Buck Edwards

May 20. 2024 Entry. I feel like I'm going through a long existential crisis and there's nothing to guide me. Fear takes over me. I'm currently working a small job that is barely enough to cover my expenses. I think my worries are a bit financial and i don't wish to admit that I'm close to broke. I don't know. It doesn't matter. Money shouldn't matter anyway. I always wanted to pursue spirituality. In an uncertain world I don't know what my future will look like. These words naturally flow from me. I want to make Linga Bhairavi meditation my morning ritual. It's calming and grounding. I have realized that any form of spirituality exists outside the realm of materialism. Quiet the mind. Quiet everything. In the Emptiness and stillness lies beautiful vibration.

Ultimately there's no fundamental separation between the self and the universe, or between the individual and the divine. In this frame of thought, the distinction between subject and object, self and other, or any other dualities that we commonly perceive, are seen as illusory or ultimately unreal. Instead, there is an underlying unity or oneness that encompasses all of existence. This perspective suggests that the true nature of reality is beyond dualistic concepts and can only be understood through direct experience or realization. You should seek to transcend the limitations of the ego and the mind in order to experience a sense of unity with the universe or ultimate reality. You can do meditation,sef inquiry and contemplating for that. To recognize the underlying oneness that is believed to exist beyond the realm of dualistic perception. Concepts such as enlightenment, liberation, or awakening, where individuals come to realize their essential nature as being interconnected with all of existence. This realization can bring about a profound sense of peace, freedom, and interconnectedness with the world. I have felt this sometimes during my contemplations.

Thank you.

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In my Devi meditation sitting I gathered the following insights - My body is a vessel of the soul The body is only an external identity to live this life. This external identity has no real meaning. Devi helps to ground me. This grounding is important. It's the base vibration of the soul. We want to prevent and even escape suffering. When we ground ourselves, we only attract those situations and forces that are healing to the life force resided in the soul The way we react is important. The grounding exercise helps us to be more resilient where we can enjoy happiness and experience less discontent and we experience massive fortitude in bad circumstances that helps us to not be bogged down by the ups and downs of life. Basically practicing Devi helps cultivate mental spiritual fortitude and resilience. There's an automatic inner state of peace and calm while grounding with Devi. You begin to experience true bliss You only attract healing vibes and situations and things that help your inner state of being thrive Cultivating Devi practice through Archala Arpanam as Sadhguru notes has helped me open up in different ways. I have been doing this since past 3 days now and i have felt peace, protection and calm. I call this 'grounding.' Now I understand what Sadhguru meant when he said we need to be empty in order for Devi to do her work. He said we are full of ourselves. He was right about it. If you're full of yourself, how could you let anything in? You have to empty yourself for it to work. Just grounding with Devi. Letting her inspire and ground my soul. I especially liked this particular Jai Bhairavi Devi Stuti to bring Devi into me. It resonates with my soul. I feel the words and their meanings. This is the original basic Linga Bhairavi Devi stuti by Sadhguru. It really invokes me. So powerful.

23rd name Shyama Sundari The name means a dark skinned beauty. Devi is a dark skinned beauty. 24th name Trinetrini Devi has three eyes. These eyes exude compassion, fierceness and intensity. They represent sun, moon and earth. 25th name Sarva Mangali She brings prosperity and abundance to all. This is one of her great qualities or virtues. 26th name Maha Yogini She is the greatest practitioner of yoga and tantra and has the ability to bestow spiritual knowledge on her devotees. 27th name Klesha Nashini One of her great qualities is that she can remove impurities that hinder the growth and evolution of her devotees. 28th name Ugra Roopini In her most terrifying form she exudes power, intensity, at the same time extreme compassion and protection. 29th name Divya Kamini She is the divine lover. Kamini refers to enticer or lover. 30th name Kala Roopini She is the maker and destroyer of time. She takes care of birth and death. 31st name Trishoola Dharini Tri means three. Shool means a spear. The name means someone who holds a spear. 32nd name Yaksha Kamini Kamini is lover or enticer. Yakshas are celestial beings not of this planet. Devi is the enticer of shiva. 33rd name Mukti Dayini Devi is the one who will empty you of yourself. She will liberate you, she is the liberator.

