone might consider themselves to be fat because they were fat shamed. In this case you'll need to determine if his opinion or insult is shaping your self image in your mind. If he is being constructively critical of you, then it's okay for you to explore it. Since he is insulting you, you should not believe it to be true at all. It will impact your self esteem. This process is called internalization where our mind tends to internalize what the other person is saying and actually begin to believe them. It's very harmful. 4. You feel like fighting it off - you are probably attached to your self image that any insult becomes a threat to your inner self image. Then you feel an intense urge to fight it or resist. This is okay. The feeling is completely valid although not useful as it will take away your inner peace. It will bolster the bully as they can see that you give them attention and they relish in you fighting back. Fighting and resisting it is okay too if that makes you feel like you are standing your ground. But if you're ruminating over it constantly, then it's already eating your peace of mind. Now external problems — 1. You could be in a unhealthy environment where this person is being extremely toxic to you from time to time, triggering you on purpose and it would be safer to simply remove yourself from their vicinity if it's too much of a headache. This is not your internal problem but something that could happen to anyone with healthy self esteem and the abuse should not be tolerated. This might mean that his bad behavior is really crossing the limit and it's best to not engage with his harmful conduct. This might happen where despite trying your best to keep your internal locus of control and inner peace, it still bothers you. Here the problem is external and your inner mindset didn't play a part in making you feel worse. It's overly toxic and you are better off without that environment. 2. These incidents have happened to you in the past and they are probably happening again and causing you stress. Or they are just something you're always sensitive to and you operate healthier, optimal and better when such things don't exist. In which case, they are best avoided and you shouldn't think that something internal is hindering you. Just avoid people who act like jerks. 3. Higher position - if this person is at a higher position socially then you, then it's completely valid for you to feel bad about yourself after hearing their insults. The human mind naturally places more value on someone's opinion if that someone is considered more important socially. In this case too, you simply try not to validate their insult or let it impact. They are not important and they shouldn't have an influence on you. Try to not give them power from your side and stand your ground internally although this is a bit tougher to do when the person is in an authority position. For example if someone random insults me I wouldn't feel as much bad as I would if my own mother insults me, since I view her as more important than others. Hope it helps.

Ordered 5 coconuts and they delivered it to my door. (Reached home finally. Omg so exhausted.) On the way there was too much traffic that I had to drive through. Coconuts are my lifesaver. I'm so dehydrated right now. I need to eat something before I go to bed. Today's work and goal is completed. Phew. Enjoys a reward. Tomorrow I have Zumba class, hope I won't forget. I haven't paid the bill yet. Reminds myself to pay it later. I also need to book my doctor's appointment. I'll be getting my passport next week.

January 16, Thursday, 2025 Work completed at the police station. Now I'm on my way home.

Have you ever tried beer and wine?

Today was an eventful morning. I went for a morning walk and I almost walked for about an hour which is a great improvement. Cheers to myself. (normally I feel extremely shy when I go out) Then I decided to reward myself a bit for yesterday's work and for conquering a little bit of my social anxiety. I felt a tad bit anxious before going to the store. I was fiddling with the thought of whether to go or not. Not like a panic attack but I was still anxious. Then I told myself "let's just do this.." (most often I retreat out of anxiety but my elevated mood helped me to feel a bit more confident... I went to the store to get a chocolate pastry/cake. During the morning walk, a white cat rejected my petting. And I felt a bit upset lol. Cats generally don't reject me but every time on the morning walk some cat rejects me. I swear cat rejection hurts a lot. I'm a long time cat lover and I can't resist petting a cat as soon as I see it. So when I went to the store I saw this cat and surprisingly it allowed me to pet it lol. I petted it so much. It took my petting quite graciously. That made my day. Little things make me happy. The cat's fur was so soft omg. I even tried to pick it up gently but it ran under a chair. Nice cute cat. Uploaded picture and video. At the store I did not feel any social anxiety. I was in a good mood today and maybe that helped reduce some of the anxiety that I otherwise experience in most social situations and outside settings. Also the cat calmed me a bit as I played with it while talking to the store clerk. So even if I felt anxious (a tiny bit) playing with the cat diverted and distracted some of my nervousness. So cheers to myself on this baby step towards conquering social anxiety. Pro tip I learned today - try to distract myself / yourself a bit in situations where anxiety begins to raise it's ugly head. Try to be in a good mood before approaching a social situation. It doesn't take it away entirely but helps in taking the edge off a bit.

Wtf is this. This is some baseless conspiracy.

Oh God. This is the most childish thing to do. I worked on a game for 7 years. No way in hell would I give it to anyone. Even if someone paid me a million dollars, I won't give my precious game to them. It's my hard work of 7 years. And it's my retirement investment for old age. They can take my life but not my game. No way I'm giving away that. Elon Musk is evil for buying others hard work. Truly Evil.

