Sabth

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My creators was at home right now.

2025 ♣️ 31 Dec 2024

God is dead.

I said I am in a cult. And then regretted it because something bad truly happened.

The same force it seems like are following me. 4:14AM

You're describing is as if you’re going to die. heading towards death. Thats my first impression. But after reading your replies i thought you need to smoke still. A sudden withdrawal of your routine. * i never knew that men are intentionally suicidal like killing themselves in front of me. Like eating a sweet thing, i saw this in my dream. Even irl it was meant to kill. actually after i write this it was raining and i would be distracted as hell *this one . It felt like a bait. You're describing is as if you’re going to die. heading towards death. Thats my first impression. But after reading your replies i thought you need to smoke more . A sudden withdrawal of your routine. * *This one , i could go on and on but it felt like a bait. Maybe the ones who are close to me What? Idk what im saying . i would hv explained to you how i was never truly asleep until when im 26. When ive been put to sleep.

And this one , you know like if you're approaching death. Moving towards death. Like no interest in life anymore I was into this a while ago. But now idk what's good anymore. I still find myself in a filthy situation unable to do nothing today. No and it's over for me. It's basically them not wanting to practice the religion again anymore but only I was affected. It's only affecting me and none of them actually this thing goes against their .

Leo is deleting my post so I’m deleting my other four.

Actually something really odd is happening last night. And by writing this it will disappear . Something reeeaally odd. I wonder if it was the biggest mistake in my life. And today what follows through is just I didn't want. I don't wanna add any more new people in my life.

@Someone here Maybe you need to smoke more.

Going through a brain rot right now.

Im afraid , and im doomed. You can say for the past four day (or even more) i just had this exchange of fate/energy/karma. Like i dont even know where it all come from. Imagine having to swapped your life paths with someone Else forever? This, i simply had a dream of meeting someone im supposed to not. 4/3/25 Today and throughout yesterday (night) my world felt very small. 100m am i killing somebody? I said MY world. It was a very small world maybe

It may be happen at 3PM yesterday and now it's 10AM in the morning. By 5p.m I have already felt ok. It is just something like your brain stopped working and you feel pulled. Which happened (more than once) but not as bad. (I've felt worser.) And I know exactly what is causing it.

I'm doomed.

Did they do anything to you in the hospital? Why aren't you able to smell or taste food after having gone out of the hospital? /Healed.

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I dont wanna get married anymore. Even if I do wanna I couldn't. Because the things that is supposed to make it have been destroyed , or died , or no longer working.

⬆️I had the most painful thing ever after writing this. It has been eight hours since I've write this and my mind had been so messed up than it had ever been. Like no others. Probably like until two hours ago. And then I eat , and still do have a troubled mind. All sorts of things that never were there before was messed up in my mind. Like today. Now thirteen hours. "Imagine everything in the world having their own thing. Like if every action or practice contribute to something. It can make someone died or alive. Like the spirits running in you. These things can make me troubled." Edit*All of these I didn't know what* Maybe if I write it it will be imbalance again. No.

5:07AM I wake up to my moms step sibling screaming at me and my brother there was a square like building with the inside courtyard and she's screaming at me because worrying about my national identity card. It's true I hadn't travel for a while and she want me to show my card to some people. On the other end of the courtyard. Idk. Because yesterday I did something with my" mom " when I had thought about separation .

My religion and my mom&dads religion are no longer the same. It might be me whos old fashioned or them. But things that ive never heard before they said.