12th name Amrita Varshini It's a name given to Devi, which means "the one who showers Amritam". Amritam represents a liquid which is the pinnacle of sweetness and pleasantness and is also considered to be the elixir of immortality. Varshini is term used to describe the 'goddess of the rains'. Devi is believed to shower an abundance of Amritam on her devotees, if they are open and receptive to receiving it. 13th name Bhakta Rakshini Bhakta Rakshini - the fierce goddess known for the unwavering protection of Her devotees. She is revered as the ultimate mother and guardian of the five fundamental elements of nature and the entire cosmos.Bhairavi devotees can experience her protective nature through consecrated forms such as The Bhairavi Raksha or a Devi Yantra. Additionally,physical contact with a consecrated form of Devi can create a protective cocoon around the devotee. 14th name Saubhagya Dayini The name means - The Bestower of Good Fortune.Devi is the one who grants prosperity, happiness,and success, not just in material aspects but also in terms of life and its fulfillment. With Devi Bhairavi's Grace, good luck is showered on her devotees, blessing them success beyond their own capabilities and efforts. She is the ultimate Giver of all that is essential for one's growth and blossoming from various walks of life. 15th name Sarva Janani Sarva Janani is the name of Devi that personifies her as a mother of all. Sarva means all and Janani means one who gives Janma or birth. So Devi is the one to breed, nourish and sustain life, not just of human beings but of the entire Earth. As a mother is tender, nourishing, and fiercely protective, Janani also pertains to all women and denotes the feminine nature to the closest. 16th name Garbha Dayini The name means bestower of the womb. 'Garbha' refers to womb. 'Dayini' means the bestower. As Devi is the ultimate mother of all life here, she is also the one to bestow this gift of motherhood.She is the womb where existence happens, a space where all creation is. So, she is also the one who provides the power to procreate in all life forms. 17th name Shoonya Vasini This name means the one who dwells in shoonya or emptiness. Out of all the words that we can use to describe shoonya - the origin, infinity, emptiness, void, vacuum, nothingness - Shoonya is the vast nothingness from which the creation was born. In Sanskrit, shoonya implies empty space or void. In mathematics also, shoonya denotes zero, the ultimate number that has no value of iits own but can add value to any other number. As creation happens in the lap of this vast limitless void, Devi dwells in shoonya. In this very source of all creation, She opens it up as a possibility for all. 18th name Maha Nandini This name is the praise to Devi as one who is a great giver of joy, pleasantness, and happiness. 'Nand' means delight/ joy. Literally, nandinī means a woman who brings joy. It also specifically refers to a daughter, as a daughter brings joy to the family. In the Hindu religion, Goddess Parvati is often addressed by this name as Nandini refers to one of the eight eternal companions (Ashtanayika)of Goddess Parvati. 19th name Vameshwari Vama means the left side, and Ishwari means The Goddess. Goddess Parvati is referred to as Vameshwari because she sits on the left side of Shiva, she indicates that the left side of the human body is feminine. Even today, in our culture married women are made to sit on the left of their husbands.Vama also means occult or path of tantra. As Vameshwari, Devi is also the basis of all occult and Tantra. 20th name Karma Palini Goddess Bhairavi is the ruler of karma, which is the basis of everything that you are today. Devï's grace can dissolve ones karma and hasten their spiritual growth. 21st name Yonishwari - This name describes Devi as the womb of the,whole creation. Yoni' in Sanskrit is a word for the womb of all mobile and immobile beings.Yoni is also the female counterpart of the Linga. Linga is penis and scrotum. And Yoni is the Vagina. As the genesis of the whole material world, she is the space and source where the creation resides. And as the Goddess of all wombs, she is the bestower of the power to procreate and produce. 22nd name Linga Roopini Roopini means form and this name means her original Linga Bhairavi form in which all her attributes are unified into one. Her original self.

