Sabth

Not rare. There are many genius in the world.

I have completed at 47% now. So far, nothing much happened.

Will people get boring after the beauty phase had passed? Like after you have known the beauty, now what? What?. Sometimes I wonder ,: what is the purpose of life? As I watch outside my window , the calm greenery. The moving clouds. Ants.. huh? . *The concert had finished* Time flies.

I really wanna go to Taeyeon's concert tomorrow. Because the venue hold only 3200 seat and so it would means I can see Taeyeon closer. In a smaller group. But, I don't have money, and couldn't buy my own flight ticket so I could only ask my mom for it. But she wouldn't allow me to go. So yeah. It would be good if I could go tomorrow (it's only 2hours flight) and I could buy the ticket tonight. If I had work for a long time my decision wouldn't be on her. Or if I could ask some friend (but I wouldn't). Waiting for the next concert? It's going to be in 3-4years again.

Out of the many faces that I've judged, there aren't many good looking people.

Both my sisters dated someone who's way taller than her. I don't wanna be pro creating short child. But if I somehow have felt comfortable with someone short is it worth it? Or there's many more taller guys in this world? I want someone who's taller than me. Can I just let this one person go? Though there's nobody else like him. But my future, would be with shorties.. It doesn't matter. I think. If it was him. But then my children would not be good looking or pretty. Who knows. It's not like I will consider the replies in this post either way. I won't. I'm just bored..

4:11PM 07202023

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I've already done 16% [with a lot of rest]& already felt exhausted. Maybe it will take days.

I no longer like to be here..

It took me 1 hour 10 mins to finish 10. So it would took me over 10hours to finish 100.

Will something/a miracle happened if I were to read x 100 times? Because I'm bored, I will try to do this .let's see what happen.

I always hold back. There are many people that I miss..

Why hardware? Lol. Architecture..

Studio design even though I'm not good at it.

Maybe if I have a car I can look for work. The weather are nice today.

Making me feel like I wanna contact my high school friend..

Today I saw that all trees had bear fruits. If I were to go to Egypt ,I must cried a lot. And again , the threatening continue. As I escape from taking the med today.

I have an IQ of 140. Back then . During high school. Now idk. But I'm still not working now.. I have taken this test before. Measuring your openmindedness, conscientiousness, extraversion, agreeableness & neuroticism back in 2015. And the person who tested me says I'm different from the majority of the other students (in that uni) mostly they scored low in agreeableness and I scored high in it. I also scored relatively high in neuroticism. Extraversion vs introversion = 60/100 Agreeableness vs antagonism = 58/100 Conscientiousness vs lack of direction = 64/100 Neuroticism vs emotional stability = 65/100 Openness vs closedness to experience = 84/100 And there are several other tests.

Adventurous and dangerous. I saw a hiking video. And it seems very dangerous.

Twenty three years ago, my mom was 35 and she brings us all to Egypt. And we had a trip to all of Egypt. I wanna go back to Egypt.

I may want to live in my own place because there was a thief in the house. .

I'm seriously considering suicide now. My life had turns meaningless. My life had been put to a stop. I couldn't even have last december and have my last year of being twenty six. I couldn't experience Christmas last year and celebrate the new year like literally everyone else. My life was put to a stop. Without my will. I want to die peacefully. There's nothings much left in my life.

I have an old book, a really old book called, (I forgot it's name).

Because I'm bored I watch this a few days ago :