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Who said I fapped and used po- Ok I do But not sure I wouldn't be fascinated by the beaut and presence of women in general even without that I meant like...I don't imagine the sex, I just feel some attraction Yeah weirdley formulated

I get what you mean. I've wasted my life debating with people and looking up solutions, alternatives. On one hand, I think that is what I am. That my brain or something deeper actually needs this kind of stimulation. I don't think I'm relly looking or someone to tell me what to do tho. I'm just looking for pieces of the puzzle and chosing the ones I miss. So many human experience can only lead me to better things, otherwise I wouldn't be here. I think it's a mix of both. Reading and talking, and then experiencing. Granted, I'm certainly not doing the second one neaaarly enough. Not sure if it scares me. Or if I deep down I don't believe in myself and just distract myself with pretty stories and concepts. But yeah. I fucking need to stop my adhd brain for one second and take back meditation and whatever other kind of more personal studies I could find to feel better. Cause clearly I'm in a hole right now. PS : sorry if I'm not answering some other posts. Sometimes I just don't have more to say but appreciate the infos and experience.

Clearly aliens could be operating on a way that we would never be able to conceive or understand. But when I say physical, there's no hidden meaning here. I'm talking about moving bodies as we know them in the materail world as we know it. So when you were saying aliens wouldn't need to travel in the same way we've been imaginating (ships, etc), my question was : ho would they travel then? If travelling is about being present on Earth. Maybe they could just sense lifeforms and "teleport" (to simplify) there, who knows. Maybe they can be at many places at once, maybe just having an image or an object from a planet allows them to be there tho. I don't really know and my imagination or scientific knowledge is less than childish, I'm really just trying to understand what other meant of travelling, aka going from one physical place to another, there could be, rather than the stereotypical alien ship travelling space.

Hopefully I'm wrong and something incredibly new and hindsightful will come out of this book, but I'm betting some points of the tl;dr are just the usual : - exercise - eat healty - hydrate - sleep enough - avoid anxiety (harder one for me) (oh and obviously no smokes, alcool and other drugs, but I guess that's pretty obvious) Tbh I don't see how not doing all of those isn't just the best way to live the longest life you can, minus diseases and stuff you can't do shit about.

Not good. Lacks a lot of things. Too much sugar. No need to go that extreme. Veggies are essential and you won't get all the nutrients, proteins and carbs you need with just fruits. There's not point in doing it afaik.

Aren't they tho?

I guess it doesn't matter (you can come and go through phases I suppose? I'm hetero cis myself but I guess you can), or rather it does if you feel better like that and you're not lying to yourself?

So ailiens are non physical? Are we still talking about material beings from outer space? If so, and if "travel" is used in the traditional sense we know, you have to move form one place to another, right? Oh but maybe you mean some kind of teleportation technology?

This post made me laugh It's so angry it almost seems like some sort of trolling or experiment, I don't know. (Obvously I love what Leo is bringin in general, but as it is the case with people you know IRL even, you can love a person overall but still laugh or be surprised by things they say/think at times) Has this term of alien been brought up in Actualized's videos? What does this even mean, aliens as in, the conventional use, from outer space? Or could it mean something else.

For me it's bipolarity/depression/adhd But also lazyness And uncertainty bout how to use my time, which makes me panic and feel like a deer in headlights.

Oh he really is a good human to me, that's for sure. It's just that you can resonate with some parts/talk in some people, but feel kind of icky about some other parts of what they say. I just had to remind myself here that it's not because he taught me things and I now carry a bit of himself in me, that I have to try and accept everything he's saying, or try to apply it for yourself. That's pretty obvious and every smart teacher including himself does remind us not to just take everything they say for granted, but as it is the case for many things, it's easier to think this and say it, but not always to actually apply the advice to yourself.

I prefer Batman. It's a crime movie where a man is turned into a bat.

One is so impossible to chose... So I'll cheat and make it to 5, sorry Stalker : incredibly spiritual movie that has a very specific sense of time (it's around 3 hours and veeery slow at times, but that's part of the point, introspection etc) I rewatch it once a year, and it still feels like a mystical experience to me, I wouldn't recommend it to a lot of people tho. Everything everywere all once : The balance between absurdly funny, action, mystical and basic human relationships is so good. If makes me cry to twice in theaters. Rare that a film can touch my soul so deeply on existential matters. Can't wait to rewatch it. Whiplash : The raw anger and competitivity ends up in a non-conventional explosive finale that leaves you on edge. Kids return : Incredibly nostalgic japanese movie from Kitano. Not nostalgic as in, namedrop/copying the past like they do today, more like, people reflecting back on their lives. Sad with a smile. And eeer...the latest movie might be a Tarantino movie but not sure which one. Or maybe a Kurosawa one.

