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And today, I dream that my mom is pregnant. And.. I don't know. My other room, (my original room) I could see that the floor is breaking. The only things that keep it afloat is the pillars. Otherwise, the floor is already falling down. And I told my fam not to sit on it. That it's dangerous. Idk. And so we all moved. After we move, we can see it more clearly. That it's falling apart. In real life I no longer staying in this room and my brother did. And then, there was a time when my bro in law want to get into this room. Idk. But I was in it, so he and my sisters fam, went into my now room instead. I don't know. It was my room. They should only stay in the front room not any of these rooms. But anyway, that's what happened.

I got quite a weird dream. I don't even know where to start or if I even remember it well. It seems like weird things are happening. Who is that kid that's chasing me who told me /asked me to record him or take his picture? Was it my bro? But it is unrecognizable. And I dream of sharing this piece of meat with my sisters. They took it a little too big. I intend to give like a little. My mom is somehow not in the picture which keeps me worried. Now. There was also like a bread,🌮, and they took it. And I saw someone spraying something black along the pavement. Make it black. And I was in this ship, was it a plane? Idk. But the inside seems like it. That's where they took my food. We all had ordered our food. In reality, I didn't eat at all yesterday. I got my p yesterday. And I also my mother's back in the kitchen. It's been a while since I've seen her. (I pitied her). But we aren't done. I started to think it's silly. With no progress. I should hv went to the x as soon as possible. And let them do the work. Let them settled it. But Idk. . Yesterday, I dream of something. I thought I wouldn't dream about them anymore but I still do. Today's freaked me out. I'm afraid, that I'll be cut off. It seems weird and unusual.

I am genuinely not hungry at all. I have told my bro that I don't wanna eat. But my father bought a delivery food.

My father aren't at home. Even though he had assaulted me (and was the cause of all this to happen) , that's between me and him. But family decided to ripped me off instead when I'm not around at home to guard my things . It wasn't me. They choose this.

Well, I don't trust them. No one can be trusted. Those people who are here are the same people who are in the house when my things got stolen. Guess I really had nobody. And you think I would eat the food that they bring me? I'd rather die. Shitty people.

If you see, those things at the back, Those are my diaries.. This is probably the last time ,or even the first time that I ever took a picture of my diaries or my artwork (Nov 5 2021). I don't have any other pic.

Maybe I should have told my bigger family. My aunt and relatives. My cousins etc. About the thief. /The betrayal of the fam. But I doubt that they would be on my side so I didn't. But those things that are stolen some of it was given by my aunt in 2012. There had been many times when I meet them. Maybe my c would be on my side? Idk 😔 I shall remain calm not starting a new again. **This had been quite a while. I woke up today with some dreams. My things no longer exist. Only the ones that I bought after was left. Which is nothing.

When I had decided to abandon (ditch) someone , I really would . Had done it. And of course they wouldn't be under me anymore. I wouldn't care if they look good or not. Or if their minds is good or not. Today I went out of my room for a while. And I was caught by my nieces. Idk. I really don't want them to be into my room. Anymore. Don't want it. But these girls wouldn't let me in without them getting in too. I really don't want it. *Sigh* If I haven't been good with my mom they are nothing. Idk. I don't wanna have any contact with anyone. Especially those related to the thief .

Idk. It probably attracts hundredths of other female followers. Idk what I did in there. I have make it private and still had hundreds more following request from girls. I hadn’t use it for a while. Hadn’t opened it. There was a time when I make it and let it stay for a year without being active. X felt like everyone had their little opinion and I just couldn’t stand it. Really bad. Called a twitter for a reason. I hadn’t been active for a while so I’ve lost a lot of followers.

I actually miss my mom a lot.

I am willing to ditch my family because they steal from me. It is inevitable.

I am feeling so sick. So sick.

Am I really that forgetful? Anyway, I decided to eat. It’s only a one portion meal but I feel like bursting. I’m too used to skipping meals that to eat feels burdensome. Tasting food is good but to eat… Had to suffer 1:04

I won't be eating tonight. If anything I would trust my mom's food better.