7:33am Am i in the wrong now? THE FURTHER IT GO THE WORSER THINGS WILL GET. So i saw, me in this room/ in my brothers room . (In reality it was a whole lot nother thing.) i was changing like the mattress or the bedsheet into what was bought recently. My brother was there and he saw me. Others too. In this dream the original look of the room was still the same. The bed and everything else. So i had a queen size bed which was my brothers. Initially in the original room. What had happend is a lot of things. And as i changed the bedsheet there was other men or boys idk and im not wearing clothes just undergarment and i asked them to go out. Before that i guess there was only my gender. And i saw that my mom is buying what i previously bought for myself to her granddaughters. And lastly , my bro tryna give me from the same brand too a pouch and i didnt take it and changed the bedsheet instead. Irl i only had a single bed and didnt wish to do anythting else. And then there was this scene , where some guy was trying to speak my sisters language and they are doing something like a woa that are symbolically not good or are co. And then there was an interviewer and she brought an apple. Literal apple and then there was this old lady who got really pissed off and throw a fight. She was mad. She got offended by it and was mad . That was the end of that dream . In reality i didnt even wanna be here. /stay. This is what happened to me. And it is permanent. Permanent change. Once ive changed or put my foot in something its mine forever no more changes. (They tried to change make the boys room a boys room back or the girls room my room back there is no such thing. This house had been changed in such a way that it would fit six couples in i guess. Because thats what they do . Back then. Each having their own room thats it. Thats what they have chosen. So yeah. And behind this, its between me and my brothers and there was a time when i would have been a little weak or sub compared to him or others so he took my room. So this had been fixed. A fixed thing. Nomore changes. I dont care about what the spirit says. (Because in my dream why did i got this dream where it had been returned to normal? ) or like when it first created. The house. So, the new sheet that i bought i meant for it to be in my new place. Just a little outside my house. and i had those kids following me. maybe this could be prevented if i move out. * In reality i wanna disown them altogether. *this is what had happened to me in reality. They would wanna follow me just for the sake of who knows what like i used to value a pet fish and they wanna do that too and i died and they would not even take care of those. Like following me for fucks sake. like doing it for the sake of who knows what. and would leave it to die. They are greedy for all my thing but as soon as i lose interest on it or give it up they would too. Its fuck .just for the sake of following me. This is why i think i needed those but this is just a reaction. It wouldnt solve the problem. ,maybe they needed to be nuked. This is why i think i needed *censored*. to say that they hv no free will is wrong too because they pick and choose. Didnt follow me in everything. Or have a preference. what am i back then ? Literally sucking my life energy that i didnt have. And i find it tiring. This was back then. And why wouldnt they follow their mom? The fuck. This is why i wanna follow a. 8:17am This is not at all the case yesterday.

" This is what I edited earlier below my post ; What is full truth? Flee. My truth is flee. I wanna flee. In my dream today , which yesterday I had quite a good undisturbed sleep , I saw a lot of things. - my aunt say with their child give her an update (upgrade) like what I'm wearing. I wear a x and a hijab and then there are a few condescending remarks about me and then I went to the back room which had three beds kings and queens and of course (in front) I saw a few a lot of people of different beliefs and views NYC and I saw some a Christian holding a cross and there are a few others. I also dream about school. And I saw my brother and teacher. She didn't wanna meet me or see me . Just greeting without looking at me. And my bro she did. And before that I went like around this school. Like making a round. And I saw that there are some who sold pork and many more. The school isn't I anymore. And who were left aren't many anymore. It was different thing. And I saw that my sister was scorl the prophet. Or , there was a time when it happens. When it's true. And today it is no longer. And in my heart I say you should respect the p. But things are switching up. The only different thing is that now I don't feel like pain or like being pulled like my soul is being pulled from my body or my mind. I just felt a little empty. Or Wide. Or feeling good or okay. You might say desensitized or that now that I am finally "free" free from a lot of things. Not necessarily good but I just felt empty. Idk if danger can be felt more in front . . And then after I write this even though I didn't post it they would react to anything that I wrote and will do it first. They will flee. They will do anything that I said i wanna do. And it has been like this for a long time. This doesn't even taste good. It taste very bad. But I eat it. So different than what I bought. Do I have to regret it now or not? It really doesn't taste good. And will something bad happened to me? "

What is full truth?

I cant remember it well since it was a while ago and everything happened fastly. I cant remember it anymore. There was once when they showed me everything from A to zero just spitting out every perspectives. From a-z. And when 911 happened it is something you hv no control over. I would say even your siblings would turned evil. I think it has something to do with your believe in God.