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  1. Am finishing the video About the example of "being a mad man might be better than living a life stuck in cubicle" Sure, everything is relative But most of the time, for the sake of simplification, I'll take extreme cases, and I believe that what we qualify as "mad" is a person that cannot take care of him/her and is dangerous for them or others. Which lead us back to "is hurting others or dying bad?" Thing is, objectively, no, it's not. Being Hitler is objectively not bad, and I'm not even mad at that thought. But as a living species, we have to decide of a way of living. And if we do want to, well, live, with the least "useful" (as in, the one that makes us make progress) suffering, we can't decide to just die. And we can't decide to let useless suffering happen if we can help it. In the mad man exemple, not commenting on the methods and I think psychiatry does have its share of bad treatment and just numbing people out. But, if we accept that we want to be a living species, and therefore protect life, I think it's not of any use avoiding the idea that healing people (the best we can), protecting them in general, is an idea that could be considered bad. Those ideas about bias are very seductive (I actually do tend to think like that whenever I can), and absolutely true as a way of thinking, and can be VERY useful to understand the world better around us rather than being dogmatic, but at some point we gotta ACT. For our survival. And if we do not want to survive, fine. But for those who do (otherwise, what is the point of life honestly, if you don't use it?), yeah, I think taking decisions that will, on average, make humanity stronger, is good. Not talking about capitalism or tech or whatnot. Those can still be problems to discuss and balance and will leave plenty of ordeals to grow ourselves. But simple survival, and just not killing each others? I'm sure those could benefit anyone that puts his ego on the side, fighting for petty things (yes, even religions and territories) EDIT : the video is still great and useful tho. It is a great way of thinking. But sometimes, balancing things too much I think, may be almost as detrimental as being dogmatic. And I'm the first victim of that. People have always looked at me weird, frustrated, because I'm always trying to balance things out instead of just having a simple unilateral opinion
  2. Am currently watching the video. I really tend to place myself as post-modernist from what I understand, I often really annoy most people with always balancing things and trying to be empathetic to even horrible persons, but I think that being able to think in a fragmented way and seeing many perspectives does not mean some things can't be as we say they are right now on some level It doesn't have to be everything or nothing/extreme in all regards A few thoughts I had while listening : 1) "if you put an elephant in a vaccum you cannot tell if it's big or small" But nothing exists in a vaccum. We don't. Also, this is a data about size, that is not relative. So the comparison to more complex problems, even as a simplificaction, seems wrong 2) Basically we're saying, and I agree, that no country is right. Depends on the perspective. That there is no one truth. But there is. The one truth should be avoiding extinction of living organisms and planets. Avoiding suffering. Therefore, you could objectively say that the best way to do this, is to take simple decisions as sharing ressources, avoiding violence, etc (of course, having an authority strong and connected enough to enforce that, as humans are right now, seems impossible) You can admit that there are many truth. This is actually undeniable. But over those, the bigger truth is that we should get to this general well-being of the livings. 3) Some things, like some aspects of science, have to be true. It doesn't mean that you can't have a lot of fun questionning many many other aspects of life. But questionning that the Earth is round when we have visual proof of it (and therefore not just biased humans point of views) is a waste of time. Go question ghosts, ki, whatever you want after that, but the world we see with our human bodies is this one. (there might be a million more layers to it, but this one layer here, I think we kind of nailed it on some basic aspects) 4) "There are many facts that you will overlook"/being selective about science. Probably. But then, what? Is there even a few valuable exemples to this, where people could actually say "damn, we should really study this, why didn't we think about it earlier ?" 5) you can interpret text differently and that's all that matters in the end. But you cannot deny the intent of the one who wrote it. If they're saying homosexuals should be punished, no matter where this comes from, then they mean it. The "them" that they are at this moment, which is all that matters to describe them as a person when they wanted to communicate something, undeniably wanted to mean this. So why try and say you could interpret that they're actually all for lgtbt or whatnot? There's plenty of space in your head and the world to find the worldview you resonate with about a given problem. No need to try and force other's views about it. I didn't finish the video yet (funny how this advocates against me considering the "we see everything selectively" point of view), so I might be surprised, but I think those aspects of it probably won't suddenly be changed as the video continues. So there's that already. tl;dr is probably : Lots of things have to be put into perspective, but not everything has to. (sorry if this was hard to read, english is not my first language) Not just here to say "Wrong !" by the way, I actually love the video so far, makes me think, I didn't even knew/think about those terms so far
