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This thing is old. And there are some missing parts. I never lost it if it was in my room. But earlier this year ... hm.. It was expensive thing from SG. I might consider buying a new one. The same thing.

First and foremost, I will make something that I love. Everything. The type of video, the storyline/script/ the aesthetics . It has to be something that I find pleasing. And like. So it's better if everything was private. Done privately. With my own money or my parents so there is no pressure. I can only create something when it's totally free, no pressure. Something like just editing my travel video. If I like it, then it would be great for others. Otherwise I couldn't complete my task.. So I will go to the places that I like (at the moment, I don't even had many places in mind it was just one, place that I want to explore. ) and I will take a long time to do the post editing process. After the footage was done I will go back to my home country and will take a long time to do the post production/editing process. It will be totally according to my taste and how I wanna convey the story. What's important was that I took the pictures and the videos necessary. The shooting process. Once I have explored every places the post production will take a long time. And that will be the fun part. After I've explored everything. And I'm talking about a month or more at one place. After "the project that I like " had becomes successful, (completed) only then I could do it professionally, for others. If they like my style or my video . (Because I don't trust that people would like my colour. ) and what if I make a video that is totally silly? You know.. because I tend to choose my own music too. If they want something like a conventional promo video , like a niche travel vid , I may not be able to do that. We don't know. And I work best with my old camera. But that camera is broken and I don't know if it's still available in the market. When I tried the newer versions I had a hard time learning those cameras. So I need to get used to a camera first and a drone. It would take a while before I could be a pro at it. (I want to buy that old camera over and over again).. Actually it's not really expensive the things I wanna do and the tools that I'm using. But I need to work first. Or take a loan (but my mom said you will have to pay back more than what you take). It will be hard. So I'm thinking again. I want complete freedom in my project. To do as I wishes. Only then , there will be no pressure or expectation. I want to make my own photo book too. But this will take a long time. To see what's suitable. And I need people to foolproof me so that I don't get too carried away~

It won't suffice. I had been a few years with a phone camera and it is like night and days compared to a real camera.

Waah , I found this Yemeni Riyal : And this Omanis Riyal: And Dubai's Dirham?

This is the kind of short intro video that I made back then : What do you think? Lol

This is the backyard. What do you think? Should I hire a landscape architect? Or just let it be so we can plant plants back there.

Actually a car is not a need to me I just wanna practice . Driving in a small car. But otherwise, I couldn't drive.

Yes I know it's a risk

@Hello from Russia ? I want to buy a car

I want to know if making travel video can make a lot of money? I can't do this I need to find work first.

3:09AM Sun, Sept 10, 23.

If I were to complete my project back then, it would be great. But it's not completed. I've always thought what it would be if it's complete. But I needed, a great amount of time and support to complete it. Which is , impossible for a university course/time..

Idk do I seems like unstable? I have been into a mental hospital earlier this year but a few months back I've decided to stop taking the injection that they prescribed to me every months forever. But I no longer want to take it. Even going there it was by force. It was without my will. They tied me. But I don't wanna have anything to do with the hospital any longer. That's it. I'm fine. I have always been into video editing and had been having a camera since I was young. So it's not something new to me. It I were to do something it would be this. Video editing. I don't know if it will do well. That's why I'm asking. I've never completed a project before. Even my university project. I didn't complete it. So I want to know and I want to see what a complete thing would be for me. I want to see the final product. I want to create something to it's completion. If I have an infinite amount of time . Without a deadline. I wanna see the complete thing. (Editing is a hard thing and for something to be complete it's really a miracle~)

I'm looking at many travel videos but I don't get that satisfaction. I don't see any cinematic/good quality videos of the places that I'm interested in.

If I were to think of something that others can't do but I could, it would be this. Exactly what I could do. I am good at. But I may need others to proofread me or something.

If only, I could know , what to work in my country I'd be more than happy~

I want to buy this car : But my mom says I should work first. And she said she could sent me to work.

I feel like I wanna create a garden on this backyard. (It's big enough that you could built a swimming pool back there). But there are trees and big trees that is too good to be cut down. It has a high value. Oud tree. Good for fragrance. Idk if it can be seen clearly. But this is a backyard from this small middle room. Which I feel like I wanna make another entrance from this room. Creating like a nother patio entrance. Instead of this grill. But idk if that would be good. Because then , this will be another open area that can be broken into.

I don't know.. just going outside my house feels so weird. I feel like I don't like this neighbourhood. It has changed. And I feel like I wanted to renovate the house. The surrounding area. It feels kinda bad. And it doesn't feels like home. Idk. Maybe I wanna create a flower garden. I'm all bitten by mosquitoes ?..

I also want work just so I can do something everyday day to day. So I won't be doing nothing. So that I have a routine. Just like going to school everyday. Like a teacher and student. (high school). Their life are filled.

I just didn't know how to start. Yea it's been months. My dream job is to be a ______ & a _____. But now I'm thinking I wanna be an editor. But just for my own self (I don't wanna do editing work for others). So I wanna edit my own videos. I also like things like editing a magazine. (I've done this before in school like creating our own magazine from scratch. Even writing the whole thing.) I think my dream job would be to make my own video like a documentary series or a travel video. I like these things. But I couldn't start it. When I was younger, all these are organic to me. And even when I was in my university, it was organic. I would make videos. Like a research thing. And it was fun. But now, I no longer had all these.. if I wanna start I would have to be rich first. I don't know how to get a job in editorial. I like everything including photography. Research. Etc. This would be ideal. I would even considered mass comm back then when I consider of changing my course. But now, I also had the scientist in mind. Being a scientist. Just taking a degree in pure science and do it all over again. Like in high school. This might give me a guaranteed path. Like I will just have to follow it and will be successful if I do everything right. Like a path that is already given. But other than that, idk. Which make me took architecture before. Because design work is just like a promising career. And it's the only things I know. Unlike sciences. Which are more experimental. So idk. Right now, I wish I could be like any other person who can do just any types of works as long as it's working. Idk how to do it. Do I go to a mall? Or a supermarket and ask for works? **I've already have a driving license.

I really hv no more passion to create art.

And can we go there? How?

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