The Redeemer

It is fucking hard. But who cares. Just take what you want and stop giving a fuck. Once you stop letting society dictate your reality it becomes easy. Learn how to fight and defend yourself and don't take shit from anybody. And most importantly... LEAD!!!

It's going to change. Men are going to start waking up.

I need to practice self-amusement more

I can't sing. I try projecting my voice and I have so much fear within me I feel like I have a noose tied to my neck. I feel my voice opening up a little, but it is like my subconscious mind is terrified of expressing itself. I literally start crying when I sing because it feels like something is holding me back.

I think I am still in love with her. She was the most rarest girl I have ever met. I never met a girl that I felt safe to be my most authentic self around. Most girls I approach don't appreciate my femininity

I swear everytime I go out a socialize. It always turns into some type of drug fest. It seems almost unavoidable. Like a trade off. Lots of wild sex comes with lots of drugs and alcohol.

I keep imagining these high emotional states were the level of suffering seems almost non existent. I am suffering minor now within my own body. It feels like this sad energy. I wish I could somehow live from a state of pure peace. Almost just like living as a peaceful energy sort of whisp like. Without a physical body. A feel like having a body burdens you. Have any of you guys accessed a state of pure peace without any suffering whatsoever? Is it possible to live from such a place?

I live in a college town and I find it hard to strike up a conversation with college girls. I have been laughed at several times and people have called the police on me. This just traumatizes me from even approaching.

I believe all men should be loved for just being themselves. Ironically I think this would improve men's self-development, as when you feel that someone loves and appreciates you just for you, without having to do anything, you feel a whole lot more at ease and literally everything is better. You don't have to do anything. You are just loved for you. I wish the world was more inclined this way.

I have seen it. Honestly I believe that having different sides of myself allows me to understand reality from multiple perspectives. It definitely confuses a lot of people though.

It's up to us to rewrite reality. I experienced what is was truly like to be loved for who I am.

I was doing my best to be as calibrated as possible. Just experimenting around. I try to be as kind when I approach give basic compliments or statements. Try to add positive energy, but time and time again I have noticed that they don't seem to respond well to that. Heck I even tried giving a girl a negative compliment and she responded better to that than an actually compliment.

Here we go again

I've told you several times I have multiple personalities

I'm just a guy that wants love

Dead ass

I met a straight up psychopath woman. Who pulled a gun on me for approaching. Like I don't know if I had some rare occurrence happen, but that shit traumatized me like for real.

Yes

Based off my own direct experience. Yes.

What is the best course of action for causing change within society? I believe it is creating systems, which will operate as a beacon of light onto people's own selfish biases and deceptions. If we could create a team of people who create this enlightened system. Then society would have no choice, but to evolve because there is no one on the planet that isn't calling them out on their behavior. I believe you should call people out on their behavior. This will lead to the betterment of society in the long run.

I disagree, based off of my own direct experience. I definitely notice an increase in energy levels.

I don't know. Why don't you try it an find out. Document it and record the results. Do a 30 day challenge no masturbation. Empirical observation is the only way.

Obviously

Doesn't sound like you did anything particularly wrong per se. Some women really want to have kids, so it could have been a major deal breaker for her. Or she just seemed like you weren't going to be a good fit for her and was trying to let you down easy. Really it doesn't sound like you are doing anything wrong. There is nothing wrong with being in love with someone. Just try to see things objectively and zoom out and honestly ask yourself if you guys would have been a good fit long-term. I recently got over my ex. I still have mixed feelings for her, but if I honestly assess the situation, I realize that she is quite immature and has values that don't mesh well with mine, so it would have never worked. I think it is important to view this from a bird's eye view as to not get attached to personal feelings as this can blind your perception and prevent you from seeing things accurately.

About what?