7th name Nāgeshwari Nageshwari. Nageshwari refers to snakes. Snakes are revered and worshipped as sacred creatures throughout Indian culture. They are the symbol of fertility, creative life force, perception, and mystical dimensions. They also symbolize rebirth, transformation, immortality, and healing by shedding their skin. At Linga Bhairavi, the divine energy of Devi can be felt through the symbolic Divine sarpas carved in Her abode. They are adorned and filled with kumkum or valmeekam as a part of the ritual that enhances regenerative qualities and perception. 8th name Vishweshwari Vishweshwari - 'All pervading' or 'omnipresent'. Vishweshwari is a salutation used to address Linga Bhairavi, whose presence is exceptionally powerful and all-encompassing.As Vishveshwari, she is regarded as the queen and ruler of all existence, protecting and nurturing the entire universe like a Divine Mother. As a manifestation of the Divine Feminine, she is incredibly fierce yet equally benevolent and kind towards her devotees. 9th name Someshwari One of the 33 qualities of Devi Linga Bhairavi is that she is Someshwari. Someshwari refers to the moon. The Goddess of the moon or the one who is intoxicated with bliss. Cycle of Moon and cycles in woman body are closely connected. 10th name Dukhasamharini Devi Bhairavi is a destroyer of suffering. Dukha means suffering and samharam means the destroyer. Suffering comes in various forms for various people, Devi's compassionate energies eliminate suffering in an instant or gradually, according to what's best for the people. Not only for living beings, but she offers ease and peaceful transition for our departed ones as well. As the past is also a kind of suffering, She frees people from their past as well. 11th name Hiranya Garbhini Hiranya Garbhini is the salutation to Devi Bhairavi as the very source of creation of the universe. It basically translates to a 'golden womb.' Devi is seen as the one who delivers existence itself. She is ever pregnant with the essence of life. This sacred space is as vast as the universe itself. In much of Bharat's culture and modern vernacular languages, pregnant women are still referred to as Garbhini, a term that kindles tenderness and signifies the divine within them. Garbhini is also one who nurtures life to its full potential and then engulfs it back to make it a part of herself again. The word is not just limited to human beings. It refers to all life forms that are pregnant, thus a reminder that Her presence exists in every life.

Meaning of the 33 names The 33 names refer to 33 qualities of the Devi. Gurubhyo Gurubhyo - the first name in this series, talks about Devi as the all-encompassing one - the Guru. In the Yogic culture, the Guru-Disciple relationship is the most sacred one. Disciples yearn to mirror their Guru in every aspect. Guru is the guide, the teacher, the light in the darkness, and the ultimate lover. 2nd name Swayambho or Swayambhu This means self-existing -the one that has originated from itself.Devi is extolled as the one who is "self-manifested", the one with no parentage, and who is 'self-created". She is the destroyer of the past, offering the possibility to sweep away karmic bondage. 3rd name Swadharini One of Devi's supreme qualities is that she is "self focussed". The Sanskrit word Dharini comes from Dharana, meaning "concentration" or "steady focus." In yoga, when you practice Dharana, you are "binding" the mind to one place, idea, or object. Dharana is the initial step of deep concentration meditation. 4th name Maha Kalyani Mahakalyani' In this form, Bhairavi is revered as Kalyani the one who brings well-being, prosperity and good fortune. Across Indian culture, parents name their child as Kalyan or Kalyani with this sacred attribute,meaning auspicious, blissful and fortunate. This name is not only lovely but also profound. 5th name Mahabhadrani Or Maha bhadrani This name means that Devi is the fierce protector. The benevolent mother Bhairavi is always besides her devotees. Enveloping all in her abundant grace, Devi is the protector of all life forms on earth. 6th name Maheshwari The name Maheshwari is the compilation of two words 'Maha' and 'lshwari' - refers to Devi's quality as a Great Goddess. 'Maha' means great while 'Ishwari' is a term used to refer to the Divine counterpart of Ishwar' or the Lord of the Universe. Ishwari is the female ruler, considered as the 'mistress of the Entire Universe'. Maheshwari also refers to 'Shakti. Or the feminine energy of three main dimensions that are unified within the form of Linga Bhairavi, Durga-Lakshmi-Saraswati. She is the exposer of consciousness and remainder of Divine that resides in all life around us.