I can't be forgetting... .... To do this : It had been two times since this ever happened. I can't be that forgetful. It's automatic. It should be an auto thing. That you just do. But it had been the second time that I see it happened.. (it wasn't me.. ) Did I really forget? I'm sure I didn't. It's either a ghost or someone did it. I wasn't living alone at home. Maybe we should install CCTV even inside the house.

Then don't leave.

At 3 something A M last night my father cook for me. I didn't eat at all yesterday and so I just took it. This shouldn't happen. ... It should be me cooking what I like. I just need the ingredients. Then I can cook at night however I like. And I also needs some fruits. I'd rather eat my own cook than my father's. My mom's is okay but I've stopped for a week now. Just because. ... And I dream, all sorts of things even though not as bad as yesterday's/last night. I don't know. Idk if I've done bad to my father. Or idk. F. Idk. We're in shopping mall. Then there was food. Someone told us to put it in the car. Then we went to the car. Suddenly it's me and my brother driving in his car. Something really dangerous had happened. We got out tracked into the horizon. Nah. Into the borderless body of water. Like in the distance. I believe there was another passenger behind us. I said I would never, wanna ride a car with him any longer. And he said his two friends will. It was just, crazy. The thing that we feared most, to be out tracked , happened. But somehow were back. Or I don't know. Suddenly were in this ground full of centipedes. And I told him not to stop. But he did. Anyway. So I was so close to come into contact with those creatures. The car was open somehow. Then I woke up. I also dream about other thing. I guess, yesterday, last night, I became really low. I had a nightmare with my other sister. Well, it wasn't good. I just hope that everything will went back to normal.

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I want to be a good cook and I'm also craving a lot. But I couldn't cook.

I only like someone's music when it's good.

/Thinking about learning black magic/ I wish to learn black magic. To send it to the people who steal my things. They think they could be me ? Teach me ☺️ 12 September 2024. 12:36PM 👆🏻 Just a thought I had.

I am doubting, if I should eat, or not. *He is the cause. He is the cause that my room was left unattended. For the first time ever. And that leads to my things being stolen. Hell it could even be him. He is even the suspect. Should I still take the food that he bought?

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Idk. There is a weird things that is happening. I guess, this is a few years back, because when I decided to stop my university, my brother just went in. It was like this. He was a bit late for his age. My mom didn't put him in university after high school like we all. And I think it was a mistake . Back then. Like everyone elses would go into university. Like that was his right. Like he's too young to work still. He needed that which everybody got. But he didn't. And start quite late. (But this was years ago and now he had graduated.). And in this dream, the timeline was like that. My mom asked my bro if he really want to. She said it was what he chose. Because he said that it's a little difficult. To pray and to have schedules. Idk. So he get into it. And in this dream, I see my nephew and nieces are all precious. They are still young and like a baby. Playing with each other. They look so cute. I guess this was a few years ago?. Idk. And in this dream, my mom and my bro just came back from doing a volunteering work. Like we open the window, we can see someone from far away saying thank you. Idk. And in this place, in this house , though all the ambience was precious with those little kids growing up/playing, this house was small. That's what I noticed about it. Like my sister bought something. And I see that our toilet is full. Full of things which made it seems like a very little toilet. And I felt like it's suffocating. I see that there are many toothbrush holder and each for everyone I guess? Idk. And then there are many people coming to our house. I don't know what that is. Or what it is. People I know and I don't. But I recognized one person. He didn't looked at me. There are many guys /man who are big. Idk who are they. And it seems like my sister aren't in good condition. I see them being poor. (Idk) Not my first sister. So there was that. And then there was some, sushi? Or something. But this, many guys (one man) asked me if we wanted it? There are many. And I said ok. There are several packages. I don't remember which one I got that have this : there was something in the food. Like a strepsil's pack. A tiny cut of it. And I give to the man . And this man said that this is unacceptable. He is like a man of power? Idk if these guys are a bodyguard or something. But it seems like it was their business. And this dream ended with this guy going out angry. Taking action . Idk. But my things was stolen back then .

My dream right now might be a lil wacky (ghost etc) but I used to dream a lot of great things when I was younger. The moon. Going upward on a stairs. And meeting like-minded people. And when I was a child I used to dream of hovering above the ground a lot. (I wouldn't say that this is a good dream. It wasn't) These are recurrent dreams .