Buck Edwards

She basically ghosted you. You are severely attached to her. Happens. But you gotta hop out of this situation as she doesn't really care about your feelings. Harsh truth.. Move on from this.

Nice.

Why do I always want everything to be perfect?

Beauty starts with meaning.

I feel so guilty that I slept.

Tomorrow is Diwali. A happy day for Hindus.

Whatever happened to the crocodile contest lol?

I think If you got a healthy sex drive that's just more than enough. I thought of sex as something I would use for validation. To amp up my self confidence. And soon enough it became a drug. My horniness skyrocketed. I was horny all day long. Then I began to control all that unnecessary energy. It has a high and a low followed by extreme exhaustion. It felt good. Like a tremendous boost to my self confidence. I felt like an animal in heat. Then it got addictive. I couldn't feel normal without that validation. I had to feel horny and amped up to feel good inside. To feel desired. To feel relaxed. I had to get off that curve for good. I don't deny sexual energy. But it's only enough when you truly meaningfully want to engage it. I can say confidently that sexual energy does work though as evidenced by numerous experiments I did in that department (with myself of course). There's a point beyond which it needs to be flattened and balanced out. It does serve a purpose. Of making you feel enormously better when you're down. It generates euphoric energy. It generates critical energy too. This is due to the inherent tension or chasm. You feel that kundalini when you reach peak sexual point, sort of mixing of feminine and masculine and a volatile fusion of both.

Yea me and my husband.

@PurpleTree did this happen recently?