  3. First, sorry for stupid title. I am, by no means, ever going to mock anyone for ANY belief system. But I am personnally in such a dark time that I am considering trying to fit my life into some sort of religious system But as I was contemplating the most discussed ones, I was wondering. What is this? It's just humans writing stories, right? There was never any sign of god. Only confused people, or liars, or whatever made them believe their God told them to write about them. So what point is there in following a religion? I'm starting to think, as I dislike it, trust me, that all of this, if it's not always bad because it cas still be a tool for people to develop, is just a waste of time, compared to using actual science/psychology, etc (and trust me I'm NOT a science guy. I'm utterly stupid and ignorant). For me religion, as it's basically thoughts and stories written by humans, are by no means anymore important or useful than any book or story of any type. I feel like people are taking them so seriously, probably partly because of how old they are, and how blurred and exotic they seem to us. Basically they came first so they're better than whatever system of teachings and development that happened after them. But why? Everything else has, broadly said, evolved ever since it was created (at least in terms of potential, not the use that is made of it, cause of course we have smartphones but clearly the way we use it is not always a step up from earlier technologies). So why is religion this set in stone, sacred thing? Even if we started considering it was real, there is no way to check, right? Who said the persons that wrote the bible were not liars, manipulators, or mentally ill?
  4. I'm just going to snap here cause nothing makes sense a anymore and I can't fight my thoughts and feelings. Ban me if you need to. I don't know what to do anymore. Fuck words. Fuck humans. What are they so proud of themselves ? Words are nothing. Thoughts are nothing. What a joke. All wrong. Something's not right. I've reached an end. Human activities and thinking are not satisfying anymore. My whole soul is itching, there's nothing else to do. I'm speaking like I've seen it all but it's not even that. I didn't. I'm probably the person that have seen and done the less things on this forum. Yet I say all this. But it's true. I feel it, the world is dissolving around me, I don't even know how to explain all of this. I don't matter. I'm sorry. Angry vent. But it has to get somewhere even if it's useless. If you can still feel things and like things, please cherish this. Every second. It seems like I can't anymore and it's the absolute worse feeling. Goodbye. Maybe. Probably. (No worries, no suicide. I'm too weak for that)
  5. Don't put anything on a pedastle.
  6. Thing I've always had like 4-5 things I'm passionate about up to the point I'd want to make it my whole life, but now that's gone...I have never had the qualities to direct a business. I'm too air-headed for that. I don't seem to have the patience or strength for art anymore (that is, beside a bit of playing here and there but never finishing things). My hobbies I still do, but they seem to tire me more quickly than before, I jump from one to the other but never find the practice of those as nice to do as the idea I have in my head or the memories I had from my past.
  7. I have been recommanded medication (sertraline), but due to huge medical anxiety, makes me afraid, knowing there are frequent secondary effects. And, further than that, some people do seem to regret taking them (or other mediction for depression, anxiety or whatnot), cause they didn't felt like themselves in a way to put it simply. Plus hard to get off those I belive? But also, I fell like 1) it's me giving up and being lazy on solving my life And 2) putting a band aid on a broken bone and not actually fix the problems. Kind of like numbing myself to make me believe my life is ok, when there's still (probably) something deeper I need to understand about why my life makes me that unhappy (I am probably hiding something from myself or not realizing my lifestyle is totally wrong for me or something) Sorry, I know the usual answer for depression is "take your medication", so I probably sound very annoying and stubborn (which I am)
  8. My need for success is dead (I gained a bit of fame this past month on social media and it doesn't even feel good so what was it that I wanted this whole time when thinking about this? Also I don't even feel like doing art, I never had anything to say, my brain doesn't work). My need for love too. I barely even want anything. Nothing, even my former passions, feels good for more than 30 mn anymore (and even then I'm still kind of detached) What the hell do I do now? I was wondering if screens weren't playing a role in all of this. I'm basically spending my life on those. But then if I give it up even entirely, what then, read books? Isn't this also just another for of escapism, or being with myself only? Maybe then I become smarter? For what? I don't care about humans anymore. This feels terrible. No desire is the worst. I don't even want to numb myself anymore. I want to be stupid and insensitive.
