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Tomorrow I wanna go to the police station to make a police report. Even it has been long (since then). I'll make a police report tomorrow. I don't have a car and am not able to drive. The police station is just around the corner in less than 500m . I could walk but I don't feel confidant to do that. I would have to ask my mom to drive me there. Even though she's one of the suspect. Na . Not really but (idk) she wouldn't wanna bring me just like my father who said it's internal. Idk but I hate him. If my mom too didn't wanna bring I'll walk. It's only 300m. The last time that I went to a police station (I walk) was in another state. I use public transport and walk around. I can't remember for what. But I'm making my passport too. Renew or something. (2018). And my passport is already expiring this year.

I wanna take selfie with every famous person *Gd* *N******I*

The picture of me and my roommate from 2014. And the backdrop is of my diaries . All of which had been (idk what happen to it. /Lost/stolen/gotten rid off/ who knows what).

I would take a selfie with him..

Yes that person. Albert Einstein.

I really wanna go back to university. Rather than doing nothing in life. I really felt so.

Skating. And film making.

I used to be good at video editing but I don't think I could do that for work. And it has been a long time since I last doing it so... It might be harder to start again..

And this : When our house was surrounded by plants.. (2021) These plants, are later being discarded.

I also found something from my roommate in 2014❤️

This is the kinds of writings and diary that I've wrote. I can't believe that we have footage like this. (Thought it was all gone). But this was from my old camera s SD card. Didn't know that there's something in it. It is non functional.

Indeed my camera was a lot better than my brothers or sister. Even though they're model are newer. But my picture quality are way more superior.

Wow. I am now looking back at 2021 SD card.

This is a6000 by my youngest bro. Wow

I haven't make use of my driving license. I have got it since like 2020 but haven't make use of it. It will expire in 3years.

I don't know I really don't wanna live anymore. It feels like my life is stunted. With not anything to do. There's nothing I could do about it. I want a camera so that I could at least do something . I have had a camera since I was twelve until a few years ago. So living without a camera is really a hard thing. Years have passed but I'm still not moving anywhere. I am still the same. Couldn't or didn't make any money even though years have passed. I still didn't buy a new camera. I can only ask my parents for it. I used to have this ; And this ; This might be my next up purchase ;

And I want an only child. If I were to have children I want only one. For a long time. Because many ,you wouldn't be able to give love to that one child or all. It will be chaotic . And your children will be uncared for. You wouldn't be able to focus on all. So I want an only child so that it can be a good human being. All attention is on her/him. If they get enough attention they'll turn out good.

Today, when I play with my nieces I realized that my eyes are no longer good. And I had a hard time looking at the pc. I can no longer do things in a prolonged period of time. My eyes needs rests. I can no longer do hard work. I wish for a life where I no longer strains my eyes. Everyday. I wish.

Yes. I think so too. I've been doing nothing. And that's where I stop. I may have a foundation studies certificate but it got stolen. And I hadn't had a copy of it (since this would be my first time creating a CV) And high school had been a long time ago.

Today, someone whom I followed on Instagram came to my state which is really unusual. Given how far it is. But he came.

I don't know. My father only works we're not close. My mom didn't work. Idk. I want work to fill up my time. Rather than doing nothing.

I had people calling me filling up a survey for a part time job. Where you go to a gas station and pretend to be a customer to fill up a survey. And for each station you go up to you'll get 10$. Idk it just felt like a whole new thing. I turn it down. I apply for a random part time job and got this call.

I'm bored . I wanna be associated with x. 4:29AM

I made a DeviantArt account for the second time after ten years. I've forgotten the first .