Mileyofpink

@Yimpa No worries, if you know of any material I could read - that would be really great

@koops hehe.. Hope I can go all the way

@StarStruck

@Salvijus naaaaaaaah. It's almost funny to read this. It was too energetic and electric. Not just numbness... Way beyond numbness

@Breakingthewall thank you for the encouragement

thank you, everyone, this was heartwarming

After learning more and more about spirituality (and I don't mean to say I know too much) one thing was clear that everything is oneness and essentially things, anything doesn't really matter. This has since a couple years or more been giving me a lot of anxiety as soon as I'm alone with myself and free from work or people. I think having a boyfriend (broke up 7 months ago, narcissistic 5 yr relationship) gave me a beautiful escape from this ", existents crisis." I had lost myself in him. But it's been a long time and I have changed a lot since then. From being very timid and pathetic to a person with some substance, some stand, some life, some honour. But there has been no distraction or escape and I have been facing this anxiety head on all the time now. It's making me lose ambition to an extent. I know I have to do things so I do things but I'm always wondering.. "what for?"

@WonderSeeker "It's like a mix of blue law and green sympathy. Yellow integrates them" Loved this viewpoint

@SeaMonster Thank you for the insight

@DefinitelyNotARobot Haha, he is the spaceship and the alien.

Thank you, everyone, for your helpful responses, it just feels so great to know there is a forum where people are so connected with each other for topics normal people don't begin to comprehend. This is beautiful.

Does anyone have any insights or tips or guidance to offer? How to go from nothing matters to nothing matters!

Yeah, I wondered that too. Didn't he mention he is going to be a dad now or did I hear something incorrect? He also spoke about leaving the channel for new avenues or his goal of going in a cave somewhere becoming god. Sorry for my framing, idk how better to put this so maybe he is working on newer episodes or exploring life beyond. I do believe if he was leaving the channel he would leave a goodbye video and we would cry. hehe.

Book: On Becoming A Person Author: Carl Rogers

I recently ended a five year toxic relationship. Have been spending time alone for the first time after almost 7 years. I do everything to make myself feel i had a productive day. I'm not working right now, studying in a year long course so i have quite a bit of time on my hands and i do as much as i can to not let it get wasted. Working on my health, fitness, upskilling myself and if all the tasks are completed i sit down, watch Netflix. I'm also working on a project. It's been a month now and things have hit a plateau. I'm not seeing any results and my weight loss has stopped no matter what i do. I'm not earning money right now either. I'm starting to feel hopeless. At the end of the day i feel like what's the point. But i have no option but to keep going otherwise I'll always be like this, an uninspired life. When i was in a relationship i would feel like i still have something, or someone. But now it's just me. No one to share with. Things are stagnant, i don't have any social life or prospects to meet people. I feel hopeless, i feel like a loser for not being able to bring results. I just.. what's the point? Feeling completely uninspired and dull since a while. Nothing brings me joy anymore. I feel lonely too. Any advice?

Hi Leo, I searched everywhere and couldn't find the video on brain disorders. Not on YouTube, your website or through google search. Would anyone be able to share the link for that video? Thank you.

Oh okay. Yes he did mention it and I've seen it many times on YouTube but when i decided to watch it, nowhere to be found.

Hi Leo, I searched everywhere and couldn't find the video on brain disorders. Not on YouTube, your website or through google search. Would anyone be able to share the link for that video? Thank you.

Thank you everyone for your responses. This really helps. I've gotten some notes to further think about deeply. So grateful to be a part of this forum.

Hi! So, I'm a little uncertain what's the procedure here for sharing and if this message is acceptable for the community, If not please do let me know. I wanted to share my story and hear from the people on this forum about their thoughts. Since grade 10th I've been involved in relationships with what i believe to be toxic guys. I had a lot of confidence and energy but in almost 7 years (2 and then 5 with someone) I had completely lost myself. All my confidence and energy towards life. My ex would constantly speak in a condescending manner whenever I shared something, tried to make it seem he always knew better and that none of my accomplishments were a big deal. He would abuse me almost every week. But I was so attached that my mind completely suppressed the toxic behaviour and remembered the few good things he had done. My mind would highlight his qualities while he exaggerated my flaws. And that became the "power dynamic" between us. I finally realised he does not love me and i broke up. A few days after I connected with some old guy friends he had made me cut off from and somehow he found out. He abused me again over and mentioned that i was a cheater and wasted his five years. Despite the abuse I feel the need to tell him that he believes wrong and that I'm not a cheater and I did love him with all my heart. I feel i could do that as we are anyway parting ways and won't ever connect again in life. Should I send a heartful response and then get on with life or should I just let this go and never contact him again?

Thank you for your response. It's helpful.