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Day 20 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. Life is very confusing. I used to feel so certain about a lot of things. Now I'm in the phase of being lost again. I'm going through the life purpose course and I'm not sure what my life purpose is yet. I thought I wanted a certain career path and that I would be able to design my life a certain way. Now I need to question myself and the path I'm on. I need to find the truth.

Day 19 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. Today was a mixture of deep reflection and fooling around. I usually feel guilty for fooling around because I feel like I am wasting my time. I realized though that sometimes it's necessary for me to take my mind off of things for short periods of time to recharge myself and gain better focus.

Day 18 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. I'm feeling tired both physically and mentally today. I don't know if it's a build up from not enough sleep through the week or if it's from the struggles of life I have been enduring for the past 4 years. Either way I just feel exhausted overall. I can only keep pushing on until, I find a way out.

@Wouter Helps me feel calmer and clears my head. It also helps me feel more energized and focused as well. The feelings I get are very subtle and the effects don't last long though. I don't think I will see drastic changes until I practice advanced meditation techniques that require a lot of mental strength to do. Day 17 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. At my current point in my life, it takes some effort to just take 15 minutes out of the day and to sit there. It's only 15 minutes, yet I find setting that time aside and meditating isn't that easy for me. My main goal right now is consistency. I want to be able to do 15 minutes every single day consistently until it becomes easy. I will work it up until I can do 1 hour a day.

Day 16 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. I feel that meditation is helping me a little bit, but I'm sure I will need to do it for a while before I can realize a lot of the benefits that meditation can bring.

@Zane Yea that's why I think there are a lot of impatient and angry people customers that come into my work. A lot of people probably do forget what happiness is, that's why they constantly chase after pleasure because they confuse that with happiness. That's good Zane, sounds like you are on the right path! Day 15 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. I'm still feeling exhausted and drained. I have a desperate longing for a sense of freedom. I feel like I'm trapped in a prison. I wonder if I can overcome these feelings without making drastic changes in my circumstances. I have always focused so much on changing my circumstances to change my feelings. Is it possible for me to change my feelings even though my circumstances largely stay the same? Is that what it means to truly remove your ego? Hmm, I wonder.

Day 14 Had a 5 minute meditation session today. I forced myself to squeeze in 5 minutes because I was just very irritated today. The final straw was dealing with LA traffic. Just the things people do really adds up over time up till a point where I become angered. You can observe social dynamics and the ego that people have through driving. If you really take the time to observe people driving you can see how some people have such big ego problems. I notice this when I see some people go out of their way to hold back other cars from moving up, just so they can feel like they are superior. I see these kind of stupid stunts pulled constantly on the road here and it really gets annoying dealing with it every single day. I noticed I get enraged when I get caught in situations that make me feel so weak and helpless. I think if I am not careful, my ego will start to hunt down power. I think this is what happens to the people who seek out positions that give them power. The people who constantly look to obtain power have felt weak and helpless enough times where they have snapped. I am recognizing this trap, and will note this so I can avoid going down this destructive path.

Day 13 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. Lately for some reason I have been thinking a lot about religion. I'm not a religious person, but I was born into a Christian family. I don't want to spark a religion debate so I'm not going to write my full thoughts about it. Overall, I am realizing there is still so much to learn about life. I must study the works of others and learn something new every single day. In essence, I am forever a student of life.

@Zane Thanks, it's been a challenge over the past 2 years setting boundaries with my family and friends. Only just recently the boundaries have been getting stronger. I have also been able to eliminate a lot of things from my life that no longer add value. The main challenge I have now is setting stronger boundaries with my girlfriend. I definitely do need to develop a solid strategy for that and execute it in a way that will make both of us happy. Day 12 Had a 15 minute meditation session today. I am still practicing the do nothing meditation and that is what is keeping me going on consistently. My next step will be to switch over to the mindfulness meditation technique. It takes some mental work so I am currently in the process of organizing my life so that I can not be as exhausted mentally every day.

Day 11 Only managed to get a 5 minute meditation session today. I was very distracted all day today. My mind is in chaos right now. I feel like I'm being pulled in 20 different directions. Lately, life has been somewhat demanding, and there are so many things to take care of that keep popping up. Every time I take care of one issue there's another that comes up. I'm feeling drained and exhausted every day. I feel like I'm not recovering because I haven't been able to get the alone time I desperately need. I'm the type of person who needs massive amounts of alone time in order to function well in life and around people. Sometimes I feel like I need weeks to recover. I would love to have at least 2 weeks to myself with no commitments to anyone. It's exhausting keeping up with the demands of work, family, girlfriend, and friends. I don't even have kids and I don't know how everyone else does it. I feel the heavy burden building inside because I have been dealing with this feeling for a year now. It's reaching a point where I just need to take a break and get away for a little bit. Just for a few days. I would really like more time to spend on my self-actualization work and my business ideas, but I keep falling for these traps that suck my time and my energy. I am going to practice mindfulness meditation so that I become more aware of these traps and avoid them consistently.

http://matomy.com They are one of the bigger companies for mobile marketing. You can submit your app there and tell them how much you will pay per app install. For example, you might pay the network $1.00 per app install. Affiliates can easily generate hundreds of thousands of app installs so you would need to set a daily cap. Get a proper budget and a proven tested way of monetizing your app. For going this route, I would suggest a budget of $100,000. If you want to start with a much lower budget then you can do the marketing yourself and cut out the need for paying affiliates. You would only need some starting capital for paid advertising, and I would say you can get a good start with just $5,000. Digital marketing isn't easy though so be prepared for a steep learning curve before you get any successful campaigns.