I do not perceive myself as such, but thank you very much, this feels good to hear I've never watched a Tim Robbins video But to "who else would follow his insanity"?, I would say, people that had lots of problems socializing, and/or cis men having trouble communicating with the other gender. He literally unlocked things in me that made me break 30+ years of celibate and virginity. (Edit : well, him and other teachers I was following at the same time I guess) I think his very outgoing energy balanced something in mine. Granted, I never ended up being some sort of player, but I learned enough to push to cursor a bit more on the "social/talkative" scale, enough for me not be a recluse that was way too stuck in his head to even having small talk (I was talking about women, but some of his advice/videos also help some people getting out of their head and talk more easily)

Yeah, not taking away for his many qualities, but the way you describe Owen does seem pretty accurate. Maybe some parts of what he's saying should just catter to specifically ambitious/high energy people. Clearly I shouldn't be chasing that level of ambition. Now as for chasing a lower level of ambition (maybe even just personal projects, not chasing money)...that's a more personal question I guess, that only I can answer. But I feel like it could be a good thing. I did work a bit for some people on some projects at an ultra tiny scale, and it was actually very absorbing and new to me. The fact that I'm asking questions in this regard is probably enough of a sign to tell me that, as much as I genuinely like reading, watching, playing, part of me does need creation. Just need to find out on what level and strike a balance (ADHD makes it hard to only focus on one thing)

I think I recall you saying you believed in ESP or something like that? (I might be wrong, I have a terrible memory) Do you think those are different from magic? I'm wondering, if both exist, if they're using the same "energy". If both would come from us only in the end. Nobody knows I guess. Also thanks everyone for the sources and thought material! Could watch everything yet but lots of interesting things.

I'm very drawn to this, I actually listen to some podcasts, read a few books...but I can never seem to start. I don't know if I like the idea of being some kind of weird bookworm and being special more than actually practicing the various crafts that could be linked to...let's say chaos magick. I think it's also hard for me to stick to ritualistic stuff as someone with ADHD/lacking patience in a way, also not liking relying on "greater forces" (I know all forms of magic might not do this, I'd just have to dig for which ones, b ut at the same time I feel like maybe you cannot give power to all of this if you just do quick things ?) Do any of you practice this? Do you actually believe it influences reality around you? Or is it just some kind of fancy self-motivation? If that's the case, why not just...motivate yourself in simpler ways? Or is it just some kind of disguised philoshophy teachings? Why do we (people that have some kind of faith in magic and other occult practices) feel like it's still logical to believe in this rather than acting like we do with other things, in a "Logical"/"rational" way? Shouldn't it be the work of some practictionners to show "proof" that all of this is not just a big roleplaying game/disguised philosophy/psychology? Some people will probably say we don't know everything and science does not either. But in this case we can just suppose anything? What gives an old magic book more legitimacy that me believing there is a flying cat god observing us in the sky? Please not that, as the beginning of my post says, I'm still actually fascinated by all of this. But the fact that I'm trying to tear it appart does not change this, on the contrary. It means that I care (otherwise clearly I'd also not talk about it here, I'd just laugh about how ridiculous practitionners are a self-centered materialistic forum) To finish this post : if you know of any particulary interesting people discussing those subjects online in one form or another (can be woo woo I'm a fairy, or a more dry, skeptic approach), don't hesitate to share.

First : I totally support whatever decision whoever makes. I really do not care and encourage people to be and act however they want. But, I'm quite ignorant of LGBT in general (born in an older generation). I have a few questions maybe some people can answer here. Please, please don't take the first one badly but : - does transexuality come from a scientific reason/malfunction in what is supposed to be a man? (there's variations in femininity and masculinity in everyone, but I also still believe that most men and women have specific attributes and way of seeing things/acting in general) Like, is there any difference in the brain/genes, for people who feel like they're not the gender they're born with? (I feel like it can come from various factors like education, life experience, etc, and maybe this is not one of them, but still, wondering) - I feel like wearing feminine clothing sometimes. I'm not very masculine in my attitude in the traditional sense (see here, I suspect it might be my overprotective mother's doing but I'm not quite sure), but I still do look masculine, with a big beard (I look good with it and 80% more ugly without so shaving is not an option), also now getting older and balding and skinnyfat (currently trying to fix that and getting more exercise), and I can't imagine that it would ever look good on me. Actually, it's not even me, but when looking at 99 % of bearded people with dresses or skirts, it does immediately look off to me. Yet I still really feel like I want to wear feminine clothing and act feminine sometimes. Why do I seem to have this imediate reaction when I see results, yet still want to do it? Sorry, all of this is a bit confused. But if anyone's got thoughts. Edit : adding a question : what does it mean to act feminine ? I want to act feminine but Iknow I don't want to be a woman. Does that mean that the whole picture of woman we have is nurture? I'm pretty sure some female traits are nature tho. But what about feminie gesture, clothes ? I'm quite lost here

