Whitney Edwards

I think I fell in love with someone who was extremely serious and antithetical to the idea of openness. It's you you you and only you. You that I need to focus on. Because that's where I would need final closure. Letting people be in it is a source of unnecessary misery. That's why from the get go I requested we talk to each other, a request you denied me repeatedly. But anyway. I have to hold my calm.. Right now I'm thinking about you. I scammed you. I mistreated you. I duped you. And I hold myself completely responsible for it. At the same time my feelings were and are true and you should know. After I fell in love with you, I never thought of anyone else. I know you absolutely fking hate me to the core. And why not. I did you nasty. You realized it. You felt unsafe. You felt bad. Hurt. Wounded. Angry. I'm in a much better mental state now than before. No brain fog. I realize now what I done. I hurt you badly. The realization has hit me after a very long time. I wish we communicated a lot more. You were far too secretive for me to have any idea of how you felt. Or what were your exact thoughts. How could I have known? You placed way too many expectations on me. You have some life experience in that department. So you know more. Don't dismiss and judge me so casually. I know you are pissed off at my audacity. You must be thinking - how dare I? I deserve every form of bashing and hatred from you for what I did. I'm not sure if I can forgive myself either. In hindsight, I learned a fuck ton of lessons. I learned the meaning of love. I learned my own delusional expectations in relationships. I learned my flaws. I learned not to judge. Today your thoughts are on my mind. It's a heavy feeling. Something I can't get rid of. It's like you all over again. I'm in a much better place though. I'm able to process my emotions much better than before. My brain isn't cloudy. My brain isn't foggy. I can think straight something I couldn't do months ago. I was being pressured too much. I had way too much shit to deal with emotionally speaking. I exhibited self deception and a tremendous lack of self awareness. And not just that. I exhibited too much immaturity. Probably my autism? I don't know.

I'm trying to deal with the trauma, drama and karma of my ex in whatever ways I can. I don't want to blame you. It's all my fault. I caused you personal stress. The one lesson I learned is to never go into a relationship not fully knowing if I really want it or not. If I'm unsure of commitment, just don't do it. I am finally being able to close this chapter of my life for good.

Embrace both good and bad. Accept evil. Acceptance is the key. I have struggled with this for the longest time. The path to Enlightenment is of non judgement. Become higher than Evil. Forgive and accept evil as human nature.

Truly beautiful words my friend

Man, I was listening to sum dope muzic, drinking beer and eating sum spicy tender crispy chicken. How bout you join me Mr Dani?, where you at..... Happy weekend, @Danioover9000

Can I practice my skeelz here please please if you don't mind. My rap breed (Oops I mean creed), is called Black and Yellow so every one of my rap anthems is gonna contain Black and Yellow. It's my trademark brotha. This is my first anthem, here I go.... (this is not the final version). Juicy J, Ez Mil coming up with a new release egging beeshes You gotta chill, even if the world around you is crashing to pieces Remix, G shit, you know what it is, Black and Yellow, black and yellow People who preach others on what to do But don't do it themselves egging beeshes Acapella Acapella Boom All I do is egging win Rap is not rap, it's rapture We gotta teach 'em crackers, how to rap We gotta teach' em incels how to tap You can bribe me with a dick-a When they can't argue They scapegoating the bigg-a Only a bigg-a Only a bigg-a Bigg-a, sssorry there's no rhythm To ya lyrics, You rapping like a dog yapping Rap should-da sound like hell from Kordhell, killers from the Northside By the way jokes aside, All the guras and the gurus, fake shit Remix, G shit, We banging now, you like it? We banging now, you like it? I'm so yellow, you'd think I'm from Pittsb-a The industry gurus like me, Wherever I go, yeah!!!! Hate ya, getch ya, Wiz Khalifa Yeah, chief-a The biggest bigg-a Get your fucking weed-a I wanna fuck you in the ass, ah I know you find it sexy, yeah Aren't you horny na, haha My ego as bigg-a as the Mount Everest (nah-uh, Kailash-a), My heart-a as bigg-a as Kalidasa My brains on psychedelika I'm CERTIFIED PLATINUM By the KHALIFA..... bigg-a My next lyrics, I forgot damn, ahh! Mhmm I'm burning in penis envy You can see the gap between my front teeth You gotta take the edge off me What's that sound in the kitchen, baby!! Cuz I have to speak in codes and shit Since we're plagued by egging cancel culture They hatin on us, even if we tryna do better than most, 'em vulture Bring in your friends, C'mon... We wer supposed to be one, yet we keep fighting This mess we keep cleaning [this is regarding Palestinian war] There should be a time when all is done And we get to be shining. I told ya This is not your art-a, you Crack-a Remix, G shit, you know what it is, Black and Yellow, black and yellow I hope that was good enough for the first round ( no pun intended). Lyrics by me but partially inspired by Wiz Khalifa and Kordhell - killers from the Northside.

