Buck Edwards

Do you really like this person and do you really feel there's a possibility of a long term connection? Only then it's really worth even considering let alone having.

( Her negative experiences with hookups likely influenced her behavior and the way she interacted with you. This could explain the intense emotional connection while avoiding sexual activity.) What specifically feels "weird"? Is it the intensity of the connection? The lack of a clear definition of the relationship? The uncertainty about the future?

English is not my first language. I don't know many languages.

I wasn't talking about toxic people. I was saying that it would be toxic to them. Toxic is just an adjective used to describe something unpleasant not necessarily people, even situations or conditions.

Because unless you regulate your time strictly, it will eat away the time you need to be spending with your children. And not just this forum, the internet in general too. But with this forum, time flies by quickly if you interact too frequently or else you'll have to keep yourself on a timer when you interact here because writing posts is not easy and you can never keep a check on time when you are chatting/debating/discussing with the other person. A lot of time goes into that. But the best way to save time is to frequent the forum on a time table, like weekly once.

For people with children, using the forum might be quite toxic.

Have open and honest conversations with your parents, but focus on expressing your concerns and offering support rather than criticism or blame. Encourage your parents to discuss their end-of-life wishes with a doctor and create an advance care directive. This will ensure their wishes are respected if they become incapacitated. I would definitely suggest therapy as the last alternative in your parents case. Forgive yourself. It's okay if you can't do everything. Forgive yourself for any feelings of guilt or inadequacy. Resources: * National Alliance for Caregiving: https://www.caregiving.org/ * The Family Caregiver Alliance: https://www.caregiver.org/ * Eldercare Locator: https://eldercare.acl.gov/

Same to you too.

Yea I have some struggle around my personality.

I woke up early in the morning and didn't sleep well. So I was feeling dull and sluggish.

That money is important for happiness and confidence.

Yea I've been in similar situations quite recently. So I used two ways to deal with it — I mostly forgive them whenever an encounter comes up. I let them go and let them do their thing to me. If they judge me I let them do it. I call it giving space. Meaning. Let them be how they are and I won't react. It's like I give them that freedom to trigger me. Because I understand that a part of them makes them do what they do and I try to take the high road and understand it from a meta perspective, the way a parent would understand a child. So I try to not get worked up by what they do. Instead I just let them and my heart expands in the process. Although I don't experience intense love for them, the hate sort of dissipates a bit in the process of trying to understand where they come from. That's the best I can say on the matter.

@Nick_98 what makes you hate the specific person? I mean if you elaborate, there's a chance to understand what mechanisms in your psyche are building up that hate in the first place?

I sometimes wonder if I could stop being all over the place. I don't know if it's a mental disorder but I tend to be scattered brained a lot. If I can't be appreciated that's completely fine. God appreciates everyone and everything. In his eyes everything and everyone is perfect. I have a sense of vulnerability that becomes my source of composure. I lack maturity and I understand that. Well that part will never change as that is who I am, I mean I have problems and flaws of personality and character that I accept. Immaturity is one of them. Well I'm not trying to achieve anything big in life so I'm not super critical of who I am. I can only do as much as I can and I have already done well for myself in whatever way. With mental disorder life is hard. Nothing feels normal and nothing works normal. I try not to slide down but stay up as much as possible. I don't judge myself so in the same breath I don't judge others either. My life is unique. My personality is unique. I have an innocent heart and a sense of vulnerability that allows me to be empathetic. But I need to remember that I can always do better than what I already do. I need a lot of space for that though. Any changes in my life take place slowly. I hate how others perceive me because that's not who I am. I'm extremely introverted and I'm fine with it. Although it handicaps my social skills a bit, my autism does that too. I move slowly at my own pace. Any negativity impacts my growth. Negativity is my devil, destroyer of my soul. So I hate that. I can only speak in vacuum, I can never hold a normal conversation like other people do because my brain works at a grudgingly slow pace. I'm proud of who I am. There are dull days in my life, days when I don't even want to get out of bed. But it's okay. Like I said I don't judge myself because judging just makes everything worse. People are as they are. You have to be your best version everyday no matter what.

