The Redeemer

Just being honest with myself here. I seem to have low feelings of self-worth. I am noticing I have thoughts like: "You're to skinny" "You're to small" "You have long hair" And because of all these things I am supposed to feel bad about myself. If I truly wanted to fit in with society, I would cut my hair and get big and strong. My ex even told me that she wanted a big and strong man to take care of her needs. They want a strong guy. I am not strong. I have a hard time eating food and gaining muscle because I get sick easily and I find eating a lot repulsive. Maybe there is a way I can just bulk up with shakes. I know a lot of pickup ideology says looks don't matter, but I think it does. Women like using you as a trophy and want you to look nice and shiny so they can brag to their girlfriends about you. Their might be a correlation between physicality and self esteem. If you don't feel strong. Than you aren't strong. The only way I can feel strong is to be physically strong. At least that is how I see it.

Who cares. Stop giving him more publicity.

Which one of you guys has a solid grasp on this? Things are getting insane.

There is an infinite number of responses to this message ♾️

Because you don't understand how perception works

In a parallel universe they an infinite number of combinations of manifestations ♾️

There is no difference it's based on an infinite subjective perception

I hope western society falls

Every time I am nice and considerate I get nothing. Women really need to stop rewarding men for dysfunctional behavior. They want psychopathic criminal behavior because they are fucking bored and need constant stimulation. They want violent men. That is what I have seen time and time again. Everytime I get pissed off it turns them on. Now granted maybe they reward guys for nice behavior if they are super attractive, but from what I have seen I only get rewarded when I don't give a fuck and just do and say what I want and take what I want. Honesty the only way I got sex from my ex was borderline screaming at her and it fucking worked. If I was nice, I would have gotten nothing and would have just adapted to her rhythm and gotten nothing. NEVER LET HER LEAD! Treat them like a fucking animal. Toss and discard them because they don't give a fuck about you at all. "Mods please don't ban this post. I am not condoning this type of behavior. Simply just stating my empirical observations."

My ex used to talk about having group sex fantasies and dreams and I believe she actually has participated in orgies before. I never have participated in an orgy and the idea of it makes me uncomfortable. What are your guys' thoughts about it?

I honestly believe a lot of my hatred for women comes from my porn use. Porn conditions you to expect the highest quality partner, so when you actually have a girl in front of you, you can't enjoy her fully because you are subconsciously comparing her to all the other previous girls that you have masturbated to. What this does is build a subtle feeling of hatred for the woman that you are with and causes you to dislike her. This is why I have stopped watching porn. I legitimately want to appreciate a woman for her own natural authentic beauty. I am tired of viewing them as nothing but sexual objects.

I would sign up to such a site. If it exists. Maybe Leo could expand this site and make it become Facebook for consciousness.

I have reason to believe she may have been involved in such activities.

Working on myself everyday

That is what I am discovering. Stage green adapts to the others persons boundaries. What these boundaries include is relative to the two people involved.

What are the differences and key distinctions between these two stages when it comes to relationships? To me, in the ideal stage blue relationship, both parties are happily married and are committed to one another till death due us part. They are completely loyal to one another and there isn't any third party involved. Stage green is a little bit confusing to me as it almost seems like sex is given out freely. Is this where group sex comes in? I am not sure if this is necessarily more evolved, as it seems kind of toxic to me. Maybe stage green people enjoy sex, but aren't attached to the person involved, like in blue. Thoughts?

Gone are the stage blue traditional values. Women have gone completely orange at this point.

Okay so I am finally back to doing some approaches and taking action but what I am finding is my mood is very low. I have a hard time getting excited while I am out approaching. I was wondering if there is anyway that I could raise my state without it petering out.

So a little bit about me..... I come from a very conservative home. I grew up in a very stage blue environment where I went to a private Christian school and had to follow rigid rules/dress code. I wasn't allowed to express myself as an individual the way I wanted to growing up. This caused me feelings of anger and resentment, which I still have to this day. I hated not being able to express myself. I was a very creative person deep down, but all of it got squashed down by the rigid dogma my school and family taught me. My dad didn't encourage critical thinking at all. In fact, he hated when I would question anything. He just wanted me to follow the rules without questioning anything. I'm not sure where I am going with this, but needless to say. I don't know how I am supposed to heal from this. I don't know how to express myself in the way I am authentically am supposed to. I don't think I cultivated an identity because I was never allowed to It is like I am still stuck being a teenager discovering who they are, but I am 26 years old. Its Quite sad.

What are you supposed to do when you don't feel safe or secure with your parents. Do I just need to give them up completely? Like never talk to them again. Because it doesn't look like my family is going to change or cares how I feel.

I will look into it

I am either Dismissive-Avoidant or Fearful-Avoidant.

I am not sure what my attachment style is

I have to. I'm just saying it helps to become strong. In order to maximize your level of attractiveness.