As for Facebook and other platforms where people were saying "they're dead", they'd still probably be active. I mean look at FB. Everybody from my generation and after is saying it's shit yet people still use it. People also complain about Youtube but despite the various alternatives, I feel like the number of user and creators there is so big that nobody will ever move somewhere else. And sadly it might be similar for Reddit? I have to admit it's very convenient and my go to for a lot of things. And its power comes from the number of users. (as in, if you want to know something, you just have to see which posts are the most upvoted. It doesn't mean it'll always be true, but this is certainly a way to know some things are better than other in some categories)

Of course I didn't mean it in a bad way. But more as in if there is a norm for male or female, which well, is the case (not saying it's good or should erase everytghing around it, just that it exists), we can consider that certain biological aspects are divergents in trans people. I don't know ANYTHING about science, but like "they have less of this or more of this in their body" or "their brain is wired in a different way than the average stereotypical male" Funny thing is, that the right answer to anything. It actually is. But for people who like to think about things a little bit too much maybe, it's not enough. In the end you have the right idea, but in practice there are things like fashion, physical appearance, and other sets of things we find appealing. Now this is separate from how I feel, and maybe this one should come before the other. So...yeah, maybe I should just avoid questionning (I think it's also a way of slowing down the thoughts of having to show myself in public like that, which I feel like would definitely not be a good thing and even dangerous, even if it's very sad to think about it. I'd feel at ease with my wife and friends, but clearly not with everyone else) Just want to point again the visual harmony/fashion, etc...I think both this and what you say is true. Like, I can like wearing something, but it can just look bad on me. Everything does not need to look good. We need to respect everything but that doesn't mean it looks great from a purely visual standpoint. That being said I love very off looking or sounding movies or music, so I don't think the fact that I have this sort of epidermic reaction to bearded men in dresses is a sign of being close-minded. So yeah, still a bit confused. It is a social construct but also not? I mean, the avergae male and female are more "made for" some things, right ? Of course it's hard to say without living in a society where nobody is influenced, but clearly the biological differences are enough to know the gender we're born with will affect us in most cases ? I might be totaly wrong by the way. Just my current ideas about all of this. Also anyone knows if it has been proven that male and female brains are literally different ? Now this is a very interesting though and I'd really have to work on this. But at the same time, even if I believe this can be beneficial, I also know that it's not everything there is. I think personal taste is very important too.

What's that about tap water being bad? Is it the case in specific countries only maybe? Where I live (France), the water is safe to drink pretty much everywhere and what could be bad in it is said to be in such smaller quantities that it's not dangerous. But maybe I'm wrong, or maybe people doing those analysis are.

Considering the fact that it's included in some of the best diets (mediterranean), I'd say it's pretty healthy in decent quantities (I think it's about 1/3 of the plate being carbs). But even japanese people eat a ton of rice, white mostly I think, and they still seem like a decently healthy population (Not sure what else plays a role in this tho)

I don't get it Of course they need respect? Also I don't get the point in posting if you didn't read? But thanks anyway

English is not my first language so hopefully the title is not misleading. Basically, I mean, I've tried lots of different things in different domains, and also some that I've never tried and want to, but I'm getting quite old, and I'm feeling some kind of huge emotional pain thinking about the things I'm not doing, or those that I've decided to give up on. I might be ADHD (self diagnosed but lots of signs), so hopping for one thing to another might be my curse, but as I'm getting old, it makes me wanna cry how I've accomplished nothing compared to people I know IRL or online that specialized in certain domains. I'm also naturally not "gifted", not very smart, think to quick and I have terrilbe memory, so I really envy smart people.Me, I just know small bits of very trivial things, mostly pop culture, and a tiny bit of some arts like music, videomaking or drawing, but I suck at those. I'm sorry, I'm noticing as I type that I don't know what I'm trying to ask here. I guess I just feel bad that I'm halfway of my life and I don't feel like I can tell who I am, what I do. And the more it goes, the less energy in general I have so it's not making it easier. Edit : I forgot to mention children. Big FOMO here, but if one part of me wants to try and know I'd do my best, the other part knows that sometimes I can barely take care of myself and get overwhelmed at very small tasks so taking care of a baby...very risky. But the feeling of missing out on having children hits so, so hard...

Yeah it's been a long time since he's been teasing other forms of content, but then for some time now he has been releasing older infield videos etc I often find very interesting things in his videos, but having to hear the same stuff again and again and now going back even further is starting to test my patience. I've been so close to click unsubscribe for some months now, telling myself that maybe I've learned everything I needed to from him, but he still has a lot of credit considering everything important he thaught me so I'll wait just a bit more that he finally stops reposting his dating stuff to see what comes next. (and yeah the marketing stuff...clearly he has to do this in some way, but man it's annoying too how he sometime wastes so much time on this)