Meaning of the 33 names of Linga bhairavi by Sadhguru. Jai Bhairavi Devi Gurubhyo Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Swayambho Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Swadharini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Maha Kalyani Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mahā Bhadrani Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Maheshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Nageshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Vishweshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Someshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Dukhasamharini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Hiranya Garbhini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Amrita Varshini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Bhakta Rakshini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Saubhagya Dayini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Sarva Janani Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Garbha Dayini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Shoonya Vasini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Maha Nandini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Vameshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Karma Palini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Yonishwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Linga Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Shyama Sundari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Trinetrini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Sarva Mangali Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Maha Yogini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Klesha Nashini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Ugra Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Divya Kamini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Kala Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Trishoola Dharini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Yaksha Kamini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mukti Dayini Namah Shri Aum Maha Devi Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Aum Shri Shambhavi Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Aum Maha Shakti Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Namah Shri Namah Shri Devi Namah Shri The 33 names Gurubhyo Swayambho Swadharini Maha Kalyani Maha Bhadrani Maheshwari Nageshwari Vishweshwari Someshwari Dukhasamharini Hiranya Garbhini Amrita Varshini Bhakta Rakshini Saubhagya Dayini Sarva Janani Garbha Dayini Shoonya Vasini Maha Nandini Vameshwari Karma Palini Yonishwari Linga Roopini Shyama Sundari Trinetrini Sarva Mangali Maha Yogini Klesha Nashini Ugra Roopini Divya Kamini Kala Roopini Trishoola Dharini Yaksha Kamini Mukti Dayini Aum Mahā Devi Linga Bhairavi Aum Shri Shambhavi Linga Bhairavi Maha Shakti Linga Bhairavi

Imagine if a woman said this entire post. There would be an uproar from the forum men. How disrespectful.

Jai Bhairavi Devi Gurubhyo Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Swayambho Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Swa dhārinī Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mahā Kalyāni Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mahā Bhadrāni Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Maheshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Nāgeshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Vishweshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Someshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Dukhasamharini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Hiranya Garbhini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Amrita Varshini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Bhakta Rakshini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Saubhāgya Dāyini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Sarva Janani Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Garbha Dāyini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Shoonya Vāsini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mahā Nandini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Vāmeshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Karma Pālini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Yonīshwari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Linga Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Shyāma Sundari Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Trinetrini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Sarva Mangali Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mahā Yogini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Klesha Nāshini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Ugra Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Divya Kāmini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Kāla Roopini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Trishoola Dhārini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Yaksha Kāmini Namah Shri Jai Bhairavi Devi Mukti Dāyini Namah Shri Aum Mahā Devi Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Aum Shri Shāmbhavi Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Aum Mahā Shakti Linga Bhairavi Namah Shri Namah Shri Namah Shri Devi Namah Shri

All you need are 4 things for a sturdy foundation in (my) life - Awareness of what you are and what you want Vessel Power of discernment between toxic and non toxic Flow state

Morning Sadhana for Linga Bhairavi Devi. Along with translation. Samudra Vasane Devi, Parameswari Narayani, Namasthe Namo Namo, Sarva Bhutaanaam Maataram. Amba Ambike Anadi, Anantaroope Bhairavi, Twameva Sarvam Khalu Idam Brahmamayam Jagat.Abhayam Abhayam Devi, Bhayebhyah Sarva Sarvadaa, Abhayam Dadaatu Bhairavi, Abhayam Sarva Kaalika.Sarva Mangala Mangalye, Sarva Paapa Pranamani, Sarva Duhkha Bhayahaarini, Sarva Sukha Pradaayini.Sarva Mantra Swaroopini, Sarva Yantra Mayukhini, Sarva Tantra Rupaa Devi, Sarva Siddhi Pradaayini.Anena Prataha Sandhya Vandanena Bhagavati, Sarvatmika Tat Sarvam Sri Linga Bhairavi Arpanam Astu. Translation (With this morning sadhana, O Divine Mother Linga Bhairavi, I offer my entire being at your lotus feet. You who reside in the ocean, the supreme goddess Narayani, I bow to you, the mother of all beings. O Amba, Ambika, the primordial and infinite form of Bhairavi, you are truly the entire universe made of Brahman. Grant me freedom from all fears at all times, O Bhairavi, the ever-present bestower of fearlessness. You are the auspiciousness of all that is auspicious, the destroyer of all sins, the remover of all miseries and fears, and the giver of all happiness. You are the embodiment of all mantras, adorned with all yantras, the goddess in the form of all tantras, the bestower of all siddhis. With this morning sadhana, I surrender everything to you, the all-pervading Linga Bhairavi.)

