Signs and Symbols

When I was coming of age I had a reoccurring dream / sleep paralysis that a hideous witch would come to my bed and cackle. It terrified the shit out of me. But I was hitting puberty, and I was so horny and desperate. One day the witch came to me and I was like, "...hey, maybe you want to hook up?" And this hideous witch was so horrified and bewildered by my lack of sexual standards that she immediately left and never returned.

1. Besides the deleted solipsism video is there anywhere else that Leo has said that he doesn't actually exist as an independent observer other than a projection of my own mind? As in, claimed to not have independent awareness? 2. If suffering (ours and others) is used as buy-in for keeping the belief in reality alive, than why is it that suffering actually is what pushes us to wake up? Wouldn't a god who wanted to keep the illusion going make life better, potentially unending, and filled with comforts, riches, and pleasures?

leo's solipsism video

What is the point to any other discussion other than solipsism? To me it seems that Leo let the cat out of the bag with plausible deniability but that basically that was the end-all be-all of everything

It's so far from what Leo said in his absolute solipsism video. He said that he (and you) are literally just dream figures that go out of existence when I die. Once you hear that, everything else seems pretty dry, honestly

Everyone here who is saying that I should drop it as a belief - I want it to be true, and I suspect it is true, that's why I'm interested. On top of that, Leo has said that it is true, and friends of mine have told me it was true under the influence. So it's not something that brings me misery. I think it sounds like paradise

Yes De Sade Yes that's the video on absolute solipsism I'm talking about.

Two of my friends that admitted that solipsism was true to me in the past, while on drugs... well, one of them is dead and the other slowly drifted away as I got stronger mentally (i was too ashamed to ask him about it in the past). As I got strong enough in my not caring about what other think to actually bring it up to him, he dropped off the face of the earth on social media. I met him in another country I was living in so I don't know his family from the states or anything to contact him. Pretty convenient if solipsism is true. I have another friend that half admitted solipsism to me after a salvia trip gone wrong in which I saw him as an actor in my "play", but he didn't say enough that he couldn't explain it away by saying that he was "too fucked up to know what happened". So I still talk to him but that's no help.

It didn't seem very convincing to me, but he did say those things. As a proof for why personal (aka my, solo) solipsism makes sense. I'm just trying to give as much proof as possible because everyone is like, oh, he meant namaste! our consciousness is the same! lalala No, he said that only I exist (even on the level of ego)

1 - where did he say that? 2 - how is it a paradox? I see how it could be counter-intuitive but not a paradox

So are you saying that you do not have an experience of your own? I have an experience, or at least an apparent experience of my own.

I don't thinks so. He made it very clear, with lots of dramatic pauses and even saying "ta-da!" that the secret of life was that no other bubbles exist at all. That he only acts as if he had any form of awareness or sentience, but that he is a projection of my mind full stop. And it wasn't any kind of Ramana Maharshi-esque "there is no reality happening... including with you". He was taking for granted that it was obvious that I was having an experience, saying that everything only happens to and for and from and by me. No one else has thoughts or feeling or anything like I do. This was well elaborated on.

All of reality is like looking for your lost keys that show up after you give up and call an uber

Bah humbug

The idea that you are there and I am here is the standard Namaste one Christ Consciousness eastern religion thing. I get that. I got that totally. I've read all the books. I read "A New Earth" a dozen times. But that's not what Leo said. He specifically said that it is the case that he does not exist as a separate bubble of consciousness. That my consciousness Bubble is the only one. Of course he contradicted that later. My ego has no choice but to do the spiritual stuff because it's effective at getting what the ego wants. My ego wants good stuff? My ego needs to die. But, that's not what I'm (ego) is interested in. Even if I (ego) don't get the answer, I know the only thing that works: witnessing ego, letting it go, being the pure awareness, being loving consciousness. I get that. Either way, life is a mirror. But I (ego) still wants to know. You claim that you exist and I appriciate that. Most people claim that. But sometimes they don't. The ones that don't are the interesting anomalies to me. So I wonder if Leo has mentioned it elsewhere. Perhaps I'm not going to get my answer until my ego is totally not giving a rat's butt one way or another. Seems the way of the world.

I'm particularly interested because I have (years ago and on various substances) had humans (some friends) admit that they were not sentient, but dream characters. When I returned to sober thinking, they tried to explain it away. So. It's time to know. And yes my real name is a clue: Eric Greene Eric meaning one god forever and Greene being the color of the heart chakra ... Love. My purpose When I was younger, solipsism HORRIFIED me. But I've had a hard life, and now it seems like a pretty sweet deal. I'm ready for the "boring" easy mode video game with all cheat codes on. Yes please. I accept it. I'm sorry but nothing else seems interesting compared with solipsism.

If solipsism isnt meaning that me, the person, is all alone, then it isn't solipsism. It's just normal "namaste we are all one" new age thinking. .... I'm interested in when Leo said (paraphrased, despite the quotes) "you think I have awareness like you. You think you are dreaming me and I am dreaming you. No. You are dreaming me." He also said that to think of it like a computer, and how it would take less computing power to have only one simulation going, so it makes no sense to have 2 simulations going. That my awareness is all there is...not spread out in everyone, but only aware of this current illusion. My personal illusory existence is all there is. He said this stuff, I'm not making it up. That's the most interesting thing anyone has ever said. Now he can backtrack and say oh I meant it metaphysically bla bla Godhead bla bla. That's just spirituality. I'm more interested I knowing if others have awareness or not. And if they don't, and a dream character admits that, well that's important