Relaxation in. Toxicity out. This is actually a famous technique. It's called Breathe in Peace, Breathe out Stress. This video has music that can accompany your breath movements.

Umm. I think you can always approach more. Rejections hurt a lot. But you shouldn't be attached to her at all.. I think she had made up her mind already. So there was no point of dreaming about her. Relationships are a mutual thing. The feelings have to be strong on both sides. This relationship seemed one sided to me. You seem like a good person who isn't hitting the jackpot. But don't worry. Keep going and you'll find your soulmate. Best wishes to your journey in life. You are doing good.

And then what does it do to the liver?

January 16, Thursday, 2025 I ordered breakfast just now from a nearby restaurant.

January 16, Thursday, 2025 Just woke up. Woke up late today. I'm not sure if I slept late. But I woke up at 4 am and then went back to bed once again.. Just paid the bill. I have another bill to pay. I need to go to office today. Between 8 am - 10.30 am. I need to have breakfast now.. Later I'll try to use ChatGPT if I ever get time.

@Yimpa

Newsom was actually a good candidate for President.

Mindfulness and meditation are two separate practices. You can do mindfulness meditation. But mindfulness is more about a way of life. Meditation is just a tool.

Your emotional plane is your scope for happiness. If you are originally in a bad emotional state, it will be harder for you to be happy in any situation. No amount of money or success will make you happy if you inherently don't feel good to begin with. So mastering your emotions is likely the first step. To conquer your inner demon. Yes. Once you're emotionally stable, you'll need certain external conditions to be happy. This is practical advice. You can't just build your emotional state through meditation and simply rely on it forever. The meditation is to build emotional resilience and a state where you can experience happiness. It's like a baseline. An example of it would be like this — you need basic nutrition to be at least able to go to the gym. If your nutrition is lacking, the gymming will make you feel tired and you might give up. You cannot do strength training if you are feeling weak and you would end up with sore muscles because your body isn't in the perfect condition to do certain exercises if you have health conditions. So first you will need to have a baseline health where your nutrition and general health statistics are near normal to be able to visit the gym consistently. Now once your health is normal, you can visit the gym and improve your fitness levels and get even stronger and healthier. Just being healthy won't help or upgrade fitness levels.. Hope you got it.

Leo is clarity aware. And clarity is what you need in the real world dealing with real stuff.

Social anxiety is about social settings. Socializing is an important aspect and part of dating for women as well. The dating section is not just for men, it's for women as well. If a woman has social anxiety she will have trouble dating and socializing as well. Men don't just talk about dating here. They talk about socializing in general as well. Have you heard about game? Game is not just about approaching women. It is also about developing oneself to become an ideal partner. I'm trying to develop my socializing skills so that I can have more friends and so I don't feel uncomfortable in social settings like a club or party or dancing with the opposite sex. This comes under the topic of friendships which is a part of relationships in general.. This section is not just romantic relationships. It's all kind of relationships including friendships as well. This is not general anxiety, it's social anxiety related to interactions and friendships.

Inner secrets revealed so cute.

Because it's about social anxiety. And a lot of people who talk about social anxiety complain about it in this section. Because this section deals with socializing not just dating, social skills and friendships as well.

January 15 2025. Wednesday I'm just trying to rest. I need to go tomorrow and submit my documents to the office. I need originals as well as a copy. I need to wake up early and make everything ready. Hopefully I won't need to pay money. I have less cash and I won't have much time to go to the ATM. I'm trying not to be anxious and I'll sleep early today. I also need to get a prescription this week or next week. I need to pay a bill tomorrow. My urine was completely clear today. I need to drink a lot of water. I need to look deeper into the problem of my nightmares and the reason behind them. The exact reasons. I'm planning to use ChatGPT and various versions of it a little more. Today made 1 thread and a journal for it. Strictly use ChatGPT. I want something free and something I can consistently rely on.. Also I'll need better strategic prompts to get better personalized output. More intuitive output. Also learn by observing why I get nightmares at specific sleep times.

LA CEO Keith Wasserman offered any amount for privately protecting his home. Not sure how ethical that is. Article tagged below image. https://nypost.com/2025/01/13/us-news/la-ceos-home-burns-down-after-he-offered-any-amount-for-private-protection/

Let's say you got drunk once in a year. Or once every couple of months. I think most people can manage that. Not completely drunk, just a couple of drinks. It's usually to loosen up in a party setting. Helps to have long conversations especially if you are introverted and nervous. I have seen people drink and then they laugh like crazy for hours and it's a fun evening for them which would have been boring otherwise. Of course there are downsides. It's not a great solution for social anxiety but I agree that it helps with inhibition slightly.