@Zane Thanks! Yea definitely I will try out different meditation techniques along the way. I think being around nature would help me as well, as nature does relax and energize me. Day 10 Had another 15 minute session today. I find that I still get annoyed or frustrated by the certain behaviors and actions from other people. When I was younger I had an incredible amount of patience for people, but now my patience has grown very thin. I don't tolerate as much as I used to and I have developed an attitude of aggression and raw anger inside that wasn't there before. Through this I gain a better insight and understanding of my father and the behaviors I have observed in him. With this meditation practice I want to develop my mind to stay more grounded, and calm throughout the day.

@Neill Definitely will do! Day 9 Had a 15 minute session today. I find that I have a hard time with listening to anything for long periods of time. When I have to concentrate on listening to something my mind drifts in and out of consciousness. I am constantly getting lost in my own thoughts and distracted by my immediate surroundings. Through daily meditation I hope to improve my listening skills and focus abilities.

Day 8 I had a 15 minute meditation session today. 15 minutes actually didn't go by that quickly. Adding that 5 extra minutes really made it feel quite a bit longer. I'm going to meditate for 15 minutes each day until it starts to feel comfortable, then I will increase the time again after that. I'm going to keep increasing the meditation sessions by 5 minutes every time I start to feel comfortable with the time I am doing.

@charlie2dogs I don't consider my statements ignorant, but if you feel that way you could have used it as an opportunity to educate me instead of attacking me. I'm not avoiding responsibility for anything. I am merely pointing out that your previous communication wasn't clear. Your response shows me you are far more immature, inexperienced, and foolish. Thanks for ending the conversation in a civil matter because I am also done talking with you.

@Zane Thank you Zane! I appreciate your words of encouragement

@charlie2dogs Don't make assumptions about people based on your ego. Actually I did consider that my ability to understand your speech may be the issue. Rather than question my ability to comprehend your speech, you should look at the deeper point I was making. Maybe you're ego won't let you see it, but your speech is obscure and sends a message that will confuse more people rather than give them clarity. Also your initial post was not helpful to this discussion. This topic is to invoke a sense of imagination in people and allow them to visualize a life where money isn't an issue. What type of lives would people live if they weren't so busy caught in the vicious cycle of working to pay bills, feed their kids, and provide a better life for themselves and their family? I see money as a tool to provide for the life I want to live. That is why I visualize a life of abundance so that I can be in alignment with myself and my calling in life.

@charlie2dogs You speak in riddles in trying to sound wise, but your message gets obscured by your pontificated speech. I do agree that in order to find your true self, you must ignore the voices of others and listen to what is inside of yourself.

Day 7 Today was a busy day, I had to meet a friend after work and then met up with my girlfriend. I managed to get 5 minutes of meditation in for the day.

The whole point of personal development is to become the person you want to be, and change from the person you are now. No it's not the same thing as a sheep talking about what he would do if he was a wolf. We are all people with the capabilities to do and be so much more than what we are now. If you fail to see that point, then you fail to see the big picture of what is possible with personal development.

Day 6 Had a 10 minute meditation session today. I still have a lot of monkey chatter in my mind. I think it will be a while before I will be able to keep my focus on the present moment for long periods of time. Also I downloaded and started listening to a new audio book today. I will use my daily commute to work as the time to listen to audio books and podcasts. This will help me to make better use of my time and energy.

@Natasha Thank you That's awesome I'm glad you decided to take the plunge as well! Good luck with your challenge, hope it all goes well. Let us know how it works out for you

@Neill I like both of the projects you are working on. I see a lot of potential with EatSimply. I am into digital marketing and that is what I'm currently trying to build my career around. I've mainly done digital marking for my personal projects and as an affiliate marketer. I'm passionate about business and digital marketing, so if you would like some help with that part of it just hit me up. @Clay Curl That's a great idea. E commerce has gained a lot of popularity with mobile users. I would say focus on developing the mobile app side of it more. Once the app is created, there is a lot of marketing that needs to be done. I'm sure since you are familiar with affiliate marketing, you can sign up for a network and pay affiliates to get people to download the app and increase it's popularity in the marketplace.

Day 5 Increased my meditation time to 10 minutes today. I feel that 10 minutes is a good pace for me because 5 minutes doesn't feel like enough time for me to get a good meditation. Also I saw a car accident happen right in front of me. A guy was trying to make a left turn really fast and he couldn't control the car. He crashed headfirst right into a lamp pole. It was a really hard crash and I couldn't even see if the guy was ok because the light turned green and the traffic started moving. There was a police car right around that area and he immediately rushed to the crashed car. As I was driving by I saw a young girl climb out of the passenger window. It's crazy because the car just went right by me so quickly I'm glad I wasn't around the area where he crashed.

Day 4 Today was a bit of a rough day, but i got through it and it got better in the end. I still need a lot of work to calm down my mind and maintain awareness throughout the day.