  9. Bad in a way, I rarely wake up refreshed, and when it happens, my batteries run out quickly, been like that my whole life Doc made me do some test, last one left is for sleep apnea, appointment in...one year I know, but lately it's getting worse and I feel like I have no desire for literally anything
  10. Feels weird to me But I know realistically that's the best chance at this Sadly I don't think so There's also another problem currently (she wants kids and I don't) which is making me question how the relationship is still working, but we do like each other and despite concluding that the only thing we could do is divorce since I'll probably never change my mind about kids, it's so hard to split and none of us wants to do it. I know this is ridiculous...) 44 yes yes (but less than before)
  11. Not sure how to answer this right now cause my brain is mush and my english is bad, but I was never very material or scientific at all Very air headed, emotional, passionate, mostly about art, I guess that's the big picture?
  12. I started dating veeeery late (35) Then got married Now I regret a bit not having had more expérience with women, but even if I wanted now, I couldnt anyway I'm old, not very attractive or outgoing and had a terribly flat life. But I cant help but feel those feels. I love all women, am attractif to all of them. I Ish to have sex With a lot of different women, experience mant strange kinks (some that I did already), and, a bit more shameful, I regret that I will never be able to have sex With young women And this hurts me a lot, because since I was a virgin and alone up until 35, I actually never experienced being with a young woman. Am I just a dirty old pervert that shoumd shir up and has missed his life? I can't help but feel immense regret, that goes further than just sex. This seems stupid but is a huge burden to me and I'm not sure how to fix it.
  13. It is. No question. And it should be freeing. It sometimes is and was up until a certain point. But now it's driving me crazyer everyday. I could try and change my lifestyle. I could divorce, meet new people, find a new activity, but I don't care. What would it change? Humans interactions are always the same. I feel like I've reach the end of my interest for life. But I don't even want to kill myself. So I'm just stuck in this body with no purpose and I don't think I even want one anymore. It feels so bad that I kind of want to try anything to stop feeling like that, but I don't know what to do. I'm going to see a psychiatrist for the first time in life very soon but I doubt he can teach me anything about myself, and I don't want meds cause I have terrible medical anxiety and just thinking back about everything that can happen when taking meds for depression/anxiety/adhd/autism or whatever it is I have, is borderline starting up panic attack in me. Also so many people saying they felt like zombies, they're better off without meds etc. Plus if I get meds as a patch over my wound it doesn't fix the wound. Something must be wrong in my life but I can't figure out what. Or maybe not. Maybe my brain isn't working correctly. Not sure how anyone can help. I'm just desperate (again, but worse every time)
  14. Certainly But I think some tech do have bigger potential than other to change our lives This could easily be one of them, more than crypto (not dissing it tho)
  15. I am dumb but that's not the point. You didn't seem to read my post. But I'll clarify. I was saying to give up if AI scares you so much that you can't find a way around it. Obviously the intent is not literally asking you to give up. It was formulated that way to shake you up instead of complaining that AI is stealing jobs. I also did make the distinction between commercial art and non-commercial art. But anyway. I people to truly love art will find a way of doing it anyway. I'm not worried. It might just become harder. But who cares. It will be very interesting tho to see how humans, and and their art, will end up adaptating around these inescapable changes There are still many different outcomes possible.