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Thanks. I wonder what will be my future job. My money had been constant for long. Nothings changes.

Japan winter. https://youtu.be/QytjUFgcmWw?si=DofKQtXNe0nvySY1 https://youtu.be/flcGCCL5gHU?si=g5ByDj9DrYkNjtjd Maybe going to Japan would be better. It's nearer too. I would have to take 4flight from my place to Yamagata (Japan). The cost would be $1448 for 3flight (return). It's more expensive than if I want to go to Egypt. Egypt is $816.

What does it means , when I see in my dream , a lot of pigeons are being hit by a sword? Each pigeon will get one sword cut through it's body. And there's a lot of it. And a lot of pigeons dies. Idk what this dream means.

https://youtu.be/fb0QX7DbqLg?si=JVkfJ9UishJK-j7E This would be my dream. To have a snowy weather. In New York City. With the people I love. This had been my dream. I've never felt snow in my life. ❄️

When I didn't know what to do, I'll sleep. And that's what I'm doing today.

Today is day 2 and unlike yesterday, my sister/my father cooked. Fried chicken. I dream of many pigeons being killed.

12:58PM | Day 2 | Wed | 25th Oct 2023 Don't Have Anything To Do At home. I'm really feeling afraid of my life now. I need to get myself together. Right now. Soon. As soon as possible.

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24 October 2023, Tue One day went by with nothings much that I'm doing. I just woke up. My father bought me two meals in a day asking for dinner but I'm too full from the two earlier meal. I don't do nothing today. Just woke up, on my phone, eat, and that's only it. I only stayed in my room. I really had nothing to do. Well, at least , a day has passed by. I don't know what to do. I really wanna change my life. But couldn't. I'm stuck. My life is stuck. I couldn't work. I couldn't get my education. Or improve my education. I'm neither married nor getting a child. There's so much that I can do without money/an earning. All the things that I wanna do would need money. That's my dead end tonight.

Will my life be bad and worser from now on?

I started off quite well but right now, I just have nothing. I don't have work, I don't have friends, I don't have education, I don't have A car and anything to do. I am basically alone at home. I have a father. I have a mother. And a sister. But that's only it. We're not doing anything.

This is for my first snow experience. (Though in it I have included Egypt too in it. ) It will be closed in next year. Though I don't know if I'm working and get my own money, it will get a faster results or doing this. I'm just trying. I don't know if it will be successful even. Or why I'm even doing this.

I feel like I'm starting a new journal?. . ??Things I wanna tell my brother. I used to lock everything with a small lock ever since I was a child. In a small luggage (and then big). It was only a few years back when I've loosen my guard and leave it unlock (because I'm home anyway.) So I was with it unlocked. For however long it might be (I felt safe and complacent..) having it all beside me in my room. For the longest time I leave it unlocked. I'd never would hv guessed I would leave home. Or that anyone would take it after a long time into my old age. (Those things are old. Things that I've kept as a child.) Diaries.. drawings, and things that I've kept in a files. Now it's gone. .. I used to keep it all locked in a luggage. Guess I need to do that even when I'm old. Things I would missed a lot would be something I've written in 2016.. there are a few books like that. I will miss it a lot.

Idk if this will work. I don't know why it should. Or why it even exist. Do people really sponsored travels like this randomly? Out of nothing? I don't know why it will work. Or if it will....

Is it safe it I were to walk from my home to the gym 1.6km? Wouldn't I be kidnapped along the way or encounter with dogs? I will be walking at 8 in the morning. Or 7:30a. (Since the gym is open at 8). Will it be dangerous for me? It will be a long a road.

I want to spend my money but my money is with that person. So now there's nothing I can do about it. I need to give him $713 first to get my money back. So now he is withholding my money. Hmm. ...

1. Make yourself available. A lot of people need help, so make yourself available. 2. Figure out what would you love to do to occupy your time, then figure out why you don't have that thing in your life. Then invent it. 3. Instead of worrying about money, worry about having the best grades and best character. Then others will want you to work with or for them. 4. Always plan and always have a backup plan Incase the plan falls through. 5. Never let anyone know your plans.

I don't have money I only see people got money from that group...

