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I see others seamlessly transitions into adulthood. And being independent while I couldn't (or don't). How can they do it? And it seems like all my siblings are like this. They couldn't really work a real work. But something like, private teaching, travel agency and business (reselling things).. I don't know. Because that's not like the normal job. Like if you're a teacher then teaching at school. Or something. It's unofficial.

I find this to be totally amazing. It's good to live just simply. Having a house in another country. A quiet place. Even though the place is simple, you have a place completely to yourself. Like an escape.

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I wanna lose weight so badly. But I don't think I can do it on my own without a proper training. The past weeks that I'm dieting and exercising , I don't think there's any apparent changes on my body. Except that I lose just one or two kg. That's all. Idk. I wanna have a toned and fit body. I don't like my body now. This, is my ideal ;

6:54AM 090323 I'm afraid of childbirth and pregnancies.

I hv my nephew constantly asking for my phone. Probably going shopping after this. Need something. And I also think about renovating my room. Make it more customized. Paint it other colours. Idk. I just want to feel good. This room isn't mine I just changed my room sometime this year. So I wanna make it look like mine. This time around.

I'm really eager to work . I'm tired of not doing anything. I want to buy a small car so I could drive everywhere.

Today is already September and I wish I could start something new.

Why would I be in a cabin in the woods? I am thinking of working. One month is a long time I could do a lot in one month. How can I be sure that I'm not wasting those times. Doing nothing. What if I was murdered, in the cabin?

@Princess Arabia I'm twenty-seven~

Then help me create one. What should I study and where should I go? (University) The highest degree that I hold is a pre-university and the degree I didn't get. I'm interested in photography and film making. Other than that, back when I was young, I'm into traditional art. And was able to create a lot. But now, these days, it's hard to make even one. So I've stopped. I don't know if I can start again into making arts. I also like getting into fitness these days. And style.

I don't get free gifts for food it's entirely on my parents. If I work I would be rich because everything else is on my parents. I could spend the money on myself~ But, I don't know what to work....

I'm not studying. I don't know. I just never look for one and didn't know how. Maybe it's where I'm at. But I never work. Will I get work if I moved somewhere else? What kind of job would suit me ?

Or is it still worth it? I'm 27 now. Will I be good? I don't feel like doing this as much as let's say earlier this year. But I still would think, that it's better than not (doing it). What do you think? Am I still capable of doing it at this age? Or will my ability be different now than what it used to be? I don't know. And if I start studying, should I go for oversea? Or local university? This is not considering the cost. Idk.. I hv no idea about the process. It was easier when I finished hs. The path is already laid before us.

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Drink lemon? water. I got sick a few times this year and this had worked. In reducing my symptoms.

This thread is quite old, that I don't truly remember what I've wrote.

I am currently don't know what to do in my path so help me choose on what should be my next journey. Idk what I can do or what's possible for me. I've talked about wanting to go to a university before but my mom said she can't afford it. It had been the case since I was young. so I went to a public university instead of a private. When most of the courses I'm interested in are private. So in the end, I didn't even finish my public university..it was too much. I'm not used to. Even though I've been in it for quite long. (5years) Then I stop. Now I'm thinking of taking a new course again. I'm twenty seven. So idk if it's still alright. I've been doing nothing either this year 2023. I'm thinking of working but didn't know what to work. Or how. To get into work. How can I look for work I'm bored with my life now. Cv. Resume.

@Spiritedness I will.

I was away from my home for over a month and when I'm back all of my things /collectibles are lost.

Tonight, at 12 am , my mom will be back. I regret not following her. Of all the things that I've missed..

I'm gonna describes this very precisely. Tell me what to do in such situation. Of stolen things. Back in December 24th 2022, I was taken to the mental hospital, literally dragged by my family and I stayed there for about a month plus. Up until January 2023. I was doing nothing in the hospital. I got into two hospital (later they changed me to another hospital) where I get some experience being in a ward with other people for over a month. The toilet was public , room was public. Food. Etc. Everything was new. We had to wear their clothes. Sometimes , my mom or others would come to visit me and bring me food, book, and that's just about it. They wouldn't allow me to use cellphone. So I was cut from all my social circles and social medias. I was truly suffering in that regard. And miss everything. After a month, (I didn't know for how long I'll be getting into it, they also do it to me ect every two days for two weeks. Without my will. They are evil. ) I was allowed back. I can't really remember it well. But my mom brought me to a cellphone shop to buy a new one. And when I'm back, there's none. My phone. My original phone that I use in December 2022. There no it. Along with a lot of my other things. A lot of it was missing. And my room was completely changed. (New paints, new king sized bed, otherwise I had a one super single bed) actually I couldn't really remember how it was like before... They had taken me into the hospital for too long. So I don't remember well. But a lot of my things wasn't there. The important things like my centre for foundation studies certificate (2014/2015 session) it was such a good memories and was my only certificate that I'm successful with (I couldn't get the degree certificate as I don't graduate. Only the pre university). And my paintings (self portrait painting) which I put together with it in my 3cupboard. Everything else in it except a few books (a form2 novel book that I bought and a few bibles) are not missing. So idk. I don't know what happened to it. And outside, I put a whole lot of treasured things in my luggage/suitcase. A lot of drawings and paintings and diaries I put there. But it was all gone. Files. High quality files and treasuries. It was all gone. My little piece of gold is gone too. They (my sister who used to live in other country for a short few years who had just come back and live together with my parents despite already having a fam) changed everything in my other drawers. Despite my mom telling her not to do it. It was unnecessary. It was weird. Since it was all my things. But she did that. Changing it in the name of cleaning/rearranging it back together. (But I see that it was messier then before) . All of my precious things are gone. I don't know what happened to it or who do it. It might be burned. It might be thrown away. I don't know. Everytime I told my mother about she says I was the ones who do it . But not realizing it when I was mentally ill before. Which is really crazy because I don't lose my memories neither did I do anything to my things . But this is her repeating response. So I hate her. I don't trust her. She's not helping at all. So my things are gone . My question is, who taken it? Who had gotten rid of it? And for what reasons? Why would anyone do this to me /to my things? For your information , at home when all these happened there are my father, my mom, my sister, and my brother at home. While you could consider, all the workers who paint the room and who made the blinds in room, in. My other sister (whom I'm closed with as we go to university together always) and my youngest brother aren't at home /in the state as they are somewhere else in another state. They are not here together. So what happened? Could you please tell me? And what should I do ? Now.

@Sidra khan but I have pictures of what it was like before and I regained/recollected my memories of it. Of how I left it.

There is a work that could give me $50 a day but initially, you need a lot of money*. To be able to have this work. So idk. If I do it for 3months I would get $4500 plus the 10% commission that would be an okay amount. I could go to x and do a lot more... The ticket price would be $871. . But I don't have that much money to start this work...