Wow that's an impressive list. I'll keep that in mind. Thanks for the response. I might add it to my journal if you don't mind, helps me to remember everything in one place.

He uses success as a barometer of his spiritual knowledge, the irony.

It's awesome that you love to dance! It's a fantastic way to express yourself and have fun. Everyone's there to have fun (mostly). Most people at a club are there to enjoy the music and let loose. While some might be more skilled dancers, many are simply there to move and have a good time.Focus on how dancing makes you feel. Don't worry too much about looking "perfect" or impressing others. Dance with freedom and joy, and let your personality shine through. Experiment with different dance styles. What music makes you want to move? Explore genres like hip-hop, salsa, or even just freestyle. You might discover a style that feels more natural to you. If I were in a club I would try zumba. If you're feeling self-conscious, start by dancing near the edge of the dance floor or in a less crowded area. Gradually work your way towards the center as you feel more comfortable. If people laugh, try not to take it personally. Sometimes, laughter can be contagious and good-natured. If you're having a blast, that energy will likely be infectious. Spend some time observing how other people are dancing. Get a feel for the energy of the club. Begin with some simple moves, like swaying to the music or tapping your feet. Gradually increase the intensity as you feel more comfortable. Listen to your body. If you feel yourself getting too carried away and feeling self-conscious, tone it down a bit. Ultimately, the most important thing is to have fun! If you're enjoying yourself, that will shine through and make you more attractive to others.Confidence is key. Even if you're not the most graceful dancer, owning your moves will make a big difference. Focus on the music and the feeling it gives you. Let the rhythm guide your movements. Don't let the fear of judgment hold you back from enjoying yourself.

Starting a religion is not easy. They often turn into cults. Once the pioneer or founder is dead, the religion can be hijacked and turned into a sophisticated cult by it's followers.

My stats have improved. And I'm feeling better today. Waiting ardently for tomorrow. Sometimes I want time only to myself.

Oh my goodness.

Snakes are charming.

What things do you admire in a woman of your interest? What things piss you off or annoy in a partner?

September 6th entry. My balls potted are 15,856. That's quite impressive for now. I want to up it everyday. I will not focus on victory. I'd rather focus on balls potted everyday. Focusing on winning and losing is discouraging. December 27th entry My balls potted are 23, 503. Quite some progress.

My first encounter with ayahuasca happened approximately two weeks after completing my initial dark retreat, which had left me in a positive state of mind. As someone who had recently started exploring psychedelics, I decided to participate in an official ceremony rather than trying the powerful substance alone for the first time. Let me paint a picture of the ceremony for you. Upon arrival at the ceremony location, I was warmly welcomed and led to a waiting room where thirty more people would join me over the next half hour. When it was time to enter the ceremonial room, my attention was immediately drawn to the shaman, who exuded love, kindness, warmth, and security. He gave me a long, warm hug, and I knew I was in good hands. After the shaman's introduction, each participant expressed their intention for the day. We practiced the correct breathing technique to ensure effective inhalation from the pipe. This was followed by holotropic breathing exercises to release any remaining tension and prepare the mind. Each of us received a glass pipe to hold close to our hearts while staying connected to our intention for the experience. The shaman administered the medicine to each participant seemingly at random. The first person to inhale the smoke reacted strongly, which briefly heightened my nerves. I focused on my intention and reminded myself to surrender to the experience. Suddenly, the shaman sat in front of me, and I began deep breathing before inhaling the smoke. The effects of the medicine kicked in almost immediately, and I was transported to a timeless and spaceless place of pure being. I experienced profound connection and love, and felt a deep understanding of the universe. Ayahuasca is magic, it really changes you. In an instant, I returned to my human form, overwhelmed with emotion. I wept in awe at the beauty I had witnessed, then burst into laughter in disbelief. Looking around, I realized the ceremony was still ongoing, despite feeling like I had been gone for eternity. The shaman's knowing smile conveyed his understanding of my experience in a way words could not. I am immensely grateful for this experience and everyone who made it possible. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.