Obviously it had to.

I'm not trilling. I'm saying that I suspect his new stuff is gonna be really cool. Doesn't it make sense that if he is patiently for so long, something grand is being planned and in the making. We usually tend to take long breaks when a bigger project is on hand. Leo likes to deliver top notch quality content. He is not your average YouTuber. I'm not advertising him.. Just my hunch that new content gonna be much finer than older. Leo is like wine. Better when aged. Cheers. He is not done at all. Wait and watch. Fingers crossed. Man is awesome

@oldhandle he is gonna bring new awesome cooool videos. New topics. He is all good and ready to roar.

It's tricky. Women want a guy who can truly understand their inner instincts. Women are more animalistic than men.

My mom has been prescribed olanzapine (Zyprexa) risperidone and Quetiapine.... And I'm currently on aripiprazole. It works well for me. I was on zoloft before. Sometimes they work. I don't have schizophrenia but I have paranoia related symptoms.. My mom was also prescribed Mirtazapine recently. (if you have sleep issues, it seems to help).

I think people who are more emotional cannot live without a family just like children can't live without toys. Nothing wrong with it. Mortality rates are always high.

He looks like a modern version of Julius Caesar.

Scam. Run.

Don't take this in a wrong way. But I like cults. I was groomed by a pedophile at age 14 when I was psychologically fragile and absolutely gullible. I was just a kid. It made me fantasize the wrong kind of people. Living in a cult was a fantasy. I recently got some closure on this. I went through sexual trauma processing stuff and journaled it. It made me realize that this is just human nature which is wild and free. The highest evil is murder. You can benefit from a cult or you can be exploited by a cult. It's up to you. A cult leader can be a good or a bad person. Depends on the situation. It's your responsibility to protect yourself. Mormon is also a cult. Huge one in fact. I had a shady childhood and being raised and groomed as a kid made me vulnerable to predatory people early on, it became a vicious cycle and I still feel locked in it, I'm trying my best to heal it. As a victim, I have to remind myself one thing - there's no point in regretting over spilled milk. Both good and bad co exist. Love heals everything and bypasses every form of evil. You gotta find the good even in the bad. Good and bad are two sides of the same coin. The world will never be perfect. Choose whatever helps you survive in life. Choose love. Don't judge anything. Live in love.

Leo, you're on a roll. I'm enjoying your posts right now. Your arguments are getting crisper. Brilliant.

Highly nuanced takes on this subject. Great job Leo. You're right on the money. There's some stupid talk of jews and zionist conspiracy. Finally a clean take!

He reminds me of Eckhart Tolle or Terence McKenna or Alan Watts.

I'm excited for your new batch of videos that will be coming soon. I'm sure they are about things you have never discussed before. New stuff. Yay!

Can you elaborate on this? How would I know my karma?

I agree with these. Also therapy helps a lot. Especially with the right therapist who understands the exact issue. Right diagnosis.

It's alright. You shouldn't trouble yourself. Just think that most people only want the best for you. I have dealt with schizophrenics before. I know how paranoia feels. But first and foremost it impacts you before it impacts others. I suggest that you quit weed and psychedelics for some time. And focus on therapy and medication and wholesome treatment in a proper facility. You will need medical assistance given the nature of your symptoms. Relying on internet people is especially dangerous when you have mental health problems, a mistake I made and learned from. You can run into all kinds of trouble. You need safety first. Do not converse with anyone randomly as people on the internet lack emotional intelligence to understand what's going on in your mind. Best is to look for a safe treatment facility near your place. I suffer schizoid and autism. I recently visited a psychiatrist who prescribed me medication and therapy and I'm gradually improving. Please follow Leo's advice on this thread. He is right in my opinion.

It's best to stay away from this cancer.

I'm talking about a scenario.