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I look at the job application apps and feel like I'm all new to it. I don't know what to do.

Whenever I looked at this I will remember my grandma. I'm not ready... I wish to go with my mom.

I'm trying to fill up my time with valuable things. 5:14PM Fri June 23, 2023.

D-lite would be in Japan this 23rd & 30th July. For a waterbomb night. It seems like the only time I'll be meeting him. Do you wanna go? But a festival seems like it will be too extreme. I wonder what he'll bring to that festival. What song. It seems like. Idk. I want sushi now.

I want freedom. And independence. To do whatever I want. To drive a car. If having a driver would means freedom then that's also good.. to have a driver..

It's unclean get over it~

Do you have experience in that? I think I want to use my mind more.

A few months ago I was 50 now I'm 53.x . Really don't know what to do. I just want an active life. However that may be. That's like a whole newborn baby's weight. . Today I made burger fried rice. June 20 , 4:58PM.

Time Lapse - Taeyeon, Lyrics translation. It's still the same, birthdays have passed several times I've definitely become a bit more Of an adult , I think Even still, if your name come to my mind Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment I can see you even if everything changes You're still in the same place With the same appearance , you keep making me cry It's still the same , seasons have changed several times The daily life without you now I should be used to it by now Even still, if your name come to my mind Tears well up if I close my eyes for a moment I can see you even if everything changes You're still in the same place With the same appearance , you keep making me cry (Making me cry) You keep making me cry Of course , goodbyes are all like this Memories that were happy because we were together Erasing all of it , tears well up (when I try to forget) Erasing all of it , tears well up On top of the welling tears You flow again , time stops My heart that I tried so hard to keep hidden Quietly raises it's head I call you again with an anxious voice (I call you again) Of course , love is all like this Always the beginning and the end is different , so different Of course , goodbyes are all like this Heart that loved even deeper finds me and makes me cry (Love is all like this) Goodbyes keep making me cry .

Someone gave us this from the beach.

My heart. This is an old film from 2006.

I may want to change my skate size because it's kinda big. And bulky. I gotta down size that. If it's still available in the market. Because that skate aren't typical.

Another old song of when I was fifteen..

First, 100million is too much. I will : Divide it by taking 2.x % out. I'm gonna do the things I've always wanted to do (going back to places). And set a foot there. Buy a house. So that whenever I return I will hv a place to stay. Do all the things I've been wanting to do. Buying a range rover (even though I didn't know how to drive yet) Idk how much money is 100million and the things that I've been wanted to do. Ps. I only need a small car actually. Wouldn't dare to drive a big car. Right now, at this age, I probably need a smaller car. Maybe when you've already had a teenage child. Na. I may not want to buy a car altogether .

This song reminds me so much of 2018❤️

Just me, some years ago.

I'm back. Now, everything seems harder. I tried skating on a big road this morning but to my surprise, it was harder. Than it used to be. Maybe there's changes in my body. Or my confidence. It became hard. And fearful. I was full of fear..

Finally, going to a beach^^ 12:46PM It's going to be a two hour drive.

I wonder if my parents are getting older. Today in my dream it feels like it's getting mixed . With others parents as well. But the theme is parents. I see their kitchen are in bad condition. (In real life my parents kitchen are not, in bad condition.) It feels like a movie. Somehow. And there's others food too. Some people's name are in my dream idk why. It wasn't real. It wasn't real~~

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My stolen artwork. . I wanna live in Egypt. Somehow, I really wanna live in Egypt. 18:22 Fri, June 16, 2023. 06162023??