I dreamed that, my teacher... Or my lecturers ... Are hunt me down because I took all of my works and submission back with me. I carried it all with me. I unpinned it and carrying it all to the car. I was chased by two male lecturers. One I didn't know of and the other I know in real life. They was so scared of me bringing it back home. After five years, when I came back , (I feel like) I still got criticized with my work that I've done years ago. It's still pinned to the walls. And none of them, none of them allowed me to take it back. Take it all back. But I'm taking it all back.. I remember, my actual works got demolished. We sent it for accreditation but it was gotten rid off by the cleaner. All my works. But in this dream, it was all in an old room. In our studio maybe. And the lecturers was chasing me up to the car. Inside the car. And my family was taking me back home. And inside the car was my father, another male, my mother, my brother in-law and my brother. (Then my sister who came back later). But when I was in the middle of it all (being chased and stopped by this male lecturer who simply wouldn't let me go with my works, as he was holding me, I kicked him. And somehow we break free, with the exception of my brother. And he was left behind. And my father told him/us that we should left him be. My father was pissed. My father said that he is a hypocrite. Because he let them knows about me. About my whereabout. In that dream, the place that I'm running to (the car) was close at home, it was real close and I don't know how we get there. But my mom said it's okay nobody tell them of our address so they shouldn't know, even though we're close. And somehow, when my brother was left behind (from entering the car after he told about me and stop the car) I told my father that he's left and that my father should stop the car. But my father was angry and was saying that he is a hypocrite. But he managed to get into the car anyway and I let him in. Idk why. In this dream .. I don't truly understand what was happening. And on our way back, after we take my sister in, (it was still in my city/state) , there was a police man making a way for a vvip or something. Like there was a super modern car passing by. It's white and nothing like I've even seen before. It's futuristic and very sleek. And it drive passed by us. And then I see two chickens (also a futuristic chicken) with a leash attached to it's neck. On the road. Just simply being. And I saw a person (or a woman) holding on to that leash. They make it as a pet. These birds, or chicken. On the roundabout/road. I saw more in front. So I don't know what these dreams really mean. It was really heart wrenching running out from those people, while holding all of my heavy works. Tryna run away. ... It's still fresh in my mind's eye. .. then there was a ghost? Idk. But in an old house, were all tryin to go back from it. It was like a vacation house somewhere in the middle of the jungle. I meet someone familiar. A neighbour in real life. But the other day, we met him for something. I don't know .. but he appeared in my dream. And my nephew appeared too. Saying something about the "ghost". It's not really a ghost per say but like a big foot. Or idk. The dream was unclear. But it's like a creature. And I keep on being annoyed /frustrated at my brother in law because he keeps on looking at me when I've decided that I don't want my face to be seen by him. So I'm usually wearing a burqa/face veil. But I don't have it that day/in my dream and he keeps on looking at me and I hated it. This dream is just a little traumatic. How everybody from that university was stopping me from taking all my works. It was just , heart wrenching. Like a horror movie. 6:03AM

@universe it was not a pet dog but a wild dog. The kind of dogs that roams in pack. On the road.

I dreamed that, my teacher ... Are hunt me down because I took all of my works and submission back with me. I carried it all with me. I unpinned it and carrying it all to the car. I was chased by two male lecturers. One I didn't know of and the other I know in real life. They was so scared of me bringing it back home. After five years, when I came back , (I feel like) I still got criticized with my work that I've done years ago. It's still pinned to the walls. And none of them, none of them allowed me to take it back. Take it all back. But I'm taking it all back.. I remember, my actual works got demolished. We sent it for accreditation but it was gotten rid off by the cleaner. All my works. But in this dream, it was all in an old room. In our studio maybe. And the lecturers was chasing me up to the car. Inside the car. And my family was taking me back home. And inside the car was my father, another male, my mother, my brother in-law and my brother. (Then my sister who came back later). But when I was in the middle of it all (being chased and stopped by this male lecturer who simply wouldn't let me go with my works, as he was holding me, I kicked him. And somehow we break free, with the exception of my brother. And he was left behind. And my father told him/us that we should left him be. My father was pissed. My father said that he is a hypocrite. Because he let them knows about me. About my whereabout. In that dream, the place that I'm running to (the car) was close at home, it was real close and I don't know how we get there. But my mom said it's okay nobody tell them of our address so they shouldn't know, even though we're close. And somehow, when my brother was left behind (from entering the car after he told about me and stop the car) I told my father that he's left and that my father should stop the car. But my father was angry and was saying that he is a hypocrite. But he managed to get into the car anyway and I let him in. Idk why. In this dream .. I don't truly understand what was happening. And on our way back, after we take my sister in, (it was still in my city/state) , there was a police man making a way for a vvip or something. Like there was a super modern car passing by. It's white and nothing like I've even seen before. It's futuristic and very sleek. And it drive passed by us. And then I see two chickens (also a futuristic chicken) with a leash attached to it's neck. On the road. Just simply being. And I saw a person (or a woman) holding on to that leash. They make it as a pet. These birds, or chicken. On the roundabout/road. I saw more in front. So I don't know what these dreams really mean. It was really heart wrenching running out from those people, while holding all of my heavy works. Tryna run away. ... It's still fresh in my mind's eye. .. then there was a ghost? Idk. But in an old house, were all tryin to go back from it. It was like a vacation house somewhere in the middle of the jungle. I meet someone familiar. A neighbour in real life. But the other day, we met him for something. I don't know .. but he appeared in my dream. And my nephew appeared too. Saying something about the "ghost". It's not really a ghost per say but like a big foot. Or idk. The dream was unclear. But it's like a creature. And I keep on being annoyed /frustrated at my brother in law because he keeps on looking at me when I've decided that I don't want my face to be seen by him. So I'm usually wearing a burqa/face veil. But I don't have it that day/in my dream and he keeps on looking at me and I hated it. This dream is just a little traumatic. How everybody from that university was stopping me from taking all my works. It was just , heart wrenching. Like a horror movie. 6:03AM 7:15AM

Dark forces is like a black colour. It's black instead of colourful. Like a woman.

How to make $100 000? -Chatgpt-

Of course, once in my gated university, I was going back from classes in the middle of the night, and the dogs was out (I walk to my dorm and dogs are always a threat at night) But an international guy growl at the dog and let me run. It was quite early and there are many people. I used to walk late late late at night going back to my dorm. Right now, at my now home I only heard the dogs out at night. But at other times, in this neighbourhood, when I went out to the dobi, there was dogs all around.