Sabth

I can't wait to travel and to make my own video.

I feel old. But I don't have a child yet. Feeling old. That's how I feel going out just now. We used to be little kids going to that shop. It was the same shop all over again. The shop that I buy my first camera Sony cyber shot when I was twelve years old. Now I'm twenty seven. I feel so old. With the people. And everything. My eyesight are no longer as good. I feel old. I am so old. It was a shop that I used to go to when I was young. As a twelve years old. Now I'm old. I feel so old. The other one I buy in 2012. 2008

Today, I upgraded my PC. To 1TB. And I feel like I wanna buy a laptop, for travel purposes. Dell XPS 17 Or MacBook 16 Pro. whatdoyouthink?

I wish to hike : Mt.Kinabalu Mt.Santubong & Mount Sinai. Idk . But these are all really extreme hike.

I feel like my life now are very negative. I don't even explore my own city. I don't work, so there is no routine that makes me go out everyday. I have been staying at home for long. Once in a while I will go shopping but that too is very rare. Or not often. Other than that, I don't go out. I travel once in a while too. Other than that, I don't know what I'm doing with my life. At home. I'm just not doing anything spectacular. How can I change this? I don't drive and would need others to drive me to go out (everywhere) that might be the reason why I don't go out that often. What can I do? I really want to change my lifestyle. Everyday, I'm just watching YouTube videos, not doing anything. And that's it. Sometimes I will get bored. I don't know what to do with my life. While my age are still increasing. I'm afraid that I would do nothing. And waste my time. I don't have plans for the future either. I didn't know how to look for works. This is my problem. Any suggestions is greatly appreciated.

I saw this on Instagram and feel like want to go to Amboli Ghat waterfall. It seems like a nice place.

Idk. My nephew/niece just broken up my PC's wire

Back then ~

The thing that I'm worried about if I'm travelling or if I were to work is prayer. Will it be hard for me to pray? Will there be time given? I need toilet and to ,wear my clothes, it's a little hassle. Idk. These are the things that I'm thinking about. If I were to travel and work. .

She doesn't have money I want to work.... No amount of vids is equivalent to real edu.

I feel like I am trapped, in low consciousness . Like doing nothing. And it kills me everyday.

I have dinner with mom and travels with mom~

The ones that I've seen online, there's really nothing that I can do.... maybe baby sitter. But I don't wanna be changing diapers~ ....

What work do you think suits me? I don't even know what's "work".. Maybe I could do factory work.

?E G Y P T ?? Cairo Mansura Alexandria Marsa Matruh Siwa Oasis Sinai (Mt.st. Catherine) Sharm El -Sheikh Luxor Aswan Abu Simbel

The ticket price would be : 641.51$ I don't know how to plan going there but I have given myself a 40days trip. What I wanna do, it will be up to me. Within that 40days. I hope I can do(&explore) everything. I hope it is sufficient.. and for me to live/stay in my old house for quite a long time (because I miss it..) I wanna stay in that neighbourhood for long. I might as well bought a one way ticket. But na. That would be scary~. I'll go in december-january. The cold season.. Idk how much I would need to stay for this 40days. I would give myself , maybe $1283.01.. (I think it will be less but just to be sure/safe) The ticket price would be : 641.51$ I don't know how to plan going there but I have given myself a 40days trip. What I wanna do, it will be up to me. Within that 40days. I hope I can do(&explore) everything. I hope it is sufficient.. and for me to live/stay in my old house for quite a long time (because I miss it..) I wanna stay in that neighbourhood for long. I might as well bought a one way ticket. But na. That would be scary~. I'll go in december-january. The cold season.. Idk how much I would need to stay for this 40days. I would give myself , maybe $1283.01.. (I think it will be less but just to be sure/safe) I feel like I wanna head straight back to home. If I were to go to Egypt.

I want to make money. But after I've made that post, I watch other YouTubers with million views but the money that they make, are not much. So I can't be sure of it. The things that I want to buy are expensive. Just covering those costs would be enough for me. But in my life, I never had profit yet. So I'm afraid that I wouldn't make it. And where do I get the money? If I could make a loan, that would be okay and if my profit covered those costs , that would be enough for me. Do you think I could covered my costs? And I don't know how loan works. I'm just saying If.. I probably would hv to work first , before I can buy these stuff.. I need about 5300$ to do these stuff. Or maybe more (?) Idk~ Yay my mom said she could buy me a camera and a new laptop. But I wanna make everything using my own money so it doesn't mixed.?

This thing is old. And there are some missing parts. I never lost it if it was in my room. But earlier this year ... hm.. It was expensive thing from SG. I might consider buying a new one. The same thing.

First and foremost, I will make something that I love. Everything. The type of video, the storyline/script/ the aesthetics . It has to be something that I find pleasing. And like. So it's better if everything was private. Done privately. With my own money or my parents so there is no pressure. I can only create something when it's totally free, no pressure. Something like just editing my travel video. If I like it, then it would be great for others. Otherwise I couldn't complete my task.. So I will go to the places that I like (at the moment, I don't even had many places in mind it was just one, place that I want to explore. ) and I will take a long time to do the post editing process. After the footage was done I will go back to my home country and will take a long time to do the post production/editing process. It will be totally according to my taste and how I wanna convey the story. What's important was that I took the pictures and the videos necessary. The shooting process. Once I have explored every places the post production will take a long time. And that will be the fun part. After I've explored everything. And I'm talking about a month or more at one place. After "the project that I like " had becomes successful, (completed) only then I could do it professionally, for others. If they like my style or my video . (Because I don't trust that people would like my colour. ) and what if I make a video that is totally silly? You know.. because I tend to choose my own music too. If they want something like a conventional promo video , like a niche travel vid , I may not be able to do that. We don't know. And I work best with my old camera. But that camera is broken and I don't know if it's still available in the market. When I tried the newer versions I had a hard time learning those cameras. So I need to get used to a camera first and a drone. It would take a while before I could be a pro at it. (I want to buy that old camera over and over again).. Actually it's not really expensive the things I wanna do and the tools that I'm using. But I need to work first. Or take a loan (but my mom said you will have to pay back more than what you take). It will be hard. So I'm thinking again. I want complete freedom in my project. To do as I wishes. Only then , there will be no pressure or expectation. I want to make my own photo book too. But this will take a long time. To see what's suitable. And I need people to foolproof me so that I don't get too carried away~

It won't suffice. I had been a few years with a phone camera and it is like night and days compared to a real camera.

Waah , I found this Yemeni Riyal : And this Omanis Riyal: And Dubai's Dirham?

This is the kind of short intro video that I made back then : What do you think? Lol

This is the backyard. What do you think? Should I hire a landscape architect? Or just let it be so we can plant plants back there.

Actually a car is not a need to me I just wanna practice . Driving in a small car. But otherwise, I couldn't drive.

Yes I know it's a risk