10 principles Think and grow rich. Teachability. Knowingness Study different laws. Mental models Exponential versus linear thinking Taking ownership. We are not our thoughts. Every thought is not your true self which is pure awareness. All your thoughts are imported. We assume an identity that then aligns with those thoughts. We can choose to be joyful. We can be abundance. Identity shifting. You tend to internalize whatever you say to yourself To tap into purpose Optimize your conditions Choose to have faith

10 principles Think and grow rich. Teachability. Knowingness Study different laws. Mental models Exponential versus linear thinking Taking ownership. We are not our thoughts. Every thought is not your true self which is pure awareness. All your thoughts are imported. We assume an identity that then aligns with those thoughts. We can choose to be joyful. We can be abundance. Identity shifting. You tend to internalize whatever you say to yourself To tap into purpose Optimize your conditions Choose to have faith

What do you do with a battery charger? You simply plug it in. You give a signal by turning the switch on. You do the same here. You just signal and meditate on the nature of love and infinity. You meditate on the nature of stillness and you feel one with the absolute. Enhanced Communication Skills. ... Strengthened Relationships. ... Boosted Mental Clarity. ... Enhanced Emotional Well-being. ... Improved Physical Health. ... Increased Prosperity. ... Heightened Intuition. ... Balanced Energy. I felt bliss after reading this comment. Yes I'm empowered. Your Welcome, I was just thinking the other day after reading some of your recent posts and in the Self Actualization Journal part of the forum, you seem to have changed allot over the last months, from very negative to very positive and empowered, which is good to see, something has happened within You now so keep it going!! I want to start a Devi practice every morning and evening. Early in the morning I want to offer flowers or ask to receive Devi's blessings. In the evening I want to offer praises and gratitude to Devi. Everything, everyday, eternally The purpose of the vessel is to connect with God. This doesn't require anything. I'm not sure if I'm going into esoteric blah blah. Anything that builds your vessel is good. Anything that breaks your vessel is bad. Kindness builds the vessel. It's simply surrendering to the absolute essence of peace. Nudging my ship forward bit by bit. Not trying to conquer anything Linga Bhairavi in the morning. Linga Bhairavi in the evening. Linga Bhairavi at night.

I don't think a woman needs a man's permission or approval to be how she wants to be.

Happens to me as well. You must be a pisces, joking. But you could keep existential matters aside and focus on the more practical side of everyday life.

What are your distractions?

It would be great if Leo makes a video on high vibe communication.

Yea they're a bit stubborn. It's like I have to do some gymnastics to make them reconsider things but they're funny as heck. I have been noticing a lot of quirky things about them. Also they say the oddest things sometimes like really cheeky. They don't want to be too direct haha.

Build a solid authentic life Great integrity Not relying on public validation Boost self confidence Great communication skills Not be offended by rejections Taking the lead in social situations Show respect Control neediness or keep it healthy Stay grounded all the time Command self respect Say what you mean and mean what you say Don't use standard pick up lines Dress well Don't make immature comments during conversations Be welcoming and polite Learn when to say no but politely Build mental stamina Don't be desperate for sex (if you want a high quality partner) Integrate other's perspectives Don't be quick to criticize Add a sense of humor Read body language accurately Gain experience through constant socializing and rejections and use it to improve skills (I'm a girl)