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Yes it's your conscious choice in which state you want to be in if you want you don't take any physical form and stay in the godstate. But there is beauty in duality you will get bored by being in nothingness state. And remember you are god and god wants to live all these lives in physical form! But if you do not want to you can always have a choice!

So I have been meditating for the last 8-9 years on and off. I went to Vipassana last year in the month of July this was the second Vipassana retreat my first retreat was in 2014. On my recent retreat, I started meditating everything was going well until 4th day I meditated for the whole day and then came out for a break in the evening I was sitting under this tree and I started feeling heavily emotional then I started crying I did not know why I was crying I never cried like this in my whole life. I completed my 10-day retreat when I left the meditation center I became extremely sensitive to emotions that I cried every day I was feeling extreme gratitude. With that, I felt so much bliss that I can not explain! Somedays the bliss was so high that I felt like I am high on something! The bliss was 24X7 After the retreat, I was not able to work because I used to feel the bliss all time! I love traveling but even I did not want to travel because I was feeling an insane level of bliss sitting in my room. In that time I became so sensitive to everything that even I started to have fears of heights. I was so scared that I did not meditate after coming from retreat because I was scared of what was happening to me. I did not work for 2-3 months then that effect lasted around 4.5 Months after that everything got back to normal in the month of December 2022. Then in the month of January 2023, I went on vacation for a week, and boom the same thing happened started feeling immense bliss, gratitude, and emotions this time I did not even meditate. The feeling subsided after 15-20 days! I can not comprehend what was all this experience was it is awakening or something else?

@Leo Gura Leo i understand that you have awakened to a level where most people are not. Now why don't you teach us how we can get to the level where you are.

I have been doing the Vipassana meditation technique. And you only enjoy the bliss to a certain extent at some point you just want to get back to normal because at that level of bliss you become function less you don't want to do anything because you are feeling so good there is no motivation left for anything you just want to sit somewhere and that's it! I enjoyed it for a few days then I wanted to get back to normal lol This taught me an important lesson that you need balance in everything if you get something more and more even if its happiness or bliss it becomes boring that's why all emotions exist to create a balance and for normal functioning of beings!

This is the beauty of the spiritual journey the sign of progress is that your life will become better and better with more and deeper understanding.

Sure I will go deeper with this thanks!

I searched about The A&P and this is exactly what was happening to me thank you so much I really appreciate your help

Both!

Then what approach do you recommend?

I learned this after that experience initially I thought its all rainbows and sunshine but that experience literally made me lose myself and that day I knew this journey is not all rainbows and sunshine I am just starting I don't know what would happen to people who had even more deeper experiences:D

Yes, I understand this. But do you get to god or truth by completely destroying your ego?

This is a good point on trusting your own experience because I think this area of spirituality is so deep that everyone has different kinds of experience and difficult to judge what is actually happening. BTW thanks for the answer I really appreciate it!

Yes, this was the first taste of what god feels like for me! I am thankful for this!

Now I am more sure that it was some ego death as I was so scared that I did not even want to meditate actually it was my ego that was scared of its existence .

